Scusa ma ti chiamo amore*

post #352

*Sorry if I love you

That's what she said when we were walking after I picked her from school. She said it with that look on her face that made her even more adorable.

Ok let me start from beginning. I met this young girl one morning on my way to the office. She (in my defense) hit my car with her scooter. As a penance, I had to drive her to her school, since she was late (like I wasn't...). I gave her my card in case she wanted to settle her scooter damage. Work was getting exciting since my boss created a competition between me and a colleague to win a Japanese company account.

To my surprise when I was in a meeting the girl called me. Oh yeah before I forgot, her name was Niki. She asked me to pick her up since her scooter hadn't been repaired yet. Then she started talking about how she got a B+, a mark she never had before. I said to her that I couldn't talk since I was in a meeting with my boss. She kept on talking till finally she had to hang up. I could only sighed.

Short story, I spend quite a lot time with her eventually. Perhaps there's a part of me that needed the companionship after my girlfriend left me suddenly in an afternoon, leaving nothing except a goodbye letter. Perhaps when I was with Niki I felt young again, felt that impulsive actions that teenager do without giving further thoughts. I could swear I almost forgot how it felt to be a little mischievous. Maybe her simple and pure emotions intoxicated me. Not to mention she had the cutest face....

Was this love? Or was it just me trying to find some comfort from another girl since I was dumped not so long ago? Rebound?

I had to admit, her honesty and sincerity swept me away. I gave in to my desire when she visited my apartment and that night we made love. A thing that I regretted on the following day because I was supposed to present an advertisement idea to my boss. And the deadline was at 4 PM. To my utter surprise....she came to my office and brought two drawings. I looked at them and boy they were fresh ideas. A girl surfing with crescent moon as her surfboard. She remembered. She genuinely tried to help me. She touched my life in so many ways I couldn't describe. She brought colors to my monochromatic world.

As time went by I realized that I also fell for her. Her smile, her scent, her laughter...even her quite annoying habit to place her feet on the dashboard...which made her call me Papa, had make mey heart captivated. And one other thing, she inspired me. Though at the end the moon surfer idea was rejected (since the client wanted something more mature), she gave me another inspiration. Watching her sleep peacefully, moved me to take some pics of her which reflected what the client needed...simple, pure, yet powerful to move people...

But unfortunately it's not that easy. There's an age barrier. She's just seventeen, and we're separated twenty years. You do the math. But she's persistent. She even brought a list containing known celeb who happily married despite quite significant age difference.

Life...it went on mysteriously. As I thought I made my mind...out of nowhere my ex girlfriend came back and said that she did a terrible mistake by leaving me. She realized that she loved me and that she was just scared when I proposed her. I was shaken. It seemed more realistic to be with my ex girlfriend, than trying the possibilities with Niki. I was torn between these two.

As much as it hurt me, I decided to choose the more realistic one. So I broke up with Niki. You gotta give it up to woman's intuition. She could see it coming from my behavior. She asked me what's wrong living in a dream when I told her. I said, "It's not real". She was angry, and she had every right to feel that way. She asked me again, "You couldn't find a reason to break up, could you?" I told her..."I don't have any reason to stay"....she left in tears.

Few days later, she saw me having lunch with my now girlfriend ex-girlfriend. She was furious, I tried to talk to her but she snapped and told me that she thought there was something wrong with her. I could see that she's hurt....badly. But I think it's the best for us.

My friends welcomed back my girlfriend. And as time went by...I realized that my relationship was saturated. I missed Niki so much....I realized I made a mistake. And this was clearer when a good colleague forwarded an email...I found out that my girlfriend was actually seeing my other colleague who lost the competition. And she only came back because I won (the loser went to Lugano). I broke up with her (again)...this time for good. She was speechless when I showed her the 'smoking gun'.

I wrote a letter to Niki and gave it to her parents. I knew she was on summer vacation....perhaps also trying to forget all about me. But I'd keep waiting for her on a small island with a lighthouse. It's her dream....few weeks passed...I tried to occupy myself with fishing, but apparently I was bad at it. I kept on waiting.....one day...I heard a car approaching...I ran and finally saw Niki again...she came...

And as we met, Robbie William's song, She's The One played....Oh yeah...I forgot to tell you. My name is Alessandro Belli and this is my story.


Above was the plot of Sorry if I love you (Italian title : Scusa ma ti chiamo amore). One from a bunch of DVDs I bought last week. The cover itself was already misleading since it said French movie. I didn't know why I bought it...I just felt I needed something different, not another Hollywood movie. When I played it....I was surprised to see that it was actually Italian movie....Yippieee...

Michela Quattrociocche was adorable...she was absolutely cute and lively. Raoul Bova played his character well. Though the chemistry between them wasn't really obvious...but it's subtle enough to give hint to the audience.

As you read...the plot was simple...has been told so many times in so many ways. Reminded me of Richie Ren's movie, my wife is 18. Age....is it really a barrier? I don't think it's really is. Perhaps to some people it is...but if both are aware and wise enough to make a decision....it shouldn't matter. I don't know if I could decide the same with Alessandro..but to me, twenty years was too much of a difference. For starter...and fundamental one, there will be very likely a big difference in perspective. Both see, think, and want different things in life. The young one still wants to explore, to know what the world has to offer...while the old one wants to have a steady, no surprises kind of life. I'm not saying everybody will think like this....again wisdom doesn't necessarily come with age. If both have similar perspective and want the same things in life...I think they can make it.

For Alex, I guess he has found the one...Niki, she's the one...


Robbie Williams - She's The One

I was her she was me
We were one we were free
And if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

We were young we were wrong
We were fine all along
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling
When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna play
You'll be so high you'll be flying

Though the sea will be strong I know we'll carry on
´Cause if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling
When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna say it
You'll be so high you'll be flying

I was her she was me
We were one we were free
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
Yeah she's the one

If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
She's the one

Ascend

post #351


Ahhh....what a day...woke up late....eating....relaxing and watching new TV serial I got from a colleague (more on this later on)...only to get a phone call from another colleague who's in Taiwan. He called because there's an urgent matter about the program I developed. There's an issue that needs to be resolved asap, as in today because it impacted the UAT process in Australia....darnnnnn

So I rushed to the office, to my surprise there was another person there...working...Well, I had to go to the office because I left my laptop there. Great, holiday and I still had to come to the office? But a man gotta do what a man gotta do, right? I immediately investigated the issue and found what was the cause. It's quite simple actually, but it wasn't foreseen. Issue resolved in less than an hour, thank God, it meant I could go to the church.

Yeah...today's Ascension Day. The day when Christians believe Jesus was ascended to Heaven to sit on the Right side of Father. The sky was dark when I went to church. Not so long after the mass was started, rain was pouring down...quite hard. But it only rained for a while.

The pastor gave an interesting sermon. It's about this life. Our lives. He began his sermon with a common saying we used to hear..."Life is like a drink at a resting area. It's just temporary and not the real/ultimate destination"

Then he continued his sermon, reminded us that it is our nature, human to be never satisfied. We always want more. He gave illustration with a dream house that we might long for. Once we have it, we perhaps surely want something more. We can never really be satisfied with anything in this world. If we have the freedom...we'd have wanted everything....human heart is like an endless well.

Imho, this insatiable desire...wanting more and more on one hand is a good thing. This what makes human evolve, grow...to be better. And again on the other hand, when it's not wisely acted upon, will cause undesirable effects.

Then the pastor continued with asking...why? Why do human can never be fully, completely, perfectly satisfied with everything in their lives? It's easy....because we're all God's creation. We will feel completely satisfied once we're together again with God. I guess that's the message....we're being reminded once again...today Jesus reunited again with Father...thus we should also reunite with Him, where we can find absolute eternal serenity.

The pastor said, continuing the saying we used to hear...what we drink at the resting area (metaphorically life) can affect us. If we drink something that make us drunk...we might not be able to see clearly where we're heading...we might be distracted...side tracked from our real destination....That's why we have to be wise in this life...allow Him to guide our path

For a closure, I'd like to quote St. Augustine's words...in his searching about life...our heart will find peace when we rest in You, God....

Thou hast created us for Thyself, and our heart is not quiet until it rests in Thee

Ordinary People

post #350

My mind wandered back in time when I heard this song again...after so long. A friend of mine posted the song on his Facebook profile, before the Tokyo Love Story one actually....but it's my prerogative to put this after that one, right? :D

Back to those days, the dorama days...I have my ordinary people...People whose presence I cherish. People who have painted my life with so many colors. Not in just lover's term, like this song was suppose to be interpreted, but in a broader sense...friends, the ones I've grown up with and shared so many pages of my life.

Remembering them always brings this soothing breeze in my gut. Though we're not seeing each other a lot lately, but when we have the chance, we can be very intense. Each of us understand and give as much freedom to live our own lives, but still every once in a blue moon we would hang out together to catch up, to mock, share stories, tell jokes...just spending some quality times with a familiar face we know carved forever in our hearts.

I guess it's true the saying, friendship is a ship that never sinks. Here's to you my ordinary people, my friends!


Fuji Fumiya - True Love ( OST : Ordinary People)
Japanese

Furikaeru to itsumo kimi ga waratte kureta
Kaze no you ni sotto

Mabushi sugite me wo tojitemo ukande kuru yo
Namida ni kawatteku

Kimi dake wo shinjite
kimi dake wo kizutsukete
Bokura wa itsumo haruka haruka
tooi mirai wo Yume miteta hazu sa

Tachitomaru to nazeka kimi wa utsumuita mama
Ame no you ni sotto

Kawaranai yo ano hi kimi to
deatta hi kara
Namida ni kawattemo

Kimi dake wo mitsukete
kimi dake shika inakute

Bokura wa itsumo haruka haruka tooi mirai wo
Yume miteta hazu sa Yume miteta hazu sa



English Translation

I would turn around
And you're always there, smiling at me
Always, like a gentle breeze

You were so dazzling that
I could close my eyes and picture you right there
Turning into teardrops

I've believed in only you
And I've hurt only you
After all, we're always looking for a future
A future far away from us

When I stop walking
And you for some reason would look down
Quietly like falling raindrops

There's no change
Since the day when I first met you
Even if we turn into teardrops

My eyes are only on you
There was no one but you
After all, we're always dreaming for a future
A future far away from us

Dreaming for a future

An Angel and A Demon

post #349


Whoaaaaaaaaaa.............
That was my impression after watching Angels and Demons on last Friday nite. The invitation came quite last minute in the morning, just before lunch time. I said to Gee I couldn't confirm right away...but luckily the unit I was assigned to was not too difficult. So in the afternoon I confirmed my attendance. Well, the fact that they decided to watch @Blitzmegaplex MOI was also one big factor in my availability, since it's near my home :D

After confirming, it wasn't that smooth. There was heavy traffic jam, as usual, Friday nite...but I managed to arrive there at 8sth PM. Cee, Gee n Jef were already bought the tickets and they wanted to grab a quick bite. I joined them @Wendy's then Harris came along not so long after that. We waited anxiously, (well at least I was quite anxious) then at 9 PM the studio was opened. We went in right away.

Angels and Demons had faster pace than Da Vinci Code. It's more interesting for me since there were some scenes that were taken inside Vatican City... *droool.... Sistine Chapel, Vatican Archive (though I'm not really sure if this was real), and more importantly...churches in Rome....ahhhhhhh so beaufitul. Not only from the sceneries, the plot itself was in four hours period, so the story was quite thrilling.

As usual Dan Brown managed to mix between historical facts and his imaginative minds, blending them in an intriguing story. Heck, now if you go to Paris you can get Da Vinci Code tour. It became a tourism menu. As I haven't read the novel yet, the ending was surprising..well done, Dan Brown. The plot itsef kinda reminded me of Eagle Eye....difference was in Eagle Eye, it was the supercomputer, which was very intelligent and did some thinking for itself. A thing that proved fatal....While in Angels and Demons, it was a person who had gone awry...ermmm...had different, radical perspective.

I guess that's the main idea of the story. A person....he/she can be an angel..or a demon. One cannot be 100% Angel or 100% Demon. There's a bad side (or if you prefer, good side) in each person. There's a composition of these two. Made me remember about Spiderman 3 as well. The tagline was: "The Greatest Battle Lies Within"

Yeahhh...it's a never ending battle for each of us. Every day, every decision we make....it's a battle inside of us. The choices, the decisions we make determine what kind of person we really are...are we an angel...or a demon. When will this battle end? Ermmm...the day we die I guess.

I can guess that there would be a lot of questions following, such how do we know that we make the right decisions? What if we have made wrong ones? Can we amend those?

Speaking of these questions...another question suddenly popped in my mind. Been watching Leverage lately. Just finished watching the first season actually. In one episode, #4 to be exact, titled The Miracle Job...there's a pastor asked Nate (the lead character)...does the end justify the means?

No...God is watching what we're doing, how we doing it...How we do it matters....

Ermmm...I guess this what Camerlengo Patrick McKenna missed and chose a different way....
What about us?



Sarah McLachlan - Angel

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh a beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

13 Years Ago...

post #348

Thirteen years....*phewww... passed so fast...
Yesterday..or the day before, I didn't really remember...a friend of mine posted a youtube clip on his facebook page. It was Fuji Fujiyama - True Love. I didn't know what song it was...but then after I watched the clip I immediately remembered. It was Ordinary People's soundtrack.

Ordinary People(Asunaro Hakusho) was a Japanese Drama (dorama) that was aired in Indosiar..approximately 13 years ago, give or take. I remembered the first dorama that was aired was Tokyo Love Story....ahhhh Rika Akana... the soundtrack was great also. Then there was Just The Way We Are, Anything For You, 101 Proposal..then Ordinary People. I remembered the sequence since I watched them all.... lollzzzz...

Watching the clips, listening to song kinda made me feel a bit nostalgic. Where was I at that time? What was I doing? It brought vague memories, as well as this feelings where life was simpler (was it?)...

This clip reminded me of how cute Honami Suzuki (Rika Akana) was...I believe this was the opening credit for the dorama
I couldn't remember the story...but I'm sure it was great...and the song....I love the song(s)




As a bonus, here's the lyric of the soundtrack

LOVE STORY WA TOTSUZEN NI

Nani kara tsutaerebaii no ka Wakaranai mama toki wa nagarete
Ukandewa Kieteyuku Arifureta kotoba dake

(How should I start telling you? Time passes while I ponder [over this])
(The only commonplace words that come to my mind are disappearing right away)


Kimi ga anmari suteki dakara Tada sunao ni Suki to ienaide
Tabun mousugu Ame mo yande Futari Tasogare

(Because you are too nice, I can't just say to you I love you)
(Perhaps even the rain will soon stop, [but] we are in the twilight)

+ Ano hi Ano toki Ano basho de Kimi ni aenakattara
Bokura wa Itsumademo Mishiranu futari no mama

(If I can't meet you on that day, at that time, at that place)
(We will stay like two strangers forever)

Dareka ga amaku sasou kotoba ni Mou kokoro yuretari shinaide
Setsunai kedo Sonna fuu ni Kokoro wa shibarenai

(Don't be attracted by someone else's sweet talk, don't let your heart waver)
(Even though it's sad, I can't bind your heart like that)

Ashita ni nareba kimi wo kitto Ima yori motto suki ni naru
Sono subete ga boku no naka de Toki wo koeteyuku

(If tomorrow comes, I will love you even more)
(All the love within me will surpass [even] time itself)

# Kimi no tameni tsubasa ni naru Kimi wo mamori tsuzukeru
Yawarakaku Kimi wo tsutsumu Ano kaze ni naru

(I'll be your wings [for you to fly with], and continue to protect you)
(I'll be the breeze that wraps itself around you gently)

Repeat +

Ima Kimi no kokoro ga ugoita Kotoba tomete Kata wo yosete
Boku wa wasurenai kono hi wo Kimi wo dare ni mo watasanai

(Now that your heart has been moved, hold your words and come closer to me)
(I won't forget this day, [and] I won't let anyone take you away)

Repeat #

Repeat +

Dareka ga amaku sasou kotoba ni Kokoro yuretari shinaide
Kimi wo tsutsumu Ano kaze ninaru

(Don't be attracted by someone else's sweet talk, don't let your heart waver)
(I'll be the breeze which wraps itself around you)

Repeat +

Feelings

post #347


Just got Tyra B - Givin Me A Rush MP3 last nite. After quite some time searching for it. It's one of few songs that I instantly like...Well Ock Ju Hyun - Honey was an exception as well. Just like Honey, I didn't remember exactly how I managed to stumble to Tyra's song. I remembered I was wandering in the Youtube land...then I watched a clip which background song was this song.

Anyway that's not the main idea I have for this entry. This entry, as its titled...was about feelings. Lately I've been digging into TV serials again, after quite hibernation period...last weekend I watched Gossip Girl S02E23 and in one of the scene, there was this dialog between Chuck n Blair. *Have I told you that some of my inspirations came from TV serials, movie, or songs that I watched/listened to?

In the scene, Blair was asking Chuck for a clarification...about his feelings for her. Nate asked her to move in with him (since he was feeling a bit insecure seeing Blair spend quite a lot of time with Chuck)...but Blair needed to be sure about this...about her and Nate...about her and Chuck...Because she felt that after she decided to move on with Nate...Chuck seemed to do about anything to be able to spend time with her. It's like he's not willing to let her go... *It all revolved around feelings, huh? ;D

Blair: Wow, that's the first true laugh I've gotten out of you in a while *after Chuck offered her a coctail
Chuck: Listen, Blair
Blair: No...me first. Nate's waiting for me to give him an answer.
Chuck: I heard.
Blair: Don't you wanna know what's stopping me? (Chuck looked at her intensely) I can't answer his question while I'm waiting for you to answer mine. The one I asked you forever ago...What are we, Chuck?
Chuck: Blair...
Blair: (Interrupted Chuck) Last fall you said we couldn't be together. And I believed you. But everytime I try to move one, you're right there..acting like...
Chuck: Acting like what?
Blair: Like..... (pause) maybe you just want me to be as unhappy as you are
Chuck: I would never wish that on anyone. I want you to be happy
Blair: Then look down deep into the soul I know you have and tell me if what you feel for me is real or if it's just a game. If it's real....we'll figure it out..all of us. But if it's not...then please Chuck, just let me go...(Blair eyes were watery)
Chuck: It's just a game. I hate to lose. You're free to go.
Blair: Thank you (rushing to go)
Serena walked in to Chuck.
Serena: Chuck, why did you just do that?
Chuck: Because I love her....and I can't make her happy.

Again I'd like to give a thumb up for the music. The instrumental really built the sad nuance in the dialog.

Feelings....
There are sayings, If you really love someone, you gotta set that person free...your love should be unconditional....there are also saying love should be fight for. Why letting go so easily if the one you love is worth the fight?

Like it or not...the older we get...the more logical and less emotional we become. Not as pure as a child, in terms of showing our feelings. Why? Because the world we live in demanded us to. Not only that...but (again I think I have said it before) feelings/emotions can also not always good to be used a based in decision making. Balance between these two is the ideal...but we cannot have it all the time, right?

Quoting Blair,
Feelings never do. They get you all confused. Then they drove around for hours until they drop you right back to where you started.

This where the good common sense comes into play. In Chuck's case....perhaps he'd rather to see Blair happy...though he may not be the one who stand beside her. At the end...it comes to your own experience, judgment, and choice to make.

Maybe it's just my weakness, to see you happy, with or without me
Maybe it's just a feeling I have


Breeze - Just A Feeling

Just a feeling I have,just a feeling
Just a feeling I have
Would you love me like that?
And if you love somebody else,
Will you still pretend you're mine?
Would you leave me like that?
It's just a feeling I have

Sometimes I lie awake while your are sleeping
I think of all the things that we've been through
I can't deny suspicious minds,
seeing things that don't exist
Would you love me like that?
It's just a feeling I have

It doesn't feel the same the way you hold me.
Sometimes you turn away when I kiss your lips.
And if you love somebody else,
will you still pretend you're mine.
Would you love me like that?
It's just a feeling i have.

Just a feeling I have
Just a feeling
Just a feeling I have
Would you love me like that?
It's just a feeling I have

There are times when words can take new meaning
And all the sweetest things can sound the same
And there are thousand ways to say goodbye I haven't heard
Would you tell me like that?
It's just a feeling I have

Just a feeling I have
Just a feeling
Just a feeling I have
Would you love me like that?
It's just a feeling I have.
And if you love somebody else,
will you still pretend you're mine.
Would you love me like that?
It's just a feeling I have
Just a feeling I have
Just a feeling
Just a feeling I have
Would you love me like that?
It's just a feeling I have

Gadgets Wishlist

post #346

Every now and then I'd like to compile a wish list for gadgets that I drool want to have. Two days ago I was surprised to read that Nokia announced a new E series cellphone, E52. It's quite an enhancement to E51, my currently lovely cellphone. Well...without further ado, here's the list

1. Nokia E52
Some things that are enhanced from E51 :
- 'Bigger' screen (2.4" compared to 2")
- 'Bigger' camera resolution (3MP compared to 2MP).. the camera still used fixed focus though, so do not expect the pictures quality will be improved much
- Slimmer (9.9 mm compared to 12 mm)
- 3.5 mm jack (yipppieeeeee)...I can use my sennheiser
- Secondary camera for video call... Nice improvement
- Faster clock processor (600MHz compared t 369MHz)
- Accelerometer
- Longer battery life

Full comparison can be seen here: GSM Arena


Hmmm......this is interesting since I think BB is overrated and E series support push email for Exchange and Lotus Notes...nice...It'd be very nice if there's enhancement for E71...namely E72 perhaps? :D:D:D
In short...this cellphone is worth the consideration



2. Sony Vaio TT
If I have a couple of thousand dollars to be spent, I'd surely go for this baby.
11.1" display with only over 1kgs of weight...bye bye netbook...This baby has enough (more than) enough horse power to do multitask...2 USB ports, 1 HDMI port, optional Blu Ray drive....WOWWWW...talking about spec *drool....
Too bad with such features (plus beautiful design)...comes a lot of money needed...This baby is priced starting from US$ 1999..... about four times of a netbook price which usually falls under US$500. Welll...there's a saying, quality comes with a price...






3. Digicam

Since my current digicam is very very old (four years is old for a gadget, right?). Its resolution only 3MP...Heck there are cellphone that boasts 8MP camera...though the image quality is still in question. But still I think I need to upgrade my digicam, remembering it'll be useful for my upcoming holiday. There are candidates that I have laid my eyes on lately. They are:

- Panasonic Lumix TZ7
10 MP, HD recording, 12x optical zoom
Price as of today @ jpckemang is :
Rp 4.795.000 via JPC 1 Yr Srvc & Part (w/SDHC 8.0GB)
Rp 4.479.900 via JPC 1 Yr Srvc & Part (Without SDHC 8.0GB)
Rp. 4,480,000 @ tokocamzone


- Panasonic Lumix TS1
12MP, HD Recording, 4.6x optical zoom, water resistant to 3M
Price as of today @ jpckemang is:
Rp 4.765.000 via JPC 1 Yr Srvc & Part (w/SDHC 8.0GB)
Rp 4.449.900 via JPC 1 Yr Srvc & Part (Without SDHC 8.0GB)
Rp. 4,450,000 @ tokocamzone


- Nikon Coolpix S560
10MP, 5x optical zoom
Price as of today @jpckemang:

Rp. 2,900,000 @tokocamzone


- Nikon Coolpix S630
12MP, 7x optical zoom
Rp 3.969.900 @jpckemang:
Rp. 3,970,000 @tokocamzone


Comparison of them: DPReview

It's okay if you choose to leave me, honey

post #345

Forgot exactly what did I do last nite, but somehow I stumbled to this song by Ock Ju Hyun. It's not everyday that I'd like a song immediately,esp Korean, which language I don't understand. But there's something in the beat, the melody, Ju Hyun's face and voice (ahhh she's beautiful), plus some of the words that were in English that intrigued me.

So today I finally managed to get the MP3, translated version of the music video, and the lyric (in both Korean and English)...talking about determination, huh? :D

It's okay if you choose to leave me
It's okay, I'll still love you even if you don't
I'm..I'm..okay

I say goodbye
Now that we're here, what else can I do
Don't cry because of me
Hug me one last time

What's with the mellow, ballad songs?

Credit to ix3sk8rboiz @ soompi.com for the lyric and English translation


Ock Ju Hyun - Honey

genchanahyo~ geu-deh-ga nahl, ttuh-nah-ga-doh
genchanahyo, heng-bohk-keh-yoh, geu-deh man-eun~
sooreh chee-han-cheh-roh, negeh jun-hwa heht jyo
mee-yahn hah-dan mahl-ha-myuh, ool-goh-eessuht-jyo
soh-ree-reul jeel-lyuht-jyo, joo-jyuh ahn-koh-maraht jyo
joon-bee-do moht-heht-dun ee-byul-eh nan

I can't breathe I can't breathe
Geu-dehl jah-bah-doh, soh-yong-ubb-jyo
Tteu-guh-oon mah-eum-ee, cha-gahb-kkeh byun-heh-suh
Boot-jabah-doh dorah-ohl-soon ubb-jah-nah
genchanayo geu-deh-gah nahl ttuh-nagado
genchanayo, saranghehyo, nahl-ttuh-nah-do
nahn, nahn, genchanayo

I say goodbye
ee-jeh-wah-suh uh-ttuhk-keh-yo
nah-tteh-mooneh, ool-jee-mah-yo~
han-bun-man, nahl poom-eh~ ana-jwuh~

TV-reul kyuh-bwah-do, radio teu-ruh-do
ee-byureh jang-myun-kwa~ ee-byureh noreh-ppoon
geu-deh-gah sun-mool-han~ hwah-boon-do da buh-ryut-jyo~
seh sahl-doht-tteut-geu-deh seng-gahk-nahl kkah-bwah

I can't breathe I can't breathe
soom joh-cha, moht-sheel-guht-mahn gatah
joh-gahk-nan-guht-chuh-rum, kkeh-jeen yoori churum,
neh mah-eum-do, buh-ryuh-yah-mahn hah-nah-yo~
genchanayo~ geu-deh-gah nahl~ ttuh-nah-gado
genchanayo, saranghehyo, nahl-ttuh-nah-do
nahn, nahn, genchanayo~

I say goodbye
Ee-jen wah-suh, uh-dduk-keh-yo
nah-tteh-mooneh, ool-jee-mah-yo~
han-bun-mahn, nahl poom-eh~ anah-jwuh~ oh~

uh-dduk-ha-jyo, geu-deh-ubbsheen, guhbee-nah-yo~
han-bun-man-duh, seng-gahk-keh-yo, ah-nee-rah-do~ nan~
heng-bohk-keh yo, geu-deh-mahn-eun


Ock Ju Hyun - Honey (English translation)

It's okay if you leave me
It's okay as long as you're happy
You called me while you were drunk
You cried while telling me you were sorry
I yelled, and I spoke in this crumpled position
I'm not even prepared for this separation yet

I can't breathe I can't breathe
It won't matter if I held on
Because your passionate heart grew cold
Even if I held you tight, you won't come back
It's okay if you leave me
It's okay, I'll still love you even if you don't
I'm..I'm..okay

I say goodbye
Now that we're here, what else can I do
Don't cry because of me
Hug me one last time

Even when I turn the tv on, or listen to the radio
I only see love scenes and hear love songs related to our parting
The flowerpot you gave me as a gift, I threw it away
In case I'd think of you again while starting anew

I can't breathe I can't breathe
I don't think I could take another breath
Like something that's been shredded pieces,
like glass that's been shattered
Must I also dispose of my heart as well?
It's okay if you choose to leave me
It's okay, I'll still love you even if you don't
I'm..I'm..okay

I say goodbye
Now that we're here, what else can I do
Don't cry because of me
Hug me one last time

What should I do, without you I'm afraid
Think it over one last time,
and even then if it's still a no~ I'm...

I'm okay
If you choose to leave me
As long as you're happy

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Before It's Too Late

post #344

What do I want in my life?
What do I need in my life?
What do we need in our lives?

Goo Goo Dolls said it in simple line, which was very deep I think...
"Live like you mean it, love 'till you feel it...A life you don't live is still lost"

So hold on, before it's too late...

This song was actually quite old, almost two years since it's released. It's the soundtrack for Transformers. It's wonderful ballad with great lyric. Enjoy!

Goo Goo Dolls - Before It's Too Late

I wonder through fiction
To look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
I stood at a distance to feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

Hold on before it’s too late
Or until we leave this behind
Don’t fall just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

Now the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you don’t live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it’s gone

Hold on before it’s too late
Or until we leave this behind
Don’t fall just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
And love til you feel it
It’s all that we need in our lives
Stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
nothing is real til its gone

Hold on before it’s too late
Or until we leave this behind
Don’t fall just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

Hold on before it’s too late
Or until we leave this behind
Don’t fall just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

It’s all that we need in our lives

It’s all that I need in my life

The Good Shepherd

post #343

The pastor gave an interesting sermon last Sunday afternoon. I was quite busy on Saturday due the training (so was my excuse ;D) so I decided to attend the mass on Sunday. On Sunday morning, I was still a bit sleepy n lazy...n I didn't want to make going to the church just some kind of meaningless routine, so I continued my sleep and went in the afternoon.

It was the forth week of Easter, the readings were taken from Acts 4:8-12, 1 John 3:1-2, and John 10:11-18. The bible was about the good shepherd. God is the good shepherd, and pastors were given the same task to herd the sheep.

The sermon was started with a bit illustration about the number of pastor compared to parish in the city. It's not ideal enough. What if there's no regeneration, and the current pastors are getting old? Who will replace them if no one is willing to make that vow of celibacy?

The pastor then talked about his calling. How he wanted to be a pastor since he was in kindergarten. He was amazed by a pastor he saw, in Eucharist, when the pastor spread his arms....he said that the pastor looked so noble. Then when he was in 3rd year of elementary school, he said to his father that he wanted to be a pastor. Time went by and it made him forget his own words. When he was at 3rd year of Jr. High, he was a naughty student (so did hey say) btw...his father asked him about his intention to be a pastor, did he still want to be one. He answered yes, but didn't actually mean it.

But still...he turned out to be a pastor. Then he continued his sermon with asking the parish, who wanted to be a pastor, or sister, or live in a monastery? Or perhaps let their children become one? Anyone who's willing were welcomed to raise their hands....guess what, nobody did. Then he elaborated more about the reasons why we were reluctant to give ourselves in more special way (by being a pastor, etc) to God. We're afraid that we'd lose our freedom, since if we become a pastor, we cannot have a wife, have a family, to feel love.

But he said that it was a wrong perception. Pastor is not a robot, he's a person who can feel love as well. In fact, it's a must so he can love his the parish he's assigned to. Yeah there are some things that he has to sacrificed....but who doesn't make any sacrifices in this world? Who's really free? Married man, a family man has an obligation to his family.

The point (I think) of his sermon was that we all have our calling and that calling needs to be nurtured. Whatever our calling is, accept it...hopefully there'll be enough pastor...not only for the archdiocese, but also for other regions, esp the ones where the parish can only celebrate Eucharist once a year, or maybe once every two years. We should consider ourselves lucky to live in the big city where we can choose which mass at which church to attend. It's very convenient.

It's such a shame for us who have the privilege but take it for granted while there are so many people out there who long for it....

So...I'd like to pray for the regeneration and continuity of the shepherd...and may they really inspired by the one and only, true role model of a good shepherd...
May this one voice heard...well, at least the pastor's voice (when he was at kindergarten) was heard ;)

Billy Gilman - One Voice

Some kids have and some don't
And some of us are wondering why
Mom won't watch the news at night
There's too much stuff that's making her cry
We need some help
Down here on earth
A thousand prayers, a million words
But one voice was heard

A house, a yard, a neighborhood
Where you can ride your new bike to school
A kind of world where Mom and dad
Still believe in the golden rule
Life's not that simple
Down here on earth
A thousand prayers, a million words
But one voice was heard

One voice, one simple word
Hearts know what to say
One dream can change the world
Keep believing
Till you find a way

Yesterday while walking home
I saw some kid on newberry road
He pulled a pistol from his bag
And tossed it in the river below
Thanks for the help
Down here on earth
A thousand prayers, a million words
But one voice was heard
One voice was heard
One voice was heard

If You Asked Me To

post #342

Perhaps...I've been trying so hard...too hard to reach...

Celine Dion - If You Asked Me To

Used to be that I believed in something
Used to be that I believed in love
It's been a long time since I've had that feeling
I could love someone
I could trust someone
I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again darlin'
I said I'd never let nobody in

But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to

Somehow ever since I've been around you
Can't go back to being on my own
Can't help feeling darling since I've found you
That I've found my home
That I'm finally home
I said I'd never let nobody get too close to me darlin'
I said I needed, needed to be free

But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you...

Ask me to, I will give my world to you baby
I need you now
Ask me to and I'll do anything for you baby, for you baby

(If you asked me to...)

I'll let you in my life forever

(If you asked me to...)

All ya gotta do is ask me to
All ya gotta do
All ya gotta do
All you gotta do, is ask me to
I'll give you my world
I'll give you my world
Everything, everything baby.

Just ask me to

If you asked me to
I'd change my mind
I'll change my mind

Cool Breeze

post #341

It's been a while since the last time I saw you...since then I hadn't thought about you, not that I wanted to...but because I think it's what's best for us. I thought feelings would fade away in time. Yeah that's true....but perhaps on some cases, it took more time....much more than I had predicted.

It's just....when I saw you again...that nite...not that I fell again for you...or did I(?)...but seeing you gave my heart a little jump, made me like that adolescent boy who would probably give anything to be there beside you for just a little bit more....it's such a cool breeze which would make me I a liar if I refused to admit. I didn't know what that was...I didn't know what that mean...I didn't know how to think, to act, but I was sure I was pretty clumsy...I just know that it's what I felt...

It's like the sound of leaves that whisper to my ear, calling out your name ever so softly...


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