Happy Birthday Grace!!! (CoolPix Hunting)

These last few days I’ve been browsing the internet, looking for an ideal digicam. I’m planning to buy digicam coz I want to take pictures at my graduation day. Learned plenty things about digital photography. Thanks to www.dpreview.com, the best site to look for information about digicam. I got a headache by looking at all those digicam types and brands, but I finally made up my mind to buy Nikon CoolPix series, whether it’s 3700, 5200 or 5900. I must check my budget first for that. I’m gonna buy it this weekend.

Work has been quite dull. Nothing much to do. I have to wait for confirmation. So I spent most of the times browsing for digicam, conferencing at YM, and reading ebook, what a role model for another employee…lol.

Today’s a big day for my friend, Grace. It’s her birthday…..Happy Birthday Grace. She’s turning 99 now…just joking, I can not reveal her age (she’ll kill me if I do that…hahahaha). Chatted w her this morning. Congratulated her, she said she’s feeling old. Well..for 99 year old, she looked just fine…great actually…hahahahaha. She sent me pictures she’d taken earlier. The best pic was #5790. The birthday girl sat in the middle. Her friends were beside her. Beautiful girls plus one guy. The girl next to Grace was absolutely stunning in the pic (the one w the black tee shirt)..She’s so………….hhhmhmmmmmmm. Lost for words…..hehehehe

Well that’s all I guess.. Just wanna post about Grace’s Birthday and my hunt for the “perfect” digicam.
It’s almost lunch time. This is the song by Enya, soundtrack of Sweet November. I watched this movie w Grace n Dana (I forgot..). She also wore black tee shirt at that time… Okay…peace out

Only Time by Enya

Who can say

Where the road goes, Where the day flows

- only time

And who can say

If your love grows, As your heart chose

- only time

Who can say

Why your heart sighs, As your love flies

- only time

And who can say

Why your heart cries, When your love lies

- only time

Who can say

When the roads meet, That love might be

In your heart

And who can say, When the day sleeps

If the night keeps all your heart

Night keeps all your heart

Who can say

If your love grows, As your heart chose

- only time

And who can say
Where the road goes, Where the day flows

- only time

Who knows - only time...

Who knows - only time...

Linger and Alive

Sunday, June 26, 2005. Start at 1.10 PM

I…..I feel so alive…And I think I can fly….

These last two days have been SUPERB. Let me start with Friday. At Friday I took a day off from office. I intended to go to campus to get my Wisuda package. But when I was about to go, I looked at the announcement, it turned out that the wisuda package for my major would be given starting at Saturday, 25 June 2005, not Friday. So I didn’t go to campus. Silly me, but I was lucky because I read the announcement once again before I left. If I had left, then It would have been such a waste of time. And then at ten sth, David sent me SMS, asking if I wanted to got to InulVizta. I replied it and said it’s a good idea. So we arranged to meet at Inul at 12PM. I arrived there at 11 sth. David was already there, as usual he parked his car in front of Holland Bakery. We went in, got room #1. Bowo confirmed to come w Maria, his gf. We tried the June promo from Inul, FREE video recording. The 1^st song, “Kukatakan Dengan Indah” by Peterpan, passed just like that coz we’re talking about comp stuffs. And then songs after songs went in to the playlist, and we started to sing. We tried the record function to record our karaoke session and it worked quite well. Not so long after that, Bowo and Maria came. More songs were added to the playlist. We sang for about 2 hours and when it ended we ask the waiter coz we wanted to choose which song that would be burned to CD. We chose 7 songs (coz we only got 7 song to choose…). After that David said that he wanted to go to Roxy to buy cellphone for him and his gf, coz his gf’s birthday was coming soon. I said it would be better if we just go to ITC Cempaka Mas, since it was near Gadink and Roxy’s traffic jam was awful. So we went to Cempaka Mas. To make long story short we ate there, David bought 2 N6600 (which made him broke…lol), bought casing and cellphone leather case. After that David dropped me off at Ibi and I went home.

Slept at 1 AM that Friday night. Woke up at 7,I had this appointment with Tirta to play badminton at ASEAN Hall. Arrived there at 8.10 AM. Played badminton until 11 AM. Tirta was very good. Then I and Anthony booked the ASEAN hall for July. So for five weeks, I’ll be playing badminton every Saturday morning. It was very exhausting. At 11 I went to Anggrek to see Job Expo. Met Denny Soe, Bellina, Vivi, Alvin, Yuliana, Berku, etc. Dave ask me a favor to get his wisuda package since he must go to his office. I looked around at Anggrek until 12.50 PM. Went to Syahdan then, at Plaza saw Yakin, Nell n Jef. Nell n Jef went to lucky 7, I sat there and talked to Yakin. It’s been a while since I last met him. And then we went up and when we got to the 2^nd floor, near H2H…we were surprised cause the queue was very long. It reached H2E…and it was bloody hot. I didn’t want to stand in line in such condition. So we went down again to Plaza. At 1PM sth Charlie’s angels minus Laura came. At 1.30 PM I went up again, met Kwang at the stair, she said VC was looking for me and that she was in the front part of the queue. So I went up, I went through the queue until I saw VC and Berku. There were also iing, Vebi, Febri, Step, Willy, etc. I managed to slip in and got in front of Berku. Standing in line for a while. Got the packages. I got #609. The others got eight hundred something. And my invitations was a lil bit different. They got some kind of ribbon at the corner. Met Yanti, Yunita, Pin2, VY on my way to put the packages to my car. Vy’s using braces and she had cut her hair. I put the packages in my car, went back to Syahdan, Robert came and went to stand in line. Talked a bit with the other. Ronaldy n his gf already came, along w Richards, Bernard, Yosep, kriston, etc. At 3 sth they went back. Went to eat. Robert came and he drove me to MBK (Maria Bunda Karmel) church. I Attended the 5PM mass. It was the best church I ever visited. Two thumbs up for MBK. Finished at 6.10 PM. Called Robert, asked him to pick me up. He picked me up, and he went to his sister’s, I changed my clothes. Went to Bale Air w Robert, he escorted my along the way. He (despite of his eccentric behavior) really has this pure, sincere and kind heart. It’s hard to find a friend like him. Arrived at Bale Air, Berku was already there, along w his gf, Step n Willy, Jaka n his gf (later I found out that her name was Amel).

We ate dinner accompanied by live music. The band was quite good, except for when they sang She Will Be Loved… Step T came w her bf not long after we got out table. She really looked like Grace, I told Berku and he agreed with me. Nell n Jef came later on. We enjoyed our dinner until 9.30 PM. Went home and got this Need for Speed moment with B 80XX BL.. which was Jaka’s car. We drove like there was no tomorrow…lol very exciting and adrenaline-rushing. We drove at maybe average 120-130 Kph (Damn it felt so good to drive that fast…..). I was left behind twice before I managed to pass him by at the end of our circuit…yeah… I got home at 10 sth PM. It took me less than 20 minutes to get back from Bale Air…insane….hahahahaha. Slept at 12 AM.

Today woke up at 11 AM. My body feel very sore now. It feels like I’d been hit by a truck. But I feel GREAT. The badminton, mass at MBK, and the need for speed moment made me feel so ALIVE. But yesterday, my melancholic side rose a lil bit. When I was at staircase at Anggrek.

*Break a lil….Mom just finished making donuts…ate them….hmmm…..very delicious..

I felt this longing, this sad feeling, remembering that my university days were over. When I looked at the boys n girls down at the food court, I lingered the days I had when I was the one who sitting there, all the laughs, the joy, the sad times. I reminisce that times. Those are wistful memories of the best times in my life. The people whom I used to spend time with, the places we used to go together, the little crazy things we did, all of the stories, jokes, events that we shared. They’re all written in the pages of my history.

“..di saat kita bersama, di waktu kita tertawa, menangis, merenung, oleh cinta…”

“..do u still remember, how we used to be…feeling together believing whatever..”

Though memories are designed to fade…they’re one of the things that make me feel ALIVE.

Alive by P.O.D.

Everyday is a new day
I'm thankful for every
breath i take,
I won't take you for granted (I won't take you for granted)
So I learn from my mistakes
It's beyond my control
Sometimes it's best to let go
Whatever happens
In this lifetime
So I trust in love (so I trust in love)
You have given me
Peace of mind

Chorus:
I, I feel so alive
For the very first time
I can't deny you
I feel so alive
I, I feel so alive (so alive)
For the very first time (for the very first time)
And I think I can fly

Sunshine upon my face (sunshine upon my face)
A new song for me to sing
Tell the world
How I feel inside (tell the world how I feel inside)
Even though it might
Cost me everything
Now that I know this
So beyond, I can't control this
I can never
Turn my back away
Now that I've seen you (now that i've seen you
I can neva look away

Repeat chorus

And now that I know you
(I could neva
turn my back away)
And now that I see you
(I could neva look away)
And now that I know you
(I could neva
turn my back away)
And now that I see you
(I believe no matta
what they say!)

Repeat chorus (x2)

And I think I can fly (fly) (x3)

Gianicera

Gianicera. I created this word in December 2001. But the origin of this word came back way from 1999. It was in January 1999. I was at my (parents) store. I read a letter while I was listening to Boyzone, All That I Need. It’s not an ordinary letter. It was a letter from someone special (at that time). She’s studying in Singapore (at Bartley Secondary School) and it was her first reply. She said in her letter that I was the first person who sent her a letter and she was very happy because of it. (It took me quite some time to understand her feeling, that she’s lonely there, needed a friend, someone to talk to). It happened to be that she was my first love..? (maybe…I haven’t figured out for sure the definition of first love). I had this HUGE crush for her. She was my classmate at Junior High. Then she went abroad to continue her study. I never let anyone know about my feelings for her coz I had known that on of my best friend also had a BIG crush on her. I never made a move on her at Junior High coz beside my best friend thing, I was also a very shy back then (actually I’m still, on some occasions). Okay back to the letter. It was a long letter. I read it thoroughly and carefully. There were some words that made me ‘fly’. I thought that she was also developing a feeling for me. I was very excited (far more than excited actually…I just can’t find the word to describe my feeling at that moment). She wrote much about her early days there, her school, etc. And she ended her letter with I Miss U, Miss U, Miss U, I Miss U Like Crazy (It was The Moffatts’s song, I knew it instantly, but still reading it really raised my spirit to the highest level). And the naïve me felt that I got the response that I expected. And it all happened while I was listening to Boyzone album Where We Belong which I borrowed from Linda, my classmate at High School.

And then, of course I replied her letter as soon I had the time. But my heart was broken when in her (I forgot) …letter she told me that she had a bf. I read it over and over again. I couldn’t believe what I read. I was shocked. And then I sat back and tried to think about it. Then I realized that all that time she just considered me as a friend, a good friend whom she could share stories with, a friend who helped her got through her early days in a foreign country. But I still writing letter to her. We corresponded for about eight months and then we lost contact. Not really lost contact, we kept in touch, just not as often as we used to. It was in June 1999 I heard BSB’s I Want It Thay Way (I heard it for the first time before June, but the album, Millennium, was released in June 1999…if I remember correctly). The lyric really fit with my condition with her. That’s one of the reasons why I like BSB. Time went by, she went to Oz and I still had this crush for her, but like a fire, it was getting smaller and finally I could consider her as a friend.

I put a part of her name in Gianicera. The word itself has another girls’ name, since it was made from a combination of girls’ name who has impact in my life. Having a crush on someone could give extra determination and motivation. It’s like having some kind of extra energy to do the best. Later on I added another, and it became Giacellenira. But it’s another story. Why do I write about this…particularly now? The reason is simple, coz today’s her birthday. It’s her 22nd birthday. Until this second, I never told her that I had a crush on her. Sometimes I wonder what did she feel at that time, I wonder what would happened if I’d told her about my feelings. Would it be any different? I don’t know and I guess she didn’t have to know about this (I mean, what’s the use??), though I’m very sure that if she read this blog then she’ll know that she’s the one I refer to. Okay then to finish this, I want to wish her an excellent birthday, hope she can make all of her dreams come true.

Quoting her words in her 2nd letter: Saying I Love You Is The Hardest Thing To Do...
wish I knew why she wrote it....

I Want It That Way by Backstreet Boys

You are my fire (were)
The one desire (used to be)
Believe when I say
I want it that way

But we are two worlds apart (yes we are)
Can't reach to your heart (I never can)
When you say
That I want it that way

CHORUS:
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a mistake (not a mistake, but it sure ached my heart)
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say (but I had to eventually)
I want it that way

Am I your fire (? I guess not)
Your one desire (absolutely not)
Yes I know it's too late
But I want it that way

CHORUS

Now I can see that we've fallen apart
From the way that it used to be, yeah (we used to be good friends, that’s all)
No matter the distance (it was quite the distance)
I want you to know that (though I wasn’t sure to tell u)
Deep down inside of me

You are my fire (were…..the only one)
The one desire (not anymore)
You are, you are, you are, you are
Don't wanna hear you say... (but I had to)

Don't wanna hear you say,
Ain't nothin' but a heartache,
Ain't nothin' but a mistake,
(Don't wanna hear you say),
I never wanna hear you say,
I want it that way

Tell me why,
Ain't nothin' but a heartache,
Tell me why,
Ain't nothin' but a mistake,
Tell me why,
I never wanna hear you say,
(Don't wanna hear you say),
I want it that way

Tell me why...
Ain't nothin' but a heartache,
Ain't nothin' but a mistake,
Tell me why,
I never wanna hear you say,
(Never wanna hear you say it),
I want it that way

CAUSE I want it that way (but things didn't go that way)

YM Conferences

Good morning Universe!

Woke up quite early today though I only slept for about 6 hours. Went to office early and it took me only half an hour to get here, which was very fast. It’s a new record. Another day at work. It’s approaching the end of June. Still haven’t achieved my target. I must get this one hope of MCSE course so I can close this month with good achievement, and excellent incentive of course…lol. Have you ever thought about this life? About the mistakes you’ve made? Sometimes I think I have this kind of cycle in my life. There are times when I make the same mistakes over and over again. It feels like the mistakes make me go back to point zero. Feel like I’m standing still. Well, it’s only a thought, I always try to look from the bright side, to learn from my mistakes
Yesterday was a blast. Chat with my univ friends. We even had a conference using YM. You can imagine if more than 10 persons join a chat room…It was chaos..lol. We talked about everything, in Indonesian…ngomongnya ngalor ngidul…..hahahahaha…actually it’s in Javanese..doesn’t matter. Today’s is Jakarta’s birthday. It celebrates it’s 478th birthday. It’s been a long way since 1527. History recorded that Fatahillah was the one who found (or built??) Jakarta. It was named Sunda Kelapa at first. And then in the time of Dutch colonial, it’s called Batavia (which sounds classy I think), after that it was called Jayakarta and finally it became Jakarta. Enought with this history thing..

1.44 PM
Typing email for clients, while chatting in YM conference room….again. It’s 2.49 PM now. I have already chatted for more than an hour. I’m getting sleepy. ASEAN hasn’t confirmed yet, Arrghhh I need that approval to achieve……..Well… that’s all I guess. I wanna update my profile on Friendster.
Am I Standing Still??? This next song is Jewel’s Standing Still, taken from Smallville season 1 episode 5--> Freeze. "Because whenever I need him, he's there. He makes me feel safe", Lana said to Clark...who could only stand in silence while the screen blacked out..end credit.

Standing Still by Jewel

Cutting through the darkest night are my two headlights
Try to keep it clear, but I'm losing it here
To the twilight
There's a dead end to my left
There's a burning bush to my right
You aren't in sight, You aren't in sight

Do you want me
Like I want you

chorus:
Or am I standing still
Beneath a darkened sky
Or am I standing still
With the scenery flying by
Or am I standing still
Out of the corner of my eye
Was that you passing me by


Mothers on the stoop
Boys in souped-up coupes
On this hot summer night
Between fight and flight
Is the blind man's sight
And a choice that's right
I roll the window down
Feel like I'm gonna drown in this strange town

Feel broken down
Feel broken down

Do you need me
Like I need you?

chorus

Sweet sorrow is a call tomorrow

Do you love me
Like I love you?

chorus


Oh you're passing me by
Passing me by
Do you need me
like I need you to
Do you want me
like I want you?
Or are you passing me by?
Or am I standing still?

Monday

Another monday. Here I am, sitting, typing this blog. Another ordinary monday, except for the traffic. The road was quite clear today, got to my office early. Got the time to eat breakfast (nasi uduk plus bakwan...typical breakfast in Jakarta...lol), since mom hadn't had time to prepare one. But I think my stomach isn't too adaptive to that kind of food anymore. I had to go to the toilet twice since I ate that nasi uduk. 10 minutes from lunch time. Yesterday went to Gadink w Mom. She bought Lancome stuffs, which I didn't familiar with. Bought some BreadTalk breads..hmm...yummy...they're delicious..Took a nap..very rejuvenating..and went online to WG..'Accidentally' found Joana Krupa in July PB..lol..After that watched Lee Hyori n Fin KL clips..She's adorable. She's all grown up now. Well it's lunch time now..I'm gonna leave you with this song...from Enrique....


Be With You by Enrique Iglesias

Monday night I feel so low
Count the hours they go so slow
I know the sound of your voice
Can save my soul

City lights, streets of gold
Look out my window to the world below
Moves so fast and it feels so cold
And I`m all alone

Don`t let me die
I`m losing my mind
Baby just give me a sign


chorus: And now that you`re gone
I just wanna be with you
And I can`t go on
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you

I can`t sleep and I`m up all night
Through these tears I try to smile
I know the touch of your hand
Can save my life

Don`t let me down
Come to me now
I got to be with you some how

chorus

And now that you`re gone
Who am I with-out you now
I can`t go on
I just wanna be with you

chorus

Superb Saturday: House of Wax

Yesterday I went to campus to get the payment receipt for my graduation. I went there with Eddy at 8.30 AM. Arrived at campus at 9. There were already some of my friends there. Verra, Iing, Step, Sunyoto, Hartanto, Helen, n many others. And then I took care the payment thing. After that, I stayed there at Student Service Center for a while. Robert, Novi, Dave, etc came not long after I finished the payment process. We talked, it was nice to meet them again, The Zoo Class. After that I and Eddy went to Gadink. We planned on going to karaoke place with David, since Agus said he couldn’t make it. Arrived at Gadink at about 1 PM. David said he would meet us at Gadink. Went to Gramed and read some books there until 2 PM, coz David said that he still had some errands to do at his store. At 2PM I called him, and he said that he still had quite lot works to do so he couldn’t come. So we decided to go to karaoke on some other time. I told Eddy about it, and he said he better go home coz he wanted to continue working on Eva’s project. I said I wanted to try the ‘new’ theatre, Gadink XXI. So Eddy went home and I went to Gadink XXI.

And then I walked to Gadink I while thinking what movie that I’d watch. I decided either Mr. and Mrs. Smith, or House of Wax. I finally decided to watch House of Wax, coz it’s horror movie and would be more enjoyable to be watched in theatre. There were so many pretty girls I saw along the way to Gadink XXI. Nice sights for my sore eyes. When I was queuing for the ticket, there right in front of me lie a very beautiful sight. There was this girl wearing very short skirt, and her great legs were exposed for the world to see. Her legs were flawless. They were smooth, had excellent curves, and seemed very tempting. Oh boy…I almost couldn’t stop staring. I was fantasizing if she bent over then…. Okay stop..it’s not polite. So I tried to focus on something else that I knew would help me to regain my composure. I looked over the menu like popcorn, soft drinks, etc. Got the ticket at 2.30 PM, killed the time by playing one of the arcade games, and then at 2.50 PM went into theatre 5 to watch House of Wax.

For the first 30 minutes the story was plain, I guess it prepared the audiences for the bloody scenes. After that the story was getting better. I watched it coz I wanted to see Elisha. Luckily she’s the main character so she appeared in most of the scenes. There were also some other interesting casts like Chad Michael Murray (played w Hillary Duff in Cinderella Story, in House of Wax he got a different kind of character, which was good I think), Jared Padalecki (Ring any bells, Gilmore Girls lover??? Yes he’s our beloved Dean…lol), and also the sensational Paris Hilton. Her acting was not too bad. In short, it was a good movie with good special effect, esp when the House of Wax was melting. Nice movie and nice theatre. Gadink XXI was much more comfortable than Gadink 21. The seats were bigger, more comfortable and the sound system was better.

After watching I went to Gramed again to read Movie Monthly and Cinemags. At 5.20 PM went home. Attended the 6 PM mass. And then went to store to eat…lol..Finally went to bed at 1.30 AM, after browsing WG and looking for infos about Ipod Mini n Motorola A780. It’s superb Saturday.

Blagodaria Stani

Today I woke up at 7 AM. Slept late last nite. Yesterday’s a Tiring but Terrific Thursday. Met Stani online at YM. Stani’s my friend for far away. She’s from Bulgaria. I met her first from the ICQ, about 3 years ago…We often chatted that time. Her nick name was graf1t_lady, a cool nick I think. We both like Savage Garden. She liked The Best Thing, while I like all the songs from the Affirmation album. She’s also a fan of Train n Incubus. I agree with her about Drops of Jupiter, that it’s excellent song. We lost contact few times, but eventually we’re able to keep in touch anyway. I lost contact with her from last year, but then in January 2005 she sent me email, right after the Tsunami disaster that hit Aceh. Then she made this email account on yahoo (I can’t write it here) and I add her in my YM list, so we can chat whenever we’re online…big grin….Okay, yesterday she went online about 4 PM, Jakarta time. We chatted, she’s going to university in Sofia at August. She’s taking Mass Communication major. Her English is also improving a lot. At the end of our ‘conversation’ she sent me this song to my email…haven’t downloaded it yet..maybe later this night…

After office hour yesterday, I went to TA to meet Greg, a new friend I made. We met at WG. We both are HUGE fan of Smallville…well maybe I’m a little bit more fanatic..just a little…we often chatted at YM. Internet really connecting people(Borrowing Nokia slogan). He’ll be in Indonesia for 12 days, n then he’ll go back to Taiwan. There was this silly thing I did on the way to TA. I took the road that supposed to lead me straight to TELKOM, across of TA..but I guess I took the wrong turn and I ended up at Roxy Square. There no turning back so I took Kyai Tapa and then went to TA..got quite stuck at Grogol, but I finally made it to TA. Beside at Roxy there was this sexy girl who’s crossing the parking lot, so……in Indonesian…..sekalian aja liat pemandangan indah…lol. Met Greg at The Executive, we watched Amityville Horror, great horror movie…Ate at TA food court. Went back home.

After I woke up today, I went to JWC. Once I got there I was immediately presented with beautiful sight. There were pretty girls. They sure were pretty. Beautiful face, sparkling eyes, smooth white skin, curvy figures…*grinning*. I went up to 3rd floor to meet the Talent people. On my way up I met another pretty girls. On the 3rd floor, there was also another pretty girl who’s sitting and working something w her laptop. I thought to myself, so many pretty girls around here. I envied the male students at JWC. They can get these wonderful sights everyday (maybe)…I didn’t get those kind of sights back in my university times at Binus. But it was another campus…Good bye to those days, younger days with so many beautiful girls….*sigh…To make long story short I talked to the staff, finished and went to office, went online. And now I’m writing this blog. That’s all…btw, I’m also chatting w Belo now….lol so if you read this, Belo…then congrats….u’re on the internet…huhahhahahahahaha


Drops of Jupiter by Train

Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
With drops of jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there’s time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey

chorus : Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

Now that she’s back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there’s room to grow, hey, hey
Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
I’m afraid that she might think of me as plain ol’ jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you’re wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone
Conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way

chorus