Wedding Season

post #197

Okay...before I lose the momentum again, I force myself to write...

First.... "Who am I? It's a secret I'll never tell...You know you love me..Gossip Girl...*muachh"
Been watching another (new) teen serial lately. The title is Gossip Girl. At first I was just curious because one of the main cast, Leighton Meester (whose character is a super high class biatch; Blair Waldorf) appeared on House season 3, twice. Her hair was blonde at that time. But it turned out to be a very good serial. The main theme is about the glamorous life of social elite in East Manhattan, while on the other hand there's a family which comes from a lower social class (the Humphreys). She's lovely there, and there's also Blake Lively (her character is Serena van der Woodsen, Blair's bestfriend). This tall beauty who's just turned 20 this year. Man, these actresses rise at younger age....*makes me feel so old... ::cry::
At one of the episodes (well, episodes actually), we'll see Dan's struggle to get and win Serena's heart, how he tried to impress her with a dinner at a fancy restaurant...It's kinda funny and a bit cliche, but still worth to watch 'poor' Dan and 'princess' Serena in their romance tale. Plus...the narator, aka the Gossip Girl is none other than Kristen Bell.... She plays Elle in Heroes season 2....hmmmm....yummy.... a must watch serial (at least for me)... beautiful girls, smart dialogs and interesting story....what more can you ask from a serial???

Second...There was this very funny billboard at Jagorawi toll road. It advertised R****maya, an elite complex?? Not quite sure about that. The funny thing is the tagline : "At R****maya, you feel younger everyday" and there on the billboard, there's a guy, you can only see his back, and there's a young woman leaning on his left shoulder, lots of make up and smiling... The first thing that came on my mind was...yeahh of course you feel younger if you have an expensive villa there plus a mistress.... just the thought of it might makes lots of guys feel younger already...lolzzzz..... I just don't get the idea of the advertisement...what it's trying to say..... Anyway, another thing I found...it's a constant torture to live in Cibubur area and work at (let say) Gatot Subroto or Sudirman...The traffic jam can reach about 12kms from Cawang toll road exit. Not to mention that on special occassion, the traffic jam was already started from Rawamangun...hmmm.....talking about getting old on the road.....;D

Third.... I think it's been a wedding season these last two months. The latest one I attended to was a colleague of mine wedding. It was very nice. The place was spacious, the food was good and the singer was good also. I must say though, among the receptions I attended, the most beautiful bride was the one at Kemayoran. Maybe because she's my type. A little bit of coldness in her beauty, icy pretty.... Hmm...made me thinking about my own wedding (if someday I decide to fully pledge myself to a girl who's gonna be my partner for life)....when will it be? How will it be? I'm not too keen of the fancy wedding. I'm more into simple and meaningful with close friends and families. The first thing to do of course find the bride to be... :p

Fourth...Recent updates...work's been a dull...nothing much to do but conferencing, meeting and waiting for confirmation, and debugging. Joined facebook a week ago I think and it was more interesting than friendster...lolzzz....talked to her again last nite, said what I need to say, gave her my two cents about her condition....It always make my spirit high just by talking to her...darn....Today I had this 1st office meeting in FY08. It was held at Pisa Cafe and from our project I was chosen to perform in a karaoke competition like mamamia (it was named Project Mia instead.. ;D). But voice only had a little portion in the judges score criteria. The most important thing was how dare you humiliate yourself in front of other co-workers... and I must say there are other project members who did it better...way much better... They're very hilarious. At the end, our senior executives performed together. They danced along with SMS song, a very popular song...they were quite good...lollzzz.... and the last, we asked the judges to sing since they really did their job well in criticizing our performances. They sang Peterpan's Menghapus Jejakmu.... I was very tempted to sing along since their voices and tempo weren't a match. There's a mic on the table where I and the other BP project members sat. The mic was intended to be used to criticize the judges after they perform. But I got naughty and I sing along at the last 2 verses...I think my voice was heard more than theirs and my fellow project comrades who recognized my voice instead of theirs were laughing. I think there's no one else realized that I was the one who actually sang.....lolzzz.... it was very thrilling....maybe because my voice resembled the original voice....hahahahaa..... and that closed a fine day......as usual, my last words will be a song. This time it's dedicated for this special uptown girl.....and for the lovable Serena van der Woodsen...

Westlife - Uptown Girl

She's been living in her uptown world
I bet she never had a back street guy
I bet her mama never told her why

I'm gonna try for an uptown girl
She's been living in her white bread world
As long as anyone with hot blood can
And now she's looking for a downtown man
That's what I am

And when she knows what
She wants from her time
And when she wakes up
And makes up her mind

She'll see I'm not so tough
Just because
I'm in love with an uptown girl
You know I've seen her in her uptown world
She's getting tired of her high class toys
And all her presents from her uptown boys
She's got a choice

Uptown girl
You know I can't afford to buy her pearls
But maybe someday when my ship comes in
She'll understand what kind of guy I've been
And then I'll win

And when she's walking
She's looking so fine
And when she's talking
She'll say that she's mine

She'll say I'm not so tough
Just because
I'm in love
With an uptown girl
She's been living in her white bread world
As long as anyone with hot blood can
And now she's looking for a downtown man
That's what I am

Uptown girl
She's my uptown girl
You know I'm in love
With an uptown girl

My uptown girl
You know I'm in love
With an uptown girl
My uptown girl
You know I'm in love
With an uptown girl
My uptown girl

Roles and Responsibilities

post #196

Wanna write this blog since last week, but things were just out of hand and the momentum just kinda fade away as time went by, till today...So many things happened, train of thoughts running through my brain. I can't even remember them all....

First of all, for the first time I experienced a huge problem with my car battery. It just went totally dead on Thursday night two weeks ago. I was like...what the F.... I remember that I did not leave any lights or electrical instrument that might drained the battery. Luckily there were some parking guys and a driver who helped me 'jump start' my car engine....Phheww..... After that incident, I bought myself a jumper cable just for caution.

Got a nice surprise on Friday morning though. She sent me an sms and then called me and we talked for almost an hour. She said that she's addicted talking to me. It seemed like we have endless topic to talk about. Gee....that's a big compliment coming from her. I don't know that I'm that addictive. We might have endless topic to talk about since we haven't talked in quite while. What if we talk regularly, does the addiction still there? Maybe yes...maybe not....Yeah I have to admit it was great talking to her, but I dunno deep down I feel like it's not quite ok, remembering her status. It seemed like I got the role of 'the other guy'.

Which reminds me when I was filling gas at Shell gas station. I looked at one of the guy who worked there...I guess we all have our roles in this world, in this life. But what is it? Do we all know what is our role? Our responsibilities? *blur.... I remember I had this thought I wanna write about this, but my mind's blank at the moment....Lead me to a question, what if we want a role that is not for us? Who defines this role mapping to all of us? Can we exchange roles and responsibilities?
I remember Ko Riko once said in one of our prayer gathering session that (talking in religious context) God has placed this longing, a calling for each and everyone of us at the bottom of our heart. Like a watchmaker who knows exactly how the watch works and which component does what to make the watch works, so does He knows what roles that we play in this (short) life. If it's so, how about the poor? Is it fair that there are poor people? Is it fair that there's famine, war, and lots of other bad things happen?

To be honest, I dunno...I just dunno...I have so limited space inside this tiny head of mine and my knowledge is far from excellent...maybe what I can say that I try to live my life to the best. I don't even really know for sure what role I hold...beside the role as a son, a brother, an employee, a friend...and other roles in the social environment I take part in.....Maybe time will reveal it.....?

Just went to another gath on saturday. Novi came with me, her hair looked different. But the star of the gath was I must say diva, though she only stopped by for a minute. She looked more gorgeous than the last time I saw her, maybe because last saturday her make up was more natural....

Well..anyway...talking to her reminds me of this song by Michael Fredo, Love All Over Again. It's an old song, but after she called me, the reff was playing on my head..dunno why...lolzzz... I tried look for it and finally got it...thanks to multiply. I remember it was very hard for me to get this song. It's been 8 years since the album was released and I just got it few days ago....Hail the internet!! That's a thing when searching for one album wonder artist, needs lots of time and patience....but it's worth it...So here it is...

Michael Fredo - Love All Over Again

My state of mind, my state of heart
You are the reason, you play the greatest part
When you're around me
Oh baby when you're gone it's still the same

I told myself never again
No sleepless nights and days of endless pain
I saw it coming and so I tried to hide my heart away

CHORUS:
Just when I thought my heart was safe
You make me fall in love all over again
No matter how I run, I just keep on falling in love all over again

What is this thing you do to me
Why can't I break away, why can't I just be free
I guess that love is why I can't walk away from you

To you I guess my love belongs
Do with it what you want to
Baby right or wrong
I understand there is no getting over you

CHORUS

I'm not gonna fight baby, I give in
Give in to you now
It's gonna be right because
As much as I tried, girl I can't let you go
No I can't let you go

Fluke

post #195

Whoahhhhh....been thinking about the appropriate title for this post. How long has it been since my last post? Few weeks I suppose.

For starter, this is how I got the inspiration to name this post 'Fluke'. Been watching Smallville season 7 the past few days. Kara was introduced in this season, along with her secret (not so secret if you have read the comic, like me). Lana showed her mysterious (perhaps dark?) side even more. The ending scene of episode 4, Jimmy was breaking up with Chloe. He said that all the things that happened, the earthquake was a fluke. Just like their relationship...it's just a fluke. Darn... Milles Millar and Alfred Gough really know how to build a scene (or maybe it was the director? :D).

Finished watching House season 3. It ended with major surprise. House's team was disassembled. Foreman resigned, Chased got fired, then Cameron also resigned. Can't wait to watch season 4. Meli called me last week. She's in Jakarta till December. Met Angel last week at St. James church. She got her hair cut. Still pretty n pouty. She invited me to go to the parish exhibition, but I had to attend wedding reception so I turned her down.

Work been as usual...caught a pharyngitis on Wednesday plus fever which knocked me out. I had to take a sick leave on Thursday. Sleeping all day long plus eating doctor prescribed medicine put me back on my feet to work yesterday. And now, sitting at the office, need to update some TDs I made.

Need to update Heroes and Prison Break....

Another fluke....my employee's sis passed away and he had to go back to his village. I have to bail out on my futsal schedule tonite...darnnnnnnnnnnn!!!! Reminds me of Tom Hanks' Forrest Gump... "Life is like a box of chocolate...You'll never know what you get"

Here's a song that have accompanied me lately....(maybe it can be dedicated to Chloe..lolzzz)

Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
[Big Girls Don't Cry lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da