Mix

Another boring day at office. No internet connection, my means of communication is only email, which sometimes doesn’t work. I just got another delivery failure report this morning. How am I supposed to perform if I’m not supported with necessary facilites? *sigh..Well I don’t mean to spread bad words about my current company, but that’s the condition I’m facing. Nevermind, I will be leaving this company anyway.

There are so many things I wanna write, but most of them are scattered in my mind. After watching Kate in Underworld Evolution, the following week was uneventful. But it was getting better at the end of the week. Thursday, Feb 16 was my best friend’s birthday. He gave me one of the best testimonials I’ve ever had. I also got Olga’s pictorial that day. She was stunning, a fine example of exquisite oriental beauty. Then at Friday I went and stayed at Liv’s house. Went there with Irwan, Harris and Temmy. On our way to Liv’s house, the weather was terrible. The rain was pouring down heavily and it got worse because the wind was also blowing very hard. The lightning was very scary, but we arrived safely. We ate at 24 hour KFC n then played SingStar. Played bluffing card, UNO and cap sa till 4 AM. N then we slept.

Woke up at around 8, ate breakfast together. Irwan played piano and we sang together, damn he was good. And then we played card….again. I took a bath at around 9 AM, n then we went to Hanamasa (Me, Liv, Hen, Harris n Temmy). I ate so much and felt very full. Went back to Liv’s house n then went to Gadink. Her father dropped us at Gadink mall coz he accompanied Liv’s sister to see a doctor. We went karaoke at NAV for two hours n then Liv n Hen was picked up by her father n we went home. Now they’re already in Beijing, I’m gonna see them next year. Spending time with Liv n Hen reminded me of my time in Perth. It was unforgettable experience.

Later that night I chatted with Phoenix, a girl I met from a forum in the internet. N then I went to sleep for almost 12 hours..lol. Woke up on Sunday, relaxing till afternoon n then went to St. Jacob church to attend the afternoon mass there. Went there with Jef, he waited in the car while I was attending the mass. After that we went to Willy’s wedding reception. It was very surprising when I got the news from Jef. He called me a few days earlier n told me that Willy had asked him to give an invitation to his wedding on Sunday. I barely believe it; my Jr High School friend was getting married. Wow….and he married the girl he dated since high school. I think they have dated for 5 or 6 years… Met lots of old friends at the reception. David came with his (ex????) girlfriend. Agus, Yudhi, Mansiong, Aan, Dewi, Linda, Wendy, etc. After the reception we went upstairs n played some pool till 10 sth PM n then went home.

Monday till today was boring….typical. Trying to achieve the target but it’s hard to do with the inconsistency of the email system. Went to Nestle on Tuesday n I was impressed. The office environment was very beautiful. It’s more like an elite apartment complex. Chatted w Liana in the afternoon and guess what, she invited me to join a conference, only to find that there were sicnotz, dw and kriz there….what a small world….unbelievable. Went to Permata Hijau on Wednesday, Popeye’s (SOHO) office. Went back home by bus…after a long time. Met Tendy at Slipi Jaya; I finally went in to Slipi Jaya just to pee…lol. But it was quite nice actually. Yesterday went to CIFOR (in Bogor) for the 3rd time. We were treated lunch once again by Mrs. Lely. She was very generous.
End of transmission………………………… (originally written on Feb 24, 2006)

Actually I was gonna make the following as a different post, but I think I’d just put them together as one post….so..here’s the next part….enjoy…

Weekend

Yeahhhhhhh……it’s been a marvelous weekend. Though I didn’t play badminton but I got some decent sleep. Watched John Travolta in Be Cool. A very good movie, it’s too bad that the DVD was a little bit damaged so I had to skip 20 minutes or so. There’s also Christina Milian in that movie. Her voice was incredible. And then I went to store, mom went shopping for a while. Went to MBK Church (I suppose it would be called Mary Mother of Carmel in English, but I’m not sure so I just use the Indonesian name, MBK) at 3.40 PM. Arrived there at 4.30 PM, the road at Saturday was clear. Attended the mass and I was quite surprised to know that March 1 is Ash Wednesday, the beginning of Lent. I followed the mass anxiously cause I had another plan which was go to JCC to attend the 5th Lustrum of Binus. I got the invitation (Binus was kind enough to send it to my office, I was quite flattered…) and I wanted to see what it would be like. In the invitation it said that there would be Project Pop and Titi DJ. Unfortunately the mass finished longer that I had expected. It finished at 6.30PM,while I expected it would finish at 6 PM.

So I rushed to JCC (Met LG at the parking lot, he was with Linda, his gf…another surprise ;p). Thank god I could make it on time. I arrived there at 6.51 PM but it was difficult to find parking space. I had to negotiate with the parking guy to finally get a parking space. I gave the books (we must give book(s) in order to get in to the event) and went in to Plenary Hall. At first I just went in to the tribune. I sat at the B section, next to a cute girl (yippiee), but I think the guy who’s sitting next to her other side was her bf…(grrrr……). Short story, Verra called me, we talked a bit n then I went down to ask where should I sit. I was expecting to get a VIP seat and I got it by talking a little with the usher (yeahhhh…). So I went in the Plenary Hall again, but this time I went to the ground floor, the VIP area. To my surprise I met Shanti, haven’t met her for ages. She offered me to sit next to her. She was with Albert and Mr. Freddy Purnomo, our Major Secretary. WOW!!! I hadn’t known that Shanti knew Mr. Freddy and it seemed that they knew each other quite well. So I introduced myself to Mr. Freddy and Shanti added some spice about me being one of the bla..bla..bla… and he invited us to try the buffet..WOW again. Well the show which was supposed to start at 7 PM finally started at about 8 PM. We went back to our seats and enjoyed the event. Basically it was Binus’ anniversary celebration and a promotion to show Binus improvement from it’s beginning till today.

The event was hosted by Ferdy Hasan and Indy Barens. They’re great MCs. And then Project Pop came out and sang their first song of the night, which was “Tu Wa Ga Pat”. They’re very hilarious, very entertaining. I liked them even more after watching them in live performance. After a few songs they cut it and showed fragments of Binus’ portfolio. Project Pop sang about 5 songs after their first song and after their last song, Titi DJ came and sang “Sang Dewi”. After that she sang this song that I really liked and I finally knew the title, it was “Setengah Hidupku”. The event ended at about 10.30 PM. It was unforgettable experience. I also got Mr. Freddy name card. He was interested in the .NET training.

Sunday arrived. Well I slept like a pig on Saturday night (I think I very often sleep like a pig..lol) and woke up at about 9 AM. I went to Eddy’s for a while, asking for his father’s advice about motorcycles. Then I went to gadink to meet with the Safax Gank. We met on Starbucks (yeah, our standard is Starbucks now….hahahahhahaha), ordered some coffee and omelet and we chatted there. There’re me, Winy, Aan, Ryan and Agus. Not so long after that Yuni came. We talked till about 3 sth PM n then David came with Bowo and Maria. We went to La Piazza to eat. We ate at Chatterbo Café. When I was looking at the menu, I was interested in Fish n Chips coz it reminded me of Ciccerello’s, Freo and Perth…..hmmmm *sigh. The fish n chips was good, it’s delicious. We had crazy conversation there, typical whenever there’s David n Agus around….lol. We finished eating about 6 PM; then we went karaoke on (“old”) Happy Puppy. We sang for two hours there until about 8.30 PM. Duet with David n got 99 for “Menunggumu”…Yeahhh… also got 77 for Jay’s “An Jing” . After that we went home with a promise that we should meet again in June.


Today’s another busy day. Last night I wrote application letter to UNICEF, which I hope will make the HR staff who read it touched so I can be granted an interview. I dropped my sis at her office and then went to Daan Mogot to get a driver license for motorcycles. Got there at 8 sth AM. I studied the procedure and tried to follow it. There’re some offers but it was expensive, about Rp. 420.000, so I decided to process it on my own. I followed the steps n took the written test at 10.00-10.30 AM. I met Aries when I was waiting for my written test result to be announced. We talked and ate tupat sayur together. At around 11 AM I got my result and I didn’t pass and that I have to take another written test on March. I was sure that I’d pass coz the questions were very easy. But then again who’d have known??? Aries had the same result, fail. So we tried to “change” our result and we finally made it with the “help” of a policewoman. After that we went to take the practice test.

It was just a formality, really. All of us were passed..well almost all of us. There’re also few that didn’t pass. When I looked at their disappointed face, for a moment I felt guilty coz I used money to “bent” the rule, but then again it’s the way it is. It’s how it goes. Money talks. I could see the sadness n disappointment in their faces. I understood that for some (a lot) of us, Jakarta citizen especially, Rp. 420.000,00 was quite big amount. That’s sad. There’re too many things, factors that contribute to this GIGANTIC gap between the rich n the poor. For me, spending Rp. 420.000,00 was also something that I had to consider carefully, but remembering that it’s how it is, the system is money power I didn’t have much choice, did I? So they who didn’t pass went back with their disappointed faces and we, me n Aries went to another step of the driver license processing. After that we got our picture taken and we waited for our driver license to be printed. I waited only for a while, about 10-15 minutes, and then I got my C driver license. Yeahhh…..all the efforts were worthed. We went to Setiabudi coz I had to pick up my sis. We ate at Mami, Aries went to ETOJ to say hi and I played some pool at La Forca. My sis came about 4.40 PM

That’s it. A fabulous weekend and a lesson learned today. Now all I have to do is practicing my motorcycles skills….Peace Out

Valentine

Today's Valentine's Day. I spent the whole workind hours outside office. Got a little surprise in the morning. There was a chocolate on my desk. I ate it while watching an infotainment, which gave me the chance to see Nia Ramadhani. She was cute....Went to JIEP and spent the whole working hours there. I just got a request from my cousin. She added me on her MSN contact list.

Valentine....nothing special on this Valentine. It's plain. I'm still tired, maybe because last nite I chatted with phoenix....a friend I know from WG. Well anyway, I barely felt the Valentine athmosphere today. I guess in Indonesia it's still some kind of exclusive celebration.

Valentine..... I think it's been overrated.....

Kate

Arrgghhhh….Kate was so beautiful in Underworld Evolution. She’s so mysteriously sexy in the movie. But one thing that quite bothered me that why do they had to make that sex scene. One moment they’re trying to get away from Markus, and after that they just had sex…What’s the point? Was it coz some adrenaline rush that they managed to get away from Markus? Was it coz Michael did sweet thing to keep Selene in the dark by using his ‘Sabretooth’ nails to open those paint cans and painted the windows black? Were they got carried away by that simple romantic moment? Well, I guess that just sooooo Hollywood. Typical. Not that I didn’t like seeing Kate’s skin (a lil bit jealous too watching her in that kind of scene…. ;p), but it didn’t make any point to me, just another Hollywood movie ‘spice’.

They said that January is the moment for Hollywood garbage movies, thus making a way for summer movies…which are usually excellent ones. But I liked underworld Evolution. For those who haven’t watched Underworld, they won’t be confused because the director was kind enough to give few scenes from Underworld (or was it some kind of disguised ad?). Maybe I like it because Kate’s factor (a very important factor for me…esp she looked so damn gorgeous in that latex suit. Really accentuated her slender body… *drooling), maybe I liked it because I like this kind of Vampire Werewolf story. I didn’t expect this movie to be very gore, but it really exceeded my expectation. The explosions, the gun fires, the fights, and the killing were great. The storyline was standard, nothing special about it. Just another ‘heroes saved the day’ thing by getting help from someone that they didn’t expect and got the thing they thought they’d never have (Selene finally can walk under the sunlight after she drank Alexander Corvinus’ blood, which also made her stronger, otherwise she couldn’t possibly kill Markus). With standard storyline there was nothing much to expect except for Kate and the action scenes. I would give an 8 for this movie (Am I being too generous??). Anyway, it’s good movie (No, I didn’t count the Kate factor if that’s what you worry).

Back to real world. After watching Underworld Evolution we stopped by at Diamond to but few things (Have I mentioned that I watched Underworld Evolution with my sis? Or have I been too busy complaining about that unnecessary sex scene?). After that we attended afternoon mass at St. Jacob. The mass was fast, and the main article was quite interesting. Went home and checking my laptop condition, ran some benchmark and it gave good result.

Still no words from Accenture. I’m counting my days to join them. The situation in my current company was getting worse I really think that it’s time to move on. Plus, moving to Accenture will make my resume look good and increase my chance to accomplish my long term plan….Perth. :D

Nothing special from my 23rd bday. I just thought about the things I’d accomplished in my 22nd age. I accomplished more than I had thought I would. Got a little celebration with my fellow prayer community members. Bought them a cake and we ate it together. My mom n sis got me a present which would be useful once I get the motorcycle. Lots of my friends gave their wishes…nice ones, even from the people that I haven’t met; only meet them in this forum called WG. There’s one of the beauty of friendship. I spent my Saturday the usual way. Played badminton in the morning, which gave me the chance to meet Anthony, whom I hadn’t seen since August 2005. We talked and I found out that he also sells DLink ADSL modem, beside ASUS notebooks. What a coincidence. But I also believed that this was also God’s plan. I almost didn’t go to play badminton coz I felt tired, but I pushed myself coz I would find it difficult to find another time to do some sport. Met Johanes too when I was walking to Maru2. I looked for a dictionary CD at Maru2 but they didn’t have what I was looking for, but I got something else that I didn’t plan to buy, an IBM optical, scroll, USB mouse. A perfect fit for my IBM notebook. I was very surprised when I saw it. There it was, laying in the glass display. And it was cheap too…hip hip hurray. The price was only 75K. I tested it and I found that it worked perfectly. The slim and classy IBM style design (simple elegant black) and the fabulous blue light really stood out. I was very excited. So I went back home with a smile on my face. I slept like a pig in the afternoon; maybe all the activities this week drained my battery. I was planning to go to church in Saturday, but my body betrayed me and I went on sleeping till 7 PM….lol. So I made it up by going to church today.

Back to work tomorrow. I wonder will the email work well. If it doesn’t, it will be another dull day. My only amusement at office is WG, but the inet line is really slow. Well, I don’t have any song right now. I feel sleepy. Is it a karma? Two or three days ago I said in WG to Meleena that her constant craving for sleep (which I called penyakit Kebo) is not contagious and not passed on to her child….Now I feel this constant craving for sleep…..

I’m signing out. Too sleepy to continue writing. One last word… “Kate!”

I upload this blog on Feb 14, since i can't open blogger website on Feb 12......

Birthday

Today's my birthday.. a year older....Well.. I thought about it and I think I accomplished quite lot of things in the 22nd year of my life. Thank you God... Just a simple wish for this year... Be a better, wiser person...n can accomplish more....and more.....

Be good, be better, be the best, be better than the best....

February

Two days from my birthday. Just another dull day at work. Can’t send emails. The internet is very slow…most of the times I can’t even open a single webpage. Very boring. It’s been great lately, beside all the problems at work. I’m listening to Savage Garden Hold Me at the moment. I’m still tired coz yesterday was very full day. Work, and then went to Curtin Alumni Dinner. The dinner was fabulous, the food was delicious and the people who attended the dinner were friendly n warm. Talked with Julie, hearing story from Deborah, etc. Got back home and went straight to store and finally slept at 1 AM. It’s okay though, I had so much sleep on Sunday. I slept like a pig, finally.

Saturday was also very tiring but also exciting day. Went to play badminton, for the first time in 2006 I believe. And then went to Plaza Indonesia to have a gathering with WGers. My sis came along but not for long, she soon went with her friend. Met LG, bastian 78 and bo tat in person for the 1^st time. We had great time and talked about lots of stuffs and most of the times we just joking around. There were also WG KA kids who had gath there. Met TezChan n her friends, but coz I didn’t know much about comic n anime so we didn’t talk much. Conan, Yosep and their friends also came to PlazIn to have lunch. Out tables were side by side. DJ Arya came at about 4 sth PM…only to meet PapanGilesan, shella, comy and the others. Then we went back, I dropped LG at her grandpa’s house and then went back to Ex to meet Livia, Hendra, Harris, Rini, and Irwan. We hung out at Gelare till 7 PM then Livia invited me to have a dinner with her parents at a restaurant called house of Baba or sth like that. But it was full so we ended up having dinner at Sari Kuring Batu Ceper. It seemed that me and Irwan were the only ‘outsider’ in the dinner…;p Went back home at 10 sth PM.

The week before Saturday was a normal, quite dull one. Nothing much to do coz the email n the internet was unreliable…I forgot when I bought the DVDs but I also watched Wedding Crashers, Bone Collector, Unfaithful and two other I forgot coz they weren’t very good. I bought the DVDs at Ambasador, when I was shopping at C4 w Grace. Underworld Evolution is playing on cinemas now. I’m gonna watch it asap. Well I’m gonna end here. I’m planning to give Thesaurus to P. She might find it useful.

There's no song that suit this post...

Thanks to the Lord

I’m currently listening to True Worshipper’s Bersyukurlah pada Tuhan at this moment. That’s what I want to say…It’s been an incredible week. Started on Monday, January 16, 2006. Read this excellent vacancy on the Canadian Embassy and I was very interested. So I pushed myself to learn the material for CCNA. Well didn’t work very well coz it needed practical approach. And then I called Novi n Regina at Bhinneka to ask about IBM ThinkPad R51e price etc. I eliminated the other candidates so there were only 2 candidates left, ThinkPad R51e and NEC Versa E3100 1700DW. Factors that were taken into consideration include price. ThinkPad only cost US$ 899, while NEC cost US$ 1298. I needed extra money to upgrade the memory and buy additional accessories such as 1GB memory, mouse, kensington lock, and a backpack. And about the deisgn, I like IBM (actually it’s Lenovo now) much better cause it’s more stylish. It looked elegant, simple and professional.

On Wednesday I had a meeting on ASEAN Foundation, met Mr. Niko, he was very friendly and still young. I managed to squeeze some time to go to Mangga Dua to see ThinkPad R51e and NEC Versa display. I found a store that had ThinkPad on its display. I got a very good look on ThinkPad and I liked it. It’s not heavy, not like I had imagined it would be. So on my way back to the office I called Agus and confirmed to buy ThinkPad. He gave me a very good price. I asked him to upgrade the memory, but he said he didn’t have the memory in stock. I might have to wait to get it. I asked him when can I get the notebook. He said I can get it in the afternoon. So I went to Pinangsia after office hour. The traffic jam at P Jayakarta was very awful. I arrived at Pinangsia at 6 sth PM. Agus waited for me. I tried the notebook. It was excellent. Talked to him for a while, found out that he already had a gf…wow. Then I went back home. N tried the notebook at home. I was very pleased with it, though it only I even got the bag. But I prefer backpack anyway.

At Thursday I transferred some money to pay Agus. Nothing eventful happened on Thursday, so it just passed like usual. Friday morning I went to Binus to give my CV at Binus Career. I applied for MT-IT position at ACC. Coming to Binus always brought fond memories…sigh.. Went to the office at 9 AM, arrived at office at almost 11 AM. Then at about 11 sth AM the disaster came. All of the computers in my office was attacked by viruses. I practically had nothing to do. Played pool in lunch time at La Forca. The day went by slowly and it was very very dull. Went back home early and wathed Coyote Ugly. It was good movie. I watched the 1st 60minutes and then went to store. Continued watching after I got back from store. There was Alex Band The Calling singing Wherever You Will Go in one of the scene. There was also Lee Ann Rimes’ Can’t Fight The Moonlight. Bridget Moynahan was different in the movie. She looked wild n sexy, very different with her roles in Serendipity, The Recruit, even in The Sex And The City. In overall, it was good movie. Went to sleep at about 1 AM I think.

Then came Saturday, the busiest day in whole week. Woke up at 7, took a bath then went to ASEAN Hall to play badminton with double Julius, Dicky n Budi. It was incredible. Played till 11 AM and then went to TA to get my pic at Freeze Frame. Then I went to Gramedia, bought some posters and called Diana. She was at TA too. I met her and we had a cup of coffee at Reed. After that I went to Ii Awan’s to get mom’s stool n plants, and also some cookies…It was another hectic traffic near Roxy. I had to cancel my plan to go to King Foto cause it was already 3 PM. So I went home, hurried to Ramayana to buy a tie, got a nice shirt as well. Then I took a bath, went to make passport size photograph. Then attended the afternoon mass. I went home feeling very exhausted. It’s been over a month since I last played badminton and it got me feeling so tired. But it was good….damn good.

Woke up at about 9.30 AM… that’s when the misery started. My right arms, upper n lower, my right side shoulder, my calves were throbbing. It seemed I pushed myself too hard on Saturday. So on Sunday I was just relaxing..Took a nap and then watched Stealth using my new laptop….yippieee….my new lappie…. Jessica Biel was beautiful in the movie and I was pleased that my lappie display was excellent though it was an action movie with lots of explosions and fast scenes. Yeahhhhhh….

Yesterday I got some great surprises. First Grace called me n she said that she will start to work tomorrow (which is today) and then she came in the afternoon. The second was a phone call from Accenture. I was very surprised to hear from her again. She asked me when I can join them. I was flattered n excited cause in the morning, my director just gave another blow saying that internet access for sales maybe limited to one PC. It just pushed me more to leave immediately. It was raining very hard yesterday. I got home a lil bit late, at about 6.30 PM. Then I copied some of my data (read collection) to my 120 GB HDD. After that I went to store, got back n went online to send email to PC Plus and Accenture.


Today’s went quite well. Went to the office at 6.48 AM, ate breakfast at office. Yeah, today’s Grace’s first day at work. Accenture called me again, arranged for tomorrow. Played pool at La Forca…well so far that’s about it.

Thank you God, for the job opportunities, notebook, badminton, all the little things that have happened…..for everything.

These are inspired by Coyote Ugly.


Leann Rimes - Can't Fight The Moonlight

Under the lovers sky
Gonna be with you
And no one's gonna be around
If you think that you won't fall
Well just wait until
'Til the sun goes down

Underneath the starlight, starlight
There's a magical feeling so right
It will steal your heart tonight

chorus:
You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
but you know, but you know
That you, can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark, you'll surrender your heart
But you know, But you know that you
Can't fight the moonlight..No
You can't fight it...
It's gonna get to your heart

There's no escaping love
Once a gentle breeze
Weaves a spell upon your heart
No matter what you think
It won't be too long
'Til you're in my arms

Underneath the starlight, starlight
We'll be lost in the rhythm so right
Feel it steal your heart tonight

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
But you know, But you know
That you can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark, you'll surrender your heart
But you know, but you know that you
Can't fight the moonlight...No
You can't fight it...
No matter what you do
The light is gonna get to you


Don't try, you're never gonna win, oh

Underneath the starlight, starlight,
There's a magical feeling, so right
It'll steal your heart tonight

You can try to resist, try to hide from my kiss
But you know, but you know that you
Can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark, you'll surrender your heart,
But you know, but you know that you
Can't fight the moonlight
No, you can't fight it

You can try to resist, try to hide from my kiss
But you know, don’t you know that you
can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark, you'll surrender your heart,
But you know, but you know that you
Can't fight the moonlight
No, you can't fight it

It's gonna get to your heart...


The Calling - Wherever You Will Go

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love to light the shadows on your face
If a greater wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone could you make it on your own.

Chorus
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you, through the darkest of your days
If a greater wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Well then I hope there's someone out there
who can bring me back to you

Chorus

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind I'll stay with you for all of time

Chorus

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go

Deep Thoughts Trilogy Part III

I begin this post with a little reflection about the events that happened to me in 2005. Lots of things happened in the year of 2005. At the beginning of 2005, I started to work at ETOJ. Watched Smallville seas 3. In February I succeeded in passing the thesis exam with an excellent mark. Livia n Hendra came to Jakarta and I met Hendra irl for the first time. We went to Dufan together and had a great time there. Watched Smallville seas 4. In March for the first time I managed surpassed my sales target. Things went quite steady in April. I got close to a girl but I didn’t go through after some careful consideration. I joined WG in April and became a very active member. In May I attended KRK in PRJ. In June I met this guy I knew from WG. He’s working in Taiwan at the moment. Lots of birthdays in June….started playing badminton. July is graduation month…finished watching smallville seas 4, continued from the smallville that Liv brought me back in February. August is TELKOM month. Got huge deal…and also knew La Forca pool n lounge for the first time…YM was blocked. September…amazing month. Went to a retreat in the beginning of September…met an Angel, became active member in PD. God touched me once again. October, knew Midori..got passport…went to Perth for the first time in my life, an unforgettable experience. It really changed my point of view, opened my eyes. November, still in Perth, when I got back in Jakarta I started to watch DespH. December, finishing DespH, surprise from Grace, work took unexpected change, a rather disappointing changes.

I start this new year by finishing my long postponed trilogy. In this last part I wanna talk a little bit about God. I only talk a little bit coz actually all of my posts after my 2^nd part of this thoughts trilogy have already said so much about God. Do you believe in God? About the idea that there’s a divine power that transcend human minds? About something that way beyond our senses and intelligence to understand? As a person who believe in God, I can say that all the things that happened to me in last year (actually in whole my life) were somehow already been planned by this mysterious entity. All that I’ve accomplished such as graduated with excellent grade and got good job were His gifts to me. I also believe He’s the one who allowed me to make a passport, get a visa and fly to Perth in just 3 weeks time. Looking from the eyes of a non-believer they would say that they’re all luck, nothing else. I’ve learned many things last year, experienced new things that helped me to grow to be a better person. I believe all the little things that have happened are parts of a beautiful plan in my life. The problem is I haven’t got any clue where they lead me. I always think that there’s something more to life. We all search for happiness. We all play a role in our life. Does a person who has all the money in the world happy? Does a person who’s famous and adored by lots of people happy? I don’t know. I just know that there are something missing, even when we get it all. Last Friday I went to prayer community in my church and I felt this joy, a different kind of joy that I can’t find in other places. I believe we all need balance in our life, not just pursuing materials, but we also have needs concerning our spiritual side, whether we’re believe in God or not. I’m gonna make this short coz it will be a never ending debate if we want to talk about the existence of God. I prefer to say that it’s a matter of choice, which I really respect. Coz I think morality doesn’t depend on whether you believe in God or not. If you choose to believe, then He really exists. If you choose not to believe then no matter who’s telling you or what proof given to you, for you, He just don’t exist. The question is now, what do you believe?

Affirmation by Savage Garden

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye(Repeat 2)