Wedding Season

post #197

Okay...before I lose the momentum again, I force myself to write...

First.... "Who am I? It's a secret I'll never tell...You know you love me..Gossip Girl...*muachh"
Been watching another (new) teen serial lately. The title is Gossip Girl. At first I was just curious because one of the main cast, Leighton Meester (whose character is a super high class biatch; Blair Waldorf) appeared on House season 3, twice. Her hair was blonde at that time. But it turned out to be a very good serial. The main theme is about the glamorous life of social elite in East Manhattan, while on the other hand there's a family which comes from a lower social class (the Humphreys). She's lovely there, and there's also Blake Lively (her character is Serena van der Woodsen, Blair's bestfriend). This tall beauty who's just turned 20 this year. Man, these actresses rise at younger age....*makes me feel so old... ::cry::
At one of the episodes (well, episodes actually), we'll see Dan's struggle to get and win Serena's heart, how he tried to impress her with a dinner at a fancy restaurant...It's kinda funny and a bit cliche, but still worth to watch 'poor' Dan and 'princess' Serena in their romance tale. Plus...the narator, aka the Gossip Girl is none other than Kristen Bell.... She plays Elle in Heroes season 2....hmmmm....yummy.... a must watch serial (at least for me)... beautiful girls, smart dialogs and interesting story....what more can you ask from a serial???

Second...There was this very funny billboard at Jagorawi toll road. It advertised R****maya, an elite complex?? Not quite sure about that. The funny thing is the tagline : "At R****maya, you feel younger everyday" and there on the billboard, there's a guy, you can only see his back, and there's a young woman leaning on his left shoulder, lots of make up and smiling... The first thing that came on my mind was...yeahh of course you feel younger if you have an expensive villa there plus a mistress.... just the thought of it might makes lots of guys feel younger already...lolzzzz..... I just don't get the idea of the advertisement...what it's trying to say..... Anyway, another thing I found...it's a constant torture to live in Cibubur area and work at (let say) Gatot Subroto or Sudirman...The traffic jam can reach about 12kms from Cawang toll road exit. Not to mention that on special occassion, the traffic jam was already started from Rawamangun...hmmm.....talking about getting old on the road.....;D

Third.... I think it's been a wedding season these last two months. The latest one I attended to was a colleague of mine wedding. It was very nice. The place was spacious, the food was good and the singer was good also. I must say though, among the receptions I attended, the most beautiful bride was the one at Kemayoran. Maybe because she's my type. A little bit of coldness in her beauty, icy pretty.... Hmm...made me thinking about my own wedding (if someday I decide to fully pledge myself to a girl who's gonna be my partner for life)....when will it be? How will it be? I'm not too keen of the fancy wedding. I'm more into simple and meaningful with close friends and families. The first thing to do of course find the bride to be... :p

Fourth...Recent updates...work's been a dull...nothing much to do but conferencing, meeting and waiting for confirmation, and debugging. Joined facebook a week ago I think and it was more interesting than friendster...lolzzz....talked to her again last nite, said what I need to say, gave her my two cents about her condition....It always make my spirit high just by talking to her...darn....Today I had this 1st office meeting in FY08. It was held at Pisa Cafe and from our project I was chosen to perform in a karaoke competition like mamamia (it was named Project Mia instead.. ;D). But voice only had a little portion in the judges score criteria. The most important thing was how dare you humiliate yourself in front of other co-workers... and I must say there are other project members who did it better...way much better... They're very hilarious. At the end, our senior executives performed together. They danced along with SMS song, a very popular song...they were quite good...lollzzz.... and the last, we asked the judges to sing since they really did their job well in criticizing our performances. They sang Peterpan's Menghapus Jejakmu.... I was very tempted to sing along since their voices and tempo weren't a match. There's a mic on the table where I and the other BP project members sat. The mic was intended to be used to criticize the judges after they perform. But I got naughty and I sing along at the last 2 verses...I think my voice was heard more than theirs and my fellow project comrades who recognized my voice instead of theirs were laughing. I think there's no one else realized that I was the one who actually sang.....lolzzz.... it was very thrilling....maybe because my voice resembled the original voice....hahahahaa..... and that closed a fine day......as usual, my last words will be a song. This time it's dedicated for this special uptown girl.....and for the lovable Serena van der Woodsen...

Westlife - Uptown Girl

She's been living in her uptown world
I bet she never had a back street guy
I bet her mama never told her why

I'm gonna try for an uptown girl
She's been living in her white bread world
As long as anyone with hot blood can
And now she's looking for a downtown man
That's what I am

And when she knows what
She wants from her time
And when she wakes up
And makes up her mind

She'll see I'm not so tough
Just because
I'm in love with an uptown girl
You know I've seen her in her uptown world
She's getting tired of her high class toys
And all her presents from her uptown boys
She's got a choice

Uptown girl
You know I can't afford to buy her pearls
But maybe someday when my ship comes in
She'll understand what kind of guy I've been
And then I'll win

And when she's walking
She's looking so fine
And when she's talking
She'll say that she's mine

She'll say I'm not so tough
Just because
I'm in love
With an uptown girl
She's been living in her white bread world
As long as anyone with hot blood can
And now she's looking for a downtown man
That's what I am

Uptown girl
She's my uptown girl
You know I'm in love
With an uptown girl

My uptown girl
You know I'm in love
With an uptown girl
My uptown girl
You know I'm in love
With an uptown girl
My uptown girl

Roles and Responsibilities

post #196

Wanna write this blog since last week, but things were just out of hand and the momentum just kinda fade away as time went by, till today...So many things happened, train of thoughts running through my brain. I can't even remember them all....

First of all, for the first time I experienced a huge problem with my car battery. It just went totally dead on Thursday night two weeks ago. I was like...what the F.... I remember that I did not leave any lights or electrical instrument that might drained the battery. Luckily there were some parking guys and a driver who helped me 'jump start' my car engine....Phheww..... After that incident, I bought myself a jumper cable just for caution.

Got a nice surprise on Friday morning though. She sent me an sms and then called me and we talked for almost an hour. She said that she's addicted talking to me. It seemed like we have endless topic to talk about. Gee....that's a big compliment coming from her. I don't know that I'm that addictive. We might have endless topic to talk about since we haven't talked in quite while. What if we talk regularly, does the addiction still there? Maybe yes...maybe not....Yeah I have to admit it was great talking to her, but I dunno deep down I feel like it's not quite ok, remembering her status. It seemed like I got the role of 'the other guy'.

Which reminds me when I was filling gas at Shell gas station. I looked at one of the guy who worked there...I guess we all have our roles in this world, in this life. But what is it? Do we all know what is our role? Our responsibilities? *blur.... I remember I had this thought I wanna write about this, but my mind's blank at the moment....Lead me to a question, what if we want a role that is not for us? Who defines this role mapping to all of us? Can we exchange roles and responsibilities?
I remember Ko Riko once said in one of our prayer gathering session that (talking in religious context) God has placed this longing, a calling for each and everyone of us at the bottom of our heart. Like a watchmaker who knows exactly how the watch works and which component does what to make the watch works, so does He knows what roles that we play in this (short) life. If it's so, how about the poor? Is it fair that there are poor people? Is it fair that there's famine, war, and lots of other bad things happen?

To be honest, I dunno...I just dunno...I have so limited space inside this tiny head of mine and my knowledge is far from excellent...maybe what I can say that I try to live my life to the best. I don't even really know for sure what role I hold...beside the role as a son, a brother, an employee, a friend...and other roles in the social environment I take part in.....Maybe time will reveal it.....?

Just went to another gath on saturday. Novi came with me, her hair looked different. But the star of the gath was I must say diva, though she only stopped by for a minute. She looked more gorgeous than the last time I saw her, maybe because last saturday her make up was more natural....

Well..anyway...talking to her reminds me of this song by Michael Fredo, Love All Over Again. It's an old song, but after she called me, the reff was playing on my head..dunno why...lolzzz... I tried look for it and finally got it...thanks to multiply. I remember it was very hard for me to get this song. It's been 8 years since the album was released and I just got it few days ago....Hail the internet!! That's a thing when searching for one album wonder artist, needs lots of time and patience....but it's worth it...So here it is...

Michael Fredo - Love All Over Again

My state of mind, my state of heart
You are the reason, you play the greatest part
When you're around me
Oh baby when you're gone it's still the same

I told myself never again
No sleepless nights and days of endless pain
I saw it coming and so I tried to hide my heart away

CHORUS:
Just when I thought my heart was safe
You make me fall in love all over again
No matter how I run, I just keep on falling in love all over again

What is this thing you do to me
Why can't I break away, why can't I just be free
I guess that love is why I can't walk away from you

To you I guess my love belongs
Do with it what you want to
Baby right or wrong
I understand there is no getting over you

CHORUS

I'm not gonna fight baby, I give in
Give in to you now
It's gonna be right because
As much as I tried, girl I can't let you go
No I can't let you go

Fluke

post #195

Whoahhhhh....been thinking about the appropriate title for this post. How long has it been since my last post? Few weeks I suppose.

For starter, this is how I got the inspiration to name this post 'Fluke'. Been watching Smallville season 7 the past few days. Kara was introduced in this season, along with her secret (not so secret if you have read the comic, like me). Lana showed her mysterious (perhaps dark?) side even more. The ending scene of episode 4, Jimmy was breaking up with Chloe. He said that all the things that happened, the earthquake was a fluke. Just like their relationship...it's just a fluke. Darn... Milles Millar and Alfred Gough really know how to build a scene (or maybe it was the director? :D).

Finished watching House season 3. It ended with major surprise. House's team was disassembled. Foreman resigned, Chased got fired, then Cameron also resigned. Can't wait to watch season 4. Meli called me last week. She's in Jakarta till December. Met Angel last week at St. James church. She got her hair cut. Still pretty n pouty. She invited me to go to the parish exhibition, but I had to attend wedding reception so I turned her down.

Work been as usual...caught a pharyngitis on Wednesday plus fever which knocked me out. I had to take a sick leave on Thursday. Sleeping all day long plus eating doctor prescribed medicine put me back on my feet to work yesterday. And now, sitting at the office, need to update some TDs I made.

Need to update Heroes and Prison Break....

Another fluke....my employee's sis passed away and he had to go back to his village. I have to bail out on my futsal schedule tonite...darnnnnnnnnnnn!!!! Reminds me of Tom Hanks' Forrest Gump... "Life is like a box of chocolate...You'll never know what you get"

Here's a song that have accompanied me lately....(maybe it can be dedicated to Chloe..lolzzz)

Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
[Big Girls Don't Cry lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

Just Another Day

post #194

Another day passed. Another week passed. World is still revolving. After Lost, now I'm watching House season 3. Have to struggle to understand the story due to lack of subtitle. Have to listen really carefully to get House's sarcarsm. It's strange since Lia said that on her notebook the subtitle was shown.

Last Sunday went to Hypermall Mega Bekasi to pay a visit to Robert. He's opening a game shop there. Arrived there at around 1.45 PM. Berku and Arleen had arrived there. Yuli was there too. We ate at Solaria and then had some chat. He closed down the store at 7 PM and we watched Resident Evil : Extinction. The theatre was very good (probably because it's still new). Then we stopped by at Robert's house, nice and comfy. We watched his wedding video and then ate chinese food near there.

Then work started again on Tuesday. Deadline was approaching and I had to work my ass off to meet it. Got a fever on Thursday, but with long sleep and Bear Brand milk, I was able to recover on Friday.

Played futsal again last nite. It becomes a biweekly schedule....nothing much...days go by just like that. It just another day...another week...another month...and soon...another year....

Last nite she sent me sms. I was surprised..It was really out of the blue. Hmmm.....you can never really understand how women think....but from all the lessons I've learned...don't read too much into it... it maybe just another sms can mean different on another day.....


Jon Secada - Just Another Day

Morning alone
When you come home
I breath a little faster
Every time were together
Itd never be the same
If youre not here
How can you stay away, away so long.

Why cant we stay together
Give me a reason
Give me a reason.

Chorus
I, I dont wanna say it
I dont wanna find another way
Make it trough the day without you
I, I cant resist
Try to find exactly what I missed
Its just another day without you
Its just another day oh

Making the time
Find the right lines
To make you stay forever
What do I have to tell you

Im just trying to hold on to something
(trying to hold on to something good)
Oh give us a chance to make it.
To make it no no no

Dont wanna hold on to never
Im not that strong
Im not that strong.

I, I dont wanna say it
I dont wanna find another way
Make it trough the day without you
I, I cant resist
Trying to find exactly what I missed
Its just another day without you.

Why cant you stay forever
Just give me a reason
Give me a reason.

One Year Ago

Post #193

One year ago, at this particular holiday I was having my bed rest due to the thypus symptoms. Since I couldn't go out, the only thing I could do was go online, browsing and chatting. I never thought that the event led me to meet and know a girl whom I became close with. We became comfortable with each other and she even confided one of her deepest secrets.

Today, after opened up the store...nothing...well except for blogging. We keep in touch ocassionally. She belongs to someone else now and all I have are fond memories of her, her voice and laughters. Time.....keeps on running....Timing...Maybe we're both just caught up in a moment. Maybe we both were trying to fill our time, just need someone to talk to, someone to share...Maybe....

I still remember the first and ever song she sent me through MSN. It was David Tao - Ai Hen Jian Dan....

I'd like to dedicate this song to you, hunny...


愛, 很簡單(陶喆)
Ai, Hen Jian Dan (Tao Zhe)


忘了是怎麼開始
Wang le shi zen me kai shi

也許就是對你有一種感覺
Ye xu jiu shi dui ni you yi zhong gan jue

忽然間發現自己
Hu ran jian fa xian zi ji

以深深愛上你 真的很簡單
Yi shen shen ai shang ni Zhen de hen jian dan


愛的地暗天黑都已無所謂
Ai de di an tian hei dou yi wu suo wei

是是非非無法決擇
Shi shi fei fei wu fa jue ze

沒有後悔為愛日也去跟隨
Mei you hou hui wei ai ri ye qu gen sui

那個瘋狂人是我 喔
Na ge feng kuang ren shi wo O


I LOVE YOU 無法不愛你 BABY
I LOVE YOU Wu fa bu ai ni BABY

說你也愛我
Shuo ni ye ai wo

I LOVE YOU 永遠不願意 BABY'
I LOVE YOU Yong yuan bu yuan yi BABY

失去你
Shi qu ni


不可能更快樂 只要能在一起
Bu ke neng geng kuai le Zhi yao neng zai yi qi

做什麼都可以 雖然世界變個不停
Zuo she me dou ke yi Sui ran shi jie bian ge bu ting

用最真誠的心 讓愛變得簡單
Yong zui zhen cheng de xin Rang ai bian de jian dan



I LOVE YOU 我一直在這裡
I LOVE YOU Wo yi zhi zai zhe li

一直在愛你
Yi zhi zai ai ni

I LOVE YOU, OH YES I DO

永遠都不放棄 這愛你的權利
Yong yuan dou bu fang qi Zhe ai ni de quan li




如果你還有一些困惑 OH NO
Ru guo ni hai you yi xie kun huo OH NO

請貼 我的心傾聽 聽我說着 愛你
Qing tie Wo de xin qing ting Ting wo shuo zhe Ai Ni

YES I DO 我愛你
YES I DO Wo ai ni



Love, So Simple (David Tao)

I've forgotten how it started
Maybe it was because I had some sort of feeling for you
And suddenly, I realized that I
Already love you deeply, really quite easily

I don't mind love's dark heaven and earth
I can't choose between right and wrong
I have no regrets regarding the love I've already followed
That crazy person is me, oh...

I love you, I can't not love you baby
Say you love me too
I love you, I'll never be willing baby
To lose you

I can't be happier, as long as we're together
Doing anything is okay, though this world is always changing
I'll use my most honest heart to let love become easy

I love you, I'll always be here
I'll always love you
I love you, oh yes I do
I'll never let go of the right to love you

If you ever have any troubles, oh no
Please stick to me, I'll listen; listen to me say I love you
Yes I do, I love you

Sentimentality

post #192


Goodbye Charlie....after a nice three season in Lost and couple of episodes where Desmond's trying to save you, in the end..you cannot evade your fate. But you reallyt did it gracefully, sacrificing yourself for the sake of the other survivors, especially Claire and Aaron.

Just finished watching Lost season 3 yesterday. Finished it quite fast remembering I started to watch it around last week. Very interesting plot from the middle of the season which ended in Charlie's death at the season finale. Hollywood really knows how to build up sad nuance. When Charlie was drowning, the sad piano instrumental playing, making the audience drifted into the scene.

Made me thinking about fate. About that no matter what you do, you cannot run from your fate. Desmond saved Charlie twice, but again he cannot always saves him because nature has it's way to reach it's equilibrium. And when Charlie found out about his death, how he's gonna die, what if we knew when or how we're gonna die? What would we do with the remaining amount of time we still have? Seeking forgiveness? Making amendments? Spending it with the one we love the most?

Speaking about Charlie, in the real life, Dominic Monaghan (Charlie) is dating Evangeline Lilly....darn... Didn't see that coming....too bad he won't be back in Lost season 4.

Been juggling with Heroes season 2, Prison Break season 3 (and Lost season 3 last week). Smallville season 7 is already playing but haven't got the time to watch it. So little time so much to do. Yesterday I also push my self to the limit. After playing badminton for almost 3 hours non stop, I played futsal in the evening for two hours. As a result, now my right arm doesn't feel good, my left knee still throbbing since it's bleeding last nite (thanks to the bad pitch surface). Only managed to score a hattrick, maybe because I was already tired from playing badminton. It's like all energy I have is drained out of my body. But it feels good though, doing that kind physical activity, something I haven't done in a long time. Luckily I have this all sunday to recharge.

In the memory of Charlie, here Oasis, a brit band which one of the song, Wonderwall was sung by Charlie in one of the episode. Oasis...reminds me of my Jr High time, esp with their song, Don't Look Back in Anger


Oasis - Wonderwall


Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day?
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now
And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after an
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

September Song

post #191

Whooaahhhh....September has passed. Last week of Sept went by so fast I haven't got the time to write a closing post. I planned to do so on Sept 30, but there were too many things happened that kept me from doing it.

Maybe it went by so fast because I was so busy making the Technical Designs and the CTP for the programs I developed. After working full throttle for one and a half week, I managed to finish them all, so there were no outstanding TD or CTP that I have to make when I already join a new project.

Last weekend I conducted a little survey to know how far would be to go to the client site which I'd be located for the next 8-10 months. It's quite far, about 30km. The busway(???) development really makes the traffic become more congested (wayyyyy more congested), esp near Gadink and Cempaka Mas.

Yesterday I accompanied my mom shopping at C4 Gadink. It's been a while. C4 was crowded, maybe because Lebaran is coming. I saw a very cute white bunny. It's pink mouth and eyes really made it look more adorable. Well, I think that's a new department in C4...quite appealing, esp for children..:D

I bought myself a pair of Taekwondo (look alike) shoes. I like the color, Navy and Grey. After that we went home,I took a quick nap, saw a message from Jess but I forgot to reply it. Then in the afternoon I went to Artha Gading Mall (again) to hang out with David and Agus. Since there's no Starbucks or Dante there and JCo was wayyyy too crowded, we went to Bengawan Solo instead. After drinking a cup of coffee, we went to Inul Vizta to karaoke since Happy Puppy opens from 8.30 PM during fasting month. We sang some old songs we hadn't sung in a while, one of them is from my all time favorite boysband; Backstreet Boys, Drowning.

I remember this song. Heard it first time 6 years ago, right when Smallville season 1 still playing on SCTV. A year before that, Shape of My Heart was released in their Black and Blue album. Lots of memories with this song, and with Backstreet Boys. Junior High School times; and the three of us have been friends since elementary and jr high. Talking about time goes by so fast, huh?

After singing our hearts out, we ate at McD, the nearest, just across the street. Then we watched Rogue Assassin, standard movie with not too good storyline. Well it only sells Jet Li, Jason Statham and lots of actions. One thing that was interesting was a little twist in the story, plus Nadine Velasquez. We finished watching at 10 PM then we went back home. I guess we all need to get a girlfriend so we can have a triple date, instead of threesome...lolzzzz

Today was my first day on the new project. The office complex was very very convenient. It's like an apartment complex. There's a swimming pool, five apartment...ooopss, I mean office towers and some gazebos. I was like...wowww....it's gonna be an exciting working environment, putting aside the distance from home...

Well, I guess that's all and to wrap it up, here's BSB with Drowning, one of my fave song...

Hidup anak Strada!!!


Backstreet Boys - Drowning

Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you've got the power
To make me weak inside
And girl, you leave me breathless
But it's okay
Cuz you are my survival
Now hear me say

I can't imagine
Life without your love
And even forever
Don't seem like long enough

Every time I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby, I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Every time I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby, I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Maybe I'm a drifter
Maybe not
Cause I have known the safety
Of floating freely in your arms
I don't need another life line
It's not for me
Cuz only you can save me
Oh, can't you see

I can't imagine
Life without your love
And even forever
Don't seem like long enough
(Don't seem like long enough yeah)

Every time I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby, I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Every time I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby, I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
Cuz you're the air that I breathe

Every time I breathe I take you in
(Cause every time I breathe yeah)
And, my heart beats again
Baby, I can't help it (baby I can't help it)
You keep me drowning in your love
And, every time I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby, I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love (hoo, hoo)
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love (got me drowning)

You've got me drowning
Keep me drowning in your love

Baby, I can't help it
Can't help it (got me drowning)
No, no

Cause ever time I breathe I take you in (yes I do)
Then my heart beats again (Oh)
Baby, I can't help it (baby, I can't help it)
Keep me drowning in your love
And every time I try to rise above (got me drowning)
I'm swept away by love
Baby, I can't help it
Keep me drowning in your love