Laura n Olga, you’re so beautiful

Today’s 30^th December 2005. The last working day in 2005. It also happens to be Friday. There are some highlights in this week. I still visited La Forca regularly. It was Robert Kingkong birthday on Dec 26. On Dec 27 I picked my sis at the airport. She’s back from Perth. Yesterday was Kelvin’s bday. I also got a great news yesterday. It turned that L’OREAL can produce the PO so I achieve this quarter target and also this year target. Wow…. I made it. In my first year I managed to achieve the target. Thank you so much God. I already gave up on this but He really showed that there’s nothing impossible. I talked to the MIS Mgr last week and he said that he couldn’t give the PO in Dec but yesterday I got his email saying the PO can be picked at the receptionist. God’s blessings are incredible. Yeahhhhhh……

Yesterday I also found out that Olga Lydia was one of the owners of La Forca. And the most shocking thing is that I once shook her hand when I was playing there. It was about last week. I played there w David, Indro n Pak Hardy. There was some kind of video shooting, n the model was beautiful. I didn’t know that it was Olga at the time. She’s friendly and said “Hi”. I said “Hi” too and shook her hand. She had flawless body. When I read her FS profile yesterday and David told me, I barely believed it. I thought she was just a model that they hire to promote La Forca. DAMN!!!! I meet Olga in person and shook her hand but I didn’t know that it was her…. I was so so so stupid…..I should asked her if she’s willing to take a picture with me. DAMNNNNN!!!!!!! I was such an idiot….. I just hope I can meet her again sometimes n when that time comes I’ll make sure I get to take pictures w her. She’s more beautiful in person.. Arggghhhhhhhhh…………

Today it’s like family day. David’s wife came to our office, Mbak Uchin’s daughter also came. I could make testimonials for KR, Indro n David. We practically don’t have anything to do since there are lots of companies that already close. Today’s also Kristin Laura Kreuk’s birthday. She’s 23 now. It’s been more than 3 years since I watched Smallville. She’s still sooooooo beautiful..ahhh….

Today I also have a gathering with WG’ers. Acham called Vie and I talked to him for awhile. I confirmed for this afternoon. Andy William’s Love Song is being played right now. Reminded me of Pauline. She looked slimmer in her FS pictures. Her birthday is also in December. So many people that I know whose birthday in Dec. Stani, Pauline, Nelly, Jeffry, VOC, Dave SH, Robert, Caca, Kelvin and also Laura (though I actually haven’t met her, but let’s just assume that I know her…;p)

New year is coming. It’s time for another one year reflection. What accomplishment that I’ve achieved this year. There were some GREAT times, and there were also some down times. But I can really feel God’s love throughout this year. I hope I can do better and better next year.. Be good, be better, be the best, be better than the best!!!!

Coz today’s a special day for Laura, I would like to dedicate this beautiful song for her coz she’s just so beautiful and gorgeous. I also dedicate this song for Olga Lydia, you’re also beautiful and down to earth….

Darren Hayes - So Beautiful

Whether I'm right or wrong
There's no phrase that hits
Like an ocean needs the sand
Or a dirty old shoe that fits
And if all the world was perfect
I would only ever want to see your scars
You know they can have their universe
We'll be in the dirt designing stars

And darlin' you know
You make me feel so beautiful
Nowhere else in the world I wanna be
You make me feel so beautiful

Whether I'm up or down
There's no crowd to please
I'm like a faith without a clause to believe in it
And if all the world was smiling
I would only ever want to see your frown
You know they can sail away in sunsets
We'll be right here stranded on the ground
Just happy to be found

You make me feel so beautiful
Nowhere else in the world I wanna be
You make me feel so beautiful

I have lost my illusions
I have drowned in your words
I have left my confusion to a cynical world
I am throwing myself at things I don't understand
Discover enlightenment holding your hand

You are..
So Beautiful

Yeah darlin' you know!
That you make me feel so beautiful


I really love this beautiful song at the moment. Thank you God for this beautiful year..

Just Another Phase

Just finished reading harry potter n the half blood prince. A very surprising ending with Dumbledore’s death and Snape finally showed his true self. I have been reading Harry Potter since I was in Perth at October and now, almost two months after, I got to finish it. It’s kinds sad that Dumbledore must die, but I think it opened new possibilities that the book won’t have to end on the 7^th series.

I also already finished Desperate Housewives last week. It was marvelous. Too bad Re had to die. This week was really Pool’s week. Mon – Fri I always played. I’m getting good at it….quite good. But the thing is just like my holiday in Perth, Smallville, Desperarte Housewives, and Harry Potter, it’s just another phase. Another stage, another chapter in my life. What will my life be?

“..I don’t wanna wait, for our lives to be over. I want to know right now what would it be.. I don’t wanna wait, for our lives to be over. Will it be yes or will it be…..sorry?”
Paula Cole’s song (OST Dawson Creek)..

Reminds me of Dumbledore’s saying in Harry Potter, “It’s the unknown that we fear from death and darkness”

About Someone

Teruntukmu hatiku, ingin ku bersuara
Merangkai semua tanya, imaji yang terlintas
Berjalan pada satu tanya slalu mengangguku
Seseorang….. itukah dirimu, Kasih?

Kepada yang tercinta inginnya kumengeluh
Semua resah di diri, mencari jawab pasti
Akankah seseorang yang kuimpikan kan hadir?
Raut halus menyelimuti jantungku

Cinta, hanyalah cinta…hidup dan mati untukmu
Mungkinkah semua tanya kau yang jawab
Dan tentang seseorang, itu pula dirimu
Ku bersumpah akan mencinta

Akankah seseorang yang kuimpikan kan hadir?
Raut halus menyelimuti jantungku

Cinta, hanyalah cinta…hidup dan mati untukmu
Mungkinkah semua tanya kau yang jawab
Dan tentang seseorang, itu pula dirimu
Ku bersumpah akan mencinta…….

The lyric above is Anda’s Tentang Seseorang… a great song…I love the words….
Will someone that I’ve dreamed of come in my life? Someone….

“…Somebody save me, let your warm hands break right through. Somebody save me, I don’t care how you do it. Just stay, stay, come on…. I’ve been waiting for you…”

Maybe I should start to look, not just wait…..

Linkin Park - My December

This is my December, This is my time of the year
This is my December, This is all so clear
This is my December, This is my snow covered home
This is my December, This is me alone

*
And I,
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I,
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I,
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I,
Take back all the things that I said to you

**
And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

This is my December
These are my snow covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need

*, **

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear

Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

Yeah…I would give it all away….just to have someone to come home to...just haven’t found that someone…. I feel that there’s something missing…and yet don’t know what it is. My perspective has been changed dramatically since my holiday in Perth….

made this blog in middle of Dec....n right now Stacie's song is playing on the background....there's reallt gotta be something more to life....more to.... more to life........ more to............life

Desperate Housewives vs Harry Potter

Like I said in my previous post, lately I’ve been addicted to Desperate Housewives. It’s a very brilliant and entertaining serial. The story and dialogues were just flawless. I’ve been watching since Nov 25 and now I’ve reached ep 21. Three more episodes to go. Because of this serial, I put aside my Harry Potter reading session. I’ve read until chapter 18 (page 300 something), but Desperate Housewives was very alluring it made me keep watching. Damn..it’s really addictive. There’s one character that I like the most from the 4 desperate housewives. She’s Bree Van De Kamp. I really love her character, Marcia Cross played it beautifully. There’s this one line that I remember the most, it was when Rex saw her trying to fix some kind of mug (They’re separated at the time), and Rex said to her why don’t just buy a new one. Her answer snapped me; She said, “I’d rather fixing what I already have”. A very smart line, really fit with their marriage situation. There’re lots of other brilliant lines that I won’t be able to quote all. Well, too bad in three more episodes I’m gonna finish watching it. Then I have to get back to Harry Potter and other reading session.

I didn’t come to the office at Thursday and Friday, due to my grandma’s loss. I went to Husada on Thursday, folded some papers (which was supposed to be money for the person who passed away) with Koko Sese n Suta. Went back from Husada at around 11
PM, but I still managed some time to watch DespHousewives. At Friday I went to Nirwana crematorium.

Yesterday was cleaning up day. I cleaned up my cupboard, organized the CDs and the papers. Cleaned my room afterward, and went to attend the afternoon mass. Finally got the blessings for my English bible. After the mass was finished, I saw that there were some blind men who’s singing gospel. It really hit me. I always ask for so many things in my prayer. I want so many things in my life that sometimes I just forget to be grateful of what I already have. A healthy body with no physical disability, isn’t that already a gift? Seeing those men reminded me to be grateful for what I have and try not to demand for so much more. I believe that God wanted to remind me that I already lucky to have fully functional eyes. That’s a thing about human. We just seem never satisfied with what we already have. I know that we can’t evolve if we’re just happy with what we already got, but I think sometimes we just have to lay back, counting all the blessings that we have already enjoyed.

Last nite I also heard Savage Garden’s (later I found out that it was supposed to be Darren’s) song, So Beautiful played on Sonora. I heard this song 1^st time at Tuesday; if I’m not mistaken, on my way to ICRC. From the 1^st time I heard it, I like it. Darrren’s voice was really beautiful. I went online and looked for the lyric and I got it. Reading the lyric really made me like the song even more. Unfortunately I haven’t been able to get it and also Darren’s latest album.

Today I brought my car to a car wash. I left it there and played WE for a while at Jef. I took my book which I forgot to bring back from last week. Eddy came at around 10 AM. I went back home at 10.30 AM. Went to Gadink at 11.30 AM to watch Harry Potter. Arrived there at about 12 PM, there were already quite lot of people queuing to get the ticket. I stood in the line and finally got the ticket with good seats for the 4 PM show. Robert came at around 1 sth PM, We went to Gramed for a while and then played pool until 3 PM. Ate at Gadink 3 food court and then watch Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire. It was excellent. Compared to the last Harry Potter, it was far beyond. Hermione (I mean Emma Watson) was getting more and more beautiful. After that we separated, Robert went with his gf, I went back home and now sitting in front of my pc writing this blog. I guess that’s all for these last 4 days. It’s been great. At this moment, I still like Peterpan’s Tak Bisakah. I also finally got the MP3 and the lyric.

Peter Pan - Tak Bisakah

hatiku bimbang namun tetap pikirkanmu
Selalu, selalu dalam hatiku
Ku melangkah sejauh apapun itu
Selalu engkau di dalam hatiku

Ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
Berharap temukan sisa hatimu
Mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
Mengerti kau di dalam hatiku

reff:
Tak bisakah kau menungguku
Hingga nanti tetap menunggu
Tak bisakah kau menuntunku
Menemani jalan hidupku

Ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
Berharap temukan sisa hatimu
Mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
Mengerti kau di dalam hatiku

Dara kau menjadi hidupku
Kemana kau tahu isi hatiku
Tunggu sejenak aku di situ
Jalanku jalan menemukanmu

reff

this blog was made in early Dec, but i haven't got the time to publish it back then....

November Rain

My last blog for this month..it started to rain quite often now. Once again I dedicated this one especially for Midori. Let’s start with the highlight. This week was definitely Desperate Housewives week. Up until now, I already watched 10 episodes of 1st season. It’s a magnificent serial. Creative plot, entertaining, and brilliant. Coz of this serial, my Harry Potter reading has been affected. The serial was as intoxicating as Smallville or 24 or Alias. It’s been another tiring week. Must catch up with the jobs that I have to finish for this month. The last three days have been raining. Rain in November, November Rain.
Last year I still working on my thesis n I remember it was around this month that I heard Maroon 5 – She Will Be Loved, which I instantly love.

Okay, let’s talk about Midori. Today’s her last day in I*******. She applied another job, and she said she’ll be interviewed next Monday. I paid her a visit at I******* for the first and the last time. We met and talked for a while. I wish her luck in everything she does. She’s been a very good listener and chat pal. She’s the only one who willing to go ol on MSN to chat w me. Though we’ve only known each other for about 2 months, I’m gonna miss her…a lot, her greenish comic sans font, her phrase of ‘cek cek’… Well, quoting Matrix Revolution, “Everything that has a beginning, has an end…”, but I’m sure this only ends our MSN session in work hours…lol…

Another news that I got from mom. She called me when I was playing pool and told me that grandma died today. We visited her last Monday night. Her condition was quite critical, she’s in ICU room. I’m not too close to her, but as far as I knpw she’s a good person. I can only pray that God gives her peace and place beside Him in heaven.

Well..don’t know what else to write, like I said this blog is intended to be a tribute for Midori, so I’m gonna keep it simple, since she’s a simple, kind hearted girl. My last message for her…I’m gonna miss our MSN session…piggy wiggy..

Let the rain come down
Let it fall hard
Cold, November rain
Coz the rain
Cannot erase the warmth
That you bring to my heart..

Guns n Roses - November Rain

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this
Such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come
And lovers always go
And no one's really sure
Who's lettin' go today
Walking away

If we could take the time
To lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine

So if you want to love me
Then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time
On your own
Do you need some time
All alone
Everybody needs some time
On their own
Don't you know you need some time
All alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time
On my own
Sometimes I need some time
All alone
Everybody needs some time
On their own
Don't you know you need some time
All alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you
Need somebody
Don't ya think that you
Need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

After this..I’ll go back to the dream….that came true..

Just Another Ordinary Weekend, With a Lil Twist

You and Me by Lifehouse is playing while I’m typing this. It’s been a week since I got back from Perth. The euphoria is fading away…Coz it’s you and me and all of the people with nothing to do, nothing to lose…And it’s you and me and all of the people and I don’t know why I can’t keep my eyes off of you…this song always reminds me of Smallville seas 4 ep Commencement, when Clark n Lana were dancing…

10.45 AM

Just finished an internal meeting. The Winamp now is playing Savage Garden’s To The Moon and Back…this song reminds me of Singstar in Perth. Used to sing this one with Livia or Zarija. Okay back to Smallville. My visit to Aussie yielded Smallville seas 5, though I only got until ep 6, but it’s excellent. Don’t know why, but the Smallville euphoria has also been fading. I’m not too obsessed with it, not like the first 3 seasons. Since my pc was still error on Thursday, I watched Smallville seas 5 ep 1 at Jef’s. It was a great episode, though the ending was not quite as I had expected. Kristin still looked gorgeous there, like she’s always was.

Friday still busy with work, IBM didn’t send any email which meant I didn’t pass the IPAT. Surprisingly, I didn’t feel too disappointed. I believe God has another plan for me, a better one. Later at night, I attended the prayer community. It felt so good, I felt…peace.

Saturday was a busy day. Went to ASEAN Hall to play badminton, after my so long absence. Talked to Julius about Accenture opportunity. After that went to VPG to fix my PC, but it was very crowded, so I decided to go to M2Mall. Brought my pc to Velocity Comp n got it fixed. When I was looking for lunch I met Ardi n April..Wow…I was surprised to see them…as a couple??? Wow… so I ate at Bakmi Naga, bought a new fan for my pc n also new DDR PC2700 RAM 256MB at Quantum n a case fan which cost me 240K. Finished the pc thing at around 3 sth PM. Stumbled to Ardi n April again on the elevator. Went to JCC after that to see Franchise exhibition. Got there at 4.30 PM, just as planned..Looked around until 5.30 PM, there were some interesting franchise such as Papa Ron’s Pizza, New Horizons, Alfamart, CFC, etc…After that I went home, tried the pc n it worked just fine, after I replaced one of the RAM module with the new one that I bought at Quantum. At 6.40 PM went to Eddy’s. I accompanied him to Holy Cross because he’s supposed to videotape the prayer community there. Met Ci Sia again there. Another peaceful moment. Singing, praising the Lord. We sang this year new Life in the Spirit anthem, Bersyukurlah Kepada Tuhan and Ku Kan Terbang. I couldn’t stop my tears from falling. At that moment, when I joined the other singing the song, I felt so grateful that I’d been given a chance to go overseas, to Perth. Not just went there but experienced living there. I just really really felt so thankful to God. Went back home with Eddy, slept peacefully that night.

Sunday morning I woke up at 7.40 PM. I was late to help Dianing selling ice cream at church. I quickly went there (after taking a bath of course). She’s with Kiki, Ancie n Tata. They asked me to help Eddy decorating for the Talent Show. Helped Eddy n then attended the 8.30 AM mass. The silly thing was I forgot to bring my English bible. After the mass Eddy drove me home, he borrowed my digicam for the talent show. I ate my breakfast, went to church at 11.30 AM to see the talent show. After that went to Gadink to watch Harry Potter. But when I arrived at Gadink XXI, there were lots…and I mean lotsssss of people who were queuing to get a ticket. So I cancelled the plan n went to Gramed instead. Read CHIP until 3 PM n then I went home. Watched American Pie: Band Camp n The Long Weekend after I arrived. One of the lines that I still remembered from The Long Weekend is “..live each moment as if it’s your last..” . They’re both good movies. Continuing my new habit, I read Harry Potter n The Half Blood Prince before I went to sleep.

Monday was okay. I think I can achieve for this month. Had conversation n lunch with Julius P. Went home and watched Mr. n Mrs. Smith. A very good movie, funny n entertaining. One of the great lines is when they’re talking about the new curtain that Jane Smith bought.

Jane : “What do you think about the curtains? If you don’t like it we can give them back”
John : “I don’t like em”
Jane : “You’ll get used to them”

LOL…..womennnnnnnnnn

And as usual, reading a chapter of Acts n Harry Potter before I went to sleep last nite.

Wow…done..finally, from Fri-Mon. My following posts will be backward story…going back to a dream, a very beautiful dream…

Can’t think of any song that fit to this post…

This blog originally written on Nov 22, but I can’t find the time to upload it till now, not to mention this awful inet connection at my office…

Short Statement

Today's my 11th day in Perth. I must leave this beautiful city soon
It's been mind blowing experience living in this city, though it's only a couple of days.
Friday went to Kings Park...very lovely place n then went to Wanneroo. Stayed up at Liv's place that nite.

Saturday had BBQ with my sis, Liv n Hendra. It's very windy, n then we took a long walk over the cove n the nice side residential area. Spent the nite at Liv's too. Tried the Oz beer...yummy..
Sunday went to Subiaco...a market. Reminded me of Glodok fruit market, only more organised. On the way to Subiaco, using 606 bus, since there was some kind of rail maintenance. Saw this very beautiful girl in the bus. Her skin was white n flawless. Just like a porcelain. She's asian, had this very cute face n she later on wore a hat, which made her looked more attractive. It's too bad that I had to get off at Subiaco. Lots of pretty girls here in Perth....
I'm going to Liv's place after this....Frienster has a new feature, shout out...so on this occasion I want to shout it out to the world..."I'm gonna miss you, Perth!!"

Silent Sigh

*sighing.....again....another post while I'm in Perth....a little flashback from the beginning of November. Watched Shark Tale in the night (31 Oct) n then went to sleep at around 11 PM. The next day I went to Liv's place in the morning for a while and I borrowed her DVDs...5 romantic comedy DVDs, all of them has Hugh Grant in it. I went back to my sis' place, she's working at the library so I watched the DVds..I watched About a Boy in which Silent Sigh is one of the soundtrack. It's a lovely song by Damon "Badly Drawn Boy" Gough. After that at 6 PM Livia called me and asked me to go to the cinema to watch a movie. I had to walk to the cinema cause the CAT had stopped operating (It's past 6.20 PM). Arrived there at 6.40 PM. We decided to watch In Her Shoes and to my surprise, one of the main role, Toni Colette was the one who played Marcus' mom in About a Boy, which I had just watched in the afternoon. What a coincidence....The movie was good, maybe a little boring for people who doesn't like a long dialog without any actions. And it was a long one too. The movie finished at 8.50 PM and then we went to Billy Lee's Restaurant to have dinner. The food was delicious. Took some pictures in front of the china town and then we went back home

Yesterday I went to Liv's place almost all day long. I went there in the morning. The internet was very very fast (they're using ADSL). Stayed there until 1 sth PM, then we grabbed lunch at Taka, a japanese restaurant. The beef teriyaki was very delicious. The tofu was quite different with the one in Indonesia...and the best part was there's chilli sauce and we could take it as much as we wanted...yeahhh......and it's also- quite cheap (Australian standard). After that we went around the city center, went to Angus n Robertson bookstore. I was particularly interested in a 2006 diary, but I think i better check the price in other shop..went back to their place w Hendra while Livia went to work. At 7 sth PM we (Me and Hendra) went to pick Livia up at her workplace, NYC Pizza. I was so full I had to say no to their invitation for dinner. We went back to their place, and then I went back home to my sis' place. I went straight to bed after having a shower

Today I woke up at 6.20 AM to watch European Champions League between Juventus VS Bayern Munich at Delle Alpi, Turin. I was surprised to know that Juventus was lost 1-3 to AC Milan on last week fixture. After a magnificent always winning start, Juve's run has come to an end. But the match was interesting. In the first half both sides waste each a golden opportunity. But in the second half the match was getting better. Capello made several subtitutions and replaced Del Piero who was not at his performance this morning (Aust time) with the Czech skipper, Pavel Nedved. Nedved really gave good impact on Juve's attacks. Trezeguet finally gave Juve a lead with his goal at 66th minute. Nedved had a role in this goal. But Deissler made it all square with his tremendous free kick at 66th minute. Juve side was stunned by this and they increased their attack. Later on he brought Camoranesi into the game, but he only played for about 15 minutes and soon replaced by Adrian Mutu. And in the 85th minute, Trezegoal scored his 2nd goal and this goal sealed Juve's victory over Munich. Unfortunately in the 89th minute Ibrahimovic was sent off after receiving two yellow cards. He played so well though he didn't score. After that me n my sis went to her campus. She showed me around and I took some pictures at Curtin. She introduced me to Carolyn, her liaison officer. Carolyn was very kind n warm. She told us about Perth Expo and about Australia encouraging people to migrate to Australia due to shortage of skilled persons in some areas. She's very nice. Took a picture with her and then we went to the library. My sister's working now and I'm sitting here in the library, thinking about this skilled migarion...It would be great to live in Australia. I would love to live here, but I have to consider this deeply n thoroughly remembering my mom... *sigh.... I'm overwhelmed by all of these.....

btw..today's Idul Fitri day. I almost forgot. I wonder what mom's doing right now? It's such a different atmosphere here, no wonder Yuni didn't notice at all

Well, my head start throbbing now so I'll leave you with Badly Drawn Boy's song, Silent Sigh.....an excellent song........*sigh

Badly Drawn Boy Silent Sigh

Come see what we all talk about
People moving to the moon
Stop baby don't go stop here
Never stop living here

Till it eats the heart from your soul
Keeps down the sound of your
Silent sigh
Silent sigh, silent sigh silent sigh
Keeps down all move me down
Could we love eachother

Come see what we all talk about
People moving to the moon
Stop baby don't go stop here
Never stop living here

Till it eats the heart from your soul
Keeps down the sound of your
Silent sigh
Silent sigh, silent sigh silent sigh
Keeps down all move me down
But don't love eachother

No don't love eachother
Never gonna be the same


8GB n growing..... lol..... thanks to hamlet n bluefa1ry...love you guys..*muachh

Day Four @ Curtin

My 2nd post in Perth. Now I'm sitting in Curtin Univ of Tech library. Im waiting for my sister. She's having a group meeting to discuss her group assignment'. It's been a blast these last few days. The weather was fantastic. The sun was hot, but the wind was so cold. Yesterday for the first time after so long I saw a rainbow again. I even got the chance to take some pictures of it before it's gone. Yesterday me n my sis went to St. Mary Cathedral, attended the 10 AM mass. Took some pictures of the cathedral. It was incredible. I almost lost for words describing how fascinating it was to experienced all these things. Things you'll never get in Jakarta, Indonesia. The people here are very organised. After that we went to Freemantle to eat @ Ciccerelo's, the best Fish n Chips place in WA. It's raining when we went there. Lots of walking tomorrow. We went back by Captain Cook's Cruise, along the scenic route of Swan River. For the first time in my life I rode a boat. It was quite big boat, n it was also quite big river. There's a part of the river that looked like a lake. The cruise was pleasant, seeing lots of beautiful n amazing scenery.

Rain in Perth was different with in Jakarta. It's only a drizzle. It rained a little for a while n then it stopped. And then it rained again for a while, and then it stopped. Maybe that's why they called it shower. After we got back from Freemantle, we took some pictures in front of Bell tower. Went back to my sis' place, ate dinner, watched Cinderella Story (Hilarry Duff n Chad Michael Murray), n then went to sleep.

Today woke up at 8 AM, ate breakfast. Ate rice again...I felt very full...went to Livia's place but nobody answer so I decided to take a walk n because it's kinda cold outside I went back to my sis's place. Try to read Harry Potter 6, but I only managed to read till 5th page (if i'm not mistaken). And then Livia sent me sms. I went to her place at around 10 AM. Went online there, n then Livia went to work. I played Emperor (Hendra showed me), and it was a very good game. Two thumbs up. I saw the saved/downloaded games, they were fantastic. And then we went to Liv's workplace, NYC Pizza. Liv treated us with lunch a slice of Pizza for each of us. It was delicious. That's what I called pizza, not like the ones in Jakarta, it was very crispy. There're lots to be seen while we're eating. Lots of pretty girls n women. Nice sight for my eyes..lol This was really heaven.....hehehehehehe....

Well, these last few days I took some trains...The trains reminded me of Savage Garden's song, I Knew I Loved You, which I guessed took setting in one of the train in Australia, remembering that they're from Brisbane.... *sigh Kirsten Dunst was very lovely in the vidclip........So..here's I Knew I Loved You by Savage Garden...for this beautiful city, Perth.....

Savage Garden - I Knew I Loved You

Maybe it's intuition

But some things you just don't question

Like in your eyes

I see my future in an instant

And there it goes

I think I've found my best friend

* :

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy

But I believe

**:

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason

Only this sense of completion

And in your eyesI see the missing pieces

I'm searching forI think I've found my way home

*, **

A thousand angels dance around you

I am complete now that I've found you

**, repeat **

All post in Perth are in Perth's time

Perth Phenomenon

Here I Am.. In Perth...for the first time in my life..sitting in Livia's ASP.NET class. The internet connection was damn fast....i downloaded Jay's Ke Qian which was sent by piggy. It took only couple of minutes.....yeahhhh....Livia n Hendra brought me around the city and it was marvellous. The environment, the traffic, the air, the people....the girls were pretty (at least that's what I saw). It's sure a very good place to live.......I lost words to describe the feeling I experienced, though I've only been here for couple of hours. I could only look in awe to see the life here. It's very well organized, very dramatically different with Jakarta. I haven't sleep from yesterday. I woke up at 6 AM yesterday and now it's 12.07 PM (Perth time) and I haven't got any real sleep. It sure a new record. I feel sleepy, but I still have the energy, maybe because I'm so excited to be here. I'm gonna spend the rest of this day with my sister and then tomorrow I'm gonna go with Hendra n Livia again..

It's FREAKIN AMAZIN to be able to experience this...

Well...that's all for my first post while I'm in Perth, a very nice city to live...hhmmmmmm....makes me wonder....No song today coz I can't find the appropriate song for this post...I can only enjoy and savor each moment....Yeahhhhhhhhh

Different Horizon

Thank You God. That’s all I wanna say right now. Lots of things happened since my last post. I’m gonna be brief cause my computer at home is not working properly, so I’m writing this journal using my office computer. Let me start with Saturday. Saturday was great. Played badminton again after absence so long (it was very intense, almost 3 hours non stop). Bought DVD R to be brought to Perth, n then relaxed at home. I formatted my computer (again) cause there were spyware attacks that’s very annoying, esp when I opened friendster. And then went to attend afternoon mass at 6PM. Met Eddy, and he asked me to go to Yakobus KTG. It was very surprising, I didn’t know what makes him wanted to go there, but I quickly realized that there was “someone” that Eddy wanted to meet there….lol…reminded me on Friday, I attended Campus Fire at Community Centre Taman Anggrek. It was excellent. Met Edward, Norina, and some other friends from Fons Vitae I, which I never met again until that night. I went to TA alone, Eddy said he’d come alone too, but later I found out that he went there with…*cough cough*. Okay, so we went to KTG, I met Angel again. She did her hair in this cute style, really made her look like a little girl. Eddy even said that she was looking cuter n prettier…too bad she’s too young…otherwise….hahahahahahahaha..

Sunday morning, as usual I went to Jef. Went to sleep at 2.30 AM, after talking on the phone with Midori. Played WE for a while n then went to Gadink. Met Midori for the first time. She was at Pizza Hut with DW and her brother. She said she was invited by her friend, which later I found out to be Yanti Sya. She was feeling perturbed cause she didn’t tell me that it was Sya who’d invited her. I’m totally okay with that actually, but nevermind. She really looked like her picture in FS, just taller. I never thought that she would be so tall….And just like she said, she’s not as chatty as she’s on the phone or over the MSN. And then I went to Diamon, she n DW back to Pizza. After that I met Richard n Norina, n then I met Sicnotz, also for the 1^st time. I looked around n then they (Sya, Laura, Yunita, Pinpin, Vera, Bellina, Johnson, Teguh) finally finished taking pictures. And then I went back home at around 6 PM. I turned on my computer n it happened. The tragedy. My computer just gave this long beeeeeeppppppppp sound. Didn’t know what happened. It just went like that. Damnnnnnnnnnnnnnn…..I really need my computer…I checked my HDD to Jef’s house, it was okay. Damnnnnnnn….Didn’t know what’s wrong. So…..my Sunday evening was a dull one….couldn’t make any journal whatsoever.

Monday, sales meeting, nothing quite interesting, just played pool for a while w Aries n I asked him about my comp prob. He said it was the VGA or memory. I went back home, tried it n nothing happened….still that beeeeeeeeepppppppppppp…….so I went to store with this bad temper…damnnnnnnn…….but I finally got to think clearly…everything happened for a reason. I remembered my prayer at Saturday. I didn’t ask God not to give me troubles but I asked Him to help me get through all of it.So I said to God, “God, I know You must have some plan for me, so I’m gonna leave it up to You”. And after I say that, I felt a warm feeling. I felt calmer, more peaceful. So I managed to think with a cool head, instead of being crancky…yeahhhhh….

Today, had this meeting with CIFOR (again). Went there at 8.30 AM. First, I was trying to pay for the ticket at 8AM, but the bank said they can’t do that until 8.30 AM. So I cancelled n then went to the meeting. The meeting went smoothly. Went back to office at 2.45 PM. I went to atm to draw some money, I decided to pay in cash. After I drew some money, I went to money exchanger. I got the US$ very fast n then I went to the ticket agent n finally paid my ticket. But still no news about my visa. Anyway, I really Thank God because though everything went not exactly like I had planned, but they turned out to be good, just the timing that’s not like what I had planned. God makes everything beautiful at HIS time, not ours. Thank You God….hopefully I can get the (good) news about the visa tomorrow, since I have to depart at Friday..btw…this song from Mel C is very good…it’s catchy n really cooled me down when I was in the verge of breaking down….lol….enjoy….sometimes we just need to see from a different horizon to see things more clearly

Melanie C - On The Horizon

People see different things
When they look on the horizon
Do you see dark clouds rolling in fast
Cos baby they ain't gonna last

And I can't see anybody else
I can't stop looking at you
Take this dream and make it true

chorus :
All I see is love, sweet love
On the horizon, oh yeah
Just one look in your deep brown eyes
And baby I'm flyin

This world could be so hard to take
Before I found you, I almost stopped trying
To see the good instead of the bad
But your hearts so true, that baby I'm cryin

And every single time we meet
I learn what love is for
It's taking less and giving more

chorus

And baby I don't wanna see pain in your eyes
Cos you're the one that sets me free
There's nothing in this world that can hurt us
If it's you and me, hey-yeah-yeah

chorus

All I see is love, sweet love
On the horizon, oh yeah
(All i see is love on the horizon)
Just one look in your deep brown eyes
And baby I'm flyin

I-I'm, flyin baby
(All I see is love on the horizon)
I-I'm, flyin baby

chorus

this post was made on Tuesday, Oct 25, 2005, but it's published at Thursday, Oct 27 due to bad inet connection @ office n my 'wounded' computer....

Midori

Wanted to play pool at lunch time, but it was closed. My bosses are gone; it’s very quiet around here. I’m sleepy at the moment, so I decided it’s a good time to update my blog.

On Tuesday night, I talked to Midori on the phone till 4.30 AM. We talked about lots of things. I slept for only about 2 hours. Woke up at 6 sth AM, but I felt quite fresh. And then went to office. Went online n Midori was already online too…. After that I went to Bogor w my manager. I had a meeting there. Arrived there at 10.45 AM. The place was very quiet. Lots of trees. It’s like in the middle of jungle. The environment was very peaceful, soothing. It’s amazing experience, got away from the city to see green environment. Met the HR Officer, she was very friendly. She treated us lunch and after that went back to the office. After I got back I was really sleepy……very very sleepy…..like now…..but managed to survive the rest of the day. Went back home, took a long nap n then went to store.

Today woke up at 6 sth AM again. (I’m listening to Lifehouse – You and Me…very wonderful song…..ahhh…Smallville……) Went to the office. Nothing much to do, my Windows Messenger was having some difficulties to sign in…I signed in at 10 sth AM. Then another session w Midori was started…..

I finally downloaded NSync – That’s When I’ll Stop Loving You, Midori’s fav song..She said if a guy sang this song for her truthfully, she would melt n fell in love with the guy…. Hmmmmmmmm……;p Quite good song, mellow pop….typical Boysband

Well that’s all for this short post. I give you the lyric of Midori’s dream song….I dedicate this post for her, who always online on MSN to chat w me (since I still can’t use my YM….she’s been very understanding…I’m touched….heheheheh), answering all my questions about licenses…;p she even called the vendor for me…Thanks Piggy Wiggy…..;p

Sleeepppppyyyyy……

NSnyc - That's When I'll Stop Loving You

When winter comes in summer
When there’s no more forever
That’s when I’ll stop loving you
(That’s when I’ll stop loving you)

I’m sure you’ve heard these words before
And I know it’s hard
For you to trust them once more
You’re afraid it all might end

And a broken heart
Is scared of breaking again
But you’ve gotta believe me

I’ll never leave you
You’ll never cry long as I am there
And I will always be there
You will never be without love

(Chorus)

When winter comes in summer
When there’s no more forever
When lies become the truth
Oh you’ll know then baby

That’s when I’ll stop loving you
That’s when I’ll stop loving you
(That’s when I’ll stop loving you)

As long as sunlight lights the sky
Light of love will be found in these eyes of mine
(These eyes of mine)
And I will shine that light for you
You’re the only one

I’ll ever give this heart to
What I’m trying to say is
Nothing will change this
There be no time that you won’t find me there

Cause I will always be there
You will always have all my love

(Chorus)

When this world doesn’t turn anymore
When the stars all decide to stop shining
Till then I’m gonna be by your side
I’m gonna be loving you forever
Everyday of my life

(Oh oh yeah yeah)

Well then you know baby
That’s when I’ll stop loving
That’s when I’ll stop loving
That’s when I’ll stop loving you…
(Oohhhhhh)

Chorus- repeat til it fades

Saturday, Sunday n Monday

Start typing at 7.45 AM. Last weekend was very rejuvenating. After a very long phone conversation w Midori at Friday night, I finally went to sleep at 2.30 AM. Woke up at 8.30 AM, so it was goodbye for my badminton schedule. So I continued my sleep till 1 PM. Yeah you read it right. 1 PM. Finally I got some nice, decent sleep after an exhausting week. Turned on the computer, but then I remembered mom had asked me to draw some money and buy her this thing (a dining set I think) at Pasar Ular. So I went to the Bank, draw the money but before I went to Pasar Ular I stopped by at Ramayana Plaza Koja. There was special price for Tira jeans, so I tried it and finally bought it. After that I went to Pasar Ular and bought the dining set. Went back home, watched The L Words season 1 and then took a nap (sleep again??? Man, I was such a pig….lol). At 4 sth PM Eddy called me, he said that it was very cloudy and he might not bring his motorcycle (we were planning to go to Yakobus for PW), I said okay. N then at 5 PM it began to rain and it was very very hard…but I was determined to attend the afternoon mass, so I went to church. Arrived at church but there were a very few people who had come. It was still raining and for the first time in my life I experienced a mass that was attended only by 50 people…maybe less (I’m talking about mass in church). My pants were still soaked from the knee below though I used an umbrella.

Sunday morning I woke up at 8 AM. Mom was getting ready to go to church; we wanted to take cheap medical check up at the church. Arrived at 9 AM, took the medical check up, met quite lot of people that I know. At 10 sth we went to Carrefour Cempaka Mas. It was very crowded, not as crowded as the last time I went there, but it was still crowded. I ate ketupat sayur at Yono’s…he makes the most delicious ketupat sayur. And then we went shopping at Carrefour. Mom bought few things and I bought a luggage for my Perth plan…;p. Went back home, arrived at home at 2.30 PM. I took some sleep….(yeahh….another one) and then watched L Words and then went to store.

Yesterday I woke up feeling very rejuvenated. All of my batteries were fully charged…;p. Went to work, had sales meeting, got 89% and just like these past few days, chatting w Midori. Played pool at lunch time w Julius, I played quite good actually.. n then after lunch went to ICRC w Mine, had a meeting there. Went back to the office in the afternoon and then went back home at 5 PM. My computer was attacked by spyware and trojans so I installed spysweeper n cleaned up my computer. Went online after that to check, the program worked quite well, just need to remove this annoying message box..still haven’t figured out how. N then met my sis on MSN, chatted w her. Hendra and Karen was online too, so I also chatted w them. And then L went online and we had this interesting chat. It was started by a simple question then it led to interesting conversation. After that I went to store. I felt this tingling, I didn’t know if it was because I had a chat w L or the topic of the chat that tingled me. It brought old memories…n some old feelings too I guess. It’s like there’re sparkles of fire…damn…I guess it’s because the chat…not the person..well maybe I got this Clark Kent @seas 1 syndrome again..never mind…Last night finally finished John. Read from chapter 18-21 n then went to sleep.

Today woke up quite early, 5.45 AM, feeling energized. Went to the office and now still writing this post. I’m gonna end here…must prepare for this n next month prospects…. I really like this song at the moment…A1 – Caught in the Middle

Caught in the Middle Lyrics


Paul: You said that love was just a state of mind
A puzzle made of pieces you can't find
And for me you never really had the time
I was blind, oh-oh

Chris: And everything that you meant to me
Is written in the pages of my history
But it's over now as far as I can see
Suddenly

Ben: Things are so different, now you're gone
I thought it'd be easy, I was wrong
(And now I'm caught) And now
Caught in the middle

Ben: Even though I'm with someone new
All I can think about is you
(And now I'm caught) And now
I'm caught in the middle

Mark: Moving on she brings me brighter days
Thoughts of you are in my mind always
Like a memory that I can't erase
It's here to stay, Wow...

Ben: Things are so different, now you're gone
I thought it'd be easy, I was wrong
(And now I'm caught) And now
Caught in the middle

Ben: Even though I'm with someone new
All I can think about is you
(And now I'm caught) And now
I'm caught in the middle

(All: So different) Chris: It's so different
(All: So easy) Paul: Oh, so easy
(All: But I can't get over you) Ben: And I can't get over you

(All: So different) Paul: It's so different
(All: So easy) Chris: So easy
(All: But I can't get over you) Ben: And I can't get over you, No babe

Ben: Things are so different, now you're gone
I thought it'd be easy, I was wrong
(And now I'm caught) And now
Caught in the middle

Ben: Even though I'm with someone new
All I can think about is you
(And now I'm caught) And now
I'm caught in the middle

Deep Thoughts Trilogy Part 2 : Life

Like usual I like to start with flashback of the monumental events (If I can say monumental..lol) in my life since my last post. It’s been almost two weeks since my last post. Things went so fast and suddenly its already middle October.

Started with Sunday, October 2^nd 2005. I went to NAV again. This time Jef came along. We sang for 2 hours at NAV 3, Bowo n Maria also came..I don’t have to tell the big boss…..David…hehehehehehe. He returned some CDs of mine. After that we (me, Jef n Eddy) went to C4 Cempaka Mas. It was very crowded…so many people. Maybe because it was the beginning of month or maybe because Moslems were about to begin fasting. Yeah, fasting month began at Oct 5. After Sunday, the week went quite slowly….but it was actually quite busy week. Went to Bandung for he 2^nd time with my new Business Manager. Ate at Sindang Reret again, this time I tried the Fried Rice n iced lemon tea. It was very good…….Most important event on that week was deciding to go to Perth. I applied a passport with lots of help from my aunt. Thank you so much aunt….Got the passport at Tuesday, Oct 11. I’ve been busy in providing all necessary documents to apply for a visa. I’m so bored but also excited thinking the possibility to go to Australia. At Oct 8, went to Gadink w Grace n Dana. I met some friends there, Wendy, Conan n friends who ended up joined us (we played pool together) and Ronaldy. We closed our little “reunion” by eating n talking at café Excelso..

Midori…..I met her (not a real name…hehehhe) at YM and after that we often chat n send emails. She’s feisty….maybe because of her zodiac..which I can’t reveal here,…;p She’s attractive.. two nights ago I chatted with uknee,ll,etc….Damn….i’m so sleepy… I still have to get the voucher for visa application…30 minutes from lunch time…I…. Midori just replied my email…..Oh well, nevermind…

Life….Oh Life…. Oooo Life…. (Desree’s song, Life)…isn’t it funny how time seems to slip away so fast…One minute you’re happy the other you’re sad…..(The Moffatts song, If Life Is So Short)…Life….I’ve given lots of thought about it and still……what’s the purpose of life? Why do we live? What’s the most important thing in life? How do you define success? Wealth? Fame? Financial/Social status?

Those are the questions I still trying to figure out….I’m gonna continue later…my mind is quite a mess now……maybe after lunch (n some pool session) it’ll get clearer.

A new day…continuing this post…today is Friday. I’m freee…..for the rest of the day….lol….the bosses are having management meeting……yeahhhhh…listening to JTL – My Lecon right now…well today is quite good…I finally knew the title of the song that I was looking for so long… It was I Say a Little Prayer by The Holy Groove (I’m not sure with the singer….)….writing this post while making bullboard….now the song is Jay Chou’s Qi Li Xiang…

Okay let’s get back to business…..Life…how do you measure success in life? What is happiness? Do you measure your happiness by the amount of money you have? More money means more happy? A friend of mine once asked, ”Are you happy with your life (in scale of 1-10)?” I said I give 7. Personally, I think success is more than just how much money you have, but I think it’s more like what have you accomplished. What’s your legacy for the world…well..at least how you make an impact in the lives of people who’s around you…your friends…etc..i’m not saying that money is not important….but it is not everything…yeah…life is not fair…sometimes we see there’re few people who seem to have so much money….but does it mean that they happy? dunno… and what about the poor…sometimes when I’m at traffic light and see the street kids (anak jalanan in Indonesian) I can’t help but wonder…what does the future hold for them? I don’t know if they’re thinking about their future, coz I think all they can think of is how to survive each day..Are they happy with their life? What does happiness mean to them? The gap between the rich n the poor is way too deep…to big to bridge……

Well…to me…everything means nothing without God, my family n friends…I really like Alicia’s song If I Ain’t Got You..well…I think I’m gonna end here….I already booked 2way ticket to Perth …hopefully the visa can be approved asap so can meet my sis, hamlet n bluefairy… after this I’m gonna write an email for Midori….she sent me her pics from high school….she’s look very different…she seems much more confident now…..okay….enjoy the song…….

Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the visible things
Define what’s within
And I’ve been there before
But that life’s a bore
So full of the superficial

Chorus :

Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love 'em
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

Chorus twice

If I aint got you with me baby

oh said nothing in this whole
wide world dont mean a thing

If I aint got you with me baby

Deep Thoughts Trilogy: Part I

I’m overwhelmed by all the things that happened lately. For this trilogy I’m gonna use my native language which is Indonesian (but I still mainly use English). My last post was right before I went to New Life in the Spirit retreat. The retreat itself was a mind-blowing experience. My last retreat before this one was back in my third n final year in high school. It was also an unforgettable experience.

….(silence)….. It’s really hard for me to decide where to begin….Well, I better begin with the New Life In the Spirit Retreat. Like I said earlier, it was incredible. Lots of things happened during the retreat. The peaceful environment (Maybe that’s why people like to go out of the city) gave new energy. Met this attractive girl there. I was quite mesmerized by this girl. She was…ermmm…let’s say hyperactive….she’s a total sanguine and I was attracted by her sincerity. She’s so naïve… (in good way)..and later I found out that she’s only 15 (I found out after I asked her to fill in her data in my book)….No wonder. Well, she’s very friendly….to everybody….yeah…..why am I babbling like this…the point is she’s a very attractive girl but she’s too young for me… (at least that’s what I think)..and too popular…and also she's too childish...what can I say....she's just 15..That’s why I didn’t make any approach, I managed to control my feelings….I thought a lot about the possibility of us being together…n about the prospect….maybe I was thinking too far ahead….but I don’t want to be just caught in the moment without giving at least some consideration about where it would lead….Which remind me of this one question that people still haven’t found the answer that can satisfied everyone coz everybody has their own answer. What is Love?

Switch to Indo…

Buset deh…baru bisa nerusin nulis postingan blog ini pas di penghujung bulan. Sekarang tanggal 30 September, n postingan blog ini mulai ditulis dari tanggal 5 September. Okay setelah retret. Okay, abis retret orang TELKOM pada training. Ada 2 batch, yang pertama pas tanggal 12-16 September. Pas tanggal 16, staf Ford Foundation juga training, jadi seminggu itu sibuk banget ngurusin orang training. Ga ada waktu sama sekali buat update blog.

Not to mention that my phone line was dead since I got back from the retreat. But it actually gave me the time I needed to read holy bible. Yeah…can you believe that? I’m reading a bible….wow…something that really need steel determination…Well anyway, I guess that what’s called blessings in disguise. God wanted me to have the time I need to know HIM better and with the dead phone line, He ensured I wouldn’t get distracted. Sometimes we have to see from a different angle to understand, to see the bright side, coz the way we see things will affect the way we think and act. At this moment I already finished till Luke. I started reading new testaments from September 5 and still continuing. What made me have this new spirit in reading bible? It’s none other because of this remarkable lady, Ci Sia. She’s one of the speakers on the New Life in The Spirit Retreat. In the last day she said something to me that really inspire, though it’s simple but it really gave me the push (I need) to read bible. It’s very amazing how God touches us through other people.

The week after that, 19-23 September 2005 was quite dull. Have I mentioned that I have a new sales manager? Yeah…now I have a new “boss”…..hehehehe. He joined the company work for at beginning of Sept…he was sales too couple of years ago. So far so good. At Sunday, September 18, 2005 I went to Glodok n bought 24 seas 4. Yeah!!!!! The DVDs were all there…so that week (19-25) was 24 week. I only slept for 5 hours that week. And to close that crazy week, at Sunday, 25 September 2005, I went to NAV I with David n Peppy. We sang for 2 hours plus 2 pitcher of beers ..It was GREAT. It’s been a while since we last went put together especially with Peppy. Unfortunately Agus couldn’t join us coz he’s in Bandung at the moment. In the afternoon I went to attend mass at FX.

This week….another TELKOM class, the 2^nd batch that I mentioned earlier….yesterday I had a meeting with Frisian Flag..The office was far from my office…I will have a lunch with the TELKOM staffs today…

Okay, back to the main topic, what is love? It’s a question with a million answers, maybe more. I believe each of us has our own definition of love. How can you tell when you’re in love? When you wanna be with a person all the time? When you can’t stop thinking about that person? When you feel like there’re million butterflies in your stomach every time you’re near that person? When you feel like you would do anything for that person? When you feel safe around a person? When your heart beats a million times (okay, maybe not a million) faster whenever that person’s around? How long it takes to fall in love? First sight? First date? First kiss? A week? A Month? A Year? How can you be sure that you’re in love? Is it true that love is blind? About my case with that girl (back to the beginning of this post), I think it’s just a temporary attraction. I don’t fall in love easily. I guess my love is not a blind one. I always think about the relationship very thoroughly. I don’t want just to jump and see for myself. I prefer have some kind of view about where the relationship will lead. Hmmmm…..lots of questions and I personally can’t describe what love is. I guess I can say that love can be felt, but can’t be defined…one thing for sure, I don’t believe love at first sight, lust at first sight is much more possible. But then again, it’s just me.. I’m sure there’re lots of people who believe in love at first sight, who have experienced love at first sight. How can that be? Once again back to the love definition itself. We have our own definition and standard of love. My definition/standard of love may not be the same with even my best friend’s. We all grew up in different environments which make our characteristics unique. Those differences make us see things in different perspective.

In Indonesian we have another word that can be used as synonym of love. The word is sayang. We surely love our friends and in Indonesian I can say that “aku menyayangi teman-temanku”. That’s why in my opinion love is much more intense than “sayang”. The most appropriate example is God’s love. His love is unconditional one. Our parents love us unconditionally too. They don’t care if we’re good or bad, they just love us. I read a person once wrote this, “My parents can not like me, but they always love me”.

Well my head is starting to get overload with all these stuffs. The point is, love is an essential part in life. I’m sure we all experienced love in our own way. We need love in our life. Life without love is not life at all. And I also believe that a simple gesture can show other that we love them. Give a little love to everybody, brighten up their lives. If we all do that, I’m sure the world will be a better place to live.

Right now I really love this song, one of two songs that I love the most back in the retreat. Thanks to Eddy who share this song with me. Like I mentioned in my previous post, the more we give thanks, the more blessings God gives.

Bersyukurlah Pada Tuhan

Halleluya kumemujimu Tuhan
Karena kasihMu tak berkesudahan
Biarlah yang bernafas memuji sang Raja
Di atas bumi dan di dalam samudra

Tanganku kuangkat padaMu
Mensyukuri rahmat yang Kau beri
Kakiku melompat bagiMu
Sebab rahmatMu baru setiap pagi

Bersyukurlah kepada Tuhan
Sebab Ia baik, sebab Ia baik
Bahwasanya untuk selamanya
Kasih setiaNya, kasih setiaNya