Life is a Struggle

Post # 88

Dewa 19 - Hidup Adalah Perjuangan

Kemenangan hari ini...
Bukanlah berarti kemenangan esok hari
Kegagalan hari ini...
Bukanlah kegagalan esok hari

Hidup adalah perjuangan tanpa henti-henti
usah kau menangisi hari kemarin

Tak ada yang jatuh dari langit
Dengan cuma-cuma
Semua usaha dan do'a
Kebenaran hari ini
Bukanlah berarti kebenaran saat nanti
Kebenaran bukanlah kenyataan

Hidup adalah perjuangan tanpa henti-henti
usah kau menangisi hari kemarin

Hidup adalah perjuangan
Bukanlah arah dan tujuan
Hidup adalah perjalanan


A very good song from Dewa, one of my favorite Indonesian bands. Life is a struggle. We must struggle each day in our life. Set our goals and struggle hard to reach them. But don’t forget to sit back sometimes to relax, recharge ourselves.

Dramatic Ending

Post #87

YEAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Wohoooooooooooooooo!!!!
Another fine day….wayyyy tooo fine….. Italia really made my day. After a long n exhausting day at work (it was a lil better thanks to a long chat w Moet). Italy was facing Australia tonight. Both teams played very well on the first half. Italy had two golden chances, first from Gilardino whose kick was saved by Schwarzer and the second was left footed shot from Toni, again saved by the feet of Schwarzer though he already moved in the wrong direction. Australia had their chance from Chipperfield but Buffon showed his skills in keeping Italian goal save.

And the unfortunate event happened just a few minutes in the second half. Marco Materazzi, Italian hero in the match versus Czech was sent off after he tackled Marco Bresciano. It was a straight red card. Italy went down to ten men. Arghhhh…. I was starting to worry. And Australia really used their advantage, but Buffon demonstrated why he was named the best goalkeeper in the world. Toni was replaced by Barzagli after Materazzi was sent off. Then Totti came in, replacing Del Piero who hadn’t showed distinct contribution (too bad for him…). Australia kept on attacking. And when it seemed that the match would go to extra time, Italy got a penalty…Yes, after holding on with ten men from the beginning of the second half and being forced to defend like crazy, Italy got a chance to turn the situation. It was Fabio Grosso’s attempt which yielded in that penalty. He was rushing from Australian right wing and brought down by Australian defender (Well…I’m not really sure about the foul). The referee pointed at the spot and I almost scream… YEAHHHHHHHH….

Totti stepped up to take the kick. I felt lots of feelings. Anxious, Excited, Worry, they’re all mixed up. It seemed like my heart pounded at 300 bpm. I could feel jolts of electricity on my face. I was quickly taken back to 1994 World Cup final when Baggio stepped up to take the kick, to Euro 2000 semifinal when Totti was also stepping up to take the kick against Netherland (at that time Italy was also playing with only ten men). The camera focused on Totti’s eyes….I was sure that it would be the last chance Italy had in the normal time. Totti took the kick and scored. 1-0 for Italy YEAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

a well taken penalty kick by Totti, ensuring Italy went to quarter final

I raised my fist in ecstasy. And then I was quite surprised coz Totti was hugged by his team mates and the Italian officials. It turned out that the penalty was really the last action of the game. What a dramatic ending….n then the camera shot Australian players faces. They seemed very sad and still couldn’t believe that they lost, right on the end of normal time. To some of them (like Viduka, Aloisi, and Kewell maybe), this would be their last world cup. But in a game there’s always been the winning and losing side. Unfortunately Australia was on the losing side.

Another fine day….continuation from yesterday…..Ahhhhhh…now I can sleep with some peace in mind, just like what Alfie said in Alfie (a movie that I just watched yesterday)…..Thank you, God….for this truly dramatic ending…but it’s not the end of the journey, Italy still have to face Swiss or Ukraine in the quarter final and then face Germany or Argentina in the semifinal….then final awaits….. God bless Italy so they can be the world champion again…..that’s the perfect ending….for me lolz….

A lil bit addition, four Italy goals were scored by subtitute players. In their first match in the World Cup finals campaign, Vincenzo Iaquinta scored one goal and Italy won 2-0. In their last match of group stage versus Czech, both goals were scored by subtitute. Materazzi scored Italy first goal of the match just after 7 minutes he got into the pitch. The second goal of the match was scored by Inzaghi, which sealed Italy's 2-0 victory . And in the match against Australia, Totti who came into the field on the 75th minute scored Italian winning goal from the spot kick. The interesting part is, Italy won in these three matches. They couldn't win against USA even when they had numerical advantage (in that match, there's no goal from Italian subtitute). They could only get a 1-1 draw. Hmmmmmm........intriguing, huh??

a different angle of the penalty

Del Piero hugged Totti, celebrating his goal

Italian team and officials celebrate their success advancing to the quarter final. Is that Ciro Ferrara wearing maroon shirt on the right side???

Don't forget Budweiser Man of The Match, Gianluigi "Gigi" Buffon

Last edited on June 27 2006, 11.06 AM

Fine Day

post # 86

Qing tian
Composer: Jay Chou (周杰倫) Lyricist: Jay Chou (周杰倫)


故事的小黃花
gu shi de xiao huang hua
從出生那年就飄著
cong chu sheng na nian jiu piao zhe
童年的盪鞦韆
tong nian de dang qiu qian
隨記憶一直晃到現在
sui ji yi yi zhi huang dao xian zai

ㄖㄨㄟ　ㄙㄡ　ㄙㄡ　ㄒ一　ㄉㄡ　ㄒ一
ruay sou sou si dou si
ㄌㄚ　ㄙㄡ　ㄌㄚ　ㄒ一　ㄒ一　ㄒ一　ㄒ一　ㄌㄚ　ㄒ一　ㄌㄚ　ㄙㄡ
la sou la si si si si la si la sou

吹著前奏望著天空我想起花瓣試著掉落
chui zhe qian zou wang zhe tian kong wo xiang qi hua ban shi zhe diao luo

為妳翹課的那一天
wei ni qiao ke de na yi tian
花落的那一天
hua luo de na yi tian
教室的那一間
jiao shi de na yi jian
我怎麼看不見
wo zen me kan bu jian
消失的下雨天
xiao shi de xia yu tian
我好想再淋一遍
wo hao xiang zai lin yi bian
沒想到失去的勇氣我還留著
mei xiang dao shi qu de yong qi wo hai liu zhe
好想再問一遍
hao xiang zai wen yi bian
妳會等待還是離開
ni hui deng dai hai shi li kai

颳風這天
gua feng zhe tian
我試過握著妳手
wo shi guo wo zhe ni shou
但偏偏
dan pian pian
雨漸漸
yu jian jian
大到我看妳不見
da dao wo kan ni bu jian
還要多久
hai yao duo jiu
我才能在妳身邊
wo cai neng zai ni shen bian
等待放晴的那天
deng dai fang qing de na tian
也許我會比較好一點
ye xu wo hui bi jiao hao yi dian
從前從前
cong qian cong qian
有個人愛妳很久
you ge ren ai ni hen jiu
但偏偏
dan pian pian
風漸漸
feng jian jian
把距離吹得好遠
ba ju li chui de hao yuan
好不容易
hao bu rong yi
又能再多愛一天
you neng zai duo ai yi tian
但故事的最後妳好像還是說了拜拜
dan gu shi de zui hou ni hao xiang hai shi shuo liao bai bai


Fine Day

The spring flower of the story
Floats from that year when it was born
Swinging on a swing in childhood
Following memories always swaying till now

ruay sou sou si dou si
la sou la si si si si la si la sou

Playing the prelude, watching the sky, I remember the petal trying to fall

That day when I skipped class for you
That day when flowers fall
That classroom
How come I couldn’t see
Vanished under rainy day
I really want to be drenched again
Never thought that I still keep the courage that I have lost
Really want to ask again
Will you wait or leave?

This day of the typhoon
I tried to hold onto your hand
But yet
Rain gradually
Became heavy to the point that I cannot see you
How much longer
Before I can be at your side?
Waiting for that day when it clears up
Maybe I will be a bit better
In the past, in the past
There was someone who loved you for a long time
But yet
Wind gradually
Blows the distance really far apart
Not very easily
Once again able to love a day more
But the end of the story it seems like you still say bye-bye


I’ve been addicted to this song since the first time I heard it. I've never been addicted to a song like this since my addiction to Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved. I wonder how come I didn’t notice this song earlier. I had the album, but somehow I missed it. The melody is simple n has this kind of sad vibe…mellow..the lyric is excellent… I must give it to Jay Chou. He’s brilliant. Love this song.

Writing this blog while chatting w Moet…Yes she’s currently infatuated with Cristiano Ronaldo, the Portugese rising star (well, he’s already rising, let’s just see how high he’ll rise). Have long n very interesting chat w her. She’s having her summer holiday.

Yesterday bought a bunch of DVDs…watched two of them, Firewall and Alfie. Firewall was a very good thriller; Harrison Ford played the role very well. And there was Mary Lynn Rajskub aka Chloe O’Brien in 24. She played a different role there, but I still saw her as Chloe..I guess I watched 24 too much. Alfie was a simple comedy with a clear message for guys. The story was about a guy, Alfie who managed to stay single and unattached. He had lots of flings with women and he thought he’s happy with his condition, till he got that killer blow..which made him questioning his life…the end was great though it’s still hanging.

Another Fine Day today…

Another 24

Post # 85

Today’s Yuni’s bday. It’s been a year since my Gianicera post. Lately I have this urge to tell her. Maybe there’s a part of me that still wondering what was she feeling at the time (though it doesn’t matter anymore..it’s in the past), what she meant with her letters. But on the other hand I think, what’s the use of telling her. What do I expect by telling her? So I can move on? Haven’t I moved on? *sigh.. (currently, Jay Chou’s song Kai Bu Liao Kou is being played….what a coincidence) . Yeah, seven years is not a short time. What would her reaction be if I told her? I dunno… I really dunno. Will it make our friendship awkward? I accepted the fact that she just considered me as a friend a long time ago… there’s no point of telling her… but….. *sigh…..

Anyway, today’s been great. Played badminton again and I felt energized. Though I slept at 2 AM yesterday (or should I say this morning), after a long chat with a new friend who really need someone to talk to. Yesterday was also the first time in my life I stayed at the office till 10 PM, thanks to the internal sharing session and a little test case. I still feel tired…I need a nice, decent sleep.

Well, this post is dedicated for her who had been my OOA for quite some time. Happy birthday, wish you a successful year ahead. Best wishes for you…..always.


Here’s some of the lyric of Jay’s song I mentioned earlier….
Yeahh I could only watch from far away…coz the person beside her was (and is) not me…

就是開不了口
jiu shi kai bu liao kou
讓她知道
rang ta zhi dao
我一定會呵護著妳
wo yi ding hui he hu zhe ni
也逗妳笑
ye dou ni xiao
妳對我有多重要
ni dui wo you duo zhong yao
我後悔沒
wo hou hui mei
讓妳知道
rang ni zhi dao
安靜的聽妳撒嬌
an jing de ting ni sa jiao
看妳睡著一直到老
kan ni shui zhao yi zhi dao lao
就是開不了口
jiu shi kai bu liao kou
讓她知道
rang ta zhi dao
就是那麼簡單幾句
jiu shi na me jian dan ji ju
我辦不到
wo ban bu dao
整顆心懸在半空
zheng ke xin xuan zai ban kong
我只能夠遠遠看著
wo zhi neng gou yuan yuan kan zhe
這些我都做得到
zhe xie wo dou zuo de dao
但那個人已經不是我
dan nei ge ren yi jing bu shi wo

That is I cannot speak
To let her know
I will definitely scold loudly protecting you
I will also tease you to laugh
You are very important to me
I regret
Not letting you know
Quietly listening to you acting like a spoiled child
Looking at you sleeping
Constantly until when we’re old
That is I cannot speak
To let her know
That is such a few simple words
I am unable to manage
The whole heart hanging in mid air
I can only
Watch from far away
These I can accomplish
But that person is already not me

And The Moffatts’ song, Miss You Like Crazy..a song that brings fond memories. (I know it’s kinda lame…but hey…Moffatts was in that time…lolz)

The Moffatts - Miss You Like Crazy

I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

chorus:
I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

You are all that I want
You're all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

chorus

Girl I'm so down
When your love's not around

chorus

I miss you like crazy (4 times)



Yeahh.. I used to miss her like crazy…miss her….miss her…. But now I miss my sleep….so much, *going to bed…

I'll Bet Jesus Was Cool

post #84

Savage Garden - I'll Bet He Was Cool

You know every once in a while
I shoot the breeze I spend my time
I talk about silly things
I like to talk about Jesus Christ
Cos I wonder what would happen if He passed you by

Would you be scared?
Would you believe in Him?
Would you bust your asses to get Him institutionalized?
Well, I bet he'd be cool

I bet He be damn good looking
I bet that He smelt divine
I'm not talking about Calvin Klein's Obsession
Just one of those people smell good all the time
There's no reason why
What would He wear
Would He wear Tommy Hilfiger?
Or prefer Urban Outfitted?
I don't think so
Well, I bet He liked Gaultier
But you'd never find Him in it
I bet He liked Gaultier

*:
Lord I need your protection spend some time in my direction
I need your protection spend some time in my direction
I need your protection spend some time in my direction

You know every once and a while
I shoot the breeze I spend my time
I talk about silly things
And tonight I'd like to talk to you about Jesus Christ
'Cos I wonder how we'd deal if He just passed you by

I bet He'd be a star
I bet my star wars figures He would be a movie star
A Quentin Tarantino next-big-thing
Prima donna, then He'd appear on Oprah
You know what? I don't think so
Could you imagine Him hanging Piccadilly Circus
Time Square, the walk of fame
At Christies He could easily become a regular
D'you know what? I don't think so
I bet my speeder bike He'd turn his back on all of that

*

Some people have just got it
You know like standing next to Elvis Presley
Well then multiply that feeling by 1 million
And you know what I'm talking about
Well I'll bet He was cool
Man I bet that cat was so damn good looking


this song says it all.... Lord I need your protection spend some time in my direction

Grazie Dio, Forza Italia

Post #83

Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…. I’m in euphoria right now. Italy won 2-0 against Czech Rep. The goals were scored by Marco Materazzi at 26th minute and Filippo Inzaghi at 87th minute. Materazzi goal was an example of a fine set piece. He headed the ball into the net from Francesco Totti corner, maximizing his 193cm height. The second goal came after an Italian player dispossessed the ball from a Czech player in the midfield and they quickly assembled a counter attack that unleashed Inzaghi clear from any Czech defenders, went one on one with the Petr Cech (The Czech goalkeeper), went around him and drove the ball into an empty net. 2-0 for Italia. A goal that surely sealed Czech fate to go home early. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Forza Italia…… Not so long before that, Inzaghi missed a header that supposed to be the second goal for Italy, but he really made it up with his goal….Later, Materazzi was named Man of The Match. He deserved it since he just came on the pitch for about 8 minutes after Alessandro Nesta had to be brought off due to groin injury, he scored a crucial goal when Italia was under pressure, a goal that turned the table around.

Materazzi (#23) rose high above the other players to score Italia first goal of the match

Pippo scored Italia second goal after her went around Petr Cech

Well, anyway, watching the game really raised my spirit. Italia showed a fighting spirit that they didn’t show (or have?) in their match against USA. They won in ball possession and shots on goal. And they players were diligent to guard every inch of their ‘area’. It rejuvenated me after a not too good day. I had some problems with the internet connection which made me unable to update my blog at office and I had to assist in delivering the training coz the participants were too many. But it all wiped away watching Italia play.

I hope Italia can advance through the final and become the World Champion. I’ve been waiting for 12 years since last time Italia went through to the final. Back in 1994 when “Il Divino” Roberto Baggio wore the talismanic # 10 shirt, Italia went through the final after a dramatic journey from the group phase to semifinal. He was the man that made Italia went through to final, but unfortunately he was brutally (in my opinion) tackled by Bulgarian defender, Trifon Ivanov (yeah, I still remember his name, the one who injured my Baggio) in the semifinal. The injury made him unable to give his best contribution against Brazil in the final and the most painful moment was watching his penalty kick went up very high above the crossbar. Brazil won the shootout and became the first country in history who won the World Cup four times (later they added their fifth title in 2002 World Cup, thanks to stunning performance of Ronaldo). In the last world cup Italia was eliminated after South Korean defeated them 2-1. South Korean surprised the world in that World Cup. They’re really a meteor… (Meteor Ginseng….lol…you gotta understand Indonesian and know that at that time, Meteor Garden was very popular here to understand why Meteor Ginseng term is very funny). I really hope Italia can win their fourth title in this year World Cup. Still a long way to go…so Forza Italia….show your fighting spirit…….

Talking about soccer always make me excited. I remember Father Sindhunata’s column in yesterday Kompas. In short, he wrote that everybody’s longing for something divine in their soul, such as peace, happiness, joy (which was supposed they got from a spiritual experience involving God). Que madmodum desiderat cervus ad fonts aquarum, ita desiderat anima mea adte, Deus (Like a deer longing for a fountain, so is my soul longing for You, God). But people find the fulfillment of their longing in so many things, one of them is in soccer. It’s a very interesting article. I’m gonna try to find it again and write it down here.

Back to Italia. Their match against Czech was also brought some complication remembering some of the players play in the same club. For example Pavel Nedved (Czech) who plays for Juventus along with Gianluigi Buffon, Gianluca Zambrotta, Fabio Cannavaro and Mauro Camoranesi from the Italia side. But playing for country and club is two different things and they showed their professionalism by giving their best and put aside their friendship coz they’re rivals on the pitch. After the match ended, Nedved exchanged shirt with Cannavaro, his teammate in Juventus. It’s kinda sad watching Nedved, which is a hero for Juventus, an Italian soccer club in a defeated side. Another conflict of interest was between Buffon and Alena Seredova, his fiancée. Alena is a Czech supermodel (what is it between soccer player n supermodel?? do they have some kind of unwritten agreement that they should date each other???? lolz....). She was supporting Italia in their opening match against Ghana…. Can you imagine that? * big grin

Alena wearing Italia shirt on Italia VS Ghana match... ;p

Now I can sleep with a wide smile on my face, knowing Italia advance to the next round and they don’t have to meet Brazil which is likely to be the group champion. Once again, Grazie Dio…..

Forza Italia!

Help Me

Post # 82

Here I am, sitting in my new workplace. The good thing from my new job is that I got a laptop which I can bring back home. I finished my training yesterday and now I dunno what to do. That’s the downside of this new job. I only know my job desc vaguely. Well in the contract it’s SAP Programmer but the training I got was for the end-user and I think I’m gonna be supporting the user. I’m soooooo bored. Don’t have much to do (in fact, nothing to do).

I even got the time to make some modification to my blog. Now it has search engine to search my previous posts and a hit counter. I even added footer. I dunno if I’m gonna like this job or will it inline with my long term goal. I don’t feel like it’s the right one. *sigh I know I should give it a time, but I’m not sure about it.

Well.. I guess I’ll just go along n keep my other options available. I think I’m experiencing what Phoenix said in her blog…between two choices and I’m still unsure which one to choose, yet it burden me thinking I might be making the wrong decisions.

….Help me make the right decisions, know which way to turn, lessons to learn, and just what my purpose is here….

I really could use some sleep now, got this terrible headache (I think it’s caused by my uncomfortable chair and desk position)


This is (in my opinion) the best song Nick Carter has ever sung. The lyric is absolutely great...


Nick Carter - Help Me

I wish I could define
All the thoughts that cross my mind
They seem too big for me to choose
I don't know which one's to lose
When I've fallen down so far
I think I'll never see your light
Bouncing off of me and
Shining down here from your eyes

Chorus:
Help me
Figure out the difference
Between right and wrong
Weak and strong
Day and night
Where I belong
Help me
Make the right decisions
Know which way to turn
Lessons to learn
And just what my purpose is here (Just what my purpose is here)
Oh yeah

It's like I got the signals crossed
With messages I can't decode
Half asleep, never wide awake in a (or) ya know
Complete overload
I got so much information here
And nothing I can really grasp
I should know the truth
But I'm too afraid so I have to ask

Chorus

Wanna know you
More than anything
I need you
In my every dream you're there for me
You love me
For who I am
No angel
Just an ordinary man

**:
Help me figure out
Why I'm stuck in the middle
Tryin to understand why
I can't quite
It's such a riddle
Got my eyes crossed
Thinkin so hard
And I know I'm missin the mark

Can you help me sort out
All this information
I'm just wrackin my brain
Payin attention
But I'm still lost
And at all costs
I (I)
I gotta know (I gotta know)
Oh

Chorus, **

Three Blogthings

Post #81

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around
Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want
You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.

When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back
Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!
You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

Your Personality Is:

Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

The Three Question Personality Test

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy...and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Got these interesting quizzes from Phoenix. I'm flattered with the result. I know that it might not be 100% accurate, but never underestimate the power of suggestion… ;p. I encourage you to try them...

Home

Post #80

Finally I make another post. It’s been almost 2 weeks since my last post. The World Cup has begun. It really absorbs tons of attention, including mine…lol. Finally joined Accenture. Came at Friday, June 9th, 2006 to get my laptop (yes, I got a laptop for my work…yippie…now I have two…). After that I started to get my training on Monday. It was very exhausting coz I couldn’t get home sooner than 7 PM. But I got my revenge on weekend. I stayed home all weekend, resting and watching Desperate Housewives season 2 episodes 11-17. Yeahhhhhhhh… Just stayed at Jef’s on Saturday to watch Italy VS USA, which ended 1-1. A disappointing result, remembering that Italy has one man advantage. It felt sooooooo good to be home. After a long day at work, home feels like a haven from all the pressure n weariness of work. Quoting one of the lines in Munich… “Home is everything”. Munich was a very good movie, but I found the ending rather unresolved.

How much does home mean to you?????

Here are two great songs….both share the same title….


Michael Buble - Home

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris or Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I gotta go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not come along with me
This was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away

In even Paris and Rome

And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It'll all be alright
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home



Simply Red - Home

What’s worth nothing else but love
Take a walk down any street now
Every one of us in our own little world
Looking for a heart with whom to beat now

What’s worth nothing else but love
I’m prepared to take the heat now
What’s worth more than anything else at all
To keep you firmly on your feet now

So fake cool image should be over
‘Cause I long for a feeling of home
Real life, depicted in song
A loving memory
After long, home is a place where I yearn to belong

Where the land meets the sea
She’ll be smiling so sweetly now
I hope that she’ll be here much longer than I will
My heart loves her with every beat now

So fake cool image should be over
‘Cause I long for a feeling of home
Real life, depicted in song
A loving memory
After long, home is a place where I yearn to belong

24 Canadian Beauties (a lesson)

These last two days have been 24 days. Watched 6 episodes yesterday and 6 episodes today. Just finished watching episode 12 and there’s Elisha… her hair was long and she’s beautiful..her hair was real blonde. That’s what I call blonde…reminded me the 1st time I saw her on Girl Next Door. It was then I knew about 24 and become addicted to both Elisha and 24. She’s just irresistible. Canadian girls are beautiful. The list goes on since I found out that Anna Paquin is Canadian too. She was born there and moved to New Zealand at the age of 4. She’s known from her role as Rogue in X-Men and to my surprise, she won Academy award for best supporting actress in Piano, when she was just 11 years old. What a talent. And just like Kristin and Elisha, she’s also born in 1982. Can’t help to use Anna pic as my desktop wallpaper.

Yesterday I also got good news from Accenture. They wanted me to join earlier. I will get my training started on Monday, June 12th 2006. Yeahhhhh…. I believe the lesson that I got from this was faithfulness. God wanted me to be faithful, not just in good times when everything goes smoothly like I want them to, but also in bad times. Last month I had been very active in church activities and honestly I expect things to go as I planned. But it doesn’t always go like that. And it doesn’t mean that God abandons me whatsoever, but if I expect things to go my way, as I want them to then I’ll be insincere. I expect something in return first to do something. I’ll only be good if there’s something in it for me. It’s not right. I have to be faithful and play my role as best as I can, coz I’m sure God has bigger, better plans for me and He will do things according to His time, not mine. I know it may seem hard to believe, especially if you’ve already been in difficult situation for quite long and it seems to get worse, but we can’t lose hope and faith. Those are the things that keep us trying. Have faith….

I would like to quote David’s psalm, one of my favorites.

Psalm 23

The Lord, Shepherd and Host

1) A psalm of David
The LORD is my shepherd; there is nothing I lack

2) In green pastures you let me graze; to safe waters you lead me;

3) you restore my strength. You guide me along the right path for the sake of your name.

4) Even when I walk through a dark valley, I fear no harm for you are at my side; your rod and staff give me courage.

5) You set a table before me as my enemies watch; You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.

6) Only goodness and love will pursue me all days of my life; I will dwell in the house of the LORD for
years to come.

MCDST

Jakarta, June 6, 2006

Journal #78

Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

I finally become an MCDST. Took the 70-272 exam today, after it got postponed twice. There were also some problems when I was taking the exam. They had to reboot the computer twice, the first time was before I took the exam and the second one was when I was reviewing my answers. The 2nd made me quite worried that I had to do the exam all over again, but luckily I didn’t have to. There was also some problem when they’re trying to print my score report. I scored 972 out of 1000. A lil bit lower than my first one (70-271, 983 out of 1000), but this exam was harder than the first one. Well anyway, now I am an MCDST…just have to wait for the certificate to be delivered to me.

N then after that I went to Mangga Dua to buy some DVDs. On my way there, it’s raining; I had to wear my rain jacket. After I got there, the stores that usually sell DVDs were closed, all of them. It seemed that God didn’t want me to buy DVDs today. Yesterday I went to Glodok to buy asthma medicine for mom and it was fine, lots of people bought DVDs there. But hey, Mangga Dua isn’t Glodok…. *sigh. So I just bought DVD-R to back up my data.

I want to thank my mom, my dog…..lolz (I’m quoting Sydnee words). Thank God I could pass those two exams. Thanks to Testking too. Now, there’re still MCSA, MCSE, MCDBA and CCNA that need to be concerned.

Pentecost

Journal #77

Finally, I think my busy days and tight schedule is over now. The culmination point was today, when I received my confirmation sacrament at St. Therese Church in Menteng area.

Yesterday was quite historical day in my life. I (as a member of the choir) sang at one of my friend’s wedding in the morning, and then went to Cathedral for the 3rd time in my life. The architecture (inside the cathedral) was marvelous. It was also my first time attending a mass at cathedral, not to mention a mass that was presented by the Archbishop himself. Wow… I attended the mass and then got a chance to shake hands with the archbishop, which also happened to be the Cardinal of Catholic church in Indonesia…. Words can’t describe how I felt.. I could only try to savor each moment I experienced. I, Eddy, Devi, Ladies, Ancie, Christine, Donna, Joseph and Finky attended the mass. After the mass, I attended another mass, a closure for Novena prayer and also to celebrate Pentecost. The pastor gave a very good sermon. And then after that went to the church activity hall and attended the “sarasehan” (dunno how to say it in English..;p). We (me, Ladies, Christine, Ancie n Joseph) were very late, so we only got the chance to eat….lolzzzz. After that we went to drop Ladies off at Shekinah. Stopped by there for a while n then went back home.

Today woke up early coz I wanted to confess my sins to the pastor. Eddy was already with the pastor, so I hurried up. After that I went back home n continued my sleep…just a lil bit.. at almost 12 PM I went to Devi’s house to pick up her n Eddy, who was already there. We went to St. Therese church n arrived there at 12.40 sth PM. Waited at St. Mary cave; took some pictures and then at around 1 PM we went inside. Eddy n me sat in the front rows while Devi, the photographer, sat at the back rows. The mass began at 2 PM and when the time for confirmation to be given came, Devi did her job well. She took our pictures and recorded when we received the oil, as a symbol that we receive Holy Spirit. The mass ended at 3.30 PM took some pictures and I got a sight of that pretty girl from St. Andreas parish..;p. After that the three of us went to Senayan Indoor Tennis stadium to attend 200 years Catholic Church in Jakarta (The Archdiocese of Jakarta) and 30 years Catholic Charismatic Renewal Movement celebration. The guest star was Susan Bachtiar…and she was far more beautiful in person. She’s so slim, elegant and alluring. Saw Rhea on the 2nd row, and near the end of the celebration, her family was given chance to stand on the stage. Her family was a good role model for catholic family. The celebration ended at almost 6 PM. After that there was a mass, but I decided not to attend. If I had attended it, it would have been my 4th mass in the last 36 hours… I already broke my own record for mass attendance. So we went home. There were additional passengers, Joseph, Donna n Finky.

There was a little “miracle” happened. My car locks was jammed when we arrived at Indoor Tennis stadium. I couldn’t lock or unlock using the alarm remote control. I couldn’t even lock or unlock them manually from the driver side lock. I had to lock the car doors one by one. *sigh….. but when we wanted to go home and I tried to lock the door manually from the driver side, it worked. The central lock worked. I didn’t how, but it just worked. Thank God. N then I tested the alarm remote control and it also worked. The doors can be locked/unlocked smoothly and the back left door which was sometimes jammed worked perfectly. Wow…. It’s remarkable.

We went to eat fried rice near our parish church. We had so much laughter while we’re eating. There’re too many things that made us laugh out loud. It was an unforgettable moment. That dinner can be said (quite officially) close the busy days I’ve had. Now I can relax a bit from the church activities.

I’m planning to change my display name on friendster with my confirmation sacrament name, Alexius. I’ve already thought to use this name not so long after I got baptized. When I was attending weekly mass, I saw a military soldier’s name tag, which was Alexius. I was intrigued, but I only kept it in my heart. And then when I started to search for confirmation sacrament name, I instantly remembered Alexius. I was considering some other names and the last two candidates were Alexius and Ambrosius (Ambrose in English). But since I felt that I had some kind of bond with the name Alexius, I chose it. Alexius also known as Alexis;The Man of God. Alexius biography can be read here.

Well I guess that’s all for now. A new day has come (literally, cause now it’s 15 past 12). I do hope I can live up the name I chose. Happy Pentecost. May The Holy Spirit burn our heart, renew our strength and enable us to share God’s love to others, to serve Him in every way we can, so there’ll be peace here on earth. Let His kingdom come. GBU Abundantly…

Smallville……again

Finally I finished watching Smallville season 5 yesterday. Watched episode 15-22 and the season finale was terrific. Can’t wait to watch season 6… Yesterday had been Smallville Day. One thing that I didn’t like was the fact that Lana was with Lex. It’s kinda disappointing, remembering her history from smallville season 1. From Whitney, Clark, Adam, Jason, Clark again, now Lex…. (maybe I didn’t like it because there were lots of kissing scene that involved her with all of those guys…;p). It was started from season 2, episode Red, when Clark was infected with Red Kryptonite and he kissed (really kissed) Lana at the Talon. And by each season the kissing scenes become more often, not to mention the shower scenes…is it a trend???

Today I went to Accenture to sign the contract and then stopped by at Rhea’s office, brought her Rotiboy. Went to Setiabudi One, had lunch w Seysi. She just got back from Germany; she gave me a souvenir and returned my 24 season 4 DVDs. She told me her experience in Germany, Holland, and Czech. She suggested me to go to Prague when I got the chance coz it’s so lovely. After lunch I watched Da Vinci Code @ Setiabudi One 21. Tom Hanks played well, as he usually did. Audrey Tautou was lovely in the film. I noticed that she also had beautiful legs. Not to mention Sir Ian McKellen. He’s very professional. I couldn’t see him as Magneto in Da Vinci Code, though it’s only been few days since I watched X-Men 3: The Last Stand. He’s a very good actor. The story was a lil bit different with and not as controversial and convincing as the novel. I watched it coz I wanna see the Louvre, the Saint Sulpice Church, the Temple Church and Rosslyn Chapel. Overall, it’s a good movie.

Well watching one of the episodes of Smallville reminded me of Goo Goo Dolls’ song, Iris, which was also the soundtrack of City of Angels (played by Nicholas Cage and Meg Ryan). It’s when Clark was putting his telescope and Lana came. Clark used to use his telescope to “spy” on Lana when she was living with her aunt Nell… It’s beautiful song and I like Johnny Rzeznik voice… in Indonesian we call it…serak serak basah….

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you,
'Cause I know that you feel me some how.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.

And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,
Or the moment of the truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am......