Help Me

Post # 82

Here I am, sitting in my new workplace. The good thing from my new job is that I got a laptop which I can bring back home. I finished my training yesterday and now I dunno what to do. That’s the downside of this new job. I only know my job desc vaguely. Well in the contract it’s SAP Programmer but the training I got was for the end-user and I think I’m gonna be supporting the user. I’m soooooo bored. Don’t have much to do (in fact, nothing to do).

I even got the time to make some modification to my blog. Now it has search engine to search my previous posts and a hit counter. I even added footer. I dunno if I’m gonna like this job or will it inline with my long term goal. I don’t feel like it’s the right one. *sigh I know I should give it a time, but I’m not sure about it.

Well.. I guess I’ll just go along n keep my other options available. I think I’m experiencing what Phoenix said in her blog…between two choices and I’m still unsure which one to choose, yet it burden me thinking I might be making the wrong decisions.

….Help me make the right decisions, know which way to turn, lessons to learn, and just what my purpose is here….

I really could use some sleep now, got this terrible headache (I think it’s caused by my uncomfortable chair and desk position)


This is (in my opinion) the best song Nick Carter has ever sung. The lyric is absolutely great...


Nick Carter - Help Me

I wish I could define
All the thoughts that cross my mind
They seem too big for me to choose
I don't know which one's to lose
When I've fallen down so far
I think I'll never see your light
Bouncing off of me and
Shining down here from your eyes

Chorus:
Help me
Figure out the difference
Between right and wrong
Weak and strong
Day and night
Where I belong
Help me
Make the right decisions
Know which way to turn
Lessons to learn
And just what my purpose is here (Just what my purpose is here)
Oh yeah

It's like I got the signals crossed
With messages I can't decode
Half asleep, never wide awake in a (or) ya know
Complete overload
I got so much information here
And nothing I can really grasp
I should know the truth
But I'm too afraid so I have to ask

Chorus

Wanna know you
More than anything
I need you
In my every dream you're there for me
You love me
For who I am
No angel
Just an ordinary man

**:
Help me figure out
Why I'm stuck in the middle
Tryin to understand why
I can't quite
It's such a riddle
Got my eyes crossed
Thinkin so hard
And I know I'm missin the mark

Can you help me sort out
All this information
I'm just wrackin my brain
Payin attention
But I'm still lost
And at all costs
I (I)
I gotta know (I gotta know)
Oh

Chorus, **