post #184
"...Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu..."
played on my ear when I was trying to call her about 2 weeks ago. I was stunned coz it catchy, easly listening and I was sure I'd had heard it before. I was sure that it's Peterpan song (I recognized Ariel's voice and singing style) but I didn't know the title. I even called her twice just to listen to the lyric, since she didn't pick up...then at that very night, I searched for this song, got it from multiply and since then I've been addicted to it.
It felt like she was trying to say something with the song.....to me. Maybe I was just reading too much into it...Dunno...my logical mind has been battling with emotions these days and it's been losing...My emotions got the best of me....is it a good thing? Not sure bout it.
"You know I'm such a fool for you...You got me wrapped around your fingers...Do you have to let it linger...do you have to....do you have to...do you have to let it linger?"
We had quite long talk the other day, it's always nice to hear her voice....she said she thought someone who hasn't been in a relationship for so long (ie...me) usually either too picky or has something wrong. Well, what if I'm both? Have I been such a successful pdf that I pseudo-unconciously have a reluctancy to start something, to be in status quo.
Maybe I was trying too hard to rekindle the moment we had, a brief moment when I fell...But now she's the one that leaves me in doubt. We had a talk about this before and we came to a consensus about how things supposed to go. But after all these times, I never thought that I'd lose my mind...
I said I wasn’t gonna lose my head, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
I wasn’t gonna fall in love again, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
And I just can’t let you go,
I can’t lose this feeling.
Have I been trying too hard to rekindle that moment we had? I still remember her words at that time, maybe we were just carried away....it's all maybe...tried to talk but it's always been my weakness to express my thoughts verbally in serious context....why we're still in status quo... We need to move on.... I need to move on...
She read my MSN status where I quoted Gwen's song....
"And all I know is...You've got to give me everything...Nothing less 'cause...You know I give you all of me"
what if all of me is not good enough for her?
"...but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that"
Yes, she deserves more than that. I wrote on my previous blog, yes you like somebody and let say hypothetically the feeling is mutual, then what? I've been giving lots of thoughts and maybe some of them are too far ahead.....too focused on the compatibility issues...
Could I be good enough
Could I be good enough
If the going got worse
And the worse got rough
The days became endless
And harder than tough
I’d be good enough
Better than best
Would be simply to be good enough
If everything I give
Doesn’t seem like a lot
If it’s all that I got
Baby tell that could be good enough
Am I good enough for her? Am I better than the best?
Never thought that my fortress wall can be crumbled without being noticed. But that's ok, it has been repaired now. Dunno the rest of the story...coz it's still unwritten and though I have a little confidence, this doubt is still irritating.....will it end like James Blunt's song? I'll leave it up to you....God
"But it's time to face the truth...I will never be with you..."
A little recap, works been great, got ahead of the schedule, played bowling yesterday plus went home early, watched Music n Lyric on Tuesday...a great movie. And another great news I got today was that Livia's three months pregnant....wowwwww......congratss......!!!!
Last week I finally went karaoke with my buds and of course the first song that I sing was Peterpan - Menghapus Jejakmu. Here's the cover version....by me.
"...Aku bukanlah segalamu
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahmu
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar kucoba hapus jejakmu..."
Peterpan – Menghapus Jejakmu (cover version by me)
Terus melangkah melupakanmu
Lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
Jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan
Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
Kucoba untuk terus menjauh
Perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
Kucoba untuk lanjutkan itu
Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu
Terus melangkah melupakanmu
Belah hati perhatikan sikapmu
Jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan
Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
Kucoba untuk terus menjauh
Perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
Kucoba untuk lanjutkan itu
Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu
Lepaskan segalanya
Lepaskan segalanya
Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
my own revised version of the lyric
Divine Distinction - Hapus Jejakku
Berat langkahku menepikanmu
Bukan maksud ‘tuk bersikap begitu
Ingin kuungkapkan isi hatiku
Kuingin ini tetap bertahan
Perlahan mimpi berangsur memudar
Kucoba simpan bayang wajahmu
Perlahan hati mulai meragu
Kucoba terus kecap hangatmu
Aku bukanlah segalamu
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahmu
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hatimu hapus jejakku
Berat langkahku menepikanmu
Bukan maksud ‘tuk bersikap begitu
Ingin kuungkapkan isi hatiku
Kuingin ini tetap bertahan
Perlahan mimpi berangsur memudar
Kucoba simpan bayang wajahmu
Perlahan hati mulai meragu
Kucoba terus kecap hangatmu
Aku bukanlah segalamu
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahmu
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hatimu hapus jejakku
Lepaskan segalanya
Lepaskan segalanya
Aku bukanlah segalamu
Ada yang lebih baik untuk kamu
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hatimu hapus jejakku
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
"...Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu..."
played on my ear when I was trying to call her about 2 weeks ago. I was stunned coz it catchy, easly listening and I was sure I'd had heard it before. I was sure that it's Peterpan song (I recognized Ariel's voice and singing style) but I didn't know the title. I even called her twice just to listen to the lyric, since she didn't pick up...then at that very night, I searched for this song, got it from multiply and since then I've been addicted to it.
It felt like she was trying to say something with the song.....to me. Maybe I was just reading too much into it...Dunno...my logical mind has been battling with emotions these days and it's been losing...My emotions got the best of me....is it a good thing? Not sure bout it.
"You know I'm such a fool for you...You got me wrapped around your fingers...Do you have to let it linger...do you have to....do you have to...do you have to let it linger?"
We had quite long talk the other day, it's always nice to hear her voice....she said she thought someone who hasn't been in a relationship for so long (ie...me) usually either too picky or has something wrong. Well, what if I'm both? Have I been such a successful pdf that I pseudo-unconciously have a reluctancy to start something, to be in status quo.
Maybe I was trying too hard to rekindle the moment we had, a brief moment when I fell...But now she's the one that leaves me in doubt. We had a talk about this before and we came to a consensus about how things supposed to go. But after all these times, I never thought that I'd lose my mind...
I said I wasn’t gonna lose my head, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
I wasn’t gonna fall in love again, but then
POP! Goes my heart.
And I just can’t let you go,
I can’t lose this feeling.
Have I been trying too hard to rekindle that moment we had? I still remember her words at that time, maybe we were just carried away....it's all maybe...tried to talk but it's always been my weakness to express my thoughts verbally in serious context....why we're still in status quo... We need to move on.... I need to move on...
She read my MSN status where I quoted Gwen's song....
"And all I know is...You've got to give me everything...Nothing less 'cause...You know I give you all of me"
what if all of me is not good enough for her?
"...but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that"
Yes, she deserves more than that. I wrote on my previous blog, yes you like somebody and let say hypothetically the feeling is mutual, then what? I've been giving lots of thoughts and maybe some of them are too far ahead.....too focused on the compatibility issues...
Could I be good enough
Could I be good enough
If the going got worse
And the worse got rough
The days became endless
And harder than tough
I’d be good enough
Better than best
Would be simply to be good enough
If everything I give
Doesn’t seem like a lot
If it’s all that I got
Baby tell that could be good enough
Am I good enough for her? Am I better than the best?
Never thought that my fortress wall can be crumbled without being noticed. But that's ok, it has been repaired now. Dunno the rest of the story...coz it's still unwritten and though I have a little confidence, this doubt is still irritating.....will it end like James Blunt's song? I'll leave it up to you....God
"But it's time to face the truth...I will never be with you..."
A little recap, works been great, got ahead of the schedule, played bowling yesterday plus went home early, watched Music n Lyric on Tuesday...a great movie. And another great news I got today was that Livia's three months pregnant....wowwwww......congratss......!!!!
Last week I finally went karaoke with my buds and of course the first song that I sing was Peterpan - Menghapus Jejakmu. Here's the cover version....by me.
"...Aku bukanlah segalamu
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahmu
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar kucoba hapus jejakmu..."
Peterpan – Menghapus Jejakmu (cover version by me)
Terus melangkah melupakanmu
Lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
Jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan
Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
Kucoba untuk terus menjauh
Perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
Kucoba untuk lanjutkan itu
Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu
Terus melangkah melupakanmu
Belah hati perhatikan sikapmu
Jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan
Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
Kucoba untuk terus menjauh
Perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
Kucoba untuk lanjutkan itu
Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu
Lepaskan segalanya
Lepaskan segalanya
Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
my own revised version of the lyric
Divine Distinction - Hapus Jejakku
Berat langkahku menepikanmu
Bukan maksud ‘tuk bersikap begitu
Ingin kuungkapkan isi hatiku
Kuingin ini tetap bertahan
Perlahan mimpi berangsur memudar
Kucoba simpan bayang wajahmu
Perlahan hati mulai meragu
Kucoba terus kecap hangatmu
Aku bukanlah segalamu
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahmu
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hatimu hapus jejakku
Berat langkahku menepikanmu
Bukan maksud ‘tuk bersikap begitu
Ingin kuungkapkan isi hatiku
Kuingin ini tetap bertahan
Perlahan mimpi berangsur memudar
Kucoba simpan bayang wajahmu
Perlahan hati mulai meragu
Kucoba terus kecap hangatmu
Aku bukanlah segalamu
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahmu
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hatimu hapus jejakku
Lepaskan segalanya
Lepaskan segalanya
Aku bukanlah segalamu
Ada yang lebih baik untuk kamu
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hatimu hapus jejakku
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
Nanananana
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