What Do You Want From Me

post #415

Finally got this song. A great song, full with emotions...

Adam Lambert - What Do You Want From Me

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah I’m afraid whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
And I would give myself away
Oooh once upon a time I didn’t give a damn
But now, here we are so whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don’t give up I’m workin it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it’s plain to see (plain to see)
that baby you’re beautiful
And it’s nothing wrong with you
(nothing wrong with you)
It’s me, I’m a freak (yeah)
but thanks for lovin’ me
Cause you’re doing it perfectly
(it perfectly)

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn’t even try
But I think you could save my life

Just don’t give up I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep comin around
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)

Just don’t give up on me
(uuuuuuh) I won’t let you down
No, I won’t let you down

(So I) just don’t give up
I’m workin it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up (It messed me up)
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don’t give up I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in, i won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me

Point A Star

post #414

Just wanna write a short entry. Today I listened to Sonora and it never failed me in reminiscing some good ol' songs back from the day. BSB - I Want It That Way. Then it leapt forward and played BSB - Inconsolable. Anyway...won't be writing about these songs, rather, I simply dedicated this entry for Sheila on 7. Yes, I just listened to their song again, Tunjuk Satu Bintang. It's a mellow, slow song. I just love the drum beat, the bass, and melody. I just LOVE it!

Well, it turned out that I already put this song on my previous blog entry, almost two years ago. Here's the link to it, in case you wonder what I was writing at that time. --> My Sassy Girl
Here's to SO7, one of few Indonesian Band which music I really love.

I like the last line of the lyric,

If dreams come true someday
Beside you always, my days are

Because of You

post #411

Hmmmm..... *long pause
I don't have a really clear idea about what I'm gonna write. It's been a while, my passion to write had faded even more. I just know I want to write, but there are just these vague ideas floating around in my head. Ideas that I couldn't really grasp and pour down in this entry.

Been meaning to write in June, but I spent most of it in Bogor, extremely tired to even think about writing. The first month of Go Live was cruel. There were days when I had to work > 24 hours. Yup, that hectic. But just like what Heath Ledger character, Joker, said in Dark Knight...What doesn't kill you only make you stronger stranger.

Several things that I remember in June were the crazy work, last month of a colleague, sleep in a hotel, and Ne-Yo's song, Because Of You. Well, actually I first heard the acoustic version by Sabrina. A colleague played her song and I liked it instantly. It became my theme song during my stay in Bogor. Another big thing happened in June; watching Wonder Girls mini concert (or should I say, mini case) with a special girl.

After June, come July. The memorable thing in July perhaps was just my Mom's bday. Then.....blank...I couldn't recall any outstanding event in July. Series of days just blended into plain month.

Now...I'm drowsy and almost lost for words to write...so let this short entry mark my comeback...at least for now.

Ne Yo - Because Of You

Want to, but I can’t help it
I love the way it feels,
It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t
Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't

[Bridge:]
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

[Chorus:]
And it’s all because of you [3X]
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug

[Verse 2:]
Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time, I’m gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave

[Bridge:]
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

[Chorus:]
And it’s all because of you (all because of you) [3X]
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug

Ain’t no doubt, so strung out [2X]
Over you, over you, over you

Because of you,
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
She’s the sweetest drug, she’s the sweetest drug

Crushed

post #408

And I was crushed....

David Archuleta - Crush

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Nothing On You

post #405

I love this song instantly when I first heard it on Sunday.
Catchy, nice melody!

With Arms Wide Open

post #398

Uncle...hmmm...
I am an uncle now.
I have a nephew....this concept reverberating when I looked at the pics that my sis just uploaded.
There they were, a happy family. Their son added the joy they had as a family.
I was just like...... couldn't really find the words to articulate what I had in mind and heart.
A song popped up in my mind....an old song by Creed. It's dedicated for the vocalist's new born son (at the time)...and I think it fits perfectly....

Welcome to the world, nephew.


Creed - With Arms Wide Open

Well I just heard the news today
It seems my life is gonna change
I closed my eyes, began to pray
Then tears of joy streamed down my face

(chorus)
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open

Well I don't know if I'm ready
To be the man I have to be
I'll take a breath, Ill take her by my side
We stand in awe, we've created life

(chorus)
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
WIth arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
I'll show you everything
Oh yeah
With arms wide open, wide open

If I had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope he's not like me
I hope he understands
That he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
That he can greet the world
With arms wide open

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
WIth arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
With arms wide open
I'll show you everything
Oh yeah

With arms wide open, wide open

Nothing Else Matters

post #397

Just a reminder that today, we won our first match against team 4. Quite miraculously I had to say. We're down one person, five vs six persons...We tried to keep up the deficit by pressing and using counter attack. I wasted a golden chance to score, which led to our first goal. The keeper managed to save my shot, hence corner was awarded. From the corner, an own goal was born.

I was being marked intensively by an opponent player. But after the first goal, the pressure was on the team who had more players. Thus they started to attack more...which made some holes on their defense. And I managed to maximize it by scoring a goal...YEAAAHHH!!!!!!

We held on till half time. Two goals lead was something that we weren't really expected. Wowww....We restored our stamina during first half break and then the second half began. I wasn't being marked exclusively and that made me able to score two more goals.....YIPPPIEEE!!!!

I scored a hattrick. Niceee.....although I was tired...I pushed myself...perhaps it's the adrenaline rush which flowed through my veins that shrugged the fatigue aside...for some moments when there were chances....And it was awesome...I converted those chances into two goals...Too bad I wasted few chances...and in the end the opponent managed to score consolation goal.

Nevertheless...we won! 4 -1 was the final score. Five against six, and we won....

The euphoria of scoring....of winning....there's nothing else matters....
Thank You, God...

Hopefully we can play better, get our 6th player...and win the championship....

As for now...I want to lay myself in this bed of euphoria...

Metallica - Nothing Else Matters

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know, whoa
But I know

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know, whoa
but I know

I never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for things they say
Never cared for games they play
I'd never cared for what they do
I'd never cared for what they know
And I know

Yeah!

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Daddy's Home

post #396

The beat and melody caught me instantly


Usher - Daddy's Home

Usher Baby
I just wanna get your attention
I really wanna be your love in your head
Coz when I got you don’t wanna get some yeah
But girl that’s only if you ain’t scared

[Refrain]
And I won’t knock or ring no bells
You just float bottom up in the air
I’ll get you hot, I know you oh so well
And when I’m walking all that I wanna hear

[Chorus]
Is you say Daddy’s home, home for me
And I know you’ve been waiting for this love in your day
You know your daddy’s home (daddy’s home), and it’s time to play (so it’s time to play)
So you ain’t got to give my loving away
So all my ladies say hey hey hey daddy
Hey hey hey daddy
So all my ladies say hey hey hey daddy
Hey hey hey daddy

I ain’t gotta do a lot of flexes
Shorty you already know what it is
And girl tonight we’ll gonna do a lot of sexin’
Can’t nobody do your body like this
ohh

[Refrain]
I won’t knock or ring no bells
You just float bottom up in the air
Said I’ll get you hot, I know you oh so well
And when I’m walking all that I wanna hear

[Chorus]
Is you say Daddy’s home, home for me
And I know you’ve been waiting for this love in your day

You know your daddy’s home (daddy’s home), it’s time to play (so it’s time to play)
So you ain’t got to give my loving away
So all my ladies say hey hey hey daddy (daddy know what you like)
Hey hey hey daddy
So all my ladies say hey hey hey daddy
Hey hey hey daddy

Poke it on out poke it out right there
I’m a fall back while you work that chair
Do that damn thing let the neighbors hear

Poke it on out poke it out right there
I’m a fall back let you work that chair
Do that damn thing all I wanna hear

[Chorus]
Is you say Daddy’s home, home for me
And I know you’ve been waiting for this love in your day
You know your daddy’s home (daddy’s home), it’s time to play (so it’s time to play)
So you ain’t got to give my loving away
Daddy’s home, home for me
And I know you’ve been waiting for this love in your day
You know your daddy’s home (daddy’s home), it’s time to play (so it’s time to play)
So you ain’t got to give my loving away
So all my ladies say hey hey hey daddy
Hey hey hey daddy (call me daddy babe)
So all my ladies say hey hey hey daddy
Hey hey hey daddy

Hey daddy know what you like yeah

New Year (part 1 of 2)

post #392

New Year, New You...

Was the main idea that I had when writing this entry. Since I had planned to use two songs, I divided this idea into two entries.

Ok let's start with the first...New Year.
Well in the spirit of new year, allow me to invite you to ponder a few things.
New year...I assumed exactly at 12.00 AM 1 January 2010, most of us, wherever we were, according to our respective time zone, embraced the dawn of 2010.

Fireworks, Toasts, Parties, etc were held to celebrate the changing year. Why did we celebrate New Year at exactly 1 January? Would it be the same if we celebrate it (let say) at 1 February? Of course this happened because of a consensus that involved all human race in this world. It could be considered as 'General New Year', since beside this, there were also Chinese/Lunar New Year, Islamic New Year, and so on.

This (general new year) couldn't be separated from our inherited culture of Roman mythology. January was derived from Janus; which in Roman mythology was depicted as a God with two faces, facing the opposite direction. It's believed that Janus also represented time, since he could see to the past with his one face, and to the future with his other. I won't talk much about Janus, I guess you can do more thorough research if you're interested in it.

I'd like to talk about see the past thing.
Some of us might have done this in the end of 2009. We looked back the things we'd done and achieved.
Mistakes we'd made.
Laughter we'd enjoyed.
Love we'd felt, shared, and been given
Moments we'd cherished in our memory.
All these especially during 2009.

Then we reflected.
We reflected all these things, perhaps compared with the resolution or wish list we had set out in the beginning of 2009.
I think it's good to reflect..to ensure we're on the right track of the life we lead.

By looking back and reflecting, we can prepare/plan for tomorrow. For what's ahead.
By reflecting, we look at ourselves and ask this question, "Am I a better person than I was?"
Then we can set out new goals, new plans based on the reflection we did.

So...let's take a mirror and see...do you like what you see?


Christina Aguilera - Reflection

Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday it's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart,

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
Whats inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know

Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time

When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time

When will my reflection show
who I am inside

when will my reflection show
who i am inside (oooohhhh)

Pop Goes My Heart

post #388


Hilarious clip from some guys imitating the 'supposed to be real' vidclip in the movie.


Pop Goes my Heart

I never thought that I could be so satisfied,
Everytime that I look in your angel eyes.
A shock inside me that words just can't describe,
And there's no explaining.
There's something in the way you move, I can't deny,
Every word from your lips is a lullaby.
A twist of fate makes life worth while,
You are gold and silver.

[CHORUS]
I said I wasn't gonna lose my head, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
I wasn't gonna fall in love again, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
And I just can't let you go,
I can't lose this feeling.

These precious moments, we have so few,
Lets go far away, where there's nothing to do but play.
You shoo to me that my destiny's with you,
And there's no explaining.
Lets fly so high, will you come with me tonight?
In your dress, I confess, you're the source of light.
The way you shine in the starry skies,
You are gold and silver.

[CHORUS] Repeat x2

A twist of fate makes life worth while,
You are gold and silver....

Stars in December

post #387

I don't know whether it's because the rain in the morning, or was the pollution in the city getting better (though I highly doubt this one)....but anyway I could see stars tonight. Yeah...when I was about to go home with Elisha, I looked up and......there they were....

The stars were shining, brightly...I could see that...the sky was also clear. Dark, blue, but clear. Wow....I took few moments to savor the view. While my mind levitating, a song from Simply Red filled the air *in my imagination....

What a lovely view

Simply Red - Stars

Anyone who ever held you
Would tell you the way I'm feeling
Anyone who ever wanted you
Would try to tell you what I feel inside
The only thing I ever wanted
Was the feeling that you ain't faking
The only one you ever thought about
Wait a minute can't you see that I

I wanna fall from the stars
Straight into your arms
I, I feel you
I hope you comprehend

For the man who tried to hurt you
He's explaining the way I'm feeling
For all the jealousy I caused you
States the reason why I'm trying to hide
As for all the things you taught me
It sends my future into clearer dimensions
You'll never know how much you hurt me
Stay a minute can't you see that I

I wanna fall from the stars
Straight into your arms
I, I feel you
I hope you comprehend

Too many hearts are broken
A lover's promise never came with a maybe
So many words are left unspoken
The silent voices are driving me crazy
As for all the pain you caused me
Making up could never be your intention
You'll never know how much you hurt me
Stay can't you see that I

I wanna fall from the stars
Straight into your arms
I, I feel you
I hope you comprehend

My Confession

post #386

Another weekday has passed...
Got a new laptop (ThinkPad R400) today and had a lunch with my (now officially) ex-colleagues.... ones I proud to consider not only as co-workers, but also as friends, spent their last day today...Hmmm.....everything that has a beginning, has an end...we may stop being colleagues, but we didn't stop being friends.... I'm gonna miss you guys....

The following song from Josh Groban gave me goosebumps the first time I heard it....the music, the guitar, his voice...and the lyric...it's just awesome....

God, this is my confession...

Josh Groban - My Confession

I have been blind, unwilling to see
The true love you're giving
I have ignored every blessing
I'm on my knees confessing

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place
I can't hide
Now hear my confession

I have been wrong about you
Thought I was strong without you
For so long nothing could move me
For so long nothing could change me
Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am captured by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place
I can't hide
Now hear my confession

[bridge:]
You are the air that I breath
You're the ground beneath my feet
When did I stop believing?

Cause I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart
Falling into place
I can't hide
Now hear my confession
I can't hide
Now hear my confession
Hear my confession

How To Save a Life

post #385

Just really listened to this song yesterday and instantly fell in love with it. The beat, the melody, the piano, the lyric...a very nice one....Isaac Slade's voice was good...
Today I sent emails to the new developers, assigning them their first unit. I could see the look of anxiousness mixed with excite and worry at the same time on their faces.

Hmmm....flashbacks of memories came into my mind...I remembered the first few tasks I had to do was debugging programs...and they were so stressing....there were days when I felt it very hard to go to the office to work. But somehow I keep on holding on to this verse that's forged in my heart.... it's Philippians 4:13... and I did hold on...I moved, advanced...and it all because of Him, who enabled me to stand tall and through it all....

Now the torch is in my hand...time to pass it on to them...develop them...I hope I can do my best...

I would have stayed up with you all night, had I known how to save a life....


The Fray - How To Save a Life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just talk
Smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
She goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Chorus:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
pray to God he hears you
And pray to god he hears you

Chorus

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours, grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Chorus
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life


Chorus 2x
How to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life

My December of 2009

post #383

Well after three consecutive entries without any music...I'd like to take this chance to simply put a short entry, which will be closed by a wonderful song from Linkin Park. But this time the song was sung by Josh Groban.

This is truly MY December...

This line reverberating in my mind...
And I'd give it all away, just to have someone to come home to....

Haven't Met You Yet

post #379

Went to Gadink two days in a row. Well...less that 24 hours to be exact. After hanging out with some friends last nite, went again for lunch today. The breeze that I had felt before came again. But I think this time I was at full guard so the impact was minimum. What am I doing here...babbling about something that I can't really articulate......

Anyway...last nite was great. Had a wonderful time with lots of laughter. Heard a new song from Michael Buble that I instantly liked and searched on the inet after I went home. Good lyric and good music...

And to my surprise, Craig David's Insomnia was played today @ Gadink while I was eating lunch there.....hhmmmmm....Well...work's been catching up with me...dragging me to stay later than I used to....anyway...not much to say...just wanna post Michael Buble's song...love it!


Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet

I'm not surprised,
Not everything lasts,
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in,
I talk myself out,
I get all worked up,
Then I let myself down,

I tried so very hard not to loose it;
I came up with a million excuses,
I thought I thought of every possibility,

And I know some day that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get~ mmm.......
I just haven't met you yet.

Mmmmm ....

I might have to wait,
I’ll never give up,
I guess it's half timin', and the other half's luck,
Wherever you are,
Whenever it's right,
You'll come outta nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazin',
And baby your love is gonna change me,
And now I can see every possibility, mmmmmm....

Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid, I'll give so much more than I get, mmmm....
I just haven't met you yet.

They say all’s fair
in love and war
But I won’t need to fight it,
we'll get it right an',
we'll be united

Instrumental

and I know that we can be so amazin',
And bein' in your life is gonna change me,
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmmmm

And someday I know it'll all turn out,
And I'll work to work it out,
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get.

Oh, you know it'll all turn out,
and you'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get, yeah
I just haven't met you yet.

I just haven't met you yet,
Oh, promise you kid,
To give so much more than I get.

I said love love love love love love love.....
I just haven't met you yet
Love love love .....
So doy day ay ay ay, ay ay yeah
I just haven't met you yet!

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

post #374


Another great weekend has passed. A bit change of plan on Saturday. I had planned to get Elisha her overdue check up, but since mom wasn’t feeling well, I took her to the doctor instead. So the first half day was spent at the hospital. Then the rest of the day was just slumbering and finishing How I Met Your Mother season 1. It’s a great serial…really…

I used some lines from it as my FB status and comments were pouring like rain…lolzzz. Then took a sneak peek by watching the first episode of the second season. Still good ;) Went to sleep was the closure for the day.

Woke up at almost 8 AM on Sunday, took a bath and when I checked my cell, there were already some missed calls from David. I went to the church and boy…it was very crowded. David already waited and we didn’t get seat inside the church. I was wondering for a while…why???

Then it came to me…the archbishop was visiting our parish and gonna serve the mass. No wonder…Then the mass began. Seeing the archbishop was… *couldn’t find any word atm… there’s this aura…man of God (which perhaps was driven my personal suggestion as well)…I wonder how’d it feel if it’s the pope I saw from such close distance…it’d have been breathtaking…

Anyway, the archbishop gave a very interesting sermon. He made a visitation to mark the start of Holy Bible month. He started his sermon with a little bit of history background. About how in early times the bible was translated to different languages by St. Jerome who was fluent in several languages such as Latin, Greek, Hebrew, and Aramaic. And then the Second Vatican Council allowed the bible to be translated to various languages. Later he reminded us to be very careful in reading the bible. We shouldn’t confidently interpret the bible because God talked to each and everyone of us through the one and same bible, yet the message we received might be different. The bible touched us uniquely, affected by our own personal experience. He gave an illustration about three catholic who were in an accident. Each person might see the accident differently. The first person might be feeling it’s a wake up call from God, that the person needed to make amends. The second person might be feeling to cherish the life the person has. To be more grateful.

That’s why it is dangerous if we read the bible and said to our fellows, ‘Hey, here’s what bible told us today. Here’s what we need to do.’ Why? Because the part of the bible he/she read and interpreted was reflected on his/hew experience, which was not necessarily apply for others. Hence, other might perceive different things. We shouldn’t debate over this and let the interpretation done by the authority figure, the church that has been through from the beginning. Well, I don’t really remember other details…but it was sure an enlightening sermon. Perhaps I was mellow, but when I was just moved when I heard…”Hanya rahmat dan kasih dari-Mu, yang kumohon menjadi hartaku” It’s just…moving.

Then I went back home, drove my mom to Gadink then waited for my homies to come @Dante. They came at 1PM, we chatted then went to Cempaka Mas..it was very crowded as well there. Everybody seemed to be shopping for the Ied Fitri day. Met Bowo and we ate @Pizza Hut. After that, we went to MOI to watch Carriers. Standard movie with no explanation about how did it start and the end was an open one. Then we went back home and I continued How I Met Your Mother season 2.

Along the way yesterday, Agus played this song that I instantly like…the lyric was like the man who can’t be moved…I thought it’s about a man who made a stand and stood his ground, negatively, as in deciding to let go of something/someone. It turned out to be the opposite. So here it is…a man who cannot be moved.


The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
saying, "if you see this girl can you tell her where I am"

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

#
Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "Son you can't stay here"
I said, "There's someone I'm waiting for If it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go


#
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
Cause you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved


Cause If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we meet
Oh you see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving,
(Cause If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me)
I'm not moving
(And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be)
I'm not moving
(Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we meet)
I'm not moving
(Oh you see me waiting for you on the corner of the street)


Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move


The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved (Official Music Video)

Never Say Never

post #373

You can never say never, while we don't when time and time again....

A friend introduced me to this song and I liked it right away. Like I mentioned earlier in my previous blog....I've been listening to it lately. The mellow melody really suited my default mood...Later out I found out that it was the soundtrack for Transformers 2. Wowww.... :D

There were some random things I wanted to write....It rained quite hard on Sept 1st....perhaps it represented my mood at the time, and also helped in washing away that unnecessary thing. There was earthquakes on Wednesday....but I still did my job as an MC for the office breakfasting event.

Been watching How I Met Your Mother season 1 since Monday....loved it instantly. Though I was late...the timing was kinda aligned with my current condition...I think. Ted Mosby was a 27 year old, single, cute and (wayyyy too much) overthink architect who lived in the Big Apple with his best buddies, Marshall and Barney. Been watching it till episode 12 last nite...I liked Robin....Ted's love interest in the serial....but wasn't the woman he married in the end :D *Made me curious who's the lucky girl....

Attended first friday mass again today after so long. It felt great....I really love my current working location. Anyway...it's 4 Sept now...time went by so fast....days, weeks, months...flew just like that. In the spirit of reminiscing....The Fray - Never Say Never... I'd never say that I never...


The Fray - Never Say Never

Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
Just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

#
You can never say never
While we don't know when
Time and time again
Younger now than we were before

*
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

Picture you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
Steady your hands

#, *


We're pulling apart
And coming together again and again
We're growing apart
But we pull it together,
Pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x4]


The Fray - Never Say Never (Official Music Video)

Darkness

post #360

Hold on to love...
Change will come...



Darren Hayes - Darkness

Been spending so much time underground
I guess my eyes adjusted
To the lack of light
I got
Covered in darkness
Covered in darkness

Hibernating always waiting for something new
Happiness always ending
In the blink of an eye
There was no one attending
No one attending

It doesn't really matter where it all began
All I know
I got covered in darkness
Covered in darkness
Ever wonder why I never really truly connect
Although my eyes are open
I can hold your gaze
But I am never connected
Never connected

I am famous for my generosity
They say I am the kindest
But it is easier to
Give than receive love
Give than receive love

It doesn't really matter where it all began
All I know
I was covered in darkness
Covered in darkness

Turning pages over
Run away to nowhere
And it's hard to take control
When your enemy's old and afraid of you
You'll discover that the monster you were running from
Is the monster in you

Better to hold on to love
Better to hold on to love
Change will come

It doesn't really matter where it all began
All I know
I was covered in darkness
Covered in darkness

It doesn't really matter where it all began
Cuz all I know
I was lost
I was lost
No, no

It doesn't really matter where it all began no no
All I know
I was lost
I feel lost
Lost
No...

California

post #358

Love is elusive when you search for it




Darren Hayes - California

I got a cottage with a sea view
I got a regular summer tan
I’ve been working up the courage to call you all year, ohhh
There is nothing I can say
There are no good words left anyway
Besides people are cruel
And the world still moves without you, ohhh

Welcome to my Californian home
You don’t have to call me you can leave when you want
There’s a picture by my bed
There’s a light in your eyes
I don’t know
Well I don’t know
Why you still feel alone

And we were dying from the get go
I was dreaming but you never believed
I was trying to fit myself in the spaces between, ohhh
And you were kind and sometimes cruel
You said all the world’s love couldn’t satisfy you
And nothing could have hurt me as much as the truth
Ohhh darling

Welcome to my Californian home
You don’t have to call me you can leave when you want
There’s a picture by my bed
There’s a light in your eyes
I don’t know
Tell me ‘cause I want to find out
Do you still feel alone?

Love is elusive when you search for it
Don’t I know
Happiness sometimes it just creeps in
Don’t I know
I’m going crazy
I’ve been wondering
Do you still feel alone?

I need to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I need to find

I got a cottage with a sea view
I got a regular summer tan
I know that I deserve more
But I still want you

Welcome to my Californian home
You don’t have to call me you can leave when you want
There’s a picture by my bed
There’s a light in your eyes
I don’t know
Tell me ‘cause I want to find out
Do you still feel?

Welcome to my California
(I need to find)
Even though I’m no good for you
(Some kind of peace of mind)
There’s a part of me still waiting for you
(I need to find)
Welcome to my happy ending
(I need to find)
Even though it’s fun contending
(Some kind of peace of mind)
I know
I know you can’t look back, you can never go back

Welcome to my Californian home
You can never go back
Welcome to my Californian home
I know
You can never go back
Welcome to my Californian home
I know
You can never go back
I know I need to find, do you still feel?

Welcome to my Californian home
(I need to find)
Even though I’m no good for you
(Some kind of peace of mind)
Deep inside there’s a piece of me, there’s a piece of me
Still waiting for you to come home
Welcome to my Californian home
(I need to find)
I know you can never look back, you can never look back again
(Some kind of peace of mind)
But tell me ‘cause I want to find out
Do you still feel alone?
Oh nooo
Do you still feel alone?
Oh nooo

Do You Remember?

post #354

Tell me now...
I do remember, but now it's over....




Phill Collins - Do You Remember

We never talked about it
But I hear the blame was mine
I'd call you up to say I'm sorry
But I wouldn't want to waste your time

'Cos I love you, but I can't take any more
There's a look I can't describe in your eyes
If we could try, like we tried before
Would you keep on telling me those lies

Do you remember...?

There seemed no way to make up
'Cos it seemed your mind was set
And the way you looked it told me
It's a look I know I'll never forget

You could've come over to my side
You could've let me know
You could've tried to see the distance between us
But it seemed too far for you to go.

Do you remember...?

Through all of my life
In spite of all the pain
You know people are funny sometimes
'cos they just can't wait
To get hurt again

Do you remember...?

There are things we won't recall
Feelings we'll never find
It's taken so long to see it
Cos we never seemed to have the time

There was always something more important to do
More important to say
But "I love you" wasn't one of those things
And now it's too late

Do you remember...?
(Do you remember? Now it's over
Do you remember? oooo I'm sober)