Just Another Day

post #194

Another day passed. Another week passed. World is still revolving. After Lost, now I'm watching House season 3. Have to struggle to understand the story due to lack of subtitle. Have to listen really carefully to get House's sarcarsm. It's strange since Lia said that on her notebook the subtitle was shown.

Last Sunday went to Hypermall Mega Bekasi to pay a visit to Robert. He's opening a game shop there. Arrived there at around 1.45 PM. Berku and Arleen had arrived there. Yuli was there too. We ate at Solaria and then had some chat. He closed down the store at 7 PM and we watched Resident Evil : Extinction. The theatre was very good (probably because it's still new). Then we stopped by at Robert's house, nice and comfy. We watched his wedding video and then ate chinese food near there.

Then work started again on Tuesday. Deadline was approaching and I had to work my ass off to meet it. Got a fever on Thursday, but with long sleep and Bear Brand milk, I was able to recover on Friday.

Played futsal again last nite. It becomes a biweekly schedule....nothing much...days go by just like that. It just another day...another week...another month...and soon...another year....

Last nite she sent me sms. I was surprised..It was really out of the blue. Hmmm.....you can never really understand how women think....but from all the lessons I've learned...don't read too much into it... it maybe just another sms can mean different on another day.....


Jon Secada - Just Another Day

Morning alone
When you come home
I breath a little faster
Every time were together
Itd never be the same
If youre not here
How can you stay away, away so long.

Why cant we stay together
Give me a reason
Give me a reason.

Chorus
I, I dont wanna say it
I dont wanna find another way
Make it trough the day without you
I, I cant resist
Try to find exactly what I missed
Its just another day without you
Its just another day oh

Making the time
Find the right lines
To make you stay forever
What do I have to tell you

Im just trying to hold on to something
(trying to hold on to something good)
Oh give us a chance to make it.
To make it no no no

Dont wanna hold on to never
Im not that strong
Im not that strong.

I, I dont wanna say it
I dont wanna find another way
Make it trough the day without you
I, I cant resist
Trying to find exactly what I missed
Its just another day without you.

Why cant you stay forever
Just give me a reason
Give me a reason.

One Year Ago

Post #193

One year ago, at this particular holiday I was having my bed rest due to the thypus symptoms. Since I couldn't go out, the only thing I could do was go online, browsing and chatting. I never thought that the event led me to meet and know a girl whom I became close with. We became comfortable with each other and she even confided one of her deepest secrets.

Today, after opened up the store...nothing...well except for blogging. We keep in touch ocassionally. She belongs to someone else now and all I have are fond memories of her, her voice and laughters. Time.....keeps on running....Timing...Maybe we're both just caught up in a moment. Maybe we both were trying to fill our time, just need someone to talk to, someone to share...Maybe....

I still remember the first and ever song she sent me through MSN. It was David Tao - Ai Hen Jian Dan....

I'd like to dedicate this song to you, hunny...


愛, 很簡單(陶喆)
Ai, Hen Jian Dan (Tao Zhe)


忘了是怎麼開始
Wang le shi zen me kai shi

也許就是對你有一種感覺
Ye xu jiu shi dui ni you yi zhong gan jue

忽然間發現自己
Hu ran jian fa xian zi ji

以深深愛上你 真的很簡單
Yi shen shen ai shang ni Zhen de hen jian dan


愛的地暗天黑都已無所謂
Ai de di an tian hei dou yi wu suo wei

是是非非無法決擇
Shi shi fei fei wu fa jue ze

沒有後悔為愛日也去跟隨
Mei you hou hui wei ai ri ye qu gen sui

那個瘋狂人是我 喔
Na ge feng kuang ren shi wo O


I LOVE YOU 無法不愛你 BABY
I LOVE YOU Wu fa bu ai ni BABY

說你也愛我
Shuo ni ye ai wo

I LOVE YOU 永遠不願意 BABY'
I LOVE YOU Yong yuan bu yuan yi BABY

失去你
Shi qu ni


不可能更快樂 只要能在一起
Bu ke neng geng kuai le Zhi yao neng zai yi qi

做什麼都可以 雖然世界變個不停
Zuo she me dou ke yi Sui ran shi jie bian ge bu ting

用最真誠的心 讓愛變得簡單
Yong zui zhen cheng de xin Rang ai bian de jian dan



I LOVE YOU 我一直在這裡
I LOVE YOU Wo yi zhi zai zhe li

一直在愛你
Yi zhi zai ai ni

I LOVE YOU, OH YES I DO

永遠都不放棄 這愛你的權利
Yong yuan dou bu fang qi Zhe ai ni de quan li




如果你還有一些困惑 OH NO
Ru guo ni hai you yi xie kun huo OH NO

請貼 我的心傾聽 聽我說着 愛你
Qing tie Wo de xin qing ting Ting wo shuo zhe Ai Ni

YES I DO 我愛你
YES I DO Wo ai ni



Love, So Simple (David Tao)

I've forgotten how it started
Maybe it was because I had some sort of feeling for you
And suddenly, I realized that I
Already love you deeply, really quite easily

I don't mind love's dark heaven and earth
I can't choose between right and wrong
I have no regrets regarding the love I've already followed
That crazy person is me, oh...

I love you, I can't not love you baby
Say you love me too
I love you, I'll never be willing baby
To lose you

I can't be happier, as long as we're together
Doing anything is okay, though this world is always changing
I'll use my most honest heart to let love become easy

I love you, I'll always be here
I'll always love you
I love you, oh yes I do
I'll never let go of the right to love you

If you ever have any troubles, oh no
Please stick to me, I'll listen; listen to me say I love you
Yes I do, I love you

Sentimentality

post #192


Goodbye Charlie....after a nice three season in Lost and couple of episodes where Desmond's trying to save you, in the end..you cannot evade your fate. But you reallyt did it gracefully, sacrificing yourself for the sake of the other survivors, especially Claire and Aaron.

Just finished watching Lost season 3 yesterday. Finished it quite fast remembering I started to watch it around last week. Very interesting plot from the middle of the season which ended in Charlie's death at the season finale. Hollywood really knows how to build up sad nuance. When Charlie was drowning, the sad piano instrumental playing, making the audience drifted into the scene.

Made me thinking about fate. About that no matter what you do, you cannot run from your fate. Desmond saved Charlie twice, but again he cannot always saves him because nature has it's way to reach it's equilibrium. And when Charlie found out about his death, how he's gonna die, what if we knew when or how we're gonna die? What would we do with the remaining amount of time we still have? Seeking forgiveness? Making amendments? Spending it with the one we love the most?

Speaking about Charlie, in the real life, Dominic Monaghan (Charlie) is dating Evangeline Lilly....darn... Didn't see that coming....too bad he won't be back in Lost season 4.

Been juggling with Heroes season 2, Prison Break season 3 (and Lost season 3 last week). Smallville season 7 is already playing but haven't got the time to watch it. So little time so much to do. Yesterday I also push my self to the limit. After playing badminton for almost 3 hours non stop, I played futsal in the evening for two hours. As a result, now my right arm doesn't feel good, my left knee still throbbing since it's bleeding last nite (thanks to the bad pitch surface). Only managed to score a hattrick, maybe because I was already tired from playing badminton. It's like all energy I have is drained out of my body. But it feels good though, doing that kind physical activity, something I haven't done in a long time. Luckily I have this all sunday to recharge.

In the memory of Charlie, here Oasis, a brit band which one of the song, Wonderwall was sung by Charlie in one of the episode. Oasis...reminds me of my Jr High time, esp with their song, Don't Look Back in Anger


Oasis - Wonderwall


Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day?
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now
And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after an
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

September Song

post #191

Whooaahhhh....September has passed. Last week of Sept went by so fast I haven't got the time to write a closing post. I planned to do so on Sept 30, but there were too many things happened that kept me from doing it.

Maybe it went by so fast because I was so busy making the Technical Designs and the CTP for the programs I developed. After working full throttle for one and a half week, I managed to finish them all, so there were no outstanding TD or CTP that I have to make when I already join a new project.

Last weekend I conducted a little survey to know how far would be to go to the client site which I'd be located for the next 8-10 months. It's quite far, about 30km. The busway(???) development really makes the traffic become more congested (wayyyyy more congested), esp near Gadink and Cempaka Mas.

Yesterday I accompanied my mom shopping at C4 Gadink. It's been a while. C4 was crowded, maybe because Lebaran is coming. I saw a very cute white bunny. It's pink mouth and eyes really made it look more adorable. Well, I think that's a new department in C4...quite appealing, esp for children..:D

I bought myself a pair of Taekwondo (look alike) shoes. I like the color, Navy and Grey. After that we went home,I took a quick nap, saw a message from Jess but I forgot to reply it. Then in the afternoon I went to Artha Gading Mall (again) to hang out with David and Agus. Since there's no Starbucks or Dante there and JCo was wayyyy too crowded, we went to Bengawan Solo instead. After drinking a cup of coffee, we went to Inul Vizta to karaoke since Happy Puppy opens from 8.30 PM during fasting month. We sang some old songs we hadn't sung in a while, one of them is from my all time favorite boysband; Backstreet Boys, Drowning.

I remember this song. Heard it first time 6 years ago, right when Smallville season 1 still playing on SCTV. A year before that, Shape of My Heart was released in their Black and Blue album. Lots of memories with this song, and with Backstreet Boys. Junior High School times; and the three of us have been friends since elementary and jr high. Talking about time goes by so fast, huh?

After singing our hearts out, we ate at McD, the nearest, just across the street. Then we watched Rogue Assassin, standard movie with not too good storyline. Well it only sells Jet Li, Jason Statham and lots of actions. One thing that was interesting was a little twist in the story, plus Nadine Velasquez. We finished watching at 10 PM then we went back home. I guess we all need to get a girlfriend so we can have a triple date, instead of threesome...lolzzzz

Today was my first day on the new project. The office complex was very very convenient. It's like an apartment complex. There's a swimming pool, five apartment...ooopss, I mean office towers and some gazebos. I was like...wowww....it's gonna be an exciting working environment, putting aside the distance from home...

Well, I guess that's all and to wrap it up, here's BSB with Drowning, one of my fave song...

Hidup anak Strada!!!


Backstreet Boys - Drowning

Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you've got the power
To make me weak inside
And girl, you leave me breathless
But it's okay
Cuz you are my survival
Now hear me say

I can't imagine
Life without your love
And even forever
Don't seem like long enough

Every time I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby, I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Every time I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby, I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Maybe I'm a drifter
Maybe not
Cause I have known the safety
Of floating freely in your arms
I don't need another life line
It's not for me
Cuz only you can save me
Oh, can't you see

I can't imagine
Life without your love
And even forever
Don't seem like long enough
(Don't seem like long enough yeah)

Every time I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby, I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love
Every time I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby, I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
Cuz you're the air that I breathe

Every time I breathe I take you in
(Cause every time I breathe yeah)
And, my heart beats again
Baby, I can't help it (baby I can't help it)
You keep me drowning in your love
And, every time I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby, I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love (hoo, hoo)
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love (got me drowning)

You've got me drowning
Keep me drowning in your love

Baby, I can't help it
Can't help it (got me drowning)
No, no

Cause ever time I breathe I take you in (yes I do)
Then my heart beats again (Oh)
Baby, I can't help it (baby, I can't help it)
Keep me drowning in your love
And every time I try to rise above (got me drowning)
I'm swept away by love
Baby, I can't help it
Keep me drowning in your love

Wish list

post #190

Lately I've been lingering with these gadgets...

1. Dell XPS 1330 ( around $1600)
Light weight yet powerful, beautifully designed laptop from Dell

2. Ipod Classic 80GB( $265)

Although it's not as alluring as the one which was used as clothes by Marissa Miller, this slim beauty still has its inevitable appeal to those music freaks...such as me...


3. Nokia 6120 Classic and Nokia E51 ( maybe around $350)

I've been waiting for my 3rd (and last) cell phone I'll ever buy...The moment has arrived to say goodbye to my beloved N6600 that has been very loyal to me for the past three years.



















4. Webcam ( $50)

It would be nice to have nice face to face chat with this baby ;p




















5. Italian Jersey and Futsal Shoes ( $36 and $32)

A wonderful memory when Italy won its 4th World title last year. One of the most unforgettable win of course when they faced Germany in the semi final, just a minute away from penalty shoot out, which Italy has not so good reputation at, Pirlo brilliantly slipped the ball to Grosso who scored with a curving shot. And in the midst of their ferocious attempt to get level, Del Piero really silenced Germany fans with his beautiful goal that left Lehman rooted to the spot. Italy 2, Germany 0. Italy went to final and ended up beating France through dramatic penalty shoot out which all Italy players succeeded in finding the net while Trezeguet, France hero in Euro 2000 saw his shoot bounced back from the horizontal bar but unlike Zidane's earlier shoot, it bounced out. ITALIA, Il Campione del Mondo!!!!!! I can still feel the euphoria that time...The adrenaline explosion that rushed through my veins....The smell of victory...so delicioussss






































These items sum up to $2333... :|

Do I need all of them? No. What I need the most is probably the shoes. Darn, this is the problem with human. We always want more...wanting....wanting...wanting....

I wishh....upon a star...lolzzz

Quotes

Post #189

Dunno why I have this urge to write some quotes I have remembered since I found them quite intriguing...

- You can if you think you can
- People do not plan to fail, they just fail to plan
- Women give sex to get love while men give love to get sex
- Women forgive but never forget; Men forget but never forgive
- Between endless hope and hopeless end
- When the going gets tough, the tough gets going
- Don't marry the one you can live with, marry the one you can't live without
- If you cannot be with the one you love, love the one you can be with
- You cannot make someone to love you, all you can do is be someone that can be loved
- An optimist would say, nothing is impossible. A confident would say, impossible is nothing! (Damn this quote is good)

Well...that's about it at the moment
Ermm...reminded me of an email a colleague sent to all personnel in our Jakarta office. After 2 years and 4 months (I still remember it clearly), he will be moving to Accenture office in Melbourne this October. Dang!!! I read the email carefully.... I was drooling..... My mind flew back to January 2002 while I was watching F4 Fantasy Forever concert. I can...can't I?

The 'L' Word

post #188

A little addition to the F words I managed to list on my previous post: File, Figure, Food, Faith, Fly, False, Frozen, Face, Fortune, Faint, Flip, Ferocious, Frown, Facade, Fruit, Fresh, Flank and Futsal!
Last saturday I played futsal again with some friends of mine. Dunno what got into me...maybe it's the emotions I need to express...I scored 6 goals that nite with still injured ankle. It's like arrrggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! But it felt good. After playing, we went to get some food. The 13 of us ended up eating fried rice in front of Gadink Mall. It was around 11 sth PM so there're only few people.... That nite, I slept like a baby.

This week highlights are probably the revelation I had about a girl that has been my cyber friend for more than a year. All this time she never willing to reveal her self (by reveal I mean to let me know what she looks like). I understand she has trust issue and with the history I have with her I thought that she'll only be a faceless friend whom I can have nice chats and exchange thoughts. I didn't know what move her to let me know what she looks like. She even gave me a link to her blog. It took me by surprise....
First I never, even in my wildest dream thought that she would give her blog link. I have asked about it a dozen times (maybe more) and she always refused. I respect her decision and content myself with these chats. My curious (and sometimes annoying) mind asked one question I could think of. What made her change her mind? unfortunately I'm not a mind reader and I quit playing mind games...so I just accept it without 'thorough investigation'....
Second, her pic was really really different with the images I have about her. Images that have been dancing around in my mind. They're all shattered in a moment when I saw her pic. She looked ingenuous, 180 degrees different with what I have expected...a cold, smart, sadistic with a little twist of bithcy-ness...The saying 'look can be deceiving' has proved it's validity once again. Never judge a book from its cover. Problem is.. I've seen the book content all the time while the cover itself still kept in the dark...;p
Third; I read her blog and I can learn more about her. I think from a blog we can read a person's character, how he/she thinks, how he/she perceives this world, this life. We're quite similar. We're both a pdf. I just quite surprised to read some of her posts. Never considered her character like that. She's really something.

Reminds me of Roxette's song that I posted some times ago...
'..and she has kept me wondering for so long...how did thing could go wrong...it seems to me that we are both the same...playing the same game....but as darkness falls this true love falls apart into a riddle of her heart...She's so vulnerable...'

About the 'L' word. Got a few that I could think of, first of all I wanna use Lesson. What lesson have I learned from all this? Persistence? Patience? Hey...it took more than a year for her to finally open up. There's saying from the legendary Godfather movie...True power cannot be given...it MUST be taken.... Well, I've come up with my own saying...trust cannot be given...it MUST be earned. But again like I've writtend in my previous post back then...at the end of the day, it still depends on the person itself whether that person choose to trust or not. There's nothing we can do except prove our trustworthiness.

Life, Live, Learn, Lesson, Lie, Love, Lust, Last, Lost, List, Least, Linger, Limb, Like, Lips, Lose, Loose, Loop, Leap, Lump, Lure, Lurk, Lung, Long, Lot, Let, Lit, Law, Less, Look, Lap, Listen, Length, Leech, Laugh, Lamb, Lamp, Lizard, Light, Lingerie ...

Life...Never ending, lifetime learning lessons...

Anw...wanna say happy birthday to three beautiful girls whose birthdays fell on this week. Happy Birthday to Lorena, Shelley and Clara.. wish you all the best in life...

Last nite I attended a prayer gathering again...after soooooo long caught up with so many things. Sang this song that I almost forget....This morning I also attended a mass in my parish church, after almost two months went to St. James church in Kelapa Gadink. There's a sentimental nuance I felt when I stepped into the church. Maybe I was just being sentimental since I've known and been in this church since I was in kindergarten...or maybe I was just missing the athmosphere that I didn't feel at St. James...

Now I must use my last week on Woodside project to finish all the TDs and prepare for BP project...It's gonna be working like crazy again after this brief moment of blowing off some steam out of my engine... This is for You, my Lord...


Hillsongs - King of Majesty

You know that I love you,
You know that I want to know you so much more,
More than I have before

These words are, from my heart,
These words are, not made up,
I will live for you, I am devoted to you,

Pre-Chorus:
King of Majesty
I have one desire
Just to be with you my Lord,
Just to be with you my Lord,

Chorus:
Jesus you are the Saviour of my soul
And forever and ever I'll give my praises to you,
Jesus you are the Saviour of my soul
And forever and ever I'll give my praises to you,

Bridge:
Jesus you are the Saviour of my soul(echo)
And forever and ever I'll give my praises to you(echo)