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Post # 85

Today’s Yuni’s bday. It’s been a year since my Gianicera post. Lately I have this urge to tell her. Maybe there’s a part of me that still wondering what was she feeling at the time (though it doesn’t matter anymore..it’s in the past), what she meant with her letters. But on the other hand I think, what’s the use of telling her. What do I expect by telling her? So I can move on? Haven’t I moved on? *sigh.. (currently, Jay Chou’s song Kai Bu Liao Kou is being played….what a coincidence) . Yeah, seven years is not a short time. What would her reaction be if I told her? I dunno… I really dunno. Will it make our friendship awkward? I accepted the fact that she just considered me as a friend a long time ago… there’s no point of telling her… but….. *sigh…..

Anyway, today’s been great. Played badminton again and I felt energized. Though I slept at 2 AM yesterday (or should I say this morning), after a long chat with a new friend who really need someone to talk to. Yesterday was also the first time in my life I stayed at the office till 10 PM, thanks to the internal sharing session and a little test case. I still feel tired…I need a nice, decent sleep.

Well, this post is dedicated for her who had been my OOA for quite some time. Happy birthday, wish you a successful year ahead. Best wishes for you…..always.


Here’s some of the lyric of Jay’s song I mentioned earlier….
Yeahh I could only watch from far away…coz the person beside her was (and is) not me…

就是開不了口
jiu shi kai bu liao kou
讓她知道
rang ta zhi dao
我一定會呵護著妳
wo yi ding hui he hu zhe ni
也逗妳笑
ye dou ni xiao
妳對我有多重要
ni dui wo you duo zhong yao
我後悔沒
wo hou hui mei
讓妳知道
rang ni zhi dao
安靜的聽妳撒嬌
an jing de ting ni sa jiao
看妳睡著一直到老
kan ni shui zhao yi zhi dao lao
就是開不了口
jiu shi kai bu liao kou
讓她知道
rang ta zhi dao
就是那麼簡單幾句
jiu shi na me jian dan ji ju
我辦不到
wo ban bu dao
整顆心懸在半空
zheng ke xin xuan zai ban kong
我只能夠遠遠看著
wo zhi neng gou yuan yuan kan zhe
這些我都做得到
zhe xie wo dou zuo de dao
但那個人已經不是我
dan nei ge ren yi jing bu shi wo

That is I cannot speak
To let her know
I will definitely scold loudly protecting you
I will also tease you to laugh
You are very important to me
I regret
Not letting you know
Quietly listening to you acting like a spoiled child
Looking at you sleeping
Constantly until when we’re old
That is I cannot speak
To let her know
That is such a few simple words
I am unable to manage
The whole heart hanging in mid air
I can only
Watch from far away
These I can accomplish
But that person is already not me

And The Moffatts’ song, Miss You Like Crazy..a song that brings fond memories. (I know it’s kinda lame…but hey…Moffatts was in that time…lolz)

The Moffatts - Miss You Like Crazy

I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

chorus:
I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

You are all that I want
You're all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

chorus

Girl I'm so down
When your love's not around

chorus

I miss you like crazy (4 times)



Yeahh.. I used to miss her like crazy…miss her….miss her…. But now I miss my sleep….so much, *going to bed…