Deep Thoughts Trilogy Part III

I begin this post with a little reflection about the events that happened to me in 2005. Lots of things happened in the year of 2005. At the beginning of 2005, I started to work at ETOJ. Watched Smallville seas 3. In February I succeeded in passing the thesis exam with an excellent mark. Livia n Hendra came to Jakarta and I met Hendra irl for the first time. We went to Dufan together and had a great time there. Watched Smallville seas 4. In March for the first time I managed surpassed my sales target. Things went quite steady in April. I got close to a girl but I didn’t go through after some careful consideration. I joined WG in April and became a very active member. In May I attended KRK in PRJ. In June I met this guy I knew from WG. He’s working in Taiwan at the moment. Lots of birthdays in June….started playing badminton. July is graduation month…finished watching smallville seas 4, continued from the smallville that Liv brought me back in February. August is TELKOM month. Got huge deal…and also knew La Forca pool n lounge for the first time…YM was blocked. September…amazing month. Went to a retreat in the beginning of September…met an Angel, became active member in PD. God touched me once again. October, knew Midori..got passport…went to Perth for the first time in my life, an unforgettable experience. It really changed my point of view, opened my eyes. November, still in Perth, when I got back in Jakarta I started to watch DespH. December, finishing DespH, surprise from Grace, work took unexpected change, a rather disappointing changes.

I start this new year by finishing my long postponed trilogy. In this last part I wanna talk a little bit about God. I only talk a little bit coz actually all of my posts after my 2^nd part of this thoughts trilogy have already said so much about God. Do you believe in God? About the idea that there’s a divine power that transcend human minds? About something that way beyond our senses and intelligence to understand? As a person who believe in God, I can say that all the things that happened to me in last year (actually in whole my life) were somehow already been planned by this mysterious entity. All that I’ve accomplished such as graduated with excellent grade and got good job were His gifts to me. I also believe He’s the one who allowed me to make a passport, get a visa and fly to Perth in just 3 weeks time. Looking from the eyes of a non-believer they would say that they’re all luck, nothing else. I’ve learned many things last year, experienced new things that helped me to grow to be a better person. I believe all the little things that have happened are parts of a beautiful plan in my life. The problem is I haven’t got any clue where they lead me. I always think that there’s something more to life. We all search for happiness. We all play a role in our life. Does a person who has all the money in the world happy? Does a person who’s famous and adored by lots of people happy? I don’t know. I just know that there are something missing, even when we get it all. Last Friday I went to prayer community in my church and I felt this joy, a different kind of joy that I can’t find in other places. I believe we all need balance in our life, not just pursuing materials, but we also have needs concerning our spiritual side, whether we’re believe in God or not. I’m gonna make this short coz it will be a never ending debate if we want to talk about the existence of God. I prefer to say that it’s a matter of choice, which I really respect. Coz I think morality doesn’t depend on whether you believe in God or not. If you choose to believe, then He really exists. If you choose not to believe then no matter who’s telling you or what proof given to you, for you, He just don’t exist. The question is now, what do you believe?

Affirmation by Savage Garden

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye(Repeat 2)