MoM

post #175

Writing this blog while listening to Gwen's song, 4 in the morning. I've been really addicted to this song since the first time I heard it on the radion on saturday. I've loved it ever since. I really like the bridge and chorus part. The lyric is excellent. Gwen's voice is so clear and fits the song perfectly. Today when I arrived at office, the first thing I did after checking my emails was looking for this song. Got it from some girl multiply along with the lyric. Then I downloaded the clip from youtube. I love you internet...What would I be without you.

As usual monday is hectic. There's always some kind of MoM (Madness on Monday). Got this email from the Functional Consultant in Perth saying that the program I developed has some defects. I quickly looked into it and made some adjusments to resolve it. Finished it before lunch and at lunch I got the time to watch Gwen's clip. She has nice blond hair and in some angles, she loooked like Elisha...darnnn....

Not too much madness after lunch, just some minor tasks...and at 6 PM the system had to be shut down for maintenance, meaning we can all stop working...lolzzz.... Welll, I took the time to make some modification to my blog, gave it some new, minimalistic touch. But I still haven't really satisfied with the color. I'm gonna make some experiments later on. Had a voice chat with a friend after quite some time. Then went home... then I have this urge to write a blog...esp about my madness for this song, this madness on monday....so I dedicate this blog to Gwen and her excellent song, 4 in the morning. I hope you enjoy this song as much as I do.


Gwen Stefani - 4 in the morning

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot

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And all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less 'cause
You know I give you all of me

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I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
'Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby, if we're gonna do it, come on, do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't wanna lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more

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Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have

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Give you all of me
Give you everything
Give you all of me

HoH

post #174

House....or Heroes?
House of course, though Heroes is nearing it's season finale. I found House is more appealing and quite addictive. Been watching it lately. It's a very good serial (plus there's Sela Ward for the last few episodes I watched). This house character is very interesting. Cold, manipulative, stubborn, loner, yet a very goddamn great doctor. The story line is good...one of the line when he was having dinner with Alison, "You live in a delusional world where you think you can fix everything, that's why you need me. Because I'm damaged" It reminded me of Seether's song, Broken. Really like Amy's voice in this song, adding the sad nuance.

I'm broken...You're gone away, you don't feel me here....anymore...

Seether (feat Amy Lee)- Broken

[Shawn Morgan]
(Verse 1)
I wanted you to know
That I love the way you laugh
I want to hold you high and steal your pain …away
I keep your photograph
And I know it serves me well
I want to hold you high and steal your pain

[Shawn Morgan & Amy Lee]
(Chorus 1)
because I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

[Shawn Morgan]
(Bridge)
You've gone away
You don't feel me here....anymore

[Amy Lee]
(Verse 2)
The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

[Shawn Morgan & Amy Lee]
(Chorus 2)
cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

[Instruments]

[Shawn Morgan & Amy Lee]
(Chorus 2)
cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

[Shawn Morgan & Amy Lee]
(Chorus 1)
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone [Seether]...away

[Shawn Morgan and Amy Lee]
(Bridge)You're gone away
You don't feel me here....anymore

PoP

post #173

Though the impulse has already subsided, I think I still need to write this entry. Just a short one. This week has been great. I didn't have to work as hard as previous weeks. It's been going smoothly. Well I still had to work late, but I enjoyed it. I didn't consider it as a very big burden to bear. Why has it been different this week?

Hmmm..... I think what differentiate is that I often pray this week. Dunno why, I have this longing to 'sit a while and chat' with God. And it's usually brief, I'm not too keen about long prayer with so many words coz maybe because I'm lazy...hahaha. Anyway, starting and ending a day with simple prayer makes the day feels different. Like there's this infinite energy that boost up my morale, lifting up my spirit. And I could see things in different (and better) perspective, felt how good God has always been (and always will). Even yesterday when I was on my way home from TA I had this urge to sing and there I was, at the Djuanda traffic light, singing out praises like nothing else matters.

Speaking of TA, a friend of mine told me that Galleria is about to go bankrupt and that it gives 50% discount for notebook bags. That's why I went there. Didn't actually get what I wanted, instead I think I got a better one. More pricey though, but it worthed it.

The point of this entry is about PoP (Power of Prayers). Never underestimate it. A simple thing that can give amazing effects. Thank you God


Josh Groban and Charlotte Church - The Prayer

I pray you’ll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don’t know

Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
To a place where we’ll be safe
La luce che to dai

I pray we’ll find your light
Nel cuore restero
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarchi che
When stars go out each night
L’eterna stella sei
Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c’e
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we’ll be safe.
Sognamo un mondo senza piu violenza

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace e di fraternita

La forza che ci dai
We ask that life be kind
E’il desiderio che
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a se
Another soul to love

Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child

Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we’ll be safe
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salvera

WoW

post #172


Wow. It’s been a long time. This May I was really taught the meaning of working my ass off. I never thought that I’ll be willing to WoW (Work on Weekend). But the project is in a critical period and we must pour out all of our energy (and time) to this project. Yeah, like I haven’t been working nearly 12 hours a day. But I must admit that it’s true what they say about you’ll never know till you try. I tried (plus a little bit forced) to work on weekend and it turned out not as bad as I had thought. Well, maybe because there’s gonna be some compensation (I’ll get additional leave days), or maybe because the atmosphere of working on weekend is not as stressful working on weekdays.

Wow, my brain still functioning properly. I thought it’ll be degenerated after a period of working like horse, just wake up, go to work till late at night, go home, watch House (an episode or two), sleep for a while and then back to wake up again. Speaking of House, it’s a good serial, very interesting and I kinda like the sarcasm the main character has. Recently I also just realized that I had bought Lost season 2, but it seems to slip out of my mind and I just let it laying there. Well, I’m gonna watch it after I finish watching House.

Wow, three weeks ago (If my memory still serves me correctly) I met Lorena at church. I saw her at communion and then after the mass she called me and we talked for a while. She had turned down an offer from Astra and she’s been promoted to manage a branch now. Wow, didn’t see that coming. She’s becoming more beautiful and mature. Too bad she already has a bf, otherwise… Well, maybe the timing just ain’t right. When we were close back in junior high, all my friends told me that we’re compatible. But at that time there’s no vibe. And now there is? Or this is just my mind messing up? I think the latter one is correct.

Wow, last week I went to Mary Mother of Carmel church and the construction was done. It looked more beautiful. There’re some changes on the altar too, made it more colorful and live, not just plain white, but still radiating the kind of serenity that I found in churches. Too bad tomz had another appointment so he couldn’t attend the evening mass with me. It’s also been a tiring Saturday. Working half day in the morning, went to see automotive fair with Tomz till late in the afternoon, attended evening mass at Mary Mother of Carmel. Then this week just came in a blink of an eye.

Wow, played pool again after so long on Thursday. Robert invited us to eat together at La Piazza Pizza hut. It’s like zoo class ++ reunion, minus Ardi, Dave, Steph and Yuliani. It’s been ages since we got together like that. After eating, we went karaoke at Happy Puppy and then played pool while waiting for the rain to stop. There’s this decorative car parade at Gadink which caused heavy traffic jam around the mall. Swarm of people gathered to see the parade but I didn’t see the cars…well I just only took a glance and didn’t really bother it.

To close this week, yesterday I went to Mayapada Tower with Robert, attending a CYR (Catholic Youth Revival). The event was so so (since it’s targeted to reach out teenager and I definitely had passed that category), but the drama was very good. The MC was attractive and very appealing. Robert said that she had this lucky face, face which if a person has it, he/she won’t be poor. I just chuckled to hear that. But she did have a pretty face and nice body. And to my surprise, I saw Susan too. She’s unbelievably gorgeous. It’s been almost a year since the last time I saw her (at STC parking lot), but she’s still as gorgeous as I remembered, If not more. Her face was just perfectly exquisite. People can tell the tenderness of her face, the smoothness of her cheek from a distance. I was surely Wow-ed. In a comical style, my eyes would have jumped out and my mouth was drooling like a fountain. Even Robert agreed that Susan was Wow! I think it’s ok to quote Jay Chou’s song…”a loveable woman that makes my heart aches” Susan’s radiant beauty really eye catching. Both Marissa (later out I found out that the MC name was Marissa) and Susan were dancer…another Wow…hahaha. Too bad I didn’t stay till the event was finished. Robert already had another plan. He invited us to join him on his so called bachelor party at Mille. He already booked a balcony room. It was such a blast. I had two glasses of meteor and half of glass of long island. I think my body tolerance to alcohol has decreased, which is a good thing. It was like being hit by a hammer…lolz and at around 4 AM I had my last Wow. There was this girl and she seemed to know me. I looked back at her, and it took me some time to recognize her. It was Linda, a high school friend of mine. It turned out that she went there with her husband and her sister married to Robert’s cousin. Unbelievable. What a small world. And as usual we grab a bite at Heroy for breakfast. Just like good ol’ days… hahaha

Wow, I can still write coherently. I think now I need to rest my brain to face the following week which I’m sure will be as hectic as previous ones. Over and out.

Spectacularly Superbly Satisfying

post # 171

Yeahhh......The title is S3....for Spiderman 3. Just watched it today with my colleagues. I was speechless.... It's THE BEST movie I've seen in 2007... It had action, romance, with a witty twist of comedy all blended in a great story...though there were some 'jump' on the storyline..but overally it's a MUST SEE movie... Why do I love Spiderman so much? Well...maybe because he's not perfect like Superman...He's more human. He has these little things in his life that he has to deal with everyday. I was rooted to my seat during the movie, enjoying every moment of it. Kirsten Dunst was lovely too, though she had a little 'competition' with Bryce Dallas Howard...;p.

Saw Kirsten Dunst reminded me if Savage Garden's vidclip, I Knew I Loved You in around 1999. She still has this sweet face, kinda sad one sometimes, but more mature. It's not just Savage Garden song that came to my mind when I watched Spiderman 3. Reminded me three years ago, when I watched Spiderman 2 twice. As far as I remember it's the only movie I've ever watched twice, in theatre. Things were quite rocky at that time with my ex. I knew it, tried to work it out, but it didn't work. I must say, Spiderman 3 is better than the two movies before. It just spectacular.

No more full moon today. The sky was a little bit cloudy. There're few lines from Spiderman 3 that I remembered...Aunt May word of advice to Peter...I didn't want us to run into things only relying on love...we're so young that time....You must put your wife ahead of you... And Peter's word at the ending scene...We always have choices and then choices we make, define who we are....(A little bit similar with a quote from Smallville....).....Anyway.... I strongly recommend you to watch this movie..really...

And for MJ....here's a song for you....you know that you always have the best of me when you need it... ;D


Bryan Adams - The Best of Me

Sometimes words are hard to find
I'm looking for that perfect line
To let you know your always on my mind
Yeah this is love
And I've learned enough to know
I'm never lettin' go
No no no, won't let go

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When you want it
When you need it
You'll always have the best of me
I can't help it, believe it
You'll always get the best of me

I may not always know what's right
But I know I want you here tonight
Gonna make this moment last for all your life
Yeah this is love
And it really means so much
I can tell from every touch
No no no, can't get enough

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Yeah, the best of me

Oh this is love
And I've learned enough to know
I'm never lettin' go
No no no, won't let go

[you'll always have the best of me]
[you'll always get the best of me]

You'll always get the best of me, baby
I can't help it, believe it

Oh, when you want it
When you need it
[you'll always] have the best of me
I can't help it, believe it
You'll [you'll always]oh, you'll always get the best of me, baby

Ooh, when you want it
When you need it
[you'll always] have the best of me
Oh, this is love
You got the best of me
Oh, you got the best of me

Dance in the Moonlight

post #170

4th day of full moon. Tonite the sky was clearer than yesterday I suppose since I could see several stars up in the sky. It's been a very exhausting week, thank God my work is done...at least for this week. Now I can relax a bit....enjoying the moonlight..

Modjo - Lady

Lady
Hear me tonight
'Cos my feeling
Is just so right
As we dance
By the moonlight
Can't you see
You're my delight

Lady
I just feel like
I won't get you
Out of my mind
I feel loved
For the first time
And I know that it's true
I can tell by the look in your eyes

Lady
Hear me tonight
'Cos my feeling
Is just so right
As we dance
By the moonlight
Can't you see
You're my delight

Lady
I just feel like
I won't get you
Out of my mind
I feel loved
For the first time
And I know that it's true
I can tell by the look in your eyes

Lady
Hear me tonight
'Cos my feeling
Is just so right
As we dance
By the moonlight
Can't you see
You're my delight

Lady
I just feel like
I won't get you
Out of my mind
I feel loved
For the first time
And I know that it's true
I can tell by the look in your eyes

Lady
Hear me tonight
Can't you see
You're my delight

Lady
I just feel like
I feel loved
For the first time

Lady
Hear me tonight
Can't you see
You're my delight

Moonlight

post #169

Third day of full moon. The sky was clear and it accentuated the moon...Why did I like to look at the moon lately? Hmmmmm..... Reminded me of this old song.....I see the moon is out tonite, see your silhouette so bright...and it only lights your beauty...you're perfect...in every way...

PJ and Duncan - Perfect

I think about you all night, when you're gone I dream of you
Write your name upon my window
You're perfect...
I see the moon is out tonight, see your silhouette so bright
And it only lights your beauty
You're perfect

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Come to me with an open hand
I'm never gonna leave I'm gonna make you understand
(Perfect)Look at me with a tear-stained smile
Forever in my dreams you're perfect girl
You're perfect (Perfect in every way)

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I won't ever say goodbye
I won't ever make you cry (I won't make you cry)
As long as you are in my arms
You will never need to fear
Just as long as I am here (As long as I am here)
As long as you are in my arms

Come lay down here beside me
And lay a kiss upon my face
And say you're mine forever
You're perfect

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You're perfect...
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Relaxing Day

post # 168

Second day of full moon (well since I started to notice it yesterday ;p). The moon was still shining brightly. Watched the Lake House today (I was really late watching this movie) and once again I was reminded of how exquisite Sandra Bullock's face is. She's really adorable though she'll turn 43 this year. Standard plot (happy ending), but still entertaining since I need lite movie (with beautiful face like hers) to freshen up...lolz... Dunno why but this Padi song kept playing in my mind, the lyric is good....I'll try to translate it into English, but I think the translation won't be 100% appropriate....

Padi - Menanti Sebuah Jawaban

Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku tlah terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
Namun kau masih terdiam membisu

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Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu

Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yg terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

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Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu...


Padi - Waiting for an answer

I cannot melt your heart
And I cannot touch your love
As my steps begin to tremble
I've been struck by your love
My days were filled with hope
But you still didn't say a word

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I wanna hold you completely
Hold you full with hope to love you
Earnestly I will always wait
Waiting for an answer, to make you mine

How painful this longing cut my soul
I hope you know what's in my heart
And as time goes by
I'm still drifting in my dreams

I cannot melt your heart
And I cannot touch your love....


It's even more difficult than I'd thought to translate this into English.
Can I melt your heart if my heart is (a bit?) frozen...

Crash

post #167


For the third time I had another accident. What a nice way to start a new month. On my way to the office this morning, a car successfully hit me while I wae driving my motorcycle, making my way to the right lane. I was thrown from my Elisha, but thank God I only had minor bruises. But I was more worried about Elisha, I quickly stood up and checked her. The front left part was badly damaged, a little damage near the lamp, dislocated foot step. But other than that, she was alright (Yeah right...'alright'). The car driver who happened to hit me was a woman. She seemed shocked and asked if I was alright. I said I was ok but my motor wasn't. Dunno if it's because of the cough syrup that I had drunk before I went to work or because I was too tired and not feeling well or combination of both, I didn't lose my temper. I talked to her a bit about the incident that just had happened. She gave me some money to settle the matter right away. It was far from enough but I think I had my share of blame on the accident.... Darnnnnnn........

On the rest of my way to work, I didn't feel the headache that I had felt earlier, maybe because the adrenaline still worked after the crash. When I arrived at office, the headache came back again. I guess it's true what they say, there's not better drugs than adrenaline. I continued working on the assignment I had been given, with the coughs, cold plus headache and little bit fever. Not to mention my butt was aching from the accident (I felt it after a few hours later). This really added up my misery. But I finally finished it in the afternoon atfer my head getting warmer (plus dizzier). And the electricity went out at around 5 PM, but soon it went on again. There's nothing much to do, just a little tiny things need to be done then I went home to see a doctor. Tomorrow I'm gonna take a sick leave. Well at least I can rest (a bit) knowing that the unit assigned to me has been completed.

Thinking about the accident, I remember a line from Crash movie. Life in mono. That's what I feel lately, and in the movie, sometimes we need to crash to other people to breakaway from this routine life. Well, of course an accident is not what I hope for. I'd rather crash to a beautiful girl..lolzzz....

Full moon today. It was very bright. Nice view. I forgot when was the last time I looked at a full moon. Just staring at it. A pleasant surprise came in a form of a phone call. After I went to see a doctor, I had this call and I was surprised that she called me back. It was very nice to hear her voice again. Her fresh laughter always lifts up my spirit. Too bad my cellphone battery gave up on me after a few minutes. To wrap up the day, I heard this (mellow) song played on the radio. I like Melly's voice and songs. She's a talented musician.

Well, I'm signing off now. I'm feeling much better though my head is still a bit warm and fuzzy...


Melly - Gantung


Ku harus menemui cintaku
Mencari tau hubungan kita
Apa masih...
Atau tlah berakhir

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Kau menggantungkan hubungan ini
Kau diamkan aku tanpa sebab
Maunya apa....
Ku harus bagaimana...Kasih.......

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Sampai kapan kau gantung cerita cintaku
Memberi harapan
Hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
Dan meninggalkan dirimu


Detik-detik waktu pun terbuang
Teganya kau menggantung cintaku
Bicaralah biar semua pasti


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Membuatku sakit
Hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
Dan meninggalkan dirimu