Year End 2008

post #322

Hiatus Period
After the spontaneous singing at midnite, it seemed I lost all of my inspirations (and more importantly, willingness) to write another entry. Plus the work didn't allow me to. So that's my explanation for the lack of update in my blog. There were some ideas, but it's quite hard to combine the time I had and the will to actually write them. And after a while...they didn't seem as appealing as they had been. *talking about momentum....;D


Road Trip
One thing that I was looking forward at the end of 2008 was our road trip, which we finally did successfully. It was very tiring, but exciting as well. There were seven of us. We went at Christmas Eve, David got the first turn to drive. The traffic was already jammed at Cawang Toll and it continued till Cikampek. There were lots of buses whose drivers drove recklessly. After four hours, it was my turn....made it to Kanci and again David took turn till Tegal. I finished my second turn by arriving in Semarang at around 10 AM. 15 hours to get to Semarang...very bad traffic. I was very very tired after 8 hours of driving (a little bit break between the first five hours and the latter though) but we still ate some breakfast first. Then Dovan took turn to drive to Jogjakarta. Arrived there in the afternoon, we're all tired and quickly took afternoon nap. Went to Ambarukmo Plaza in the evening, ate dinner then stopped by at Ayam Goreng Ny Suharti to eat dinner (again). Went back to the guest house. Me, Dovan, David n Bowo decided to take a tout, we wandered around at drank Ronde at South Ground.

Woke up quite early in the morning then we checked out. We went to Sultan Palace afterward, took the tour (n lots of pics :D) then we went to Borobudur. Stopped by along the way to eat lunch. Arrived at Borobudur around 2 PM. It was hotttttt. We looked around for about an hour then decided to continue our trip to Bandung. David again took the first turn. I got the next turn, a difficult one, lots of maneuver needed. We managed to arrived at Pring Sewu to eat dinner at around 10 PM. Dovan took the next turn and drove an alternative, damaged and scary road. It's like in the middle of nowhere, only trees on the right and left side of the small road. But we got through and next David drove us straight to Bandung. Arrived there at around 3 AM. Drank coffee and lied down for a while. Then I took the turn to drive to White Cater. Arrived there at 6 AM. It wasn't open yet, but we got permission to go up. We went up and the it was very cold. I could see my breath fogged up. Personally I thought it was so so....I like the cold n chilly air though....nice.

I drove till Bandung again, then Agus took turn and drove us to the hotel. I was so exhausted I went to sleep right away the moment I lied down on the bed. We woke up in the afternoon, ate afternoon meal then drove around Bandung. We ended up hung out at Ciwalk and karaoke at NAV...lolzzz... Went back to hotel and got some sleep afterward. The next day we woke up lazily....then we went shopping...tour de FOs...Ciwalk...then ended up at PVJ. Ate dinner at a Japanese restaurant. Bowo tried a-quite-attention-catching menu called Bukkake ramen... and it tasted...weird.... *hence the name? lolzzzzzz..... Then we continued to eat pancake at Pancake Parlour. After that, trip back home. Agus drove all way back home.

It was such a blast to have a roda trip with my homies. Though it's quite short...but it's still fun, all the weariness from driving in the middle of the nite aside. It's nice to see the world...to see different, new things I wouldn't see during working days.


Reflection
Checked my work email yesterday and very surprised to read one of the email I received. *sigh... so long comrade.....wish you all the best. It made me think again...looking back my life in 2008. There were some accomplishments and valuable lessons I learned. Not a bad year...not at all. But browsing through a friend's facebook profile...it seemed that life's been at low gear, while everyone else was in overdrive...Remembering.....there were some songs that I got to know this year. The first came up none other that Peterpan - Walau Habis Terang.... I really love it. Then Jason Mraz - I'm Yours, Leona Lewis - Better In Time, Chris Brown - With You, and Rihanna - Take a Bow came...Nidji - Jangan Lupakan...Samsons - Tak Bisa Memiliki followed. Watched lotsssssss of movies....either in the theaters or TV serials. Finally got the guts to tell her..though it came with a consequence...but still it felt liberating to get it all out...*a bit stammering at first..... I was like a high school kid....lolzzz

Some targets achieved, some exceeded what I had expected...few were unrealized due to circumstances. Year 2009....may it come with new hope, new spirit, new strength, and new behavior to be better....to reach alll those dreams that are waiting to be realized.

And for my beloved friends...here's for you...


Sindentosca - Kepompong

Dulu kita sahabat
Teman begitu hangat
Mengalahkan sinar mentari

Dulu kita sahabat
Berteman bagai ulat
Berharap jadi kupu-kupu

* Kini kita melangkah berjauh-jauhan
Kau jauhi diriku karna sesuatu
Mungkin ku terlalu bertindak kejauhan
Namun itu karna ku sayang

Reff:
Persahabatan bagai kepompong
Mengubah ulat menjadi kupu-kupu
Persahabatan bagai kepompong
Hal yang tak mudah berubah jadi indah

Persahabatan bagai kepompong
Maklumi teman hadapi perbedaan
Persahabatan bagai kepompong
Na na na na na na na na na

Semua yang berlalu
Biarkanlah berlalu
Seperti hangatnya mentari

Siang berganti malam
Sembunyikan sinarnya
Hingga ia bersinar lagi

** Dulu kita melangkah berjauh-jauhan
Kau jauhi diriku karna sesuatu
Mungkin ku terlalu bertindak kejauhan
Namun itu karna ku sayang

Reff

Midnite Song

post #321

Well, seemed like I had too much nap today. Still couldn't get some sleep at this time, so I decided to sing a bit (and recorded it). To my surprise, it turned out quite good (based on my amateur standard ;D) though I didn't have any preparation. Just pick a song and sing it.

So here's with great pride (lolzzzz) I present you, the cover version of Michael Buble's - Home.

Home Cover Version


Michael Buble - Home

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

My Sassy Girl

post #320


I will try and dry my eyes

Okay okay...the above line was in one of the soundtrack of My Sassy Girl, the Hollywood version. Just finished watching it and I was so moved to write a new entry. Heck, even meeting Jusuf Kalla on Saturday, the vice president of Indonesia didn't move me to write. Well not actually meeting him, just saw him in less than 1 meter distance...we shared the opthamologist, something I could brag about....lolzzz.

Let's go, shall we. First...
Sassy is defined as:
1. Rude and disrespectful; impudent
2. Lively and spirited; jaunty
3. Stylish; chic
4. Improperly forward or bold

The only main reason I bought the DVD was because Elisha Cuthbert was the leading character on the movie. I was also intrigued to see how Hollywood would adapt this movie, which was originally a Korean Movie with the same International Title (Korean Title : Yeopgijeogin geunyeo). I watched and enjoyed the Korean/original version of the movie so I was kinda curious to watch the Hollywood version of it. plus to see none other than Elisha Cuthbert

My Sassy Girl wasn't the first (foreign) movie which was remade into Hollywood style. Some of them were:
1. Wicker Park; originally L' Appartement (French Movie), played by the stunningly beautiful Monica Belucci.
2. Lake House; originally Il Mare (Korean Movie, in Italian means The Sea), played by Gianna Jun, the same leading cast in My Sassy Girl.

Interesting fact about these two remake movies was that both used the original title of the movies as the name of the restaurant where the two characters meet. I forgot about Lake House, but in Wicker Park, it gave reference to L' Appartement in the ending credit, something that's lack in Hollywood version of My Sassy Girl.

Storywise, the plot is identical with the original My Sassy Girl (from now on referred as MSGK). There were only few things need to be adjust to adapt culture and geographical differences. The male leading character was good, but the MSGK was better. The guy there looked really plain stupid (ooops...) and very submissive compared to the dominant Gianna Jun. Elisha Cuthbert played her character well, but still felt a bit subtle...for example, the slapping scene...in MSGK you could feel that the slapping was for real. And the train scene where Gianna Jun puked, My Sassy Girl Hollywood version (from now on referred as MSGH) didn't have it. Probably because NYC was quite strict about public hygiene and forbid such acts ;D. In general, both versions had their advantages. The soundtrack (accoustic guitar) in MSGH was really good. I really loved it. It emphasized the nuance and gave the scenes that emotional touch. The songs were also great. And I liked the MSGH since all the dialogs were using English, helped alot in understanding the plot, while in MSGK I had to rely on the correctness of subtitle since I didn't understand Korean.

As like other Roma (Romance Drama) movies, it ended happily. Elisha Cuthbert finally met the man from the future. Their destiny entwined and bound them together. There were some interesting dialogs in the movie, kinda reminded me of Serendipity (another typical Roma ;D).

Elisha : "Destiny has spoken. And to search for him would be like trying to shape and mold destiny and that just can't be a good idea."
Old Man : "Just suppose, that the shaping and molding of destiny is, in fact, your destiny."

That's a thought. Similar like the one in Serendipity.

Jonathan: "Maybe the absence of signs is a sign."

Ermm....we are used to think about destiny as a dead price. We're waiting for the signs. Sometimes we feel in our heart that we're destined for something and we're sure about it, but then it got taken away from us. Then...what's our destiny actually? Well, quoting MSGH, don't we have to at least stay alive to see how it goes, how the story (of our lives) end? Maybe the thing that was taken away from us, wasn't not our destiny after all....beside, don't we also have to work to build our own destiny?

Again, quoting MSGH, destiny is a bridge you build to the one you love. *And I believe the one you love here represent a very wide meaning....

To close this entry, an old song from Sheila on 7. Heard it accidentally at Carrefour, looking for it, got it on the internet, and later found out that I already had it in my MP3 collection years ago....Hmmm...didn't I just find a song from the future? ;D

English translation:

Sheila on 7 - Point a Star

Try point a star
As a guide for our steps
Hold my masterpiece tightly
Till the blues illuminated

[chorus]
I will carve a story about us
Where good and bad embraced by beauty
I will ponder all of our moments
Where black and white wrapped by the warmth of love

If dreams come true someday
Beside you alway, my days are
[chorus]



Sheila on 7 - Tunjuk Satu Bintang

Coba kau tunjuk satu bintang
S'bagai pedoman langkah kita
Jabat erat hasil karyaku…
Hingga terbias warna syahdu

[chorus]
Akan ku ukir satu kisah tentang kita
Dimana baik dan buruk terangkum oleh indah
Akan ku cerna semua karya cipta kita
Dimana hitam dan putih terbalut oleh hangatnya cinta

Jika mimpi terwujud di hari nanti
Di sisimu s'lalu hariku

[chorus]

N97!!!!

post #319

WHOAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just read a very very interesting article about cellphone. Today, Nokia officially launched introduced the 2nd touch screen phone. After the history making (for Nokia) release of its first 5th edition of Symbian S60, Nokia surprised the world with this new cellphone.

It seemed that the article containing Nokia roadmap which had been leaked few weeks was accurate. This N97 seemed like the device which code named IP08...Hhmmm.....
Here's the leaked document of Nokia roadmap --> Nokia Smartphone Roadmap

N97 had sliding QWERTY keyboard for those who prefer input mode other than touch screen. The memory was also upgraded to 32GB internal memory, plus 5MP camera...Woww.....Talking about improvement, huh? It's planned to be launched in the 2nd quarter of 2009. The color and Nokia logo orientation kinda reminded me of N79 (Ermm....97 is 79 if you read it from right to left, right?)....Well...without further ado, please welcome N97 *drooling....

Front Side and QWERTY Keyboard






N97 compared to E90 (E90 looked so bulky ;D)


Here's the data sheet --> N97 Data Sheet

To top it, here are some videos:
N97 Live Demo


N97 Demo

Under The Same Sun

post #318


Quoting Heroes, we’re all connected.

Today I got a call from a girl who’s looking for MC. Actually she called my colleague, then my colleague handed the phone to me. We talked, she asked several questions, then gave me her email address. I added her on YM, then browse through her FS profile. When I looked at her pic I felt like I’d met her before. Her face seemed familiar, but couldn’t remember where and when.

Then it stroke me when I looked at one of her pics. She was with her mom, I recognized her mom. I was sure that she was my close friend’s mother in law. I was like…..woaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh…..No wonder she shared the same family name. I verified with my colleague just to be sure that she’s really the younger sister of my close friend’s wife. Indeed, she was.

I told my colleague that my close friend was her friend’s big sister’s husband and we were amazed how small this world was and how we’re connected in a way we never imagined. We went talking about how her (my friend’s wife) mom passed away not so long ago, and how they got married quite fast. We shared stories, I told her about my friend’s ex. To add my surprise, my friend’s ex little sister was my colleague’s best friend in high school. My colleagues lived in the same city with my friend’s ex. And…..she also knew my close friend because back then he had a crush on her auntie’s daughter (her cousin)….Could you imagine that?

We went on talking about the sisters. She told me about the sisters back in high school. I told her that her best friend’s big sister was quite good in playing ice skating. She said that the sisters were good swimmers. I told her that the big sister was also a good badminton player. Quite an athlete they were…;D But the big sister was calmer and seemed a bit shy.

After the clarification, I sent message via YM to this girl who called. I said I knew her and that we’d met before. After giving her some clues, she remembered me. Well she had to, I was the best man on her sister wedding back in 12 January 2008. She was also very surprised to know that we had met before.

So in summary, the girl who talked to me on the phone was my close friend’s sister in law and befriend with my colleague…who lived in the same city with my close friend; she was his neighbor and that she was the best friend of my friend’s ex little sister…kinda confusing, huh?
What a small world…..We're all connected in some way


This song is for the victims of terrorist action in Mumbai recently
My condolences for them...

If we're all connected, why can't we live as one?

Scorpion - Under The Same Sun

I saw the morning
It was shattered by a gun
Heard a scream, saw him fall, no one cried
I saw a mother
She was praying for her son
Bring him back, let him live, don't let him die

Do you ever ask yourself
Is there a Heaven in the sky
Why can't we get it right

'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one

I saw the evening
Fading shadows one by one
We watch the lamb, lay down to the sacrifice
I saw the children
The children of the sun
How they wept, how they bled, how they died

Do you ever ask yourself
Is there a Heaven in the sky
Why can't we stop the fight

'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one

Sometimes I think I'm going mad
We're loosing all we had and no one seems to care
But in my heart it doesn't change
We've got to rearrange and bring our world some love

And does it really matter
If there's a heaven up above
We sure could use some love

'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
'cause we all live under the same sky
We all look up at the same stars
Then why, tell me why can't we live as one

Fatigue

post #317

On an island…among a thousand islands.
That was the original title for this post. But I felt it’s outdated coz I went back from the island three days ago and since that days changed in unbelievably fast pace. There’s a lot that I wanted to write, but now it seemed those things weren’t as appealing as they had been and I felt that my brain was not in writing mode.

From the exhausting, record breaking (my own personal) futsal game on last Saturday, went to MoI and Artha Gadink on Sunday, inspirational sermon on Sunday afternoon, then went to a small island for three days. Well it was two days effectively, since it took about almost half a (working) day for the trip.

The island itself was very well organized. The sea was very clear. Unfortunately I didn’t really have the time to enjoy it since I went there to work…One thing for sure, it’s very windy. And when you looked at the vast sea all around, you’d realize (once more) that human is so small compared to mother nature. There was a draft of a detailed journal while I was on the island, but I was too lazy tired to look for it. It was nice to have a change of scenery, to see the real sea instead of the ordinary sea of concretes that I saw almost everyday. It gave some kind of rejuvenation.

Went back to reality the city on Thursday, feeling quite vigorous, yet tired at the same time. Strange, I know…There was already another assignment waiting, but I had to make a closure on this one before getting there. Went back to the routines made me feel like there’s something missing. All the rush…it’s like we’re going on in a circle…chasing every temporary high…then after reaching it, chasing another one…and another one…and another one…Went karaoke that night with some colleagues and friends, but either the time was too short or what…it didn’t feel quite as fulfilling as it usually did.

Came Friday and the day just passed. Watched Heroes season 3, ep 8-10. The story was getting more interesting. Kristen Bell was credited as special guest stars. Even watched Red Cliff, Center Stage 2 which I finished today, but still it felt like I didn’t really enjoyed them. I didn’t really feel the passion…they’re just like something to kill the time.

Was it all because the fatigue? Or was I having my pms? *lolzzz… I read somewhere, forgot where; that men also had their cycle, just it didn’t as regular as women. Hmmmm….I guess it’s my break down time. Probably all I need was a quality rest, to wash away this fatigue.

2 Weddings + 1 Week = 3 Days

post #316


I bet you’re wondering what’s with the title?
Well…since I was in a very hectic and tight schedule, I’d just write briefly.

Two weddings that I meant were my high school friend’s wedding on Saturday and my colleague’s wedding on Sunday. On Saturday after went to the doctor for first checkup after the eye surgery. Went to St. Therese to attend the afternoon mass since I wouldn’t be able to go on Sunday. Went there with Eddy and his gf. Reminded me of two years ago when I received my confirmation sacrament. The place still looked classic, a bit old though ;D.

Went to Yenni’s wedding after that. There were few faces I recognized, but didn’t really know them well back in high school, so we just had a little chit chat. Then Livia came with Hendra and… *drum rolls…* Clarissa… Boy she’s 9 months already. Her father told me that she’s quite a gadget freak…well, I could see where she got that…lolzzz. There were several times when she hold my fingers…and I looked, amazed when realizing how a hand that small (well she could still be considered an infant, right?) would grow bigger and bigger in time…Clarissa was still cute, with full cheeks and beautiful sparkles in her eyes jst like her mom.

Slept early that nite and went to Bandung with other colleagues on Sunday morning. Arrived there at around lunch time. We ate at Sierra. Nice place, nice view…and it was raining while we’re eating. The food was quite good with reasonable price.

Sierra Beef Steak
[pic]


Went to Rumah Mode afterward, nothing interesting here. Andoko’s lil sis came and after the girls finished getting their hair done *which took…ages ;p, they went to her place. Some went to Ronald’s hotel room to change. Again…it took aaaaagggggeeeessssss for the girls to get ready. We arrived at Rossy’s wedding reception one hour late. Missed the procession…too bad . And there…for the very first time I saw the little girl I was writing about in my previous blog entry, Nina. She’s realllyyyy cute and adorable. When I saw her mother I said to myself, no wonder…her mother was also elegantly beautiful. We stayed there for a while, took some pictures, then went back to Jakarta. Arrived in Jakarta at past midnite.

[pic of FF]

It was fun to go to Bandung again. Too bad we didn’t have much time to wander around. Hmmm…two weddings and both involved a baby girl and a little girl…time to tie the knot and settle down? How could I if I still haven’t found the harbor my heart was longing to…

After that, the week seemed to go by soooo fast, I meant like in lightspeed. The project I was assigned to be lead is about to go live on Monday, and now..I’m waiting to execute the cutover plan. And after this hectic week, I’d be treated *big grin* with 3 days in an island. Well, I’d go there to give a training, but still I heard it’s nice and the facilities were good. Beside, it’s nice to change scenery once in a while. Just hope the weather would be on my side when I go there.

Well…that’s about it. Two Weddings + One (hectic) Week = Three Days (in an island)



originally written on Thursday, Nov 20, 2008...

Better In Time

post # 315


Here I am, sitting in a cold waiting room while Paolo Vallesi – Sono Dove Sei played on my WMP. Ermm….didn’t have much to write, just ordinary weekdays, with some highlights like on Wednesday I attended a presentation for a project prospect. After the presentation I went through Pasar Festival (Festival Market) complex. There was this building inside the complex that reminded me of a time five months ago when I visited it for the first time. Again (I know some of you, my loyal reader might have been bored with this sentence already)…time really flew. In a blink of an eye, days passed and months changed.

Speaking of eye, today was the surgery day. *Laura Pausini – 16/5/1974 played at the moment. My memory brought me few years back when I had a little surgery for my right eye. This time, the feeling was different. I didn’t feel anxious like I had been. Probably because I wasn’t the patient this time. Or maybe because I have lost a little electricity on my neuron which resulted in lack of emotions….lolzzz

Been a bit nostalgic yesterday by listening Italian songs. It’s true that certain smells, songs/music, places, pictures could bring back the memories it contained/associated with. Listening to Neri Per Caso, Eros, Massimo, Laura, Paolo, Jovanotti reminded me of a time around 5-8 years ago. I remembered playing Romance of Three Kingdoms late at night, strategizing to unite China under one emperor, imagining how it’d be like to be like Zhuge Liang, to go to battle like Zhao Yun, etc. Sim City 2000 and Civilization were among the games I played while listening to those Italians.

Yesterday I had a chat with a colleague. We talked about the (so) many turnover that had been happening this year, how we found there were so many new faces we didn’t recognize. How many of our comrades had ‘graduated’ while we’re still here. Made me thinking, I’d been focusing on my plan B it made me put aside my plan A. Ermmm, actually by paving the way on my plan B, I also preparing the way for plan A, it’s just that…plan A needed time and it’s not like flipping my hand to make the decision. There were some variables I had to take into consideration. *sigh

Last nite me and my colleagues went to a computer exhibition, Indocomtech 2008 at JCC. I’d been laying my eyes on some interesting notebooks. I think it’s about time to make some regeneration, though my Thinkpad still functioned properly, but it almost couldn’t cope up with the tasks it needed to do. There were some candidates that I had short listed. They were:

Lenovo Thinkpad SL300
Nice, responsive keyboard, HDMI, 3 USB ports, 13.3”. But I didn’t really like the glossy lid, un ergonomic v-shape body, and when I tested yesterday, the touch pad wasn’t really responsive.


HP Pavilion DV4-1022tx
Remote control, tactile keyboard, Altec Lansing speakers (from my experience with HP laptops, Altec Lansing speakers gave better sound quality compared to other in notebook class), 14.1”, 3 USB ports, e-sata port and HDMI. Too bad the body was given metal accent, which for me was quite a turn off. There was a sibling for this variant named Compaq CQ45. It was quite nice, but hadn’t really got the chance to try. Too bad that the newest Pavilion, HP DV3500t, the first 13.3” screen from HP wasn’t available yet here. It seemed attractive.

Asus F6V
Excellent connectivity, in terms number of ports (4 USB ports, 1 e-sata, HDMI, VGA, RJ11 and RJ45, Express Card) and the placement of the ports. They all contained in 13.3” screen. Nice keyboard, but my friend told me that his previous Asus notebook had a trouble with the hinges. Well, I hope they had fixed this issue. Asus also launched Asus N20A, a new 12.1” laptop with nice features, but it wasn’t available yet.

Other candidates that should be on the list were Toshiba Satelite E105-S1402. Its macbook-like design was quite catchy with nice selection of ports.


*yawning…

Another busy weekend awaited. First check up after the surgery with the doctor to see the recovery process, still not functioning inet connection, a wedding reception each on Saturday and Sunday. And for the Sunday, it’d be in Bandung. And I just remembered, a friend also invited me to his wedding reception on Saturday two weeks from now, clashed with a scheduled gathering. Hmmmmm….24 hours was really not enough. Well…I guess everything would be better in time. Stresses, recoveries, disappointments, burdens, heartaches, relationships, reconciliations; they’ll be better in time. This song from Leona Lewis had caught my attention since the first time I heard it. The beat, rhythm, and lyric was good....It'll all get better in time


Leona Lewis - Better In Time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I will be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna let
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice well you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is Imma be ok

[Chorus:]

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: X2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
yes I do
It'll all get better in time

originally written in the morning

Church of Your Heart

post #314

*Yawning… God…I’m so sleepy atm, though I went to sleep early last nite. Yeah well, since my inet connection had been crippled for three days, I had nothing else to do beside watching TV serials. The long awaited Sunday had passed, a very nice, exhausting one.

Recharge my battery on Saturday. Just stayed at home, watching DVDs, sleeping while waiting for the Speedy guy to come. But he didn’t come after all. Watched Chuck season 2, ep 4. Got these ideas for the next postings, including the one from Eli Stone season 2 ep 2, but they’d have to wait. Ivonne was still (if not getting more) beautiful in Chuck. Went to attend afternoon mass since I thought I wouldn’t have the time on Sunday. It’d been quite long since I attended a mass on my own parish church… :D

Well, the ambience was still soothing and relaxing. The pastor who served the mass was a new one (or was him a guest pastor? I dunno…). He gave a very interesting sermon…it’s about God temple.

In the first reading which was taken from Ezekiel 47:1-2.8-9.12, it’s said about the water that flowing out from the house of God and that the water gave life to everything it touched/passed. The second reading, taken from St. Paul’s letter to Corinthians (1 Cor 3:9-11, 16-17)…said that we’re the houses of God. We’re the living stone of house of God. And the bible reading was taken from John 2:13-22. This time Jesus mentioned Himself as the God Temple. What were these all about? The essence was that we often to see church (God temple) as a physical structure, a place where we gather, celebrate Eucharist, pray together, etc. But we were reminded to (also) perceive church as our own body, in broader perspective, our lives. And just like the temple of God brought life to everything it touched, we, as the living stones, the church, also had to bring life to all around us, through our daily lives. So church, which was also a sacrament, should be a living one, not just a lifeless building/structure.

Woke up early on Sunday, ate breakfast then went to our rendezvous point at Gadink in the morning. Bowo called me, then Agus came, the latest was David. We went to TA. It’d been few months since the last time I went there. Arrived at the community center at around 9 sth AM. The theme of the event was ‘One Love’. I registered the four of us then I just found that there was also a mass there before the talkshow. So I successfully attended mass twice in a week, in less than 24 hours to be exact. The pastor also gave a good sermon. There was one funny term the pastor mentioned. It’s SJ (Serikat Jesuit), stands for Society of Jesus. But the pastor gave another meaning for it. He said SJ stood for Selamanya Jomblo (Forever Single)…lolzzzz…The four of us couldn’t hide our chuckles.

After the mass, it’s lunch time break. We (well I was the one who’s very excited I think) waited anxiously for the talkshow to begin because it the guest stars were Krisnamurti and Olga Lydia. Yup, the one and only Olga Lydia. I didn’t really care about Krisnamurti, I just knew him as one of (many) motivator/speaker (pardon if I was wrong). The talkshow began at 1.15 PM. Olga was beautiful, as always. Her hair was curly and they prepared a couch on stage to give a more relaxed athmosphere. But it was not too interesting (plus my homies were already boreddd), so we skipped the rest of the event. We went down to TA, walked around a bit, then ate lamien at Daniang Dumpling. It wasn’t there the last time I went to TA.

Happy Puppy Green Garden was our next destination. The road was quite clear. It’s better to drive on Sunday. Arrived there and sang for two hours. It’d been quite some time since we went karaoke together. After our karaoke session, we decided to go to Puri Indah Mall. On the way there, we stopped by at Sandwich Bakar. *Yummyyy… We wandered around Puri Indah. The mall was small (compared to Gigantic Gadink). We got bored immediately. There’s only one dept store there, Keris. We didn’t find anything interesting there, so we went to the Starbucks, drank some coffee, chatted and laughed like crazy. Time passed by so fast, it was almost half a day we spent together. We went back home, talking about classic TV Series we used to watched back in the late 80s-90s. Series like Airwolf, The A-Team, Time Trax, Quantum Leap, Voyager, Knight Rider, My Secret Identity, Out of This World, The Greatest American Superhero.

I dropped my homies at Gadink, then picked up Aan, she needed a lift home. We talked about her new job on our way back home and a lil bit about her wedding plan. My and my homies were really left out on this department…lolzzz…

Went back home and finished my new homework which I got from Jef on Saturday. Since the inet connection was still down, I copied Knight Rider from Jef on Saturday while checking my modem at his house. I also got the chance to play around with his Ipod Touch. It’s very…tempting…nice user interface. So smooth… *shrugged the thought of buying Ipod Touch. Well, I got Knight Rider 2008 and Bionic Woman. These two add the already quite long list of TV serials I watched.

*sighhh…another week awaited me. Luckily, I had fully recharged my battery during the weekend.
One love
One message
I believe in the church of your heart…


Roxette - Church Of Your Heart

Can't we leave the world outside
Just for a while? just for a while?
And spend some time, you and I,
Under this bright glorious sky

It's been so long since I first saw you,
But I still love that smile in your eyes.

Yes it's true, right from the start,
I believed in the church of your heart.
Yes it's you that made me be part of
And believe in the church of your heart.

Step inside, lay yourself down
Just for a while, rest for a while.
I can hear a thundering sound
Beating inside when you're around.

It's been so long since I first meet you,
Since we made love, you know how time flies.

Yes it's true, right from the start,
I believed in the church of your heart.
Yes it's you that made me be part of
And believe in the church of your heart.
In the church of your heart.


originally written at 10-11-2008

Bluntly Babbling

post #313

Dunno why...I just had the urge to write...about anything...nothing really in particular...just things that caught my attention lately...Hmmm...let's start, shall we?

First...just got back from watching newest James Bond movie, Quantum of Solace. Lately I'd been fond of watching movie on its premiere. Since Eagle Eye if I recall correctly. Well it's nice if you have someone who bought the ticket first, then you just needed to come to the theater before the show started... *satisfied smile

Nice movie....Olga Kurylenko was the Bond girl this time. Since Daniel Craig became the new James Bond, his (Bond's) image had changed as well. He became tougher and colder, like James Bourne (Ermmm....both superspy shared same first name and initial, coincidence? ;p). Anyway, more action scenes than the previous ones, when Pierce Brosnan was the Bond.

Hmmm...Nokia would sell Nokia 5800 Express Music in Indonesia this November. I guess its aiming for Christmas market remembering it just launched N79, N85, and N96 not so long ago. And Samsung also also released its new cellphone, Innov8, which had S60 and 8MP camera. Seriously, 8MP camera on cellphone...was it that necessary? Was it useful? It's nice to have...but I'm pretty sure the quality will be so so...Anyway, let's see when it'd be available here and what's the starting price....

Yesterday a colleague of mine called an elementary school (a good one) to register her son and to my surprise, the registration fee itself was 13M. I was like...WTH??!!!! Education became very expensive. I imagine if I had triplets and all of them were about to enter elementary school....wowwwww....Should really prepare myself...

Been raining these days (with exception today), luckily since I had to hurry to catch the movie. Took some pictures from the office window on different times and weathers. Weather...just like human's emotions....there's bright, cloudy, raining, thunder storm, hot, cold, warm, cool....

Raining Hard

Clear

Cloudy

One thing that quite bothering me was I think my ADSL modem was not functioning properly. It often to reset itself, made me disconnected from the inet. I had to set the username and password all over again. Darn...it's so annoying. I had to find the exact cause of this, and change the modem if it's necessary. Another thing I learned lately that I could live without YM...well at least at work. Since the connection at work was so friggin slow...I kinda lost contact with my friends. Sometimes I couldn't receive their messages, vice versa. No wonder my friends were reluctant to chat with me. The frequency of the YM disconnected itself was countless. I even had to installed YM version 7 since it's the latest version that could be use to connect (well...connect, disconnect, connect, disconnect...).

*sigh.....enough babbling....as for now, I lost connection again....so I guess I just post this tomorrow. Stupid modem!

Nov 6
Babbling some more....today I read the ad in Kompas about Dell Latitude E6400. There's a phone number there which supposed to be the customer service. I dialled the number three times and I always got an answering machine. Disappointing for Dell's image n level. Hmm...probably because they're not very popular in asian countries.

Called a friend who's about to get married next week. Wow...it'd been almost two years since the last time I met her, and it was on another friend's wedding reception as well. Time flew by. We talked for few minutes, there was some catching up to do and I was sure I couldn't do that on her wedding reception. I wonder how she looked now. She was my seat mate back on my 2nd year in high school. She was the one who could stand me singing all day long...I admired her durability...lolzzz. That time, Ronan's When You Say Nothing At All was a hit. *chuckled.... Ahhh...high school times...lots of fond memories also back then. Was she still cute, petite, had white, fair skin? I guess I'd find out next week.

Me and Stars

post #312

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain,
Telling me just what a fool I’ve been...

That line from Jason Donovan’s song crossed my mind while I was staring outside the office window, trying to see through the heavy rain that fell down this morning around 10 AM. If the rain had a rhythm, then it (looking from the high intensity) must have been screaming at me, not just telling me.

Well…another month had passed. Last week, the last week of October as well had ended with another great ending. Work was a little bit slowing down after that one project was over. *yawning…but still till today I felt like I was lacking of good quality sleep.

[pic of rain]

Maybe because I watched too many TV Serials…Gossip Girl and Heroes were up and running…Chuck, Eli Stone and Prison Break also needed my attention. Not to mention House MD. Hmmm…Heroes was getting more complicated, just like US Comic which had tangled sub-plot, building a mega thread of storyline which entwined all the characters in one universal flow. Still interesting, not to mention there was this new interesting character, Daphne. I liked her blonde hair, a nice addition to the already lovely Kristen “Elle” Bell.

We had our annual promotion dinner on the last day of October. I was trusted to be the host of this event. Not only that, I also joined the band (if it could be called a band :D). We performed acoustic version of songs such as Can’t Take My Eyes Off Of You, Sempurna, Especially For You, More Than Words and Laskar Pelangi. The event was held at Dallas Roadhouse Bar n Grill at Arcadia Plaza. The food was great there. The committee came at around 4 PM to make necessary preparation. The guests started to come at around 6 PM. It went right on schedule with some impromptu changes. It was exciting and there were things that I had to learn to prepare myself. After finished singing (I only sang Laskar Pelangi btw), I mingled around and talked to some colleagues I hadn’t met since we’re assigned to different projects. Then I went back to the office to get Elisha, Henny gave us a ride to the office. It was raining all over the way, the traffic was slow so we had some time to chat. And when I was already prepared with my war rain coat, the rain stopped. It really stopped. So I went home with my rain coat flew sometimes, like Batman…lolzzzz…Sky really knew how to make people dongkol…lolzzzz (dongkol = annoyed in English). But it’s still a fantastic Friday.

Woke up on Saturday morning, accompanied mom to Kota. She wanted to buy a new sewing machine. While she was looking for the machine, I searched for the 8GB Flash Disk. Didn’t find any, instead I bought some DVDs for stockpiling…lolzzz. We ate at Bakmi Toko Tiga afterward then went back home. It’s nice to spend some quality time every once in a while. Took an afternoon nap then went to Gadink. My friends were already there. We ate at Red Bean then when we called Agus, he said he couldn’t join since he was at a friend’s apt. He invited us to join them and go to Lime Light, a new karaoke place near Tanjung Duren. We went there, arrived earlier then them, and tried the VIP room. The interior was nice and cozy. The couch was comfy. There were 3 mics, 2 were wireless. The songs collection was quite good. They already had Peterpan - Walau Habis Terang, Jason Mraz – I’m Yours, Jay Chou – Qing Hua Ci (all were original clips), etc. The only minus thing was the sound system. It was mediocre and we couldn’t adjust the volume, bass, treble and echo by ourselves. Agus and his friends came about half an hour after we checked in. He brought two girls and two guys with him. One of the girl caught my attention since she looked like Cecilia Cheung. I was wow-ed with her poise, her face and her hair (and her smile when we said goodbye at Pisa Café). She was very quiet and only sang one song, Cai Hong. After that we went to Pisa Café…just to eat ice cream…lolzzz…we went back home at around 1.30 AM. Went straight to bed when I reached home.

Attended morning mass at St. James church on Sunday morning. We got a visit from St. Vincent society. Anyway, the pastor was a bule (Indonesian word for Caucasian race) and his sermon was interesting. He brought along some children from the St. Vincent orphanage. One of them, Reza sang very beautifully..but I couldn’t really get the whole lyric. It was something like (not sure…I had this short term memory loss)

Takkan kusesali keberadaan diriku di dunia (I won’t regret my existence in this world)
Karena ku yakin kasih-Mu Tuhan (Because I have faith in Your love, God)

In his sermon, the pastor invited a boy to come on to the altar. He asked the boy’s name. He answered, “Santo” (Santo is Indonesia word for Saint). The pastor said wittily, Wow…you already a saint though you’re not dead. That’s amazing. It succeeded in making us laugh.

Bringing those children again reminded us to be grateful of what we have and be more sensible toward others. Some who didn’t have parents, longing to have one. Some who have parents, take their parents for granted, didn’t appreciate at all. Some even feel that their life might be better without parents. Life’s not fair, huh? Those orphans would probably give anything to have parents. As usual, there’s a 2nd collection to be given to St. Vincent society. The Pastor really made sure we didn't put the money into the wrong bag :D

After the mass, I went to Centro to buy some clothes. Became quite consumptive lately, darn. Went back home, then Agus picked me up. He had a new car and needed to buy seat cover, so I accompanied him. We went to Kebon Sirih and got it done that very afternoon. We were worried a bit when the guy didn’t show up, since Agus already gave him some money for dp. We decided to wait for a while, thank God he showed up with the covers *relief sigh. In less than two hours time, the seats were already covered with nice mocha colored seat covers. Went to Medit to swim. It was great to swim again (plus exhausting). We talked quite much on the pool, maybe that's why I was so hungry afterward. After eating dinner we went to Markas to play some pool. It’s been a long time since I played pool for the last time. I still had the touch (the luck I mean)…lolzzzz. A nice reminiscence of my univ times. No responsibilities, no burdens, just thinking about subjects, exams, where to go what to do in spare times…

Agus drove me home and I went to sleep after a quick browsing. Nice weekend…hmmmmm. Agus also gave me Acay’s wedding invitation. It’s really wedding season. 6 invitations in 2 months. Wow…everybody’s getting married…me, still walking down this road. But it didn’t bother me. This year everything seemed to turn out ok. Thank You, God.

Few weeks ago, I looked up at the sky and saw stars. It’s a rare thing remembering pollution level in this city. They were shining brightly. Reminded also of a message a friend received. It’s also about star. How we could be a star, shining for the people around us. This year…and next
I’m gonna shine brighter,
I’m gonna go farther,
I'm gonna push harder,
I’m gonna reach higher…for the highest star, and make her mine…

So help me, God.



Peterpan - Me and A Star

Look at the spacious sky and all seasons keep changing
Playing with clouds, building dreams with my imaginations
Always dreaming with my days

#
You’ve seen a star, shining brightly full with hope
Its gentle hands are open, trying to accompany, get close to me
Always light my dark nights

Chorus:
And feel all the stars
Calling our laughter fly up high
Leave all behind, just us and stars

Across the vast sky with season that keep changing
Playing with clouds, building dreams with my imaginations
Always dreaming with my days

#, chorus (2x)

The most beautiful, though forgotten and will always light the world
Wondering, just me and stars




Peterpan - Aku dan Bintang

Lihat ke langit luas, dan semua musim terus berganti
Tetap bermain awan, merangkai mimpi dengan khayalku
Selalu bermimpi dengan hariku

Pernah kau lihat bintang, bersinar putih penuh harapan
Tangan halusnya terbuka, coba temani dekati aku
Selalu terangi gelap malamku

Chorus:
Dan rasakan semua bintang,
memanggil tawamu terbang ke atas
Tinggalkan semua, hanya kita dan bintang

Lintasi langit luas, bersama musim terus berganti
Tetap bermain awan, merangkai mimpi dengan khayalku
Selalu bermimpi dengan hariku

Pernah kau lihat bintang, bersinar putih penuh harapan
Tangan halusnya terbuka, coba temani dekati aku
Selalu terangi gelap malamku

Chorus 2x

Yang terindah meski terlupa…dan kan selalu terangi dunia
Mereka-reka, hanya aku dan bintang


Parampampam, pararampam, parampam parararampam
Parampampam, pararampam, hanya aku dan bintang
Parampampam, pararampam, parampam parararampam
Parampampam, pararampam, hanya aku dan bintang

Raindrops Keep Fallin on My Head

post #311

It'd been a crazy busy bee week...ended with a nice weekend. Finally got a burden lifted off my shoulder, a project (could be said) was finished. I had to stay up till over midnite to get it done, but it's over now *deep sigh...yippieee....Now I could focus on another one.

Rain started to pour last few days, marked the rainy season. Well it's about time anyway.

I’ve been working up the courage to call you all year
There is nothing I can say
There are no good words left anyway
Besides people are cruel
And the world still moves without you....darling

Came Friday, the day I'd been waiting on last weekend working days. After yes-no, should I-shouldn't I and bla bla bla other thoughts... I finally gather enough guts to called her...asked her out...too bad it didn't work as planned. My friend asked me to watched P2, a thriller played by Rachel Nichols and I-don't-know-and-I-don't care actor who played the psycho parking guard. One thing to be noted, Rachel Nichols played in Alias and she would be the Scarlet O'Hara in GI Joe movie (expected to be released in 2009) . A Good movie...too bad I was still kinda tired after the long working hours on Thursday. But it was quite a good movie in overall. Went home, saw her online so I nudged her over the MSN late that nite. Of all other times that Speedy connection would irritating, it went on-off-on-off when I was texting. Darnnnnnnn......I finally gave her a call..talked a bit...then went to sleep.

Woke up at almost lunch time. Felt....plain...I had had some scenarios in my mind about what would happen if I told her...and what I felt was...plain...relief?? Maybe....but I also felt a little bit lighter. Ate brunch then accompanied my dad to check his eyes. On our way there, there was a very funny monkey on the side of the road. The funny thing was the monkey wore pants, shirt, vest, and even a hat. I took two pictures of it. In one of the pic, it posed like a boss....so darn hilarious....I was laughing like crazy when I looked at the pic again...lolzzzz...




Arrived there, registered and waited for our turn. While waiting for the turn, there was Peterpan concert in RCTI. Well, a nice way to kill the boredom of waiting. I loved Peterpan's songs. It was raining quite hard for about 40 minutes, then our turn came. Shortly, he needed an operation. Scheduled medical check up, biometry prescription, an operation that very afternoon. Had to take quick action. *sigh...Went back home after that, stopped by at Artha Gadink for a while, then played Futsal. It was good...as usual....It was very tiring and pumped my adrenaline...yeahhhhh.....went home quite early that nite.....took a long peaceful nap afterward.

To end the week, karaoke was a must...lolzzz...so I went to HPGG on Sunday after attended morning mass at St. James. Too bad D couldn't make it. He had to go to Mangga Dua. So it was only me, Agus and the girls...Went back home on the afternoon...feeling sleepy so I took an afternoon nap...a long one...woke up...took a bath...then went back to sleep again after browsing for a while....it was a fine day....

Well...today it was raining again in the afternoon...at around 4 PM. Reminded my of my days on my previous project where I got a window view, thus I could observe that it usually rained at around 4 PM. Rainy days were coming.....I'd never stop the rain by complaining....so I better be ready


BJ Thomas - Raindrops Keep Fallin on My Head

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin' seems to fit
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

So I just did me some talkin' to the sun
And I said I didn't like the way he got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

But there's one thing I know
The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

Cellphone Craving

post #310

*Droolingggg......

Just wanna update my wish list at the moment.....Nokia N79 had been released in my country. The retail price was around US$ 500... Yeahh still expensive...I should wait for a while...wait for the price to fall (a bit)....I'd been consumptive lately..bought a g, a pair of new shoes, 4th gen Ipod Nano which now I wanted to trade with Ipod Touch....Plus I wanted to buy a new laptop...lolzzz...so many things.....Though there were other things that I need to buy, like new set of tires for both Karen and Elisha....Man...I should prioritize....

Been waiting for this variant for almost two months since Nokia officially announced two new models (N79 n N85). I'd been a fan of Nokia since...well...forever...All of my cellphones were Nokia and they're all in candy bar form factor. I liked the simplicity and sturdiness of this mono block...instead of sliding, flipping, twisting, rotating...etc you named it....

Nokia really knew how to make people craving for more (at least for me). On October 2nd, 2008, they announced the first cellphone with Symbian 60 5th edition called Nokia 5800 Express Music. It's the first touch screen cellphone based on Symbian. Nokia decided to go into the 'iphone' doppelganger war along with Samsung (Omnia), HTC (Diamond, Touch Pro), SE (XPeria), and now even RIM launched Blackberry Storm. I had to give it to Apple. It really set a standard which set it apart from the other manufacturers. Apple had become the third largest mobile phone manufacturer by revenue --> Source. Wow....a job well done, Steve Job ;)

Ermmm....Now I began to consider 5800 as an option...
Let see the pro cons...
5800:
+ Touch (n large) screen, 3.2" (640 x 360)
- 'Only' 3.2 MP camera

N79:
+ 5 MP Camera
- 'Only' 2.4", non touch screen (320 x 240)

Hmmm....Which one should I choose? Bigger screen but mediocre camera...or smaller screen but better camera (supposed to be better...but I doubt it) ? But when 5800 would arrive here...??

Well...without further ado....here are some pics of Nokia N79 and 5800 Express Music. Rumor had it that Nokia would launch 5800 in Q2 2009 and at the time preparing variants for touch screen version of E-series. Hmmmm......let's wait and see....

N79 Tech Spec
5800 Tech Spec
Both Phones Comparison


Nokia N79 and 5800 side by side
To be honest, I like 5800 color better


Nokia N79 Hands on, lights on


Nokia 5800 in different angles



And here are some videos of them
N79


5800



Btw...here's the Ipod I was talking about...It's tiny, offered a nice new feature such as shuffle when shaken, genius playlist, and auto rotate...quite a leap I had to say...


Yes...it's this slim...

What a Wonderful World

post #309

*Grin...
All the weariness, drowsiness just wash away when I listened to the sound record of my last gath on Saturday....that's a thing with feelings....it could change in a matter of second.

Ahhh...la vita e bella...Life is beautiful.

The long awaited Saturday finally came. Me and some friends from a forum had a music gathering. I brought one of my homies since they in a need of guitarist. We rendezvoused at PS food court. Then went to the studio. There were some newcomers that made it even merrier. I sang Untuk Dikenang n helped a bit in singing Truly Madly Deeply...a song I'd been fond of since 1997 (or was it 1996?) back to my Jr. High days...The gath was great...lots of laughters....lots of on the spot initiatives n some of the newcomers even brought us Bread Talk...yippieeee.....

After the gath, we ate at Senci. We had an interesting conversation and I met a colleague. She was about to get something to eat with her girlfriends. Then me and my homies continued to Gadink. The girls were already waiting at Dante. Winy had her laptop infected with spyware and she asked our help to clean it up. David came around at around 8 PM. We had some chat then we watched The House Bunny. Met Grace on our way up. Had a brief chit chat then we continued to XXI. House Bunny was so so; standard plot, but still quite entertaining. Anna Faris looked different, well probably because she showed a lot of skin there compared to the previous movie of her I watched (Scary Movie series).

Slept and woke up on Sunday quite late. I had a lunch appointment with a friend I hadn't met in couple of months. Met her at TGA bookstore, then we had a lunch. After that we enjoy a long conversation at Starbucks. It's nice to talk to someone who worked in the same industry, shared same hobby in watching TV serials, and interested in cellphones. There were lots to catch up. We talked much about work mainly....poor us...lolzzz....After I drove her home, I went to church to attend the afternoon mass. The sermon was good...it's interesting how same pericope could be looked from different angles. Not to mention there was this gorgeous girl who was sitting behind me (with hre bf unfortunately...). I noticed her when it was time to share peace greetings.

Then went to Gadink for a while....met the girls again...at Dante (again)...this time Dovan also came. Chatted for a while then I went to Balai Samudra to attend a friend's wedding reception. To my surprise, met quite many friends I hadn't met in a long time. And she also came....with her husband. I was like...what the.....???? Gianicera. My Jr high crush, High School crush, then Univ crush. All of them this weekend, in the correct sequence also. What did it mean?? What a big, fat coincidence...lolzzz....anyway it was nice to met them again. She was still attractive. Her habit of playing with her hair also remained. Anyone would never guess that she's married and already gave birth. Well...the reception itself was grand. It was...wowwww...One of the dancer was cute also...lolzzzz... *sigh...when would my wedding reception take place? Ermm.....May.... maybe yes...maybe no...lolzzzz

Went back to Gadink after the photo session. We decided to hang out for a while...but the coffee shop was closed, so we decided to went back home. Four times from Sunday to Sunday...it's like...wowwwww.....lifted up my spirit....gave me additional energy to face the weekdays torture...and brought a simple smile on my face....

Have friends to share jokes...share laughters...share stories...
Bring a smile on gloomy days and make them a bit brighter...
To spend time...Do crazy things...
To lean on for while when we're weary
Being wanted, appreciated...needed...loved...

And I think to myself...what a wonderful weekend world....



Louis Armstrong - What a Wonderful World

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom, for me and you
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world

I see skies of blue, and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world

The colors of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces, of people going by
I see friends shaking hands, sayin' "how do you do?"
They're really sayin' "I love you"

I hear babies cryin', I watch them grow
They'll learn much more, than I'll ever know
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world

Yes I think to myself, what a wonderful world
Oh yeah

Soulmate

post #308

Who doesn't long for someone to hold?
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Is it true?
Is there a soul mate for each and everyone of us?
First let's take a look at its definition
Soul mate often considered as the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join.
Sometimes it's used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, friendship, love, intimacy, sexuality, spirituality and/or compatibility.

Do you believe in it? The idea that each and everyone of us had another pair of soul we need to find and unite with to become whole?
What if we search all of our lives, but never find it?
What if that soul mate die before us, or vice versa...then we would lose the only chance to become whole?
How can we know for sure that he/she is out soul mate? Feelings? Intuition? Compatibility matrix?
What if we're sure that a person is our soul mate, but the person thinks otherwise (or vice versa)?

What I know for sure was that every relationship needs effort from both parties. Just like a saying, it takes two to tango. It's fundamental in order to make the relationship work. I can't expect a relationship to work, to last if I only be the one who take, take, take....I also need to give. Give some love. If I only take, my counterpart would be (eventually) tired...she would be exhausted and all out of love. She wouldn't be able to give anymore, because I take them all.

Is a soul mate always refers to spouse?
A friend of mine once said that it didn't always necessary be like that. We could find our soul mate in form of a friend. Hmmm.....Probably this answered the question for people who stay unmarried in their lives.

Well...I guess like there's a saying...there are some things you just know and some times it's beyond common sense...If we feel comfortable with a person, we can be ourselves around that person, in our own skin, with all of our flaws....and that person accept it (vice versa).... Have we not found our soul mate? What if we feel that way toward several persons? Could we have soul mates? How do we determine which one of them are really our soul mate?

What about you?
Do believe in soul mate?
Have you find it? Are you sure?

If there's a soul mate for everyone...


Natasha Bedingfield - Soulmate

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr Ms. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Adolescent Adoration

post #307

HECTIC! That's one word that really fit to describe it. Another year, another promotion. Not that I wasn't grateful for it. It's great to achieve it. Got AnB award for Q3 n Q4 consecutively was a bonus. I had always been wondering could I achieve it, but now I knew I could. New role, more responsibilities...It's natural. I think I just still need to adapt to them. Meetings, discussions, heaps of work were a common thing. And this Friday, I had to stay over again for another cutover....darn...I will get through this in one piece.....I can...

Movies n TV Series. YEAHHHHH....things that kept my sanity in place. Lolzz...
- Heroes season 3. Finished watching ep 1-4...Ep 5 was on the way. Nice twist of the plot. It became more complex and interesting. Too bad Kristen Bell was not around much anymore.

- House season 5. Darn....I hadn't finished season 4 and season 5 was already being aired.

- Chuck season 2. Yeahhhh.....can't wait to see Chuck-Sarah relationship progression

- Gossip Girl season 2. Be careful D, S was a queen, B was a bitch, and J was not as innocent as you might think. Anyway you still have V, who was 'dumped' by N...and don't forget C, the BASShole and BASStard...you know you love me... xoxo.... Can't wait to watch the next episodes......wohooooooo

- Prison Break season 4. Sarah was not dead. I repeat, Sarah was not dead...YEAHHH!!!!!! Well, now that I had Michael Scofield's haircut...Could I get a girl like Sarah? *I wish!!! lolzzz...

- Eli Stone season 2. The modern day prophet would strike again. What was he up to now? Hmmm....

Goshhh...I missed a lot during the summer. Well the TV series was on a break anyway...lolzzz....So many 'homework' I need to do....jia you!!!

Been trying to sleep early, but this plan was a complete failure since Saturday. After scored a beautiful header goal in a very exhausting game, took a long sleep after midnite, we went karaoke on Sunday, Happy Puppy wasn't fully renovated so we went to NAV. Ate at Rice Bowl then watched Body of Lies...which I had to admit very good movie. Nice plot, lots of twists and intriguing lines. After that we went to La Porchetta and talked for a while.

There..I saw her again. The last time I saw her was probably few months ago when I was watching a movie with my homies. It's always good to see her. No more breeze...just nice to see her. I thought she's getting more beautiful.... *sigh

After Sunday recharge, I faced Monday with a new spirit. Work still tortured me, but it's okay. Then in the afternoon, one of my homies called. He said that the girls wanted to hang out after office hour. I said I could but it might be a lil bit late. He said ok. Then not so long after that she called me and told me that the plan was canceled. Then when I was browsing...a friend buzzed me and said that they would hang out at La Piazza. Since I was already tired n bored with work, I said ok and went there. Girls....they're like a switch...0 1 0 1...on off on off....yes no yes no...lolzzzz...

Then I met the girls at Tea Gallery. Nice, comfy place. We talked for a while, decided to grab something to eat...we ended up eating at Izzi Pizza and I became those girls' driver for the nite. While we're eating at Izzi, I got to see her better, the dim light shone her feature. She's still lovely. Drove the girls home, we had laughters along the way. Then I went back home. Chatted with a friend and something was said that made me thinking. Hmmmm...probably it's right. But what did it mean? Went to sleep, trying to shrugged of the thought from my mind...but it's still there.

But what I wouldn't give to see your face again...my adolescent adoration

Tuesday was crazier than Monday. So many works...so many things...so much pressure...but managed to get through the day...and sleep late at nite of course. Yesterday was no different, except that the girls invited us to watch Eagle Eye premiere. A nice movie...full with suspense...Shia LaBeouf and Michelle Monaghan were the main cast. It's interesting to see what a computer that was too powerful (and smart) could do due to a decision mistake made by a president. Not only a president, but the president of US. Lots of action scenes and (as usual) it ended happily.


The pale full moon was watching me as I drove Elisha home tonite. Reminded me it'd been a while since the last time I watch the moon cycle. The paleness gave sad nuance that was different compared to the bright light it shown yesterday...

Well now I'm gonna watch Heroes season 3 ep 5...yeahhhhhhhhhh



Kylie Minogue - On A Night Like This

Dont, say, its like a fantasy
When, you, know this is how it should be

You kiss me, Im falling
Can you hear me calling
You touch me, I want you
Feels like Ive always known you

Chorus:
On a night like this
I wanna stay forever, stay forever
On a night like this
Just wanna be together
On a night like this

Now, im, getting closer to you
Hold, me, I just cant be without you

You kiss me, Im falling
Its your name Im calling
You touch me, I want you
Feels like Ive always known you

Chorus

Seams Ive known you a lifetime
Now its time to make you mine
On a night like this. . .

Chorus

Overload

post #306

ARGRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!$%^&(*@!##@%$#^%^$%$^%Y@#%$#%$:>
*Take a deep breath....that feels better
Too many things
Too many thoughts
Too much to do
So little time

Teruntukmu hatiku, diriku bersuara
Merangkai semua tanya, imaji yang terlintas

Berjalan pada satu tanya slalu menggangguku
Seseorang itukah dirimu...kasih?

I remember noticing you first
No one knew that I was looking at you
Kept a disguise for fear inside you didn't feel it too

Kepada yang tercinta, inginnya ku mengeluh
Semua resah di diri, mencari jawab pasti

Akankah seseorang yang ku impikan kan hadir
Raut halus.....menyelimuti jantungku

I wish I could define
All the thoughts that cross my mind
They seem too BIG for me to choose
I don't know which one's to lose

有太多人太多事 夾在我們之間咆哮
雜訊太多訊號弱 就連風吹都要干擾

Life is not about chances...
It's about choices and consequences...

If only I could turn back time,
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time,
I would stay for the night... for the night

Help me figure out the difference
Between right and wrong, weak and strong
Day and night where I belong
Help me make the right decisions
Know which way to turn lessons to learn
And just what my purpose is here

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

我想就這樣牽著妳的手不放開

That's a thing about Clark Kent.
He's not always there when you want him.
But he's always there when you need him.

Give me a moment before you go
There's something you ought to know

You are my fire
The one desire
Believe when I say
I want it that way

Kaulah yang dinginkan aku dari mimpiku
Coba terbangkan khayalku, dari sadarku

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with a broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay for a while

And when you say you love me do you mean it?
Baby when you hold me do you feel it?
I believe in magic in your eyes,
I would wait until the end of time
To hear you say you love me like you mean it
Baby when you hold me make me feel it.
All I wanna do is make you mine

Will you love me when morning comes?
Forever and ever, babe

Will you love me for who I am?
No angel, just an ordinary man....

I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all

And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to....

Poison Ivy

post #305

After a bit reminiscing wild nights we had back in univ times.....I couldn't stop thinking about the advice my friend gave me.

"Don't put yourself in things that might end up messy. Just use hookers, they're simple and practical. Use them whenever you need them. You get what you pay for, that's it. No more, no less."

Hmmmm.......do we, human (by this commonly men) tend to be promiscuous? Can't we pledge ourselves to a person throughout our (short) lives in this small world. I remember a line, but couldn't remember in what movie.
Q : Can we be monogamous?
A : You're in the wrong species, you should be a duck.

I was like....lolzz...lolzz.....

Reminded me again also about the conversation I had with David while I drove him home. So many examples of successful (read: has lots of money) men still fooling around outside their home, have second wife, have mistress(es)...some even have child from their second, third, and so on wives....*sigh...If that so I doubt I wanna be that successful. We both didn't want to become one of them. Was I just being too idealistic?

They still played the role of a good husband (even good father) for their 'primary' family....but outside the home, they're bachelor....some even with their wives' consent. Their wives knew, and they just close their eyes, as long as their husbands do not bring any STD back home and still manage to perform their responsibilities as the head of the family. If the husbands could still play their role well, it's okay, right? Or was it wrong?

In this crazy world....the line between white and black was so thin.....and there's hugeeeee gray area between those two.

Maybe the wives could tolerate their husbands because they see it just sex, without feelings and emotions involved...just simply lust...so they could forgive their husband's infidelity. Women were usually more scared if they found out that their husbands were having an affair which involved feelings with another woman....

I remember this quote from Love Actually. Alan Rickman played a middle aged husband who bought a necklace for his secretary. FYI, he's the one who played Severus Snape in Harry Potter. He's a very good actor. I didn't see Snape character at all in Love Actually....well done.

Karen: Tell me, if you were in my position, what would you do?
Harry: What position is that?
Karen: Imagine your husband bought a gold necklace and come Christmas gave it to somebody else...
Harry: Oh, Karen...
Karen: Would you wait around to find out if it's just a necklace, or if it's sex and a necklace, or if worst of all it's a necklace and love? Would you stay, knowing life would always be a little bit worse? Or would you cut and run?
Harry: Oh, God. I am so in the wrong. The classic fool.
Karen: [voice breaking] Yes, but you've also made a fool out of me, and you've made the life I lead foolish too.

Hmmm.....questions...
What is the definition of cheating?
What if the husband didn't cheat physically (by having sex) with another woman, but cheat emotionally; ie. have deeper feeling and being closer to another woman?
Which one is more tolerable? The physical or the emotional cheating?

Sure, each woman would have different answers. These kind of things really shook the idea of marriage, attacked the value of marriage....but gotta keep the faith, there were few examples of duck-men (if I may use the term) who could pledge themselves to a woman and a woman only. It's not easy....but hey life's never been easy....at least to most of us. Once you've made a choice, you gotta be ready to bear the consequences. So think thoroughly and choose wisely. I hope I could be one of those duck-men.

Ivy...A sweet, delicate poison....



Britney Spears - Toxic

Baby, can't you see, I'm calling
A guy like you should wear a warnin'
It's dangerous, I'm fallin'

There's no escape, I can't wait
I need a hit, baby give me it
You're dangerous, I'm lovin' it

[Bridge:]
Too high, can't come down
Losing my head,
Spinning 'round and 'round
Do you feel me now?

[Chorus:]
With a taste of your lips, I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slippin' under
taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?
And I love what you do
Don't you know that you're toxic?

It's getting late to give you up
I took a sip from my devil's cup
slowly, It's taking over me

[Bridge]
Too high, can't come down
It's in the air and it's all around
Can you feel me now?

[Chorus:]
Don't you know that you're toxic?

(Taste of your lips I'm on a ride)
You're toxic, I'm slippin' under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?

With a taste of your lips, I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slippin' under (Toxic)
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?

Intoxicate me now
With your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now
(I think I'm ready now)
Intoxicate me now
With your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now.

(If) Life Is So Short

post #304

Isn't it funny
How times seems to slip away so fast
One minute you're happy
The other you're sad

Sang the above fragment of song while I was on the boat, accompanying my cousin to spread his mom ashes (my auntie) into the sea. You'd never know what the future hold. The holiday that I had been longing for, ended so fast, I almost didn't realize that it was over and I had to go back to work again.

I didn't complain though. Everything happened for a reason. There's gotta be lessons that could be learned. Been visiting the hospital during the holiday. Only had few times I could really enjoy for myself.

My aunt. She was 55 when she had the stroke. She already had some problems with her kidney and blood pressure. She just recently went back home from Penang for a medication and supposed to be back in two months. But fate thought otherwise. Her stroke put her in critical condition. She was brought to hospital. She gained consciousness and her condition was getting better. But then she went into coma and after almost two weeks, she passed away.

Mom was shocked when she heard the news and often visited her at the hospital. She tried to accompany her in her last days. My aunt died in such young age. She was under heavy stress, plus her condition (kidneys n blood pressure) made the stroke give a knock out punch, not instantly...but still it's a deadly blow *sigh What about me?? Would I reach or surpass that age?

One thing I really admire was the prompt response of her church members. Visiting her while she was in the hospital. Arranging service at the grieving house and the crematorium. They did almost all the work. They did it out of care and love. They really looked after one another. Salute for them, GKJMB n GKJPI. I guess that's the virtue of a not too big denomination. The members were really well taken care of.

Flying airplanes was a common sight near the crematorium. I looked up at the clear blue sky and the (unfortunately far from clean blue) dirty water while the boat was heading to the sea. I realized once again....how small a person was compared to this earth, to mother nature. Reminded me the last time I visited my auntie at the hospital, a day before she passed away. She looked so weak and helpless.

I thought about everything that had been happening. In less than a week after the last visit, I went to the crematorium, picking up her ashes n bones using chopsticks. While I was picking up her bones I couldn't help to think, "These bones were a living person three days ago. But now, they're only bones, the remains of a person who used to live.....they're lifeless."

It's kinda sad...and in a way, reminded me again. It made me think about the most important things in life....my life.
Re-prioritize, if necessary.
Life is short.
Use time wisely
Live a better, healthier lifestyle.

We all given 24 hours a day, no more, no less. It depended on each of us how we use that time in our lives.

Holiday's over..
(quoting Carrie Underwood)...but there were lessons learned....

What about your life?
Have you thought about it?
What are your life's priorities?
Are they need to be changed?
Think about it...coz you would never know...when your time has run out.
We never know....


The Moffatts - If Life Is So Short

Isn't it funny
How times seems to slip away
So fast
One minute you're happy
The other you're sad
But if you give me one more chance
To show my love for you is true
I'll stand by your side
Your whole life trough

If life is short
Why won't you let me love you
Before we run out of time
If love is so strong
Why won't you take the chance
Before our time has come
If life is so short
If life is so short

Love is a word that explains
How I feel for you
And when you're in my arms
All my dreams come true
And when you're not around
You can't hardly see
These tears that I'm crying
Now are for you to be with me

If life is short
Why won't you let me love you
Before we run out of time
If love is so strong
Why won't you take the chance
Before our time has come
If life is so short
If life is so short