In a rush

I’m so tired of being here…

That’s the first line of Evanescence’s My Immortal. Actually I wanted to write this blog since Friday but I haven’t got the time to do it, till now. I’ve been always in a rush these last three days. It’s exhausting and infuriating. Maybe because I have this tendency to do things as fast as I can, coz there’s so much to do, while I only have 24 hours a day. I feel that I become more impatience lately and maybe I don’t have something to channel this negative emotion….I’ve been a driver for my sis these days. Picking and driving her from and to the airport. I always race against the time, trying to do all the things I need to do. My schedule was very very tight, too many activities.

Friday I rushed to attend the Confirmation sacrament preparation, then I rushed to Bank Mandiri to pay the internet bill coz only Bank Mandiri has an agreement with TELKOM for the internet payment. Then I rushed again to Mangga Dua to but IDE to USB connector. At least at Mangga Dua I got something that cheer me up. Smallville and 24 5th season DVDs were already available there. I bought them along with Munich and Match Point. Then I rushed home and tried the DVDs, then rushed to the church to attend group pray. Then went to store. After I got back home, I was to tired to write a blog, coz I also had to sleep early.

Saturday I played badminton, after three weeks absence. Then I rushed to the airport at 10.30 AM to pick up my sis. Picking her up at 12.15 PM, then rushed back home coz I had to attend Praise n Worship Seminar at 1 PM. Arrived at home at 12.50 PM (you can imagine how fast I drove….). Rushed to the church and attended the seminar. Well, in the middle of the seminar, Angel came. When I saw her, my heart jumped (I borrowed Scott’s sentence… ;p). She’s adorable, as usual. Talked to her during the break. Too bad she’s too young, still immature. We have different perspective, but anyway she’s still attractive…. My encounter with Angel reminded me of BSB’s song, Poster Girl….she’s really a poster girl…..still childish….well..it’s normal for a girl her age. Well she said she didn’t know with who she’d go home, so as a good gesture I offered her a ride. So after the seminar day 1 finished, I rushed back home, got Elisha and then went to church to give her a ride home. Then I rushed back home again, changed my clothes and went back to church to attend another group prayer. Again I was too tired to write a blog last nite…it’d been exhausting day…esp plus the badminton…though I only played for two hours.

BSB - Poster Girl

Yeah,yeah, yeah

Julie was a long way from home
She could make alone look pretty
Her attitude made a part of her landscape
Riding her bike through Alphabet City
She likes to party in the backseat
Under the bridge on the Brooklyn side
Smoking cigarettes in the afterglow
Taking bets that the sun won't rise

She said, "What good is tomorrow without a guarantee?"
She can lick her lips and smile
And make you wanna believe

Chorus:
That the consequences of your actions really are just a game
That your life is just a chain reaction taking you day by day
She says nothing's forever in this crazy world
Still I'm falling in love with the right now poster girl

Right now right now
Oooh
Oh, ohh

Julie liked to shop lift in stores
Ride alongside the rich and famous
Get in elevators, press 'emergency stop'
And make love on the floor 'til the camera made us
And no woman in the world ever made me feel like my heart's on fire
Where she'd walk I'd follow (follow)
When she left I cried

What good is tomorrow without a guarantee?
I was wrapped around her finger
and I began to believe

Chorus twice

La la la la
La la la la
La la la la la (la la la la la)
La la la la
La la la la (la la la la)
La la la la la

Bridge:
Oh
Tell me what you want from me
I've got everything you need
It's getting hard for me to breathe
Let me be your guarantee

Chorus twice

Right now, right now
Right now, ohhh ohh
Poster girl
Poster girl, yeah
Come on, come on, yeah



Last nite had interesting chats with WGers. Also posted quite much on WG…As a result, today I woke up at 10.40 AM.. I quickly took a bath, ate breakfast and went to church to attend the seminar day 2. Angel didn’t came…but Rhea was there all day along (she went back earlier on Saturday). Rhea was another girl that caught my eyes (finally know her name from her name tag…lol). She’s the keyboardist and she has this appeal… I think I had seen her before but I forgot where.. Talked to her a lil bit at lunch time. Unfortunately I had to go before the seminar finish coz I had to drive my sis to the airport. I rushed to the airport and the rushed back again to church (it took me about an hour to go to the airport and back to church..I drove like there’s no tomorrow) n the weather didn’t support me. It rained quite hard near the airport. Arrived at church at 7.10 PM, but the seminar was long finished. So I joined the group prayer.

I think my rushing days are over. I really need more patience…God help me… (hey I just remember, I think I copied Mel’s words…about the more patience). I’m reading Stephen R. Covey’s 7 habits of highly effective people, and I think one of my stress sources is that I have too many things to do. That’s the one that make me always in a rush. It has nothing to do with my time management. Perhaps I should sit back a lil bit, but it seems so hard to do coz I want to achieve so many things. I need to make wise decision and realize that I can’t do it all. I have to realize my limit. I finally found my peace when I read the bible. My resentment faded and I could see more clearly and be thankful that I managed to get it all done, though I had to pump my adrenaline.

So if you experience it, take a deep breath, think clearly and realize that sometimes we just can’t have it all, can’t do it all…we must let go some of the things…life always goes on…It never waits. Stressing won’t help, but don’t use it as an excuse not to try…..


Evanescence - My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
me


Amy’s voice is really good……lately I’ve been enjoying mellow songs….