post #233
"...before I fall in love...I'm preparing to leave her..."
that line from Robbie William's song, Feel played on my mind when I was thinking about this topic.
'People do not plan to fail. They just fail to plan.'
It's one of the quote I like. I think it's true. Maybe I'm too caught up with my own plans. Too busy scheming (somehow this word, scheming reminded me of Blair Waldorf from Gossip Girl serial). Everytime I met a girl who caught my attention...my mind developed few scenarios right away. Just like Robbie's song...I predicted how thing would go...how far and long the relationship would last...and before I knew...the moment has passed away since I took too many time to think. My friend told me that I often over analyzing things. Maybe it's my instinct to get all the necessary details I need to have before making any move...too tend in playing safe and not losing my self to the urge...
Maybe because I want a relationship that I know n I'm sure will last. If the prospect of that is too small...I ain't too keen to try...esp if I can see that it won't last very long. Yeah I know some girls are attractive but I don't see any future with them, so why bother trying. I tend to see from the compatibility factor. I know people change...but not that much. We all have a basic characteristics that define who we are as a person. If we cannot accept a person's behavior/characteristics now...don't expect he/she would change let say after marriage....because he/she won't. I guess this is what sometimes we forget due to the intoxicating drug called love. You know there's a saying...when you're in love...everything is beautiful... (yeah right, because you're too blind to see....you only see what you want to see..)
I sometimes visualized myself if I were in a relationship with the girl that I'm attracted to. First month...second...third...and so on. I even once thought about the birthday present I'd give her...a CDMA phone (pink colored) along with the number that represent her birthday (I'd also buy another one for myself, the phone and the similar number)...about where would I take her on our anniversary...where we would live....what are the names of our children and what school would they go..... talking about thinking ahead...this is wayyyyyy tooo farrr...lolzzz....
I guess it's also because I read Stephen R Covey book...he said we created things twice....first in our mind. We designed and visualized the things we wanted to build, then we realize those designs in life. Problem is I think I'm still in designing phase. Still scheming the best blue print and scenario for my life. I have vague image about it, but the route to get there is another thing. And girlfriend can be getting in the way if we do not share same/similar visions. We cannot grow together toward the same direction and it'll be impossible for us to stay together. Again I say that an honest communication is essential from the beginning of relationship so both parties knows what their counterpart's visions, dreams, aspirations...what are expected from the relationship.
Lately I found out that older girls are attractive. They don't whine too much...they're more mature and know what they want. They do not crave for 24/7 attention and accompany. I guess my cousin was right when she said that kids from dysfunctional family tend to grow up faster and reached maturity before the time they should. Beside...age is just a number, right? It doesn't determine one's maturity.
Well...I think now I have to put the plan in motion..aligning it with the schematics I've been building...and prepare for any consequences from my choices....like this saying...
Hope for the best...prepare for the worst
"...before I fall in love...I'm preparing to leave her..."
that line from Robbie William's song, Feel played on my mind when I was thinking about this topic.
'People do not plan to fail. They just fail to plan.'
It's one of the quote I like. I think it's true. Maybe I'm too caught up with my own plans. Too busy scheming (somehow this word, scheming reminded me of Blair Waldorf from Gossip Girl serial). Everytime I met a girl who caught my attention...my mind developed few scenarios right away. Just like Robbie's song...I predicted how thing would go...how far and long the relationship would last...and before I knew...the moment has passed away since I took too many time to think. My friend told me that I often over analyzing things. Maybe it's my instinct to get all the necessary details I need to have before making any move...too tend in playing safe and not losing my self to the urge...
Maybe because I want a relationship that I know n I'm sure will last. If the prospect of that is too small...I ain't too keen to try...esp if I can see that it won't last very long. Yeah I know some girls are attractive but I don't see any future with them, so why bother trying. I tend to see from the compatibility factor. I know people change...but not that much. We all have a basic characteristics that define who we are as a person. If we cannot accept a person's behavior/characteristics now...don't expect he/she would change let say after marriage....because he/she won't. I guess this is what sometimes we forget due to the intoxicating drug called love. You know there's a saying...when you're in love...everything is beautiful... (yeah right, because you're too blind to see....you only see what you want to see..)
I sometimes visualized myself if I were in a relationship with the girl that I'm attracted to. First month...second...third...and so on. I even once thought about the birthday present I'd give her...a CDMA phone (pink colored) along with the number that represent her birthday (I'd also buy another one for myself, the phone and the similar number)...about where would I take her on our anniversary...where we would live....what are the names of our children and what school would they go..... talking about thinking ahead...this is wayyyyyy tooo farrr...lolzzz....
I guess it's also because I read Stephen R Covey book...he said we created things twice....first in our mind. We designed and visualized the things we wanted to build, then we realize those designs in life. Problem is I think I'm still in designing phase. Still scheming the best blue print and scenario for my life. I have vague image about it, but the route to get there is another thing. And girlfriend can be getting in the way if we do not share same/similar visions. We cannot grow together toward the same direction and it'll be impossible for us to stay together. Again I say that an honest communication is essential from the beginning of relationship so both parties knows what their counterpart's visions, dreams, aspirations...what are expected from the relationship.
Lately I found out that older girls are attractive. They don't whine too much...they're more mature and know what they want. They do not crave for 24/7 attention and accompany. I guess my cousin was right when she said that kids from dysfunctional family tend to grow up faster and reached maturity before the time they should. Beside...age is just a number, right? It doesn't determine one's maturity.
Well...I think now I have to put the plan in motion..aligning it with the schematics I've been building...and prepare for any consequences from my choices....like this saying...
Hope for the best...prepare for the worst
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*clap* bravo! well done! love this one entry hehehe..
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