Smallville

Just finished watching Smallville seas 5 ep 12. An excellent one I must say. After series of plain episodes, starting from episode 9 (Lexmas), it got better. Episode 9 must have been inspired by the Family Man (starring Nicholas Cage and Tea Leoni). It’s a Christmas episode, the first one in Smallville. Quite interesting storyline about the possibility about how the future would change if Lex made a different decision after he got shot at Christmas Eve. How he ended up marrying Lana and had a son, and soon about to have a daughter. But in the end, he made a decision that sealed him as Superman’s archenemy. Very nice twist in the plot….nice job Mr. Gough n Mr. Millar. Btw. Erica Durance didn’t appear in this episode, just like Kristin Kreuk didn’t appear in the previous episode, Solitude.

Episode 10 (Fanatic)…didn’t appeal very much, just a standard too obsessed fan who’s too devoted to Lex. Episode 11 (Lockdown) I believe was also inspired by a movie (Panic Room, starring Jodie Foster). Nice story..and officer Harris was actually quite cute…for a moment she looked like Laura Harring.

And the most outstanding episode in seas 5 (so far) was episode 12 (Reckoning). From the very beginning we were brought to a different landscape of the Kent’s farm, not just green but this time it was snowy white…. I love snow…..and the opening scene when Clark asked Lana for a mysterious date, the song perfectly built up the emotions. Later out I found out that it was James Blunt’s song, You’re Beautiful. Short story, Clark told Lana his secret, proposed her and she said yes. It was a magnificent way to propose a girl, brought her to your fortress of solitude, demonstrated your power a lil bit, crushed the stone to extract the diamond within, shaped it, attached it to a ring and then sealed with your heat vision. N then popped the classic question, and after that, opening credit. WOWWWWWWW !!!! What a blast opening….Well anyway, Clark was not destined to spend his life with Lana, so the story went to a point (I skip the other parts that didn’t concern Clark n Lana) where Lana was chased by Lex, coz Lex knew that Lana had known Clark’s secret. And her car was hit by a bus, and she died. Clark rushed in to the location but there’s nothing he could do, Lana’s dead. So he came to his fortress of solitude again, and then asked Jor El a second chance to change it but there wouldn’t be another.


So once again we’re brought to the opening scene but this time it was different and Lana finally said that she need a break…Clark asked, “From me?”..but Lana said,”No, from us” and it was when James Blunt’s song reached… “But it’s time to face the truth, I will never be with you….” Another WOWWWWWW, excellently composed….but one thing for sure, if you change a history, nature will find its equilibrium. And that’s what happened. Clark saved Lana, but lost his father. Jonathan Kent died of a heart attack after he was visited by Lionel Luthor. One thing that still intrigues me is what the picture that Lionel showed Jonathan was. And in the ending scene, another funeral, this time it’s Jonathan’s. Reminded me of Smallville episode 19 (Crush) in season 1. At that time it was Whitney’s father funeral, it was raining and Lana looked so gorgeous in the scene holding an umbrella while Clark looking at her from a distance, all suit up and soaked wet by the rain. Well this time it’s different. It was snowing, it’s all white and Lana held Clark’s hand before let it go slowly. Lex looked from a distance. It’s a superb episode…..Now…I’m gonna watch the rest…..Smallville…. you ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


James Blunt - You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant.
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful, You're beautiful,
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yes, she caught my eye
As I walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was flying high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last 'til the end.

You're beautiful, You're beautiful,
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do
'Cause I'll never be with you.

da da da da...

You're beautiful, You're beautiful,
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel
With a smile on her face
When she thought up that I should be with you,
But it's time to face the truth.
I will never be with you.




Yeahh…I know that I’ll never be with you……

seas 1 ep 19, Crush

seas 5 ep 12, Reckoning

Anger Management

Arggghhhh…… I just got a call from Accenture and they wanted to postpone (again) my join date. It took my anger management skill not to snap upon hearing the news. I supposed to join on May 15, but they said it would be better to start at the beginning of June, I considered it and agreed. Well I got the time to study and prepare myself for so many things like my confirmation sacrament preparation, my church activities which unexpectedly increased in a magnificent speed and also to take some exams to get myself certified. But now they wanted to postpone it again to June 16.

This time it was (in my opinion) almost unacceptable. They told me just two days before my join date. Is that what you call a multinational company? Where the professionalism?? How could they only know the project schedule was postponed only a few days before a staff supposed joining the team? Don’t they have project management?

I know it was my fault not to get my hand on the contract first. I said okay to get the contract the day I join. It’s a lesson I will never forget. Accenture…you’re very disappointing…I expect more professionalism, but it seems I put my expectation too high….way too high.


Maybe some part of my anger was also caused by an unfortunate event I experienced earlier. I supposed to meet a girl at lunch time, but when I got to her office she was out and didn’t bring her cell phone. I waited for 40 minutes but still I couldn’t reach her. So I went to Plangi for a while and headed back home. You know when things didn’t go as planned you tend to get irritated. In my case, it made me think negatively…that she’s avoiding me. I don’t know about that but thank God I managed to get rid of that negative thinking…..but after I thought about it, it made sense. Maybe she’s trying to keep a distance. Well, if that what she wants, she’ll get it…..

As a closure, I just wanna scream out loud….. ARRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!

Qi Li Xiang

Last nite went to the 3rd Novena..it was another wonderful experience. Arrived there at 5.10 PM. People were already waiting in front of the function room. Met Eddy n the others when I was going to the bathroom. Then Ladies came not so long after that. We waited and we were allowed to enter the room at 5.40 PM. The stage was big. N then Rhea called me, asked me to “baby-sit” her friend from Bogor. She was wearing black “New Springtime” polo shirt, white pants that reached to her knees and a pair of sneakers. She looked gorgeous. When she talked the most prominent thing that I noticed was her exquisite scent. I didn’t know what she used but it’s veryyyyyy gooooddd… I really love her jasmine scent….so refreshinggg……..hmmmmmmmmm…. It was hard for me to focus on what she’s saying because I was drifted by her intoxicating scent. The feeling was so sublime. It made me want to breathe her scent over and over again. Her scent reminded me of Jay’s song (which I’m listening right now while writing this blog), Qi Li Xiang…or in English, Seven Mile Fragrance.

Common Jasmine Orange belongs to rutaceae, evergreen small bush. It has a lot of branches, leaves alternate, grizzled, has strong incense, in teachings you can still smell the fragrance from as far as 7 Chinese miles, therefore the name is Common Jasmine Orange (Seven Mile Fragrance, or in Chinese, Qi Li Xiang).

Common Jasmine Orange / Seven Mile Fragrance

The sparrow outside the window
Has a big mouth on the wire pole
You said this sentence
Has very much the feeling of summer
The pencil in my hand
Moves back and forth on the paper
I use a few lines of words to describe who you are to me

The taste of sanma
The cat and you both want to understand
The fragrance of first love is retrieved by us just like this
That warm sunshine
Is like the just picked bright strawberry
You say you are not willing to eat this kind of feeling

Chorus:
Rain falls for the whole night
My love overflows like the rain
Leaves fall in the courtyard
With my thoughts one thick pile
A few words of gossip
There is no way it can cool off my passion
You appear in every page of my poem

Rain falls for the whole night
My love overflows like the rain
The butterfly on the windowsill
Is like the beautiful chapters fluttering about in the poem
Shortly after
I write I always love you into the end of the poem
You are the only understanding I want

That which is full of ears of the rice plant
Blessed this season
And your cheek is like the thoroughly ripe tomato in the field
You suddenly say to me
The name of the Common Jasmine Orange is very beautiful
Yet this moment I only wanted to kiss your stubborn lips

Chorus twice

Rain falls for the whole night
My love overflows like the rain
The butterfly on the windowsill
Is like the beautiful chapters fluttering about in the poem
Shortly after
I write I always love you into the end of the poem
You are the only understanding I want


七里香
Qi Li Xiang

Composer: Jay Chou (周杰倫) Lyricist: Vincent Fong (方文山)


窗外的麻雀
chuang wai de ma que
在電線桿上多嘴
zai dian xian gan shang duo zui
妳說這一句
ni shuo zhe yi ju
很有夏天的感覺
hen you xia tian de gan jue
手中的鉛筆
shou zhong de qian bi
在紙上來來回回
zai zhi shang lai lai hui hui
我用幾行字形容妳是我的誰
wo yong ji hang zi xing rong ni shi wo de shui
秋刀魚
qiu dao yu
的滋味
de zi wei

貓跟妳都想了解
mao gen ni dou xiang liao jie
初戀的香味就這樣被我們尋回
chu lian de xiang wei jiu zhe yang bei wo men xun hui
那溫暖
na wen nuan
的陽光
de yang guang
像剛摘的鮮豔草莓
xiang gang zhai de xian yan cao mei
你說妳捨不得吃掉這一種感覺
ni shuo ni she bu de chi diao zhe yi zhong gan jue


雨下整夜
yu xia zheng ye
我的愛溢出就像雨水
wo de ai yi chu jiu xiang yu shui
院子落葉
yuan zi luo ye
跟我的思念厚厚一疊
gen wo de si nian hou hou yi die
幾句是非
ji ju shi fei
也無法將我的熱情冷卻
ye wu fa jiang wo de re qing leng que
妳出現在我詩的每一頁
ni chu xian zai wo shi de mei yi ye


雨下整夜
yu xia zheng ye
我的愛溢出就像雨水
wo de ai yi chu jiu xiang yu shui
窗台蝴蝶
chuang tai hu die
像詩裡紛飛的美麗章節
xiang shi li fen fei de mei li zhang jie
我接著寫
wo jie zhe xie
把永遠愛妳寫進詩的結尾
ba yong yuan ai ni xie jin shi de jie wei
妳是我唯一想要的了解
ni shi wo wei yi xiang yao de liao jie

那飽滿
na bao man
的稻穗
de dao sui
幸福了這個季節
xing fu liao zhe ge ji jie
而妳的臉頰像田裡熟透的蕃茄
er ni de lian jia xiang tian li shu tou de fan qie
妳突然
ni tu ran

對我說
dui wo shuo
七里香的名字很美
qi li xiang de ming zi hen mei
我此刻卻只想親吻妳倔強的嘴
wo ci ke que zhi xiang qin wen ni jue jiang de zui

This song is especially dedicated for Rhea, the Jasmine Scent Girl…


The Catholic Youth Revival theme for last nite was Celebrate Love n Life, emphasizing the youth and sex. There was a video which showed the abortion process explicitly. It’s quite…shocking and utterly heartrending. The topic was brought excellently by dr. Lia B A.

The event was right on the schedule. It finished at around 9.30 PM (because we used a function room so the timing was quite tight). As usual we took some pictures and then I knew why Rhea asked me to “baby-sit” coz she had to sell some souvenirs…went down the parking lot with Ladies n friends. N the other surprise that I got was when I was in the queue to pay for the parking. I saw a beautiful girl (and some other people…but I didn’t really pay much attention to them…lolz) who’s selling flowers. And when I got a closer look, I quickly recognized her as Susan, my junior at high school. She wore turquoise shirt n jeans. Wow…she’s still beautiful though her hair was shorter. I wanted to say hi, but I didn’t do it. Instead, I just looked at her from my car. Her face contour was flawless. She has this elegant beauty aura, just by standing there, looking the cars (and maybe hoping some of the car window would open and the person inside buy the flowers she’s selling). Her eyes, cheek, nose, lips…I could only admire them.

So many beautiful girls…lolzzzz…. Reminded me of Gigi’s song, Diva which a part of the lyric was something like this…. “Kau adalah keindahan, yang singgah dalam kesunyian malamku”… Women really are a beauty created by God…. ;p

Neri Per Caso – Donne

Donne in cerca di guai
Donne a un telefono che non suona mai
Donne in mezzo a una via
Donne allo sbando senza compagnia
Negli occhi hanno dei consigli
E tanta voglia di avventure
Se hanno fatto molti sbagli
Sono piene di paura
Le vedi camminare insieme
Nella pioggia o sotto il sole
Dentro pomeriggi opachi
Senza gioia né dolore
Donne pianeti dispersì
Per tutti gli uomini così diversi
Donne amiche di sempre
Donne alla moda
Donne contro corrente
Negli occhi hanno gli aeroplani
Per volare ad alta quota
Dove si respira l'aria
E la vita non è vuota
Le vedi camminare insieme
Nella pioggia o sotto il sole
Dentro pomeriggi opachi
Senza gioia né dolore
Donne

// English
Neri Per Caso - Women

[Women in searching for troubles]
[Women on a telephone which never rings]
[Women in the middle of a street]
[Women on a list without company]
[In their eyes they have advices]
[And many wishes of adventures]
[If they have done many mistakes]
[They are bursting with fear]
[You see them walk together]
[In the rain or under the sun]
[In a dull afternoon]
[Without joy nor sorrow]
[Women in lost planets]
[For all people so different]
[Women as ever friends]
[Women are fashionable]
[Women against ordinariness]
[In their eyes they have the aeroplanes]
[To fly to the high altitude]
[Where they breathe the air]
[And the life isn't empty]
[You see them walk together]
[In the rain or under the sun]
[In a dull afternoon]
[Without joy nor sorrow]
[Women]

Procrastinating

I think I’ve been procrastinating these last few days. I suppose to study and prepare myself for the next exam to get my MCDST title, but I seemed to always find some excuses to avoid studying and practicing. Last Friday nite I said to myself that I’d only online for a while to check my emails, but I went online much longer than I should have, checking WG and browsing notebooks.

Well, I don’t regret it cause I had a threesome with two lovely ladies… lolzz.. The threesome I meant here was a three way conversation. I also engaged in an interesting chat with Hansel. The three way conference was kinda historical coz I heard Mel’s voice for the 1^st time…;p. In the middle of the YM conference I suggested to use the voice conference facility. Since Moet didn’t have a microphone so it’s only me n Mel. At first I couldn’t get my voice to be heard, didn’t know why, but I could hear Mel’s voice crystal clear….(well I’m exaggerating a lil bit). I already set my mic volume level to max but still she couldn’t hear my voice. It’s kinda surprise to hear her voice…She had this soft voice and fresh laughter. And she really liked to laugh…

Thanks to my iron determination, I finally succeeded..Mel could hear my voice. All I had to do was phone her in our conversation window, n then voila… she could hear my voice…hahahaha…we chatted till almost 2 AM in the morning (3 AM Mel’s time). And the Mel’s signed off coz she wanted to sleep. It’s just me n Moet. She asked my suggestion about laptop. N then at 2 AM I signed off and went to sleep.

Woke up at around 9 AM coz I had an appointment with a guy who wanted to buy my PC. But before that I need to borrow a monitor coz my monitor was broken. So I called Eddy, he said I can borrow his gf’s monitor n then he came to my house. But when he arrived he ended buying my PC, minus the monitor. I gave him the same price I offered the other guy. What a simple solution for my stress to sell my PC.

After that I was tempted to go online, to procrastinate again the thing I should do…studying for my exam. But I managed to take control of myself. I studied for two hours, completed half of the simulation. I found it when we are tempted to procrastinate, we should put first thing first. We should have this consciousness to make the best priority…and commit to it. We often make priority but we also often break it. So to avoid procrastinating we should commit to ourselves the things we have to do and put off for a while the things we want to do till we finish the things we have to do.

Ascension

Journal entry # 70 May 25, 2006, 8.05 PM


Ahhhh…..I can be relieved finally… I found my Windows XP Pro bootable CD. It’s strange how I couldn’t find it yesterday, though I searched the same spot. The only difference that this morning when I searched for it I was already quite desperate, but I found it. Unbelievable..I looked at the same spot yesterday, but I didn’t see it.

Well, back too business. I also finally took the 70-271 exam on Tuesday, after it’s been postponed for a month. I was quite nervous when I entered the exam room, but when I started the exam, all the nervousness gone and I could answer all the questions with only a little bit difficulty. Thanks to my intensive preparation (though I prepared myself on April) and Test King. I finished the exam in an hour time. I wasn’t quite sure if I passed or not because I doubted my answers for 10 questions from 61 questions that I got. But to my surprise, I scored 983 out of 1000. I only made one mistake. Wow…..I did excellent. After that I called Indro and stopped by at Deutche Bank. He treated me lunch and we talked about how are things, etc. Then I went back home, celebrate the success by playing WE at Jef’s..lolz. Played till around 7 PM, then went to store. What a beautiful day…

Yesterday I went to cathedral for the 2nd time. This time I went with Ladies, we submitted an evaluation report for the retreat we held on April 28-30. Took some pictures (we’re acting like tourists…lol). The architecture was similar to St. Mary Cathedral in Perth. I couldn’t stop admiring the beauty of it. Then we stopped by at Golden Truly to visit Hara. After that…went straight home, I dropped Ladies at her home.

At home, I tried to format my laptop but it was so difficult. I couldn’t find my Windows bootable CD. I did some multitasking. Luckily I still have my PC. I went online using my PC while trying to work things out on my laptop. Chatted with Rhea. She’s quite talkative. Even her reply on FS was quite long. Her reply about commit to God, giving Him the best she can in her daily life somehow mesmerized me. She became more attractive. After two hours or so I called it of a day and then watched Smallville seas 5 episode 8, Solitude. There’s no Kristin in this episode. Then I went to church to practice for Lia n Jemy’s wedding. They asked our prayer community help in their wedding. But when I got there we didn’t have the key to the storeroom. In other words, we couldn’t get the keyboard. We ended up practicing at Ladies’ home. Short story, I went home, slept with still thinking about bootable CD…

Well..today’s Ascension day, a holy day when Christ ascent to heaven. In the spirit of Ascension, I believe Gloria’s song, Reach is very appropriate (This was the official song for Olympic Games back in 1996 if I'm not mistaken). I’m a MCP now…finally..my first international certification. Now I have to prepare for the following exams.... I hope I can reach higher....reach the sky...


Gloria Estefan - REACH

Some dreams live on in time forever
Those dreams, you want with all your heart
And I'll do whatever it takes
Follow through with the promise I made
Put it all on the line
What I hoped for at last would be mine

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment in my life
I'm gonna be stronger
Know that I've tried my very best
I'd put my spirit to the test
If I could reach

Some days are meant to be remembered
Those days we rise above the stars
So I'll go the distance this time
Seeing more the higher I climb
That the more I believe
All the more that this dream will be mine

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment in my life
I'm gonna be stronger
Know that I've tried my very best
I'd put my spirit to the test
If I could reach

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
I'm goona be stronger
From that one moment in my life
I'm gonna be so much stronger yes I am
I've tried my very best
I'd put my spirit to the test
If I could reach
If I could, If I could
If I could reach
Reach, I'd reach, I'd reach
I'd reach' I'd reach so much higher
Be stronger



4.40 PM

I just got back from picking my sis at the airport..And to my surprise...my PC monitor cause the electricity went down everytime I plugged it in. It's very weird coz last time I used it, it worked just fine...n the last time I used it was before I went to pick up my sis.....really test my patience.....luckily I have my laptop....:))

In a rush

I’m so tired of being here…

That’s the first line of Evanescence’s My Immortal. Actually I wanted to write this blog since Friday but I haven’t got the time to do it, till now. I’ve been always in a rush these last three days. It’s exhausting and infuriating. Maybe because I have this tendency to do things as fast as I can, coz there’s so much to do, while I only have 24 hours a day. I feel that I become more impatience lately and maybe I don’t have something to channel this negative emotion….I’ve been a driver for my sis these days. Picking and driving her from and to the airport. I always race against the time, trying to do all the things I need to do. My schedule was very very tight, too many activities.

Friday I rushed to attend the Confirmation sacrament preparation, then I rushed to Bank Mandiri to pay the internet bill coz only Bank Mandiri has an agreement with TELKOM for the internet payment. Then I rushed again to Mangga Dua to but IDE to USB connector. At least at Mangga Dua I got something that cheer me up. Smallville and 24 5th season DVDs were already available there. I bought them along with Munich and Match Point. Then I rushed home and tried the DVDs, then rushed to the church to attend group pray. Then went to store. After I got back home, I was to tired to write a blog, coz I also had to sleep early.

Saturday I played badminton, after three weeks absence. Then I rushed to the airport at 10.30 AM to pick up my sis. Picking her up at 12.15 PM, then rushed back home coz I had to attend Praise n Worship Seminar at 1 PM. Arrived at home at 12.50 PM (you can imagine how fast I drove….). Rushed to the church and attended the seminar. Well, in the middle of the seminar, Angel came. When I saw her, my heart jumped (I borrowed Scott’s sentence… ;p). She’s adorable, as usual. Talked to her during the break. Too bad she’s too young, still immature. We have different perspective, but anyway she’s still attractive…. My encounter with Angel reminded me of BSB’s song, Poster Girl….she’s really a poster girl…..still childish….well..it’s normal for a girl her age. Well she said she didn’t know with who she’d go home, so as a good gesture I offered her a ride. So after the seminar day 1 finished, I rushed back home, got Elisha and then went to church to give her a ride home. Then I rushed back home again, changed my clothes and went back to church to attend another group prayer. Again I was too tired to write a blog last nite…it’d been exhausting day…esp plus the badminton…though I only played for two hours.

BSB - Poster Girl

Yeah,yeah, yeah

Julie was a long way from home
She could make alone look pretty
Her attitude made a part of her landscape
Riding her bike through Alphabet City
She likes to party in the backseat
Under the bridge on the Brooklyn side
Smoking cigarettes in the afterglow
Taking bets that the sun won't rise

She said, "What good is tomorrow without a guarantee?"
She can lick her lips and smile
And make you wanna believe

Chorus:
That the consequences of your actions really are just a game
That your life is just a chain reaction taking you day by day
She says nothing's forever in this crazy world
Still I'm falling in love with the right now poster girl

Right now right now
Oooh
Oh, ohh

Julie liked to shop lift in stores
Ride alongside the rich and famous
Get in elevators, press 'emergency stop'
And make love on the floor 'til the camera made us
And no woman in the world ever made me feel like my heart's on fire
Where she'd walk I'd follow (follow)
When she left I cried

What good is tomorrow without a guarantee?
I was wrapped around her finger
and I began to believe

Chorus twice

La la la la
La la la la
La la la la la (la la la la la)
La la la la
La la la la (la la la la)
La la la la la

Bridge:
Oh
Tell me what you want from me
I've got everything you need
It's getting hard for me to breathe
Let me be your guarantee

Chorus twice

Right now, right now
Right now, ohhh ohh
Poster girl
Poster girl, yeah
Come on, come on, yeah



Last nite had interesting chats with WGers. Also posted quite much on WG…As a result, today I woke up at 10.40 AM.. I quickly took a bath, ate breakfast and went to church to attend the seminar day 2. Angel didn’t came…but Rhea was there all day along (she went back earlier on Saturday). Rhea was another girl that caught my eyes (finally know her name from her name tag…lol). She’s the keyboardist and she has this appeal… I think I had seen her before but I forgot where.. Talked to her a lil bit at lunch time. Unfortunately I had to go before the seminar finish coz I had to drive my sis to the airport. I rushed to the airport and the rushed back again to church (it took me about an hour to go to the airport and back to church..I drove like there’s no tomorrow) n the weather didn’t support me. It rained quite hard near the airport. Arrived at church at 7.10 PM, but the seminar was long finished. So I joined the group prayer.

I think my rushing days are over. I really need more patience…God help me… (hey I just remember, I think I copied Mel’s words…about the more patience). I’m reading Stephen R. Covey’s 7 habits of highly effective people, and I think one of my stress sources is that I have too many things to do. That’s the one that make me always in a rush. It has nothing to do with my time management. Perhaps I should sit back a lil bit, but it seems so hard to do coz I want to achieve so many things. I need to make wise decision and realize that I can’t do it all. I have to realize my limit. I finally found my peace when I read the bible. My resentment faded and I could see more clearly and be thankful that I managed to get it all done, though I had to pump my adrenaline.

So if you experience it, take a deep breath, think clearly and realize that sometimes we just can’t have it all, can’t do it all…we must let go some of the things…life always goes on…It never waits. Stressing won’t help, but don’t use it as an excuse not to try…..


Evanescence - My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
me


Amy’s voice is really good……lately I’ve been enjoying mellow songs….

16/5/74

Journal Entry #68 Start at 12.41 PM

Buon Compleanno Laura!!! Augurivi più successo durante il seguente anno. Auguri per voi. Il dio li benedice abbondantemente. Siete molto di talento e bei.

Today’s Laura Pausini’s birthday. She’s a very talented Italian singer…not to mention beautiful.. She won 206 Grammy award for best latin album. I love her songs, especially this one… it happens that the title is her birthday….so… Happy Birthday Laura….wish you all the best…. Muachhhhhhh…..

she's soooo beautiful

Laura Pausini - 16/5/74

La notte se ne va
E siamo ancora qui,
Un po' disfatti ma
Randagi e liberi,
Con l'anima che sta,
In equilibrio sopra il mondo.
La macchina che va,
E inarrestabili,
Noi sopra la citt,
Ribelli e zingari
Cercando verit
Ed un'emozione che ci dia
Tutta l'energia
Per non fermarsi e accelerare

un mondo che si muove,
Ma non sa bene dove.
fatta come me, la mia generazione
Ed ha le sue parole, per raccontarsi il cuore
Messaggi in codice scritti sopra i muri di citt

E ci si incontra poi
Per strada e dentro i bar,
Per stare tra di noi
Sentirci liberi
Da questa realt,
Che non sa pi comprendere,
Nemmeno la met,
Di tutto quello che hai nel cuore.

un mondo che si muove
In ogni direzione
fatta come me, la mia generazione
Ed ha sempre una canzone per scogliere il dolore
Messaggi in codice dedicati in una notte di citt.

Gli stessi occhi, lo stesso cuore
Di una generazione fatta come me
La stessa pioggia, lo stesso sole
Tu sai che un'altra come questa no, non c'.

un'onda di marea, che spezza gli argini,
E cerca una risposta dentro se,
E basta quest'idea per riconoscersi,
Da un gesto e da uno sguardo che
Da solo gi parla di noi.


La stessa rabbia,
Lo stesso amore
Di una generazione
Fatta come me un mondo che si muove
Ma non sa bene dove
fatta come me
la mia generazione

Gli stessi sogni
Stesso dolore,
Perch sai un'altra
Come questa no,
non c' un mondo che si muove
In ogni direzione
fatta come me
la mia generazione

Gli stessi occhi
Lo stesso cuore,
Di una generazione
Fatta come me un mondo che si muove
Ma non sa bene dove
fatta come me
la mia generazione

La stessa pioggia,
Lo stesso sole
Tu sai che un'altra
Come questa
No, non c' un mondo che si muove
In ogni direzione
fatta come me
la mia generazione
Non c'`e

Beautiful Sunday

Yeah…it was a very beautiful Sunday. Woke up at 7.30 AM, went to the airport to drop off my sis who’s going to Manado on a business trip. N then went to Carrefour (I prefer to write it C4, it’s faster….;p) to shop (w mom of course…) Didn’t spend too much time at C4, went back home at 11 sth AM. Ate n then went to Bowo’s store. David was already there. It was quite some time since the last time we hang out. Talked about lot of things. Called Agus n he came at 1.30 PM. Before Agus came, I got a sms from Yuni, asking when we will have a karaoke session. Speaking of her, it’s just happened that the previous nite I thought about her while listening Andy Lau’s song, I Miss You. She’s a huge fan of Andy Lau..dunno if she still is. I remembered in her letters she even create some kind of Andy Lau’s logo…Well I replied her message n said that we’re planning to go karaoke. She was kinda reluctant coz she’d be the only girl among 4 gentelemen, I said, ”It’s ok…but up to you lahhh”.

The four of us went to Happy Puppy Gadink, our new fav karaoke place (well…it’s not new actually, we used to go there, then we switched to NAV. But after we tried NAV n InulVizta several times, we found that Happy Puppy is the best). We ate first before we went in. We checked in for 2 hours n as usual, whenever there’s David, we ordered beer….Kan Peiiiiiiiiii….then we added another hour. It was quite exhausting, but absolutely fun singing like that….lol..Finished at 5 sth PM, then David suggested to go to a movie. We went to Gadink 21 to buy tickets for Poseidon, it seemed like a good movie, but we’re late. The film was already started. But Gadink XXI also playing it and the schedule was at 6.15 PM, so we went there. Unfortunately we couldn’t get the tickets in a row…so we cancelled and we ate kebab instead. After finished eating, we met Maria (Bowo’s gf) and her cousin Diana who’s coming from Surabaya. We decided to play pool. On our way there, we are tempted to watch Poseidon again at Gadink 21 coz the next schedule was 7.30 PM…but too bad Bowo couldn’t make it (coz the movie would end at around 9.30 PM), so we played pool. David learned few things; Agus met some of his pool friends and played w them. Played till 8 PM then Bowo n David went home.

I was about to go home too, but when I looked at the television, I saw AC Milan VS AS Roma. WOW…it’s the last match of this season and it’s a very important match to decide who would be the Serie A Italian League champion. So I watched it. I was very surprised coz not long after I started watching, Milan got a penalty, which was converted to a goal by Kaka….they led 1-0. I was worried coz if Milan wins and Juve lose, then Milan will be the scudetto…But Mexes made me smile when he scored at the 34th minute. 1-1. I’m quite relieved. Then I saw in the little box that Juventus had a goal and I was sure that it’s Trezeguet who scored it. YEAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! If Juve wins, Milan VS Roma result won’t make any difference, coz Juve will be the scudetto…..yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. At 9 PM I went home w Agus. I saw the final minutes of Milan VS Roma match and Milan got another penalty..the end result was Milan won 2-1. But it didn’t matter coz Juve won…..yeah!!!! They got their 29th scudetto. This morning I checked their website and they actually won 2-0.. another goal was scored by Del Piero…..their talismanic captain….YEAHHHHHHHHH….. another title and they’ll can put 3 starts on their jersey. Trezeguet also broke the record as the most productive foreign players, surpassing John Hansen with his goal. He’s collected 125 goals….congrats to Trezegoal….
Here are some pictures I got from Juventus site….

Trezeguet scored the 1st goal in the match, his 125th in bianconeri shirt

Juventus squad celebrate their success

It’s beautifullllll Sunday… to wrap things up… I think Queen’s song We’re The Champions is very appropriate for this occasion…. FORZA JUVE!!!

Queen - We Are The Champions

I've paid my dues
Time after time
I've done my sentence
But committed no crime
And bad mistakes
I've made a few
I've had my share of sand
Kicked in my face
But I've come through
And I need to go on and on and on and on

*
We are the champions - my friends
And we'll keep on fighting till the end
We are the champions
We are the champions
No time for losers
'Cause we are the champions of the world

I've taken my bows
And my curtain calls
You've brought me fame and fortune
And everything that goes with it
I thank you all
But it's been no bed of roses no pleasure cruise
I consider it a challenge before the whole human race
And I ain't gonna lose
And I need to go on and on and on and on

*

We are the champions - my friends
We'll keep on fighting till the end
We are the champions
We are the champions
No time for losers
'Cause we are the champions

All about Timing…

Now I’m at my sis office. Just got back from confirmation sacrament preparation at Landmark building. Last two days had been busy days. Went to Mangga Dua on Wednesday, looking for jacket which I plan to be used for riding motorcycle. Went there at 12 PM. As usual, the parking lot for motorcycles was miserable. I had to park Elisha very carefully. N then I went to ITC Mangga Dua, looked for jacket and badminton racket. I roamed the 2nd and the 3rd floor…only found two stores that got what I want, one was on the 2nd floor but it was quite expensive, and the other one was on the 3rd floor, butit was Honda jacket….so I postponed making decision whether to buy or not. Didn’t find the jacket and the racket, but I got something else.

The thing that made me drooled was Gilmore Girls DVDs…yeahhhh finally…they got the girls…but it’s only till season 3. And I also saw Desperate Housewives season 2. Yeahhhhhhh….Marcia again…at last. It took a lot of self control for me not to buy the Gilmore Girls DVDs. Luckily I didn’t bring enough cash and I was too lazy to look for an ATM…hahahahaha…sometimes laziness can be a good point, right?? ;p I ended up buying Desperate Housewives seas 2 and Fun w Dick n Jane (I bought it coz there’s Tea Leoni in it). Finished the hunting at 2.30 PM then I went to Prodia Gadink to get mom’s medical checkup result. Went back home afterward and then watched Fun w Dick n Jane…Tea Leoni was so……she had this melancholic beauty… took a little nap n then went to the retreat evaluation meeting.

Yesterday was a very busy day. Went to the Code Festival, an event held by Microsoft Indonesia for developers. It was held at Borobudur hotel, I went there w Eddy. The parking lot for motorcycle was at the far end. The event was quite good, the food didn’t taste too well (as usual). Tried Windows Vista n it was veryyy cooollll….from the interface point of view. The event finished at 5.10 PM. We rushed to Holy Family parish because we’re the singer for thay day’s Prayer community. Arrived there at about 5.50 PM and the moment we arrived, it started to rain, heavily. Waited for Ladies till 6 sth PM n then we practiced the song we’d be singing. Short story, the prayer community ended at 9 sth PM. WE ate egg tofu after that then I rushed to home coz I had to pick up mom at my aunt’s home. Arrived at home at around 10, changed my clothes, went to my aunt’s home using the car. It took less than an hour and a half from my home, pick up mom n went back home…that was fast….

And today I rushed to the confirmation sacrament preparation coz I couldn’t resist the temptation of Desperate Housewives. Watched the 2nd episode today…well not before I made the evaluation report for the retreat. The preparation was good. The pastor was terrific and a little incentive, there were some pretty girls….;p One that really stood out (at least in my eyes…hehehehe) was the one wearing pink outfit, pink skirt.. if my eyes had seen correctly.. it would have been freckles I saw… She’s beautifullll…yeahhhh…hahahaha

Have I mentioned that my joining date to Accenture have been postponed to June 1st? And quite surprisingly, I got the call right when “Bersyukurlah” was being played and I must admit that I had had some thoughts about it. And after that news, all the sudden I got so many things to do, like practicing as a choir to be involved in the mass on June 4th, 2006 at indoor tennis stadium. It’s all about timing. When I got some free time, God gave me these activities…coincidence??? You figure out….



I suddenly felt very sleepy last nite....so I publish this blog this morning....

Impossible???

I watched Mission Impossible 3 yesterday at the ‘old’ Gadink 21. It was another great sequel. The storyline evolved. It’s not all about a mission, get in, get out, save the day. It touched the private life of Ethan Hunt (Tom Cruise). Well, for you who haven’t watched it…I just wanna tell you that if you’re bored with the usual storyline of mission impossible, MI3 offers a ‘fresh’ storyline….and that my blog this time contains lot of spoiler….so you might want to skip reading this….;p

One thing that doesn’t change is the happy ending. Well I won’t talk much about the story and the cool scenes. I’m more interested in the normal relationship that Ethan had with Julia. How he always tried to cover up his real job and told Julia that he works at the dept of transportation. How he asked Julia to trust him cause he couldn’t tell her the truth. It reminds me that the foundation of every relationship is trust n honesty. He’s not being honest with Julia (well, eventually he did…but before he did, their relationship still survived). All I’m saying is that is it possible to maintain a relationship by not being (totally) honest? Or is it impossible?

In my personal opinion I think we do it all the time. I’m sure each one of us has dark, deep secret (or anything else) that we want to keep for ourselves. Either it’s an embarrassing experience, or whatever. That’s where the trust comes in. Sometimes we have to ask our partner to trust us in this matter. I know that trust comes in both ways, so we also have to trust our partner (cause I’m also sure that our partner has also some things that better left unspoken/unrevealed). The most important (and difficult) part is to choose which one(s) we can or can’t share. I’m still believe in honesty (well..not 100% honest you might say). The more honest we can be with our partner, the healthier our relationship becomes. If we keep in things too much we’ll become a stranger to our partner. This will drift both apart. We must be sensible in sharing things with our partner. That’s why I still believe that (99%) honesty is the foundation in a healthy relationship beside trust (which comes in both ways)…and I also want to add another aspect…..respect… in my personal opinion (and experience), these three cannot be omitted to build a lasting relationship…… but then again it takes two to tango……so both persons must have these three….

So…is it impossible?

I heard Mandy Moore’s song, I Wanna Be With You the other night on the radio. It reminded me of Center Stage, A Walk to Remember, and my first crush…..hahahahaha…. so today’s song will be I Wanna Be With You… (Mandy was so sweet in the music video)


Mandy Moore - I Wanna Be With You

I try
But I can't seem to get myself to think of
Anything but you
Your breath on my face
Your warm gentle kiss I taste
The truth,I taste the truth
You know what I came here for
So I won't ask for more

I wanna be with you
If only for one night
To be the one who's in your arms who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you (yeah)

So I'll hold you tonite like I would if you were mine,
To hold, forever more
And I'll savor his touch that I wanted so much
To be here before, to feel before
how beautiful it is just to be like this

I wanna be with you
If only for one night
To be the one who's in your arms who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you


Oh, baby , I can't fight this feeling anymore
It drives me crazy when I try to
So call my name, take my hand,
Can you make my wish, baby your command

I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you

Ooh,yeah

I wanna be, I wanna be with you
I wanna be,I wanna be, I wanna be

Yeah

I wanna be I wanna be, yea

I wanna be (I wanna be with you)

I wanna be with you,yeah

I wanna be with you



btw...today's Meli n Melina's bday..... Wow....they even have similar names.....

Happy Birthday to both of you...simple wish from me....more success in life n love..... GBU abundantly......

Till We Meet Again

That was my email subject that I sent to my (ex) colleagues on my last day at ExecuTrain of Jakarta. I was going to write a blog that nite, May 5, 2006. But I was very very tired these last few days. Dunno why…Time goes by so fast. All the sudden I’ve already worked for 16 months at ExecuTrain. Met new people and made new friends there. Lots of unforgettable moments and wonderful experiences.. I was overwhelmed with mixed feelings between sad and excited cause I started a new chapter in my life. *Sigh……I closed my time at ExecuTrain by playing pool with Pak Hardy, our tax consultant and Indro, my comrade. Marcell also joined for a while. Me, Indro and Marcell joined ExecuTrain at the same time, on January 3, 2005. Now Indro is assigned to Deutche Bank and Marcell still teaching. As usual we played at La Forca. Took some pictures….farewell pictures I suppose, one of them became my Friendster photo at the moment. We played till 9.30 PM….that was long…went back home and I was too tired to write a blog. One thing I remember that it was half moon that nite. I went to sleep early coz I planned to play badminton on Saturday morning, but I woke up at 7.30 AM…and it was too late…so I continued my sleep till 9 AM..lol ..

Then I went to sawah besar to buy clear visor for my helmet, unfortunately it wasn’t available. It will be available next month….so I went to Ko Henry’s place n bought the velg (or should I say rims) that I ordered few weeks ago. Then I went back home and watched Cheaper By The Dozen 2. Nice movie, standard storyline. One thing that caught my eye was Carmen’s character as a good wife, that’s new…Took a short nap and then went to church. Met Mela and Hara. Went to store and when I got back home I was tired….so once again I postponed to write this blog.

Yesterday I went to the airport w my mom n sis. My sis went to Makassar for a week to promote Australian Partnership Scholarship. After that me n my mom went to Carrefour to shop. Went back home at around 4 PM and guess what…. I took an afternoon nap…lol…I was such a pig last weekend. Today woke up early coz mom wanted to have her routine medical check up at Prodia and we must go early. We went to Prodia Gadink and I waited in the car while mom having her check up. I tried to read ABAP book…but I only managed till chapter 2 then I took a sleep. Yeah…in the car. Mom finished at 9.30 AM, went back home and I made some changes on my blogger.

Well that’s all for this time. My sentimental feeling that I felt on Friday has faded…I must prepare myself for my new work… hmmmmmm….

Till We Meet Again, fellow ETOJers…..