Laura n Olga, you’re so beautiful

Today’s 30^th December 2005. The last working day in 2005. It also happens to be Friday. There are some highlights in this week. I still visited La Forca regularly. It was Robert Kingkong birthday on Dec 26. On Dec 27 I picked my sis at the airport. She’s back from Perth. Yesterday was Kelvin’s bday. I also got a great news yesterday. It turned that L’OREAL can produce the PO so I achieve this quarter target and also this year target. Wow…. I made it. In my first year I managed to achieve the target. Thank you so much God. I already gave up on this but He really showed that there’s nothing impossible. I talked to the MIS Mgr last week and he said that he couldn’t give the PO in Dec but yesterday I got his email saying the PO can be picked at the receptionist. God’s blessings are incredible. Yeahhhhhh……

Yesterday I also found out that Olga Lydia was one of the owners of La Forca. And the most shocking thing is that I once shook her hand when I was playing there. It was about last week. I played there w David, Indro n Pak Hardy. There was some kind of video shooting, n the model was beautiful. I didn’t know that it was Olga at the time. She’s friendly and said “Hi”. I said “Hi” too and shook her hand. She had flawless body. When I read her FS profile yesterday and David told me, I barely believed it. I thought she was just a model that they hire to promote La Forca. DAMN!!!! I meet Olga in person and shook her hand but I didn’t know that it was her…. I was so so so stupid…..I should asked her if she’s willing to take a picture with me. DAMNNNNN!!!!!!! I was such an idiot….. I just hope I can meet her again sometimes n when that time comes I’ll make sure I get to take pictures w her. She’s more beautiful in person.. Arggghhhhhhhhh…………

Today it’s like family day. David’s wife came to our office, Mbak Uchin’s daughter also came. I could make testimonials for KR, Indro n David. We practically don’t have anything to do since there are lots of companies that already close. Today’s also Kristin Laura Kreuk’s birthday. She’s 23 now. It’s been more than 3 years since I watched Smallville. She’s still sooooooo beautiful..ahhh….

Today I also have a gathering with WG’ers. Acham called Vie and I talked to him for awhile. I confirmed for this afternoon. Andy William’s Love Song is being played right now. Reminded me of Pauline. She looked slimmer in her FS pictures. Her birthday is also in December. So many people that I know whose birthday in Dec. Stani, Pauline, Nelly, Jeffry, VOC, Dave SH, Robert, Caca, Kelvin and also Laura (though I actually haven’t met her, but let’s just assume that I know her…;p)

New year is coming. It’s time for another one year reflection. What accomplishment that I’ve achieved this year. There were some GREAT times, and there were also some down times. But I can really feel God’s love throughout this year. I hope I can do better and better next year.. Be good, be better, be the best, be better than the best!!!!

Coz today’s a special day for Laura, I would like to dedicate this beautiful song for her coz she’s just so beautiful and gorgeous. I also dedicate this song for Olga Lydia, you’re also beautiful and down to earth….

Darren Hayes - So Beautiful

Whether I'm right or wrong
There's no phrase that hits
Like an ocean needs the sand
Or a dirty old shoe that fits
And if all the world was perfect
I would only ever want to see your scars
You know they can have their universe
We'll be in the dirt designing stars

And darlin' you know
You make me feel so beautiful
Nowhere else in the world I wanna be
You make me feel so beautiful

Whether I'm up or down
There's no crowd to please
I'm like a faith without a clause to believe in it
And if all the world was smiling
I would only ever want to see your frown
You know they can sail away in sunsets
We'll be right here stranded on the ground
Just happy to be found

You make me feel so beautiful
Nowhere else in the world I wanna be
You make me feel so beautiful

I have lost my illusions
I have drowned in your words
I have left my confusion to a cynical world
I am throwing myself at things I don't understand
Discover enlightenment holding your hand

You are..
So Beautiful

Yeah darlin' you know!
That you make me feel so beautiful


I really love this beautiful song at the moment. Thank you God for this beautiful year..

Just Another Phase

Just finished reading harry potter n the half blood prince. A very surprising ending with Dumbledore’s death and Snape finally showed his true self. I have been reading Harry Potter since I was in Perth at October and now, almost two months after, I got to finish it. It’s kinds sad that Dumbledore must die, but I think it opened new possibilities that the book won’t have to end on the 7^th series.

I also already finished Desperate Housewives last week. It was marvelous. Too bad Re had to die. This week was really Pool’s week. Mon – Fri I always played. I’m getting good at it….quite good. But the thing is just like my holiday in Perth, Smallville, Desperarte Housewives, and Harry Potter, it’s just another phase. Another stage, another chapter in my life. What will my life be?

“..I don’t wanna wait, for our lives to be over. I want to know right now what would it be.. I don’t wanna wait, for our lives to be over. Will it be yes or will it be…..sorry?”
Paula Cole’s song (OST Dawson Creek)..

Reminds me of Dumbledore’s saying in Harry Potter, “It’s the unknown that we fear from death and darkness”

About Someone

Teruntukmu hatiku, ingin ku bersuara
Merangkai semua tanya, imaji yang terlintas
Berjalan pada satu tanya slalu mengangguku
Seseorang….. itukah dirimu, Kasih?

Kepada yang tercinta inginnya kumengeluh
Semua resah di diri, mencari jawab pasti
Akankah seseorang yang kuimpikan kan hadir?
Raut halus menyelimuti jantungku

Cinta, hanyalah cinta…hidup dan mati untukmu
Mungkinkah semua tanya kau yang jawab
Dan tentang seseorang, itu pula dirimu
Ku bersumpah akan mencinta

Akankah seseorang yang kuimpikan kan hadir?
Raut halus menyelimuti jantungku

Cinta, hanyalah cinta…hidup dan mati untukmu
Mungkinkah semua tanya kau yang jawab
Dan tentang seseorang, itu pula dirimu
Ku bersumpah akan mencinta…….

The lyric above is Anda’s Tentang Seseorang… a great song…I love the words….
Will someone that I’ve dreamed of come in my life? Someone….

“…Somebody save me, let your warm hands break right through. Somebody save me, I don’t care how you do it. Just stay, stay, come on…. I’ve been waiting for you…”

Maybe I should start to look, not just wait…..

Linkin Park - My December

This is my December, This is my time of the year
This is my December, This is all so clear
This is my December, This is my snow covered home
This is my December, This is me alone

*
And I,
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I,
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I,
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I,
Take back all the things that I said to you

**
And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

This is my December
These are my snow covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need

*, **

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear

Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

Yeah…I would give it all away….just to have someone to come home to...just haven’t found that someone…. I feel that there’s something missing…and yet don’t know what it is. My perspective has been changed dramatically since my holiday in Perth….

made this blog in middle of Dec....n right now Stacie's song is playing on the background....there's reallt gotta be something more to life....more to.... more to life........ more to............life

Desperate Housewives vs Harry Potter

Like I said in my previous post, lately I’ve been addicted to Desperate Housewives. It’s a very brilliant and entertaining serial. The story and dialogues were just flawless. I’ve been watching since Nov 25 and now I’ve reached ep 21. Three more episodes to go. Because of this serial, I put aside my Harry Potter reading session. I’ve read until chapter 18 (page 300 something), but Desperate Housewives was very alluring it made me keep watching. Damn..it’s really addictive. There’s one character that I like the most from the 4 desperate housewives. She’s Bree Van De Kamp. I really love her character, Marcia Cross played it beautifully. There’s this one line that I remember the most, it was when Rex saw her trying to fix some kind of mug (They’re separated at the time), and Rex said to her why don’t just buy a new one. Her answer snapped me; She said, “I’d rather fixing what I already have”. A very smart line, really fit with their marriage situation. There’re lots of other brilliant lines that I won’t be able to quote all. Well, too bad in three more episodes I’m gonna finish watching it. Then I have to get back to Harry Potter and other reading session.

I didn’t come to the office at Thursday and Friday, due to my grandma’s loss. I went to Husada on Thursday, folded some papers (which was supposed to be money for the person who passed away) with Koko Sese n Suta. Went back from Husada at around 11
PM, but I still managed some time to watch DespHousewives. At Friday I went to Nirwana crematorium.

Yesterday was cleaning up day. I cleaned up my cupboard, organized the CDs and the papers. Cleaned my room afterward, and went to attend the afternoon mass. Finally got the blessings for my English bible. After the mass was finished, I saw that there were some blind men who’s singing gospel. It really hit me. I always ask for so many things in my prayer. I want so many things in my life that sometimes I just forget to be grateful of what I already have. A healthy body with no physical disability, isn’t that already a gift? Seeing those men reminded me to be grateful for what I have and try not to demand for so much more. I believe that God wanted to remind me that I already lucky to have fully functional eyes. That’s a thing about human. We just seem never satisfied with what we already have. I know that we can’t evolve if we’re just happy with what we already got, but I think sometimes we just have to lay back, counting all the blessings that we have already enjoyed.

Last nite I also heard Savage Garden’s (later I found out that it was supposed to be Darren’s) song, So Beautiful played on Sonora. I heard this song 1^st time at Tuesday; if I’m not mistaken, on my way to ICRC. From the 1^st time I heard it, I like it. Darrren’s voice was really beautiful. I went online and looked for the lyric and I got it. Reading the lyric really made me like the song even more. Unfortunately I haven’t been able to get it and also Darren’s latest album.

Today I brought my car to a car wash. I left it there and played WE for a while at Jef. I took my book which I forgot to bring back from last week. Eddy came at around 10 AM. I went back home at 10.30 AM. Went to Gadink at 11.30 AM to watch Harry Potter. Arrived there at about 12 PM, there were already quite lot of people queuing to get the ticket. I stood in the line and finally got the ticket with good seats for the 4 PM show. Robert came at around 1 sth PM, We went to Gramed for a while and then played pool until 3 PM. Ate at Gadink 3 food court and then watch Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire. It was excellent. Compared to the last Harry Potter, it was far beyond. Hermione (I mean Emma Watson) was getting more and more beautiful. After that we separated, Robert went with his gf, I went back home and now sitting in front of my pc writing this blog. I guess that’s all for these last 4 days. It’s been great. At this moment, I still like Peterpan’s Tak Bisakah. I also finally got the MP3 and the lyric.

Peter Pan - Tak Bisakah

hatiku bimbang namun tetap pikirkanmu
Selalu, selalu dalam hatiku
Ku melangkah sejauh apapun itu
Selalu engkau di dalam hatiku

Ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
Berharap temukan sisa hatimu
Mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
Mengerti kau di dalam hatiku

reff:
Tak bisakah kau menungguku
Hingga nanti tetap menunggu
Tak bisakah kau menuntunku
Menemani jalan hidupku

Ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
Berharap temukan sisa hatimu
Mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
Mengerti kau di dalam hatiku

Dara kau menjadi hidupku
Kemana kau tahu isi hatiku
Tunggu sejenak aku di situ
Jalanku jalan menemukanmu

reff

this blog was made in early Dec, but i haven't got the time to publish it back then....