Christmas 2006

post #138

Quoting Lize’s words, Christmas is always great. It’s true indeed. Had a very good night sleep on Christmas Eve then watched Gilmore Girls seas 5 in the morning. Jef came over and copied some DVDs. We talked quite a lot and I realized that we’re no longer boys. We talked about different things, not merely the games, songs, fun things, but more it’s more mature. In the afternoon I went to attend a mass at St. Christopher church. Shelley had her baptism that day, right on Christmas. There were also more than 100 persons got baptized that day. It reminded me of my own baptism back in 1999. St. Christopher church is a very beautiful church. Well, not as beautiful as MBK, but from the outside it was very elegant. I arrived early and got the chance to take a look around. Then Shelley came with her sister and two brothers who also got baptized along with her. After the mass Shelley invited me to a dinner, since her brother was celebrating his birthday but I had to decline it coz I had already promised mom to go home early and drive her to arranger her passport. But we agreed to play ice skating on the next day.

I stayed up until almost 1 AM that night, went to sleep after I sent sms to Robert n Caca who’re having their birthday on boxing day. Woke up a around 8 AM, continued watching Gilmore Girls seas 5 (the story was becoming excellent) then went to pick up Shelley n her sister to play ice skating. On my way there I realized that I forgot to bring my socks. So after I picked them up, we stopped by at a sport store n I bought a pair of socks. It felt so good to play ice skating again after so long. It reminded me of Serendipity: Christmas time, the ice skating. It’s too bad that Shelley was kinda quiet. But we had a great time, though I fell a couple of times, mostly because of my maneuver to avoid children. After that we ate then I drove them back home.

Christmas is really a magical moment. Those two days were fantastic. Too bad that there was an earthquake near Taiwan on Dec 26 that cause 6 fiber optic cables broken and cut the internet connection on most of Asian countries. Now it’s been two days without inet. For an inet addict like me, it’s such a torture. Cannot surfing the net, chatting with my friends, etc. But it will get over soon I think, in the mean time, I can spend my time on something else and cherish the Christmas 2006 euphoria.


Merry Christmas


Originally written on Dec 27 and finished on Dec 28

Christmas Eve 2006

post #137

Wonderful day today. Delivered the ginger cookies to Rian, got the chance to see Brown Baron and took a pic of Carlson. Stopped by at Eddy’s to borrow DVD RW.

Went back home ate a bit and then got ready to go to Jess’ bday party at McD. Arrived there at 1 PM sharp. Looked into McD and I could see this lovely woman walking around n she’s holding Jess. I recognized her immediately, but I was reluctant to go inside since Kitty hadn’t arrived yet. After walking around for a while I decided to come into McD. Xena also recognized me immediately and I had to say that pictures can be deceiving. She’s far more beautiful in person than in her pics. I was amazed by her look and her hair…very…red. Jess was also cuter in person, though her pics didn’t deceive me too much, not like her mother’s. Since I didn’t know anyone else beside Xena, I sat at the back and just watched the bday party. It was good, very fun for children. Took some pics then Kitty n her husband came w Ruel. They sat next to me and then we talked, I was glad to have some persons that I know. Ruel grown since the last time I had seen him around 2 months ago. He’s getting cuter and taller. I bet he’s gonna be a handsome boy. Took some pics of Ruel in action and we followed the bday party till it’s over. Got a piece of Jess’ bday cake, took some pics with Xena, her hubby along with Jess n Wen wen. Got home after that.

Lied down for a while after I got back home, then I went to attend the 1st Christmas Eve mass. Eddy was already there w Devi, they saved me a seat. I sat there and it was already quite crowded. Then I saw this attractive girl that I hadn’t seen in months. After I took a look at her I noticed that she kinda reminded me of Kate Beckinsale. She had this sentimental look on her face, just like Kate. The mass ended at 7.45 PM. The sermon was simple n meaningful. I saw Lorena n her siblings, met Yuni n Marylin too and I said merry Christmas to them. Talked to Lorena after that about her career. She’s still as beautiful as I remembered.

Thank you God for today, hopefully I can bring peace n joy to others to reflect that You’re really born and Christmas is happening.

Silent Night

Silent night, holy night,
All is calm, all is bright,
Round yon virgin mother and child,
Holy infant so tender and mild,
Sleep in heavenly peace, Sleep in heavenly peace,


Silent night, holy night,
Shepherds first saw the light,
Heard resounding clear and long,
Far and near, the angel song:
Christ the Saviour is here,
Christ the Saviour is here.


Silent night, holy night,
Son of God, oh, how bright
Love is smiling from thy face,
Peals for us the hour of grace.
Christ our Saviour is born,
Christ our Saviour is born.


Hark! The Herald Angels Sing

Hark! the herald angels sing, -
"Glory to the newborn King!
Peace on earth, and mercy mild,
God and sinners reconciled."
Joyful, all ye nations, rise,
Join the triumph of the skies;
With th' angelic host proclaim,
"Christ is born in Bethlehem."
Hark! the herald angels sing,
"Glory to the newborn King!

Christ, by highest heav'n adored:
Christ, the everlasting Lord;
Late in time behold him come,
Offspring of the favored one.
Veil'd in flesh, the Godhead see;
Hail, th'incarnate Deity:
Pleased, as man, with men to dwell,
Jesus, our Emmanuel!
Hark! the herald angels sing,
"Glory to the newborn King!

Hail! the heav'n-born Prince of peace!
Hail! the Son of Righteousness!
Light and life to all he brings,
Risen with healing in his wings
Mild he lays his glory by,
Born that man no more may die:
Born to raise the son of earth,
Born to give them second birth.
Hark! the herald angels sing,
"Glory to the newborn King!




Joy to the World

Joy to the world! The Lord is come:
Let earth receive her King.
Let ev'ry heart prepare Him room,
And heaven and nature sing,
And heaven and nature sing,
And heaven and heaven and nature sing.

Joy to the world, the Saviour reigns
Let Saints their songs employ
While fields and floods
rocks, hills and plains
Repeat the sounding joy
Repeat the sounding joy
Repeat, Repeat, the sounding joy

He rules the world with truth and grace,
And makes the nations prove
The glories of His righteousness
And wonders of His love,
And wonders of His love,
And wonders, wonders of His love.

No more will sin and sorrow grow,
Nor thorns infest the ground;
He'll come and make the blessings flow
Far as the curse was found,
Far as the curse was found,
Far as, far as the curse was found.

Seven

post #136

Today, seven years ago I was baptized. Have I been a better person since then? This is a question that I must reflect and the answer can be found from persons around me. I think I have n still trying to be better.

It’s been another great week, nothing much from Mon-Wed. Low work load at the office gave me the chance to browse, chat and finish my bible reading. After 15 months I finally finished reading new testament. Also finished watching Gilmore Girls season 4 on Monday. It ended excellently. Who would thought that Rory’s 1st time would be with Dean, who’s at the time still married to Lindsay. Luke also finally got to kiss Lorelai. He had to wait for 4 seasons to do that. Reminded me of Clark n Lana, but it only took 1 season and 3 episodes for Clark to finally kiss Lana. But hey, they don’t have Red kryptonite in Stars Hollow, do they? Well let’s see how is Luke-Lorelai relationship going….

Had a community gathering for my division on Thursday at Penang Bistro. Cozy place, great food. The only downside was on my way there I caught up in a very terrible traffic jam. I was soaking wet. But the event was great, so was the food. I was so full plus got a Carrefour voucher.

Yesterday I went to my last prayer gathering in 2006. It was raining all way down from the office, but I managed to get there in one piece, and not too wet…thanks to my rain coat. I dunno why but I like rain. I like cloud n rain. Anyway, We wrote down the things we regret on a piece of paper and burnt it to symbolize that we want to change n be better in 2007. It was nice.

Today as usual played badminton in the morning, Tomz met me to give CD which was going to be given to Xena tomorrow since I’m gonna go to her daughter bday party. After that I went to TA n bought Ipod Nano for Robert. Called Shelley asked her if she’s interested in ice skating then went to see St. Kristoforus church. Got home, took a nap and attended the afternoon mass. After the mass I called Eaton, asking them what time do they usually open but I was shocked to find out that they ran out of Ginger Cookies. I had planned to buy it tomorrow before I deliver it to Rian. It was Eaton Gadink Bulevar that I called. I quickly went to Eaton Sunter, but they ran out of Ginger Cookies too. I panicked a bit then I sent sms to Lize to inform her of the bad news and said that I’d try to go to Eaton at Gadink Mall. I went there as fast as I could, racing with time and praying that they still have at least 1 Ginger Cookies. But when I arrived there, they also ran out of it. I asked them the phone number of Eaton TA. When I asked about it to the cashier, she said that there’s one ginger cookies left. A customer earlier wanted to buy 3, but that person ended up only bought 2. I was very relieved to hear that. I said I’d take it. I checked it and it was fine except for a lil crack at the tree..but it’s ok. I said to my self, Thank You God. I can keep my promise to Lize.

One lesson (reminder) I learned today, if your intention is good, helping others heart fully, God will help you to do that, of course you’ll need some effort. It may not be easy or pleasant, but it’s worthy. Well that’s all I guess for this week recap.

Ginger Cookies Hunt is Over

post #135

Kyrie eleison..
One thing I like about Advent n Lent is the songs. We sing the Latin version songs instead of the usual version. There weren’t too many people attended the mass this afternoon. It’s the 3rd week of Advent. I sat next to Pak Radi, the gate keeper of St. Mary kindergarten. I still remember how he was so nice n kind to all the children, since I was one among them. It’s been almost 20 years now, his hair is graying, I’ve become much taller than him, but I still saw that kindness in his eyes, his affection to children I suppose. Even the dogs love him. I kinda believe that dogs can tell which the good persons are, and by the way the dogs adore him, I’m sure that he’s a good person. He usually goes to church every Saturday afternoon. The sermon today was good; the pastor reminded us again about Christmas, what should we do to prepare ourselves in welcoming Christ. After the mass I bought Rosary booklet for Shelley. I thought it’ll make a perfect gift for her baptism. What another lovely Saturday today.

Arrived at home, took a bath. Listened to Fort Minor – Where’s You Go and continued watching Gilmore Girls season 4 ep 13. This song’s really addictive. I already could sing along the next day after I got the vidclip. (Well I’ve listened to it for about 7 hours non stop). I’ve memorized the lyric. I guess this addiction has some kind of repeating pattern. December last year I was addicted to Darren Hayes – So Beautiful. On 2004 it was Maroon 5 – She Will Be Loved. Can’t remember what’s on 2003 and 2002. But I still remember it was BSB – Drowning on 2001, when I was watching Smallville season 1 at SCTV and Lana was still cute n innocent. And on 2000 it was BSB – Shape of My Heart. Hmmm…..I wonder what song would it be next year…:p. Went online for a while and the admin had given me the privilege to be the additional moderator for Kenalan Warga at WG. Deleted 5 threads that hadn’t been active since 2003, lied down for while and then went to church.

Woke up at 7.30 AM today, doing my morning routine n went to Asean Hall. Arrived there at 8.40 AM and to my surprise, there was Tirta there. Wow, it’s been a very long time since the last time I saw him. He’s the one who ‘introduced’ me to badminton every Saturday morning, but he’s kinda busy since he’s got a gf. I did some warming up and played. I was soaked wet and I mean really really wet. I was sweating all over. Maybe because I played like there’s no tomorrow today, or maybe because Jakarta was too hot, coz I was also sweating on my way there. Played until 11 AM, Tomz cancelled his plan to come and Santy was still at the airport, so I went to TA to look (again) for ginger cookies for Lize. I called Kitty asking her about whether she has bought a gift for Jess or not. Then I stopped by at Gramedia, looked around and bought children songs DVD for Jess. Hopefully she’ll like it or at least her mom like it. Saw ipod nano price at the (new ?) store near Gramedia. It was quite cheap compared to the one at Gadink. I’m gonna buy it for Robert’s present next week. Btw, I just noticed that at TA, the theme was Looney Christmas. They put up tazmanian devil, bugs bunny, sylvester and tweety dolls to form a Christmas tree. While at Gadink, the theme was Disney Christmas. Well, after looking around at L3 and couldn’t find any store or kiosk that sell ginger cookies, I went to Eaton bakery at G floor and found what I was looking for. I informed Lize and I think she was happy with it. But the problem was they don’t do delivery. I came up with a solution, but I had to check on Eaton Sunter. So I went there and it was hotttttt on the way there. Well, if you wanna do good thing, do it earnestly, go along the way. It turned out that Eaton Sunter was also selling those cookies. I’m gonna talk with Lize about how to give it to Rian on monday. After that HOT journey, I went back home.

*this writing style was inspired by Irreversible

Where'd You Go?

post #134

The first time I heard this song was it's reff,
"Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone."
It was a very popular ring tone couple of months ago.

Today I got the vidclip at around 10 AM and since then I kept listening it over and over again until 5 sth PM. It's been a while since I can get addicted to a song like this. Even while I'm writing this blog, I still listening to it. It's drum, rhythm, n lyric was totally cool....reminds me of My December.

Fort Minor - Where'd You Go

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

Weekend

post #133

Woke up at 7.30 AM. Took a bath, finished at 7.40 AM. Ate breakfast after that, then getting ready to go. Went at 8.00 AM, arrived there at 8.45 AM. Ari was already there. Did some warming up with him and at around 9 the other boys came. We played till 11 AM. Then I changed my clothes and went to TA, looking for ginger cookies there, but couldn’t find it. Went to Mangga Dua after that, arrived there at 12.50 PM. Bought 35 DVDs, most of them were Gilmore Girls DVDs. Saw this very interesting offer at one of the computer stores there. Fujitsu notebook, 12.1” with good spec (Centrino 1.73 GHz, 80 Gigs of HDD, 512 MB RAM, DVD Burner, Fingerprint reader, Card Reader), better than my ThinkPad, was on sale for only 9.75 M. Wowwwww…..I was drooling when I saw it. It’s beautifully slim n small…with classic black color. I could buy it, but then, I’d have 3 notebooks. It’d be redundant. I have to find a way to get rid of my ThinkPad and buy 17” LCD monitor for that Fujistu baby. It’d cost too much, so I just killed the thought and walked away. Finished looking around at 1.30 PM. Went home, arrived at 2 PM. It all went down right on schedule.

Took a bath and ate a late lunch afterward. Finished watching Gilmore Girls season 3. It was great serial. The acoustic guitar with simple la..la…la…fitted the serial perfectly. Watched American Pie 5 after that. It was the worst American Pie sequel. Maybe because it has reached it’s saturation point. The storyline was still the same…bla bla bla…the difference was only in the packaging. Took a quick nap, then attended an afternoon mass. Ran some errand after that, went online for a while to change my avatar n siggy. Went to sleep around 1 AM.

Woke up on Sunday at 9.30 AM. Went to Gadink w mom. She bought a dress. I left here looking around at Diamond near the home utensils. I was going to buy Ipod Nano, but it was more expensive there at Apple Centre, so I decided to buy somewhere else. Bought a necklace and a ring for myself at a Christian Bookstore. The pendant was simple cross, liquid-like the design was great and it’s cheap too…;p. The ring was also great, made from Titanium and it’s rust-proof (we’ll have to prove this one). Then I met mom near the ceramics counter. She bought few plates. Then we went back home. Ate lunch and watched Gilmore Girls season 4 ep 1-3. Watched DOA after that. I almost didn’t recognize Holly Valance in that movie at first. Sarah Carter was pretty and still have that cute voice. Reminded me of her appearances in few Smallville episodes. DOA..standard movie, simple plot, good fighting scenes, esp the ones that involved pretty girls..lolz.

Yesterday was also Dave's bday. I wanted to congratulate him, but I lost his cell phone number. I sent an SMS to Cynthia, but the first one was fail and the 2nd wasn't replied. I asked Robert, but he also lost Dave's #. Dave....If I may quote his words..is my craziest fella...we had lots of fond memories together back in univ days. Swimming at TA, skipping classes just to go to his place, playing PS2. Playing pool from midnite till almost dawn, went to NAV till 3 AM, ate noodles at 5 AM, clubbing till 5 AM while we had class at 7.30 AM....There're just too many things.... on this occasion, let me wish him a (belated) happy birthday. I wish him more success in life n love. Have an excellent year ahead and may God bless him abundantly.

Later that nite I listened to the radio and they play Simply Red’s –Say You Love Me. Very soothing. Mick Hucknall’s voice was great. Just say that you love me…


Simply Red - Say You Love Me

Being one of those grains of sand
I get blown all around the world
And what I make of it
Oh I don't know
What's the meaning of it
Oh I don't know

I've been around so many times
that the world's turning in my mind
What do I think of it
Oh it's so so

What more can you be than the things they say
you've been

Say you love me all around the world
Stay and hug me all around the world
Be yours a boy or be mine a girl
Just say you love me
Just say you love me

I never ever realised
It's so easy to make you cry
But did I break a bit
Oh I hope no
Have you forgot about it
Oh I hope so

But you never ever wonder why
In every single pair of eyes
There is a hunger in it
Or it's soul dies

What more can you be than the things they say
you've been

Say you love me all around the world
Stay and hug me all around the world
Be yours a boy or be mine a girl

Say you love me all around the world
Stay and hug me all around the world
Be yours a boy or be mine a girl
Just say you love me

Come on now darling, say you love me
Oh yeah, please please say you love me
Come on say you love me


and that ended a wonderful weekend.

Risalah Hati

post #132

Been listening to Dewa's songs from their 5th album, Bintang Lima these last few days....still lazy, drowsy, rainy days...

Dewa - Risalah Hati

Hidupku tanpa cintamu
Bagai malam tanpa bintang
Cintaku tanpa sambutmu
Bagai panas tanpa hujan
Jiwaku berbisik lirih
Ku harus milikimu

Reff :
Aku bisa membuatmu jatuh cinta kepadaku
Meski kau tak cinta... kepadaku
Beri sedikit waktu biar cinta datang
Karena telah terbiasa

Simpan mawar yang ku beri
Mungkin wanginya mengilhami
Sudikah dirimu untuk
Kenali aku dulu
Sebelum kau ludahi aku
Sebelum kau robek hatiku
Back to Reff :

Aku bisa membuatmu jatuh cinta kepadaku
Meski kau tak cinta...kau tak cinta
Aku bisa membuatmu jatuh cinta kepadaku
Meski kau tak cinta...kepadaku
Back to Reff :

Hidupku tanpa cintamu
Bagai malam tanpa bintang
Cinta tanpa sambutmu
Bagai panas tanpa hujan


Dewa - Dua Sejoli

Usap air matamu
Yang menetes di pipimu
Ku pastikan semuanya
Akan baik-baik saja

Bila kau terus pandangi
Langit tinggi di angkasa
Tak kan ada habisnya
S'gala hasrat di dunia

Reff :
Hawa tercipta di dunia
Untuk menemani sang Adam
Begitu juga dirimu
Tercipta tuk temani aku

Renungkan sejenak...
Arti hadirku di sini
Jangan pernah ingkari
Dirimu adalah Wanita

* :
Harusnya dirimu menjadi
Perhiasan sangkar maduku
Walaupun kadang diriku
Bertekuk lutut di hadapanmu...
Back to Reff, *, Reff :

Bukalah pintu jiwamu
Dengar bisikan sanubari
Semua adalah isyarat
Isyarat dari Sang Pencipta

December

post # 131

Hmmmm......Learned that telling the truth often brings complication as a consequence. Sometimes it's easier to 'look the other way' and keep it for ourselves. Yeahh, life is about choices and consequences. I made a choice and now I have to face the consequences. It's part of a learning process in life. Well, at least I feel good about being honest.

Weekend was great, playing badminton again after so long. As usual attended the afternoon mass on saturday. Yesterday was my parish bday, so there're tents and lots of decoration. Also had gath w the WG member with special guest star, the founder. I was impressed to know that he's still very young. Just a year older than me. Wow...

And today....another relax day at the office, but I don't have the inspiration to write. I thought about this month. December, the twelfth month, what so special about this month? I checked my email n remembered that yesterday was Pauline's bday. It's been a long time since the last time I heard from her, remembering we didn't really said goodbye whatsoever that time. Today's also Nell's bday...she's 24 now. I wish her more success in life n love. I can never erase her from giacellenira.

I dedicate this song for Nell, for her bday...thanks to her who introduces me to Jay's songs. There's just silence between us.

安靜 | An Jing | Silence

曲/詞: 周杰倫
Qu/Ci: Zhou Jie Lun
Music/Lyrics: Jay Chou


只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day

睡著的大提琴
Shui jiao de da ti qin
The sleeping cello

安靜的舊舊的
An Jing de jiu jiu de
Quiet and so old

我想你已表現的非常明白
Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
I think you've made yourself clear

我懂我也知道
Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
I know and I'm sure

你沒有捨不得
Ni mei you she bu de
You don't regret

你說你也會難過我不相信
Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe

牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
You being with me was in the past

希望他是真的比我還要愛你
Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
I hope he loves you more than I do

我才會逼自己離開
wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai
Only then will I bring myself to leave


Chorus
你要我說多難堪
Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
You want me to say it, but it is awkward

我根本不想分開
Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
I don't even want to break up

為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?

我沒有這種天份
Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
I don't have the ability

包容你也接受他
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
To accept both you and him

不用擔心的太多
Bu yong dan xin de tai duo
Don't worry too much

我會一直好好過
Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo
I'll still be fine

你已經遠遠離開
Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
You've already gone far away

我也會慢慢走開
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
And I will slowly walk away

為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?

我真的沒有天份
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really don't have the ability

安靜的沒這麼快
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Staying silent doesn't come so fast

我會學著放棄你
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up

是因為我太愛你
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
Because I love you so much



originally written on Dec 4 at 1.13 PM.

6th Birthday

post #129

Last monday my prayer gathering celebrated it’s 6th birthday. Our prayer gathering patron is St. Catherine Laboure and her memorial is the same with our prayer gathering bday. We have this celebration planned from September and it went very well. It went excellently.

I regretted that I had underestimated a bit about how well it would be. I went back from office at 6 PM, arrived at Church at 6.50PM. Ladies, Eddy, Devi, Veni…the team had arrived. The decoration, the sound system, the projector n the food was well prepared. I was impressed. There were some people already came like Cello, and some other people whom I didn’t know.

Even Pastor Haryo came as special guest star. He came all way from Surabaya to give speech about St. Catherine Laboure profile. He even had presentation slide with photos to give us a better description about St. Catherine Laboure. A few minutes after the celebration began, Rhea came w Sisi Indonesian Idol. Ladies asked me earlier to pick up Sisi, but since I didn’t bring a car to work that day, I said I can’t. Since I was the documentation guy, I sat at the back row. Then Rhea and Sisi sat next to me. Took some pictures of them and I also got my picture with Sisi taken.

There were quite lot of people who came. Other prayer gatherings from Sunter n Cilincing came. Ci Sia, Ko Riko n Ci Lia also came….n they sang The New Spring Time (n promoted the CD n cassette..;p). Sisi sang The Prayer duet w James. It was lovely.

In overall, it was great. The celebration ended at 9.30 PM. We cleaned the function hall afterward and I went home. And my busy weekend (plus monday) was officially ended.

Today’s Elisha Cuthbert’s bday..Happy Birthday to her…I’ll never forget….the girl next door :D

Christ The King

post #128

It’s over. I still feel the euphoria of these last two days. It feels like I just got back from a retreat. It’s very refreshing and rejuvenating (emotionally n spiritually). My body is very exhausted and sore, but I feel spirited. Okay let me start the full story.

Yesterday was Christ the King day, the end of liturgy calendar. Continuing the closing of Novena prayer on Saturday, there was a celebration mass yesterday at Indoor Tennis Stadium. The mass was presented by the Archbishop of Jakarta Archdiocese Vicar. As a member of the committee I must prepared the things needed for the mass. After a very interesting chat on late Saturday, I slept at around 2.30 AM and woke up at 7 AM. Took a bath, didn’t have time to eat breakfast so I grabbed some Beng-Beng and went to Senayan coz I promised to get there at 8 AM the latest.

Arrived there about 5 minutes late coz there’s this Suzuki Thunder convoy and AIDS Walk event at Senayan. No body had arrived, except Ivan. I helped him a lil bit with the things for the New Springtime drama. Then the guys who brought flowers for the altar came. I was still drowsy when Ci Sia n the others arrived from the hotel at around 9 AM.

Then me n Glen started to work. Ran some errands, prepared the hostie for the mass, n some other things since we’re the support team. At around 1 PM it was getting crowded. The dancers and singers from Joy came and the rehearsed for the Eucharist Seminar at 3PM. Finished the preparation at around 2 PM. And our base camp, the utilities room, was invaded by lots of people who came to change clothes, took a bath, did their make up, even ironed their shirts..lolz. I took a bath at 2.30 PM…waited there in the crowded room until the seminar finished. Took some pictures of the room, the dancers, the musicians, I even got the chance to take a pic with Pastor Deshi….yeahhhh.

Then the mass began at 5.30 PM. Total there were 15 pastors on the altar. I sat at the left back corner. When I look at the altar, it felt that all work for the past two days were totally worthy. I just sat there, enjoyed the mass. The sermon was great too. We celebrated Christ the King Day. It meant we should let Him be our king in our life. And how do we know that He’s really the king in our life? How do other people know that He governs our life? The answer is from our behaviors, our actions. How do we live our life daily reflects whether He really governs our life or not. The vicar also said that he was very happy to see Jakarta Renovation 2006, that it’s a sign that His kingdom really was realized. He closed the sermon by quoting Matthew 28:20, reminded us that God is with us always until the end of age.

The mass ended at around 7.30 PM. After the mass, team support job was not finished yet. We must pack the mass equipment again. Ate dinner which was provided for the committee. Me, Ladies, Joseph, Mike, Devi, Ancie, Veni, Rica, Henny ate together and we chatted a bit. I also met Edward there….we often bumped to each other for the past 9 months. Short story, finished my job at almost 10 PM. The stage was already stripped off. I looked at the indoor tennis stadium for the last time that nite, thinking what Pastor Deshi said in his sermon the day before, everything has a start, and has an end. It was the end of Jakarta Renovation 2006, but it also a new start for the next theme…Eucharistic Generation. I sighed and went back home with an amazing feeling from those 2 days experience. Exhausted physically, Rejuvenated emotionally.


Hillsong - One Way

I lay my life down at Your feet
'Cause You're the only one I need
I turn to You and You are always there

In troubled times it's You I seek
I put You first that's all I need
I humble all I am all to You

One way, Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for

You are always, always there
Every how and everywhere
Your grace abounds so deeply within me

You will never ever change
Yesterday, today the same
Forever 'til forever meets no end

You are the way, the truth, and the life
We live by faith and not by sight for You
We're living all for You



originally written on Nov 27, 2006

New Spring Time

post #127


Just got home from a splendid Saturday. It was the 9th novena, the last one, n the merriest. Imago Dei was excellent in organizing this event. It’

Arrived there in the morning and ran some errands. Had a mass in the afternoon for the team. Pastor Deshi gave an interesting sermon about the last days. Some of the things that he said were that everything has an end. We shouldn’t be too consumed with how or when is the end, instead he said it’s important for us to be faithful till the end. Reminded me of a verse in St. Peter’s letter (if I’m not mistaken) that we shall receive a reward for our faithfulness which is the crown of life. And he said something that was really good. He quoted from Mother Theresa, who said: “A saint is someone who does an ordinary thing with extraordinary love”. It’s a very beautiful saying. No matter how small our contributions look, what matters the most is our intention (our sincerity, our love) in making those contribution.

After the mass didn’t have much to do, just waiting for the vandals to arrive. And at around 4-5 PM it was getting crowded. The dancers, singers, and the other member committees arrived and prepared for the last Novena.

At 6 PM the novena started. It was excellent…amazing. The opening song was The New Spring Time… and we sang One Way Jesus. I was overwhelmed by emotions I couldn’t describe. Then Pastor Deshi gave another great speech. In short…the Novena was marvelous.

After the novena, unexpectedly I met Angel. Well actually she called me. It’s been a few months since the last time I saw her. We talked a bit and at the parking lot I met Rhea. It’s also been a while since the last time I saw her. Chatted a bit then I went back inside the stadium.

Then I talked to the coordinator that I wanted to go home coz I don’t bring suitable clothed for tomorrow mass. Plus I prefer to sleep on my lovely bed. Well..the new spring time has arrived….I need to get some sleep…lots of things need to be done but at the moment I’m engaged in two very interesting chats… well… that’s all for now I guess… hopefully after the last novena, the catholic youth revival really happens.


The New Spring Time

Let us come people of God
Celebrate His love and His faithfulness
With joyful heart sing unto Him for the new hope has come

Let us arise people of God
His light has come and shine upon you
The water is turned into wine, new revival has come

Lift up your heart giving thanks to Him
Praising and dancing shout to the King
His people is free, His people rejoice
A brand new day has come

For this is the year we celebrate His grace
Let us rejoice and be glad
The new spring time of the Lord has come
For in this land, His church arises
To proclaim Jesus the king

Balance

post #126

Finally done my job as committee member of my office Q1 Community Meeting at Kemang News Café. It went quite well and finished earlier than we had planned. One interesting thing was the topic, work life balance. The guest speaker main idea was about balance. We all had our own definition of balance. It’s very subjective and depends on each individual. Made me think…if we really wanna be balanced, we can’t excel on one thing. And it’s impossible to excel in a lot of things, coz no matter how hard we try; we just can’t have it all. We might be good, great….but not excellent on many things.

Like I had written in my previous post, it’s about choices and consequences. If we wanna excel on one thing, we must face the consequences of sacrificing other things.
Example, if we want to have an excellent career, we might have to sacrifice our social life, maybe even romance life, coz we must give extra effort to excel on our career, we must be dedicated to it, thus it takes lots of our time. One fine example is in the Click movie. Adam Sandler thought that by pursuing his career, he could make his life and his family’s life happier. But in order to achieve the position he dreamt of, he ended up sacrificing his family.

That’s why the guest speaker said it’s crucial for us to find our own inner balance. We must know our purpose in life. What we value most, what matters the most in our life. Once we know that, we can make priorities and live based on them. But if we achieve balance, then aren’t we living a mediocre life? If we’re balanced, what makes us different than any other people? What makes us stand out?

I was very intrigued by a friend of mine’s siggy in a forum. It said:
“All greatness of character is dependent on individuality.
The man who has no other existence than that which he partakes in common with all around him, will never have any other than an existence of mediocrity.“

After thinking about it, I think the answer is on the first line. What differentiates us from any other people is our individual character. It’s inline with Stephen R. Covey book, the 8th habit. It about achieving greatness, which all starts from our own character.

Beside, does standing out makes us happy? Balance, happiness and success are some things that cannot be standardized since we all have our own measure. I believe we must live our life to the fullest according to our own balance and have a solid character that defines us as a (good/great) person and differs us from the rest.

Each Time I Think of You

post #125

Each time I think of You
My heart is filled with Love
The beauty of Your love

Each time I think of You
My heart longs to bow down and worship You

Each time I think of You
My heart is filled with passion to proclaim Your name

I wanna cry out to the nation
That Jesus is Lord of all
I wanna sing Your name
With every beat in my heart
To tell the world of Your amazing love

So let this generation arise and stand hand in hand
To proclaim that Jesus Christ is Lord


song by Riko Ariefano

Another Friday

post #124

It’s already Friday, again. It seems like yesterday I said to myself it’s Monday again, but like in a blink of an eye….here comes Friday. Nothing much happened in the last four days. Got into an accident on Monday. I was riding Elisha (as much as I wish it’s Elisha Cuthbert, it’s not…lol. It’s my motorcycle) n all of the sudden, the guy in front of me (a little bit on right side) decided (I dunno if he did it intentionally or not) to demonstrate some of his motorcycle riding skills. As a result he fell and his motorcycle flipped right in front of me. I tried my best to avoid it, but the very short distance made me impossible to evade. So I crashed. Had a minor injury on my left knee but Elisha wasn’t as lucky as I was. It’s left front body was damaged. Darn!! That’s a thing about accident, even when u’re already careful, it can still happen to you.

Working on a program on Tuesday n Wednesday. Completed n tested it using test data given from the client in Aussie. But the test data wasn’t complex enough, so I asked for more. The welcome kit from Microsoft that I had waited from June finally came of Wednesday. I got two welcome kits. First was MCP, and the second was MCDST. It felt so good to receive them, esp when I looked at the certificates. It brought a sense of proud.

Beside working on a program, my routine was still the same. WG, browsing, chatting, reading bible, watching Gilmore Girls seas 3. I got Smallville seas 6 ep 1-6 from a friend and I watched it till ep 3. I was disappointed coz the ending scene was Kristin Kreuk making love to Lex in front of fireplace in Luthor Mansion. Arghhhhhhhhh…I know they used a body double for that scene. But still…it destroy all the images of Lana…She’d been w Whitney, Clark, Jason, Clark again…n now Lex????? The interesting part was there’s Oliver Queen aka Green Arrow….hurrayyy…The actor who played Oliver looked alike Bertrand….hahaha.

Next week is gonna be a busy one. So many things to do. I’m gonna be an MC for office community gathering. And then on Saturday and Sunday I’m gonna be involved in Jakarta Archdiocese event at Indoor Tennis Stadium. But after that, after another friday….December comes.

Giving My Best

post #123

Today’s sermon was very interesting. The bible reading was taken from Mark 12: 28-34. It was about the greatest commandment. The first is that you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is you shall love your neighbor as yourself.

And the pastor started the sermon. He talked about love. How much we love God and other people. Is our love conditional or unconditional one? Do we search God only when we need Him in trouble times or when we want something? And talking about our love to God, if we really love Him, will we give our best for Him? It’s not that hard to find examples of this. Simple things, do we attend the mass on time without being late? Give our best time for God. How about the way we dress when we attend the mass?

I think the whole point of giving my best for God is intention. With a good and pure intention, simple things we do, we’ll do it our best.

It made me think about myself. When I was sick and had my bed rest, I always spent some amount of time to read bible. What was my intention reading bible at that time? Did I do that just because I had nothing else to do? I don’t think so. Well…now I try to make this a habit. I want to spend some time to listen to God’s words. I’m not sure if I’ve given my best for God, but I’m trying to do so, each passing day. It’s easier said than done, that’s why we always need some reminder and that’s what I hope this blog will be. A reminder for us to give our best for God.

So if I may ask you, have you given your best for God?

God bless.

Fly…So Sad…

post # 122

I’m feeling a bit sentimental lately. I’ve been listening to GIGI’s song, Terbang n it reminded me of the time when I had this crush on my ex-gf. These days I also have quite similar feelings.. I dunno what I’m longing for… it’s kinda a mix up of emotions actually.

Back to work brings stress but yesterday after I read James 1 n 2 and also got this beautiful verse I felt that serenity like a wave of peacefulness wiped me out. It’s Philippians 4 :13 (I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me). This verse reminded me once again to have faith in God and not dwelling too much on my own worries.

And it’s also yesterday I felt different when listening to GIGI. It really….brought up old memories. Not that I have crush again on my ex, but I felt the similar emotions of longing..wistful…and kinda sad. So… I dedicate this song for a girl, who makes my emotions fly high above lately…

GIGI - Terbang

Terpikir... dan terpana
Dan terdiam... ku melihat
Sadarku... bertahun
dan bersama... terwujudlah ah...

Terbayang... yang terindah
Yang terhampa... berlalulah
Sadarku... semuanya
Perasaan... rasa cinta ah...

Kaulah yang dinginkan aku
Dari mimpiku dari mimpiku uoohh..
Coba terbangkan khayalku
Dari sadarku ...

Terbayang... yang terindah
Yang terhampa... berlalulah
Sadarku... semuanya
Perasaan... rasa cinta ah...

#:
Kaulah yang dinginkan aku
Dari mimpiku dari mimpiku uohh..
Coba terbangkan khayalku
Dari sadarku…dari sadarku..

#

Kaulah yang dinginkan aku
Dari mimpiku dari mimpiku uoohh..
Coba terbangkan khayalku
Dari sadarku ...

# till fade


And about the kinda sad part.. this Gregorian song really fits my mood…


Gregorian – So Sad

Gloria in Excelsis Deo
Gloria in Excelsis Deo
Gloria in Excelsis Deo

Qui tollis peccata mundi, miserere nobis
Qui tollis peccata mundi,
suscipe deprecationem nostram

Tell me why I feel so sad, so sad
Tell me why I feel so sad
Tell me why I feel so sad, so sad
Tell me why I feel so sad...

Qui sedes ad dexteram patris, miserere nobis
Gratias agimus tibi,
propter magnum gloriam tuum

Tell me why I feel so sad, so sad
Tell me why I feel so sad
Tell me why I feel so sad, so sad
Tell me why I feel so sad...

Jesu Christu... Amen
Jesu Christu (so sad, so sad, so sad) Amen
Jesu Christu... Amen
Jesu Christu... Amen


Why do I feel kinda sad…..maybe because I feel like Peterpan’s song…Jauh Mimpiku…It feels like my dream seems so far away…wonder how I ever make it…can I make it. Well…I just try best and leave the rest to God…enough with this sappiness. If it’s meant for me then I’ll make it.

House of God

post #121

It’s Monday. The holiday’s over. Back to work again. I can imagine the long working hours that await me. I feel reluctant to go to work today actually. Maybe because the imagination of the long working hours, maybe because I don’t really like what I’m doing. I never really interested in programming. I enjoy my previous job. The stress was different, but it doesn’t offer any career advancement. I don’t wanna be stuck in the same position 5 years from now. So I decided to take an offer from a multinational company, the company I work for now, though I didn’t really like the position they offered me. Well…we gotta make some sacrifices in life..to achieve something more.

Yesterday I went to attend afternoon mass. It was very rejuvenating. When I got there, went down on my knees and prayed, I was overwhelmed by these mixed emotions that I couldn’t describe. It was like my spirit talked to God directly… I just kneeled down, closed my eyes and enjoyed that sensation. It’s very peaceful coming to the House of God. The sermon was very good also. It’s about faith… how a blind man’s faith can cure his blindness. And it reminded me again of my worries and doubts. Why should I have those…. I gotta have faith. I can make it… I’d be lost without You, my shepherd. It felt soooooo good to go to church.

And to close the holiday, I chatted with this amazing girl. It’s been very delightful having chat sessions w her. She really lightened up the holiday. This holiday was another great one. Thanks to the DVDs I bought that helped me spent the time while I was recovering. I love Gilmore Girls. Watching season 1 n 2 I noticed some interesting facts about the cast. In one of the episode, there was Brandon “BJ” Routh. And in the 2nd season, there was this DH’s Mary Alice Young… I forgot her name. It was an excellent TV show.

Well….holiday’s over…got some fond memories from it. It’s back to work now…so help me God…

Reminiscing Perth

post #120

Just a short post. Exactly at this date, one year ago... I was sitting at Livia's ASP.NET class and wrote a blog. It was my first day in Perth, a city that later on became quite an obsession. It was the start of an extraordinary journey that last till now...in the back of my head.

Can't believe how time goes by so fast. I can still remember the details of my trip to Perth. It was the BEST holiday I've ever had. The buildings, the people, the food, the air, the weather....everything. It was some kind of wonderland to me. I felt like a village people come to a city for a very first time. Everything seemed so amazing.

I'd really love to go there again..... I will....

Once again I'm quoting Savage Garden's song...Memories Are Designed to Fade....Maybe that's why I write this blog...Coz I don't wanna ever forget the Perth experience...I don't want this particular memory to fade...Though eventually I will...I will forget the tiny details and only remember the pleasant impression I got there..... It's lingering.....

Perth....you will always be a fond memory....

Click

post #119

It's been a long time since my last writing. Well..it turned out the fever n (terrible) headache that I got in early Oct was a typhus symptoms. I was still experiencing the fever n headache on Monday, Oct 9, so I went to see a doctor on Tuesday. That's when I knew that I had a typhus symptoms...the most known signs are severe headache and fever starting in the afternoon. So a person who has typhus symptoms feels fresher in the morning and in the afternoon he/she will suffer (severe) headache and fever....like me.

The doctor gave me some medicine and said that I should get a bed rest at least 5 days. I still attended the training on Wednesday, but only for half day. After I told my division head, he insisted that I should get a bed rest asap, so I went home after lunch. Then I began my bed rest period. It was kinda boring. In short, I went to work again on Wednesday. But on Friday I got this deadline to debug an ABAP program, I worked so hard (and Thank God a colleague helped me out) and have to stay till 7 PM. But it was finished ...so I could have a peaceful holiday. That's when I got the aching on my head n a fever. I said to myself...darn... I pushed myself too hard... Well, for someone who hasn't been in programming world for almost 2 years and suddenly has to debug a quite complicated program, to make sure it works, it takes all the brain resources....It took my reserve energy to go home....and I went straight to sleep...Got sms on midnite from Kitty and I managed to reply with two characters...Ok.

Btw...I had a small gath on Thursday nite with Shella, Cybelle, Justifie, Sanmei, Uting and the guest star, Achambs. We had a buffet on Marinara, Sarinah. Took some pictures after that. It was great.

I woke up at around 8 AM on saturday. Feeling quite well. And went to Kitty's parents in law's. With some help from Tomz about the direction, I managed tp get there...15 minutes late. Finally met Ruel in person, Ricky in person and got the chance to take pictures of and with Ruel...lolz....Not so long after I arrived, tomz came. We stayed there for about two hours, talked from A-Z...and we went back home.

I went to Mangga Dua to buy DVDs for the Lebaran holiday. Bought 33 DVDs. Lots of them are Gilmore Girls DVDs. I bought Season 1-3. Plus few other DVDs like Garfield 2, Dorm Daze, You Me n Dupree, and Click. I felt a little warm and worried that I might be sick again. So I quickly went back home and rest.

Yesterday was (DVD watching day) bed rest day. I watched Dorm Daze, Garfield 2, and You Me n Dupree. And I was back eating porridge again...though in the afternoon a neighbour came and gave ketupat package....which I couldn't eat......what a torture....

Well nevermind. Health is more important. Today I woke up, feeling much better. Thank God. It's amazing what a little faith can do. He made me able to arrive at home in one piece with such a headache and fever on Friday. All I asked Him was His guidance and extra strength to go home safely...

I just finished watching Click. It's an EXCELLENT movie. It's very touching. I strongly recommend you to watch it. It has a simple yet stron moral message. Whatever you choose, you'll also have to be ready for the consequences. Once again I'm quoting Stephen R. Covey's words in his book, "When you pick a stick, you also pick the other end of that stick". We cannot run from the consequences of our choices, our actions. That's what life is all about. I believe I heard this from Smallville....Life is not about chances, it's about choices and consequences.

That's all for now. Happy Idul Fitri day for you who celebrate it. I'm going back to my bed rest routine.....sleeping, watching DVDs and browsing...lolz....


God Bless...


And as usual....here's the song that was played when Michael and Donna had their first kiss... (and also the song that was played on Michael's son, Ben's wedding). An old and beautiful song.


The Cranberries - Linger

If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn, don't let it fade
I'm sure I'm not being rude
But it's just your attitude
It's tearing me apart It's ruining everything
I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

(chorus)
But I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to let it linger
Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong, but I was wrong

If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And I wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

Recovering

post #118

I finally managed to complete 5 days of ABAP training. But on Thursday I got this terrible headache….my head was throbbing like crazy. Didn’t exactly know why, maybe it’s because the air conditioner. Maybe because I was looking at my laptop all day long and it made my neck stiff, thus brought a headache. And later in the afternoon got this office event, ‘Buka Puasa Bersama’. I went home at 7PM coz my body began to trembling. I prayed to God to give me the strength so I can arrive at home safe. And it was amazing, on my way home I didn’t feel this headache at all. Arrived at home I washed my face n cleaned my body then quickly went to sleep. I thought a decent sleep will solve this headache.

But I was wrong. On Friday I woke up, the headache still there…and I got a bonus, lite fever. I pushed myself to go to the office. I managed to absorb the training till lunch, but after that, the fever’s getting worse n I only listened and didn’t do the exercises. I went home earlier and bought Panadol for my fever. I ate the panadol and went to sleep at 7 PM. Woke up yesterday on 7 AM. I slept for twelve hours….lolz. The fever was gone, but I still felt the headache a bit. Then I went online for a while… then went to sleep again. Finally the headache subsided. I watched Sentinel, and the headache came again….arghhhh…then I went to sleep again….. so basically…yesterday was a sleeping day for me….to recover the energy I need for the rest of ABAP training sessions.

Now I’m feeling much better. No fever and no headache…just don’t really have an appetite. I have to really rejuvenate myself for next week. I’ve never been sick in a very long time and the experience on those two days really really torturing. Thank You God for the strength you gave me on Thursday and Friday esp.

Btw, there’s a cute newcomer in my division. She has this cute girl’s voice…. A nice addition I must say…lolz. Could this lead to an office romance? Nope, I don’t think so… I kissed romance goodbye two years ago and I ain’t really keen about starting it…

This week recap

post # 117

Ahh….finally get some time to write a blog. It’s been exciting week. Last Saturday I went to the 7th Novena at STC. Met Eddy, Devi, Julius n Verra there. The theme was Set My Heart On Fire. It was held by universities across Jakarta. After it finished, I saw Susan again, in a different hairstyle. I really admire her face. It’s just so….flawless. her face is just like a doll’s face, very lovely.

On Sunday I went to Jef’s. As usual we played WE. When I was about to take a nap, Agus called me and said that David asked us to accompany him to Roxy to buy cellphone. I said okay n not so long after that they picked me up. We went there, looked around, store by store, floor by floor, but only got two out of three cellphones that David wanted to buy. So we went to Cempaka Mas, and finally we got it. It’s kinda tiring, but that’s what friends do.

There’s nothing really special from monday to Friday, just went to Starbuck a few times (well since it’s located on the ground floor of my office building, it’s very convenient). And on Friday, I finally upgraded my status on WG and became a Godfather. It was quite a leap since I only got 5900 posts on September 11. It’s time to slow down. Beside I’ll be having my classroom ABAP training for two weeks starting from tomorrow, so I may not have the time do that anymore (posting like crazy I mean). There’s a time for everything.

Yesterday was the perfect closure for this week. Played badminton in the morning. When I was playing I noticed there’s this attractive girl playing on the field next to us. Her face seemed familiar but I wasn’t sure. After we finished playing, then I had a better look at her and she was looking at me too, then I realized that she’s Shelley, my friend’s ex. She recognized me too and then we talked. She’s about to become a dentist in the next two years. She looked amazing. Her body was well figured with nice muscle tone, athletic. It was a very nice surprise coz I haven’t seen her since they broke up. Got her cellphone number and she continued playing badminton. She was quite good too…..hmmm. Then I took a bath, ate lunch and went to Tomz’s office. It was very cozy. I’d love to work in a place like that. Then I went back home and took a nap coz the badminton session was really really exhausting. There were only five persons who played. Really drained my energy.

Well…that’s all for this week. God has been so good. Everything went well. Sometimes when everything went well we forget to thank Him. We’re too preoccupied with ourselves. We take His blessings which appear in simple things like clear traffic, fresh air, help from others for granted. We really need to start appreciating those simple things and never forget to say thanks to Him.

This song is dedicated for my ‘true friends’. Quoting David’s testimonial for me…

“ Yang pasti ***** adalah salah satu
sahabat sejati gua dari semua temen
yang gua kenal catet ya SAHABAT
SEJATI. “

it’s a flattering testi I must say.



Sheila on 7 – Sahabat Sejati

Sahabat sejatiku, hilangkah dari ingatanmu
Di hari kita saling berbagi
Dengan kotak sejuta mimpi, aku datang menghampirimu
Kuperlihat semua hartaku

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Magnificent Seven

post # 116

Got these incredible songs from Moet few days earlier (I wanna thank her again for that) and these days my playlist has been dominated by them. Currently I really like to hear Jessica Simpson’s – A Public Affair. It’s veryyyyy catchy and the rhythm is great. I really love the part when she sings “All the girls stepping out for a public affair”…they way she says public affair just appeals to me…lolz. There’s also Savage Garden’s version of Last Christmas..Darren’s voice is just so beautiful…. I forget how many times I say that I wish I could have voice like his. Don’t care that he’s a gay, he’s surely has excellent voice. I also like the guitar sound in Donovan Frankenreiter – The Way It Is. Next I got Janet Jackson – Doesn’t Really Matter, a song that has been on my search list all this time. Great song. And Madonna’s Dear Jessie… I like the sound of the baby’s laughter in the middle of the song. There are also Hanson – If Only and The Moffatts – Who Do You Love, two songs that I once had but lost due to HDD incident. Now I got them back again. There are other songs but these magnificent seven are the best.

During my free time in the office (which I have a lot lately) yesterday, I looked up Kate Beckinsale fan site and oh boy….she’s really gorgeous. Downloaded some of her commercials. I just found out that Lux used her as their advertisement model. If you interested to see this British Beauty, you can click the link on the right hand side of this blog.

Well…I guess that’s all for now…Back to WG lolz….been posting like crazy these days…like there’s some competition with the other users like Brit, Ivo, Makino….even Moet hahahahha…..

I’ll leave you with Jay’s song, Romantic Handphone…. Another excellent song from the talented musician.

浪漫手機
Lang Man Shou Ji
Composer: Jay Chou (周杰倫) Lyricist: Vincent Fong (方文山)


輕輕放
qing qing fang
我就是卸不下對妳的喜歡
wo jiu shi xie bu xia dui ni de xi huan
原來愛會慢慢增加重量
yuan lai ai hui man man zeng jia zhong liang
想關上這城市所有的燈光
xiang guan shang zhe cheng shi suo you de deng guang
黑暗中專心聞妳的髮香
hei an zhong zhuan xin wen ni de fa xiang

這夜晚
zhe ye wan
讓暗戀很有畫面感
rang an lian hen you hua mian gan
回想
hui xiang
與妳約會過的地方
yu ni yue hui guo de di fang
都捨不得刪
dou she bu de shan
在腦海裡儲存欣賞
zai nao hai li chu cun xin shang

妳微笑瀏覽
ni wei xiao liu lan
手機裡的浪漫
shou ji li de lang man
原來真心送出愛是這麼簡單
yuan lai zhen xin song chu ai shi zhe me jian dan
溫習螢幕上
wen xi ying mu shang
妳可愛的模樣
ni ke ai de mo yang
關於緣份的解釋我又多傳了一行
guan yu yuan fen de jie shi wo you duo chuan le yi hang

妳微笑瀏覽
ni wei xiao liu lan
手機裡的浪漫
shou ji li de lang man
原來愛情可以來的這麼突然
yuan lai ai qing ke yi lai de zhe me tu ran
短信的橋樑
duan xin de qiao liang
將曖昧期拉長
jiang ai mei qi la chang
我們的感情蔓延滋長用文字培養
wo men de gan qing man yan zi chang yong wen zi pei yang
在虛擬土壤
zai xu ni tu rang

電視牆
dian shi qiang
吵雜的情歌還在拼命播放
chao za de qing ge hai zai pin ming bo fang
我安靜在鬧區等來電鈴響
wo an jing zai nao qu deng lai dian ling xiang
有一些話打好了卻不敢傳
you yi xie hua da hao le que bu gan chuan
怕收到信息的妳在為難
pa shou dao xin xi de ni zai wei nan

街道上
jie dao shang
人潮襯托我的孤單
ren chao chen tuo wo de gu dan
想像
xiang xiang
誰幸運的陪在妳身旁
shui xing yun de pei zai ni shen bang
卻誤會一場
que wu hui yi chang
妳也在等妳手機響
ni ye zai deng ni shou ji xiang

妳微笑瀏覽
ni wei xiao liu lan
手機裡的浪漫
shou ji li de lang man
原來真心送出愛是這麼簡單
yuan lai zhen xin song chu ai shi zhe me jian dan
溫習螢幕上
wen xi ying mu shang
妳可愛的模樣
ni ke ai de mo yang
關於緣份的解釋我又多傳了一行
guan yu yuan fen de jie shi wo you duo chuan le yi hang

妳微笑瀏覽
ni wei xiao liu lan
手機裡的浪漫
shou ji li de lang man
原來愛情可以來的這麼突然
yuan lai ai qing ke yi lai de zhe me tu ran
短信的橋樑
duan xin de qiao liang
將曖昧期拉長
jiang ai mei qi la chang
我們的感情蔓延滋長用文字培養
wo men de gan qing man yan zi chang yong wen zi pei yang
在虛擬土壤
zai xu ni tu rang



Romantic Handphone

Lightly let go
I just can’t take down my fondness for you
In fact love will slowly increase in weight
I want to turn off all the lights in this city
In the dark, concentrate on smelling the fragrance of your hair

This night
Makes the crush have a lot of imagery feel
Remembering
The places I have been on dates with you
I’m unwilling to delete them
Storing them in my mind to enjoy

Your smile browsing
The romance in the handphone
In fact giving out love with a genuine heart is so simple
Practising on the movies screens
Your cute face
About the explanation of fate, I have texted another line


Your smile browsing
The romance in the handphone
In fact love can come so suddenly
The text message’s bridge
Pulls the period of ambiguity longer
Our feelings spread and develop using words to cultivate
On the fictitious soil


The TV wall
The noisy love song is still desperately broadcasting
I silently wait for the incoming call ringtone in downtown
Some words I have typed already but I didn’t dare send
Scared that you, who will receive the message, will be troubled
On the street


The tide of people sets off my loneliness
Imagining
Who is lucky to be by your side?
Yet it was a misunderstanding
You are also waiting for your handphone to ring


Your smile browsing
The romance in the handphone
In fact giving out love with a genuine heart is so simple
Practising at the movies
Your cute face
About the explanation of fate, I have texted another line

Your smile browsing
The romance in the handphone
In fact love can come so suddenly
The text message’s bridge
Pulls the period of ambiguity longer
Our feelings spread and develop using words to cultivate
On the fictitious soil

If Only

post # 115


Last Sunday I went to her spa. When I was parking Elisha, Agus came. Then we both went in and she greeted us. Boy….I almost forgot how adorable she’s. We talked for a while and we moved into the reflexology room. The chair was very comfortable. About 20 minutes later David n Bowo came. The five of us started remembering the times we had back in jr. high, asking how are our other friends doing, etc. after that the four of us went to Happy Puppy (not again….). We really have to find another place to go to..lolz..

I reminisced my feelings by singing few songs that reminds me of the time when I was so naïve, so dumb. Songs like I Want It That Way and All That I Need. Seeing her again was great and it kinda brought a cool breeze. She’s still….loveable. Maybe that’s the thing about wanting something (or someone) you could never have. Because I never have her, I always have this impression, this perception in my mind that she’s exceptional. It’s like having a crush on an artist. We always have this imagination of how good it would be if it had been happened. But in the reality it never happened, and we still carry on our perfect dream perception about that person. Having this kind of emotion makes me wondering, have I moved on? I’m sure I have, but feeling’s a tricky thing. It always manages to mess up with the mind. There’s a good line in Alias… someone who’s master at deception has a very good chance to deceive themselves, deny their own feelings. I guess it’s just because unconsciously I’m trying to fill the void in my heart with this make-believe feelings. Or maybe it’s because the lack of gf to be my OOA. No…it’s not Object Oriented Analysis….but it stands for Object Of Affection (got this term from Smallville)…lolzzz..

Hanson - If Only

Yeah
Cause I need you
Yeah
Cause I need you

Every single time I see you I start to feel this way
It makes me wonder if I am ever gonna feel this way again
There's a picture that's hanging in the back of my head
I see it over and over

I wanna hold you and love you
In my arms and then
I wanna need you
Cause I need to be with you till the end
Then I hear myself reply "You've got to hold it in" this time tonight

chorus:
If only I had the guts to feel this way
If only you'd look at me and want to stay
If only I could take you in my arms and say
I won't go cause I need you
Cause I need you

Yeah

I sit here waiting, wondering, hoping that I'll make this right
Cause all I think about is your hands, your face and all these lonely nights
There's a feeling screaming in the back of my head
Saying it over and over

I wanna hold you and love you
In my arms and then
I wanna need you
Cause I need to be with you till the end
Then I hear myself reply "She'll never let you in" this time tonight

chorus
please don`t go cause I need you now

I wanna hear you say it'll always be this way
And we'll be hand in hand for everynight and everyday
I wanna scream and shout cause I'm losing any doubt
And all I care about is you and me and us and now

chorus
Please don't go cause I need you now

Yeah cause I need you

If only, yeah oh yeah cause I need you now
If only cause I need you, I need you
If only, cause I need you
If only cause I need you
If only, yeah, if only...I need you now....yeah


Talking about move on, there’s also another person who’s moving on. I come to that assumption after reading some of her latest blog entries. Just like I have thought before, it took about two months for her to transform the momentum, her feelings for me, into another form. A bigger and better form I believe. Plus she has other activities that she needs to focus on. I’m glad for her. Been in her position before and I may say I know what it’s like, that it’s just a phase that she’ll get through. An experience that I believe enriches her life, makes her a better person.

Today’s Lorena bday. Haven’t met or had any contact with her in a long time. And the bad news is I lost her phone # in my cellphone incident. Well, I just wanna congratulate her, wishing her the best in this her 22nd birthday. May God bless her even more abundantly.

Writing this blog while listening to Naff – Akhirnya Ku Menemukanmu. It’s a mellow song…my type of song at the moment. Thanks to Moet who sent me this song today.


Naff – Akhirnya Ku Menemukanmu

Akhirnya ku menemukanmu
Saat hati ini mulai merapuh
akhirnya ku menemukanmu
Saat raga ini ingin berlabuh

Ku berharap engkaulah
Jawaban segala risau hatiku
Dan biarkan diriku
Mencintaimu hingga ujung usiaku

Reff:
Jika nanti ku sanding dirimu
Miliki aku dengan segala kelemahanku
Dan bila nanti engkau di sampingku
Jangan pernah letih tuk mencintaiku

Akhirnya ku menemukanmu
Saat hati ini mulai meragu

Ku berharap engkaulah
Jawaban segala risau hatiku
Dan biarkan diriku
Mencintaimu hingga ujung usiaku

Reff (2x)

Akhirnya ku menemukanmu


When will I find you?

Scrambled

post # 114


Yup. That’s the condition of my mind at the moment. So many thoughts running through. Well I better get start… I must warn you though, it’s gonna be far from chronological. I just got back from morning mass. It was presented by a new pastor in my parish. He replaced pastor Juventinus Haryono. Met Marylin and Yuni too today. Marylin still looked beautiful. And as usual I saw Sandra with her parents, but I didn’t meet Eddy n Devi. Maybe they already attended yesterday afternoon mass.

I watched Lucky Number Slevin yesterday. A very good movie with an interesting plot. Nothing much to do lately in the office except studying, browsing and chatting. My playlist on WMP has been dominated by mellow songs lately, such as Nick Lachey - What’s Left of Me, Nidji – Hapus Aku, Jay Chou – Qing Tian, Haven – Say Something, Coldplay – In My Place..etc.

Nick’s song was released after his divorce with Jessica Simpson. It was a good song and the lyric somewhat kinda telling his feelings after the divorce of what the world (the world here refers to hollywood) as the perfect marriage. Jessica Simpson also released a hit single, A Public Affair (since her divorce process had been a public affair???). Could it be that she released the single to respond to Nick’s single? Nick’s song was about broken hearted man n Jess’ song was about a girl who’s been freed (from a bad relationship?) and that she can do what ever she wants….. hmmm….. interesting…..

Nick Lachey -What's Left Of Me

Watch my life pass me by
in the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time
are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day Stuck in the
shadow of my mistakes
yeah

chorus:
'cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin like
a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
What's left of me

I've been dying inside
Little by little
Nowhere to go
But goin' out of my mind
In endless circles
runnin' from myself until
You gave me a reason for standing still

And I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin like
a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
What's left of me

Falling faster
Barely breathing
Give me somethin' to believe in
Tell me it's not all in my head

Take what's left of this man
Make me whole once again

chorus

I've been dying inside you see
I'm going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm just runnin' in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Of me
Just runnin' in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me
Take what's left of me


Jessica Simpson – A Public Affair

There go the street lights - the night's officialy on,
I got the green light - to do what ever i want,
I'm Gonna stand - outside - the box - and put the rules on hold,

Tonight Carte blanche first class for the evening

Ready Set Go
Chorus:
All the girls steppin out for a public affair
(All night,Lets rock cause the party dont stop)
All the cameras come out for a public affair
(Who cares, lets rock, cause the party don't stop)

Hey Baby, I see you lookin' over here baby
Are you gonna keep lookin - or get up?
And talk to me
Heres an opportunity that you don't wanna miss TONIGHT

Tonight Carte blanche first class for the evening

Ready Set Go

chorus

Ohh Ohh

Do what you wanna do, tonight the world does not exist
no no no
Move how you want to move, All my girls work it out - like this

Give me room to shake, shake, shake, shake

chorus twice

All night don't stop, *giggle*, Who cares lets rock?
All night dont stop (Don't stop don't stop)
Who cares lets rock

Ohhh Ohhh Ohhh
Hey Baby
Ahhh ohh ohh ohh
Ahhh ohh ohh

chorus
(Stop, Stop, Stop, stop, stop, stop)


I’ve also been dreaming about some partciular girls lately. The latest dream I had was very vivid, yet vague. I can only remember I went karaoke with her, just the two of us. Can’t remember any other details except that I woke up with my heart beating like I just ran for miles. Some say that dreams represent our inner and unconscious desire. What does it mean?? Hmmmm…….

In a friend of mine’s blog, she said… Loneliness is just a state of mind. It’s true. We can be in a very crowded place, yet feel so lonely…

Coldplay – In My Place

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh, yeah

And I was lost, I was lost
Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed
I was lost, oh yeah

*:
Yeah, how long must you wait for it?
Yeah, how long must you pay for it?
Yeah, how long must you wait for it?
Oh, for it

I was scared, I was scared
Tired and under prepared
But I wait for you

And if you go, if you go
Leave me down here on my own
But I'll wait for it, yeah

*

Sing it please, please, please
Come back and sing to me
To me, me

Come on and sing it out, now, now
Come on and sing it out
To me, me
Come back and sing

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
And I was lost, oh, yeah
Oh, yeah