One Wild Night

post #271

Bon Jovi - One Wild Night

It's a hot night, the natives are restless
We're sweating by the light of the moon
There's a voodoo mojo brewing at the go-go
That could knock a witch off her broom

We slither on in and shed our skin
Make our way into the bump and the grind
So I'm passing by, she gives me the eye
So I stop to give her a light

Chorus:
One wild night (blinded by the moonlight)
One wild night (24 hours of midnight)
One wild night (I stepped into the twilight zone
And she left my heart with vertigo)
One wild, one wild, one wild, one wild night

Havin' as much fun as you can in your clothes
Margarita had me feelin' alright
It just might be that I found religion
I've been on my knees for half of the night
Then I'm rolling the bones with Jimmy 'no dice'
Gonna take him for a couple weeks' pay
Man, if you lose this roll I take your girlfriend home
So I stopped
But you're not gonna believe who comes walking out

Chorus:
One wild night (blinded by the moonlight)
One wild night (24 hours of midnight)
One wild night (I stepped into the twilight zone
And she left my heart with vertigo)
One wild night (hey, c'est la vie)
One wild night (welcome to the party)
One wild night (life is for the living so
You gotta live it up, come on let's go)
One wild, one wild, one wild, one wild night

Guitar solo

Chorus:
One wild night (blinded by the moonlight)
One wild night (24 hours of midnight)
One wild night (I stepped into the twilight zone
And she left my heart with vertigo)
One wild night (hey, c'est la vie)
One wild night (welcome to the party)
One wild night (life if for the living so
You gotta live it up, come on let's go)
One wild, one wild, one wild, one..

One wild night (blinded by the moonlight)
One wild night (24 hours of midnight)
One wild night (I stepped into the twilight zone)
For one wild night
One wild night (hey,c'est la vie)
One wild night (welcome to the party)
One wild night (life is for the living)
All we've got is one wild night

One wild night (4x)
One wild night blinded by the moonlight
One wild night 24 hours of midnight
One wild night stepped into the twilight zone for
One wild, one wild, one wild, one wild night.

Scattered Broken Pieces

post #270

I don’t know what to say now
I don’t where to start
I don’t know how to handle…
My complicated heart…


I know everybody here wants to hold ya.
I know what it's like cause I feel the same.
When you look in my eyes
There's a part of me that's still afraid

It's not that I don't really like the attention,
I feel like the only man in the room.
Are you really sincere,
Is this just something that you do?


Sometimes words are hard to find
I’m looking for that perfect line
To let you know you’re always on my mind…

When you want it, when you need it
You always have the best of me
I can’t help it, believe it..
You always get the best of me


Here we are, face to face
We forget time and place
Hold me now, don’t let go
Though it hurts and we both know
The times we spend together’s gonna fly

Here we are, all alone
Trembling hearts beating strong
Reaching out, a breathless kiss
Never thought could feel like this
I want to stop the time from passing by…
Baby when you close to me,
I want you more each time...

Here we are once again
But this time, we’re only friends
Funny world, sometimes lies
Become the game, when love’s the price
And no one knows what’s going on inside…


Would it be nice to hold you…
Would it be nice to take you home…
Would it be nice to kiss you…

And I’d give it all away
Just to have some place to go to
Give it all away…
Just to have someone to come home to


But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough...

How can you mend a broken heart?
How can you mend this broken man?
Please help me mend my broken heart
And let me live again..


Tell me why...Ain’t nothing but a heartache
Tell me why...Ain’t nothing but a mistake
Tell me why...I never wanna hear you say…

I am everything you want, I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be
I say all the right things at exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don’t know why…I don’t know…why…


I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away


What I gotta do to make you want me?
What I gotta do to make you care?
What do I say when it’s all over?


And I really really really care
And I really really really want you

Do you want me, like I want you?

And I think I'm kinda scared
'cause I don't want to lose you

My heart's at a low, I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that..I've been damaged


And it only hurts when Im breathing
My heart only breaks when its beating
My dreams only die when Im dreaming
So, I hold my breath to forget

And if the world don’t come my way
I hope you still know what my heart wants to say

Europhoria Label

post #269


"..Engkau bukanlah segalaku, bukan tempat ‘tuk hentikan langkahku…Usai sudah semua berlalu, biar hujan menghapus jejakmu...."


This song is playing at the moment. Hmmm…it’s been a year since the first time I heard it, but it still reigning my playlist. One year ago, I was in a different position, thinking and feeling different things. Yesterday when I heard this song playing I said to myself, wow…it’s been a year man. What have I experienced and learned in this one year period?

Then after this song, another song I hadn’t heard in quite some time was played. The song was Nidji – Hapus Aku. I remembered it was two years ago when I first heard this song. It was during the World Cup 2006, a very beautiful memory since Italy won it and got their 4th stars.

This year, they’re trying to win Euro Cup, but they’re stopped by Spain in the quarter final through a dramatic goalless match and penalty shootout (which they won back in 2006 against France in the final). But Buffon was never really good at stopping penalty kick; thus it’s quite a wonder that he managed to block Mutu’s kick to keep Italy’s chance advancing to the quarter final. Well, for me, Europhoria was over. No more thrill and sheer excitement in watching the matches. And thanks to that, because I was really pushing myself to watch the game till early morning, while I had to go to work in just less than 3 hours after the match. It’s not something that I regretted; I just regret that Italy didn’t get to the semifinal. The absence of Pirlo really crippled Italy’s attack. They attacked only using the pitch wide and the attacks weren’t really well orchestrated.

It’s been an exhausting weekend. From lack of sleep since Thursday, all day long meeting on Friday (thanks to Kungfu Panda which was really entertaining), gathering on Saturday afternoon, and played Futsal in the evening. Scored nine goals and managed to get my right knee injured (again). Went home and slept at around 2 AM. Went to church in the morning, then straight to LTC to get the lamp mom asked, but most of the stores were closed. Tried to search for it at Glodok, but couldn’t find it. Instead, I bought 11 DVDs..lolzzz..

Still sleepy and tired afterward, but I didn’t want to take a nap. I watched Sex and The City then went to Jef, played Winning Eleven while waiting for Italy VS Spain match. Didn’t sleep until 4 AM and had to wake up at 6 AM after exhausting activities made me feel a bit like zombie while working yesterday. But I managed to get through the day (with lots of yawning…;p).

Erm…I wrote another entry right on this date. Just like I’ve been doing for the past four years. It’s her birthday today. I didn’t feel any breeze again. Was it because different condition? Was it because time had really helped me move on? Since last year, since I gave up hope…it’s just bring a smile on my face when I remembered all those time. Those adolescent time when everything was so simple, when I was still naïve and full of emotions. *smile (see I’m smiling at the moment…but of course you can’t see it). But still, I wish her a happy birthday, best wishes for the following year. More success throughout the year, be blessed with God’s grace, warmth of family, friends and loved ones.


Label. Do you think there’s a particular reason why I put the word as this entry’s title? Well, got the inspiration after watching Sex and The City, esp about Steve – Miranda and John aka Mr. Big – Carrie relationship. Here’s a brief illustration. Carrie and John had been in a relationship for 10 years and they finally decided to get married. But John got temporary cold feet and when he got his common sense back, Carrie was already hurt by his absence.

Marriage was a label. What is marriage? A legitimate form of a relationship between a man and a woman where they commit to spend the rest of their life together, to respect, love all the way through ups and downs. John once worried that this label would change what they already had, which was great (according to both of them). Why would marriage, a label could do such thing? Probably because with this label also came demands and greater expectations toward the spouse; because by obtaining this label (marriage/married) I was entitled to make such demands from my spouse (and vice versa). And these (more demands and expectations) would affect the relationship.

Hmmm...what about two persons who loved and cared about each other without any label? Did the absence of label reduce the care they had, the love they felt for each other? Did the absence of label lessen the commitment they had toward each other? Did the absence of label made them less happy? I didn’t think so, but I believe it depended on the persons engaged in the relationship. How much a label meant to them. Some needed that acknowledgement, some didn’t. In a practical view, label was important when it came to legal affair. Example: alimony and child support in case of divorce or if one of the spouses was dead. There’s no harm in having some insurance (though it might be interpreted differently). And also in some culture, it’s more acceptable (and expected) to have the label…how did you say it..to make it official.

Label, sometimes it’s just a price people had to pay to get their demands fulfilled. Sometimes, it’s just a camouflage. Sometimes it’s just a good business. Sometimes it’s just something people had to have (due to pressure from family or else). If that so, what’s the worth of a label?

I’d like to think, to believe that there’s more than that from a label.


Gareth Gates - What My Heart Wants To Say

You're amazing, so amazing
Have I told you enough?
You're an angel, my guardian angel
God knows I, I've been blessed with love

But if I'd be gone tomorrow
Would you know how deep my love goes?
Have I ever told you, you're the one?

Chorus:
If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know, I hope it still shows
If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know what my heart wants to say

A love to tender, I surrender to this feeling so true
My affrimation, my inspiration
Darling I, I've been blessed with you

Chorus:
If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know, I hope it still shows
If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know what my heart wants to say

But if I'll be gone tomorrow
Would you know how deep my love goes?
If I was gone forever, would you know how much I care?
That you make me feel like flying, that I'm sailing on your ocean
That every time you look at me, you see it in my eyes

If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know, I hope it still shows
If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know, I hope it still shows
If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know what my heart wants to say
If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know, I hope it still shows
If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know, I hope it still shows
I hope you still know what my heart wants to say

Kungfu Panda

post #268


"..Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.."

I'm sure that the above line would be very popular these days, if it hadn't been already. Got the quote by watching Kungfu Panda. I think it's the first animation movie that I watched in theater after ages. I had to say I was impressed with the movie. I had been waiting for few months to watch it. Our initial plan (me and my homies) was to watch this movie after watching Kungfu Dunk, but we ended up watching CJ7 afterward (which we didn't regret coz there's this Kitty Zhang..;p) since Kungfu Panda hadn't been played back then.

Typically animation movie, which was intended for children, Kungfu Panda was filled with moral messages, wrapped in simple, universal plot. What did it say? Well for starter, we had to use our time that we had today the best we could because it's a gift. We couldn't change a thing in the past, cos it's history and there's no use in dwelling in the past. We couldn't know for sure what would happen in the future, but we could do our best in the present to realize the future we hoped for. The other message were standard, like determination, modesty, hard work, tolerance, wisdom and calmness.

I'd give two thumbs up for this movie. The plot progression was steady, but there were lots of humor along the way that managed to bring loud laughter from the audience. It's a money well spent to watch it on the theater.

It's been quite some time also since the last time I watch a movie alone. Usually I'd go with my homies from Ijo Lumut gank or with a girl who enjoy watching movies too. It still felt nice to enjoy the movie, absorb the story line and interpret the implicit message it's trying to say. Before the movie was started, there were some trailers which really interested me. Dark Knight, Hancock, and The Incredible Hulk were must see movie in theater. When I saw Liv Tyler in Hulk....woowwww.....she's still stunning (thanks to the make up as well I think)...reminded me of her role as Arwen in LOTR trilogy. Well, I'd just wait till these three were played in theater.

Kungfu Panda...it all began with a dream, but Po had this dream, this longing for so long and he's willing to fight for it. That's why in the end, his dream was come true. That's why Honda once had a tagline (if I wasn't mistaken), Dare to Dream. Yeah, we all had to be daring to dream, dream high...and struggle to achieve it.

Don't Give Up

post #267

This song is dedicated to you....
Don't give up, keep your faith, lift your chin up. Everything happens for a reason.


Josh Groban - You Are Loved(Don't Give Up)

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved

To The Quarter Final

post #266

YEEEEHAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Italy went through to the quarter final after a dramatic struggle on their last match in group stage. Been meaning to write this entry since yesterday, but hadn't really got the time.

Watching this game at Jef's (as usual) and we were both tense because even if Italy had won the match, their fate was still decided by the other match which was started simultaneously. There were several times when we had to hold our breath due to the high tension of the match. France and Italy, runner up and the world champion were 'killing' each other just to qualify to the quarter final.

The tempo was high, Italy was looking cautious in the first minutes. It seemed that they didn't want to repeat the same mistake like they did against the Dutch. Henry, Benzema and Ribery were instrumental in France's attack. Luckily, at 10th minute, Ribery had to come off from the injury he got when he tried to tackle Zambrotta. We were quite relieved at that time (yeah I know it's a bad thought but we're thankful for the absence of Ribery, he's such a good player). Then at 25th minute, our prayer was answered. Toni was brought down by Abidal in the box and Italy got a penalty kick. Abidal received a red card and France was down to 10 men. Pirlo took the kick cooly, drove the ball to the right far corner of the goal. 1-0 for Italy. Me and Jef were excited, but still worry because one goal was not enough, especially against France. Not only that, we're still waiting for the result of Netherland VS Romania. Italy's victory would be useless if Romania also won. We listened to the commentator very carefully, didn't wanna miss a sentence. Nasri, who came into the field to replace Ribery, had to come off after only 15 minutes due to tactical reason. Boumsong was on to replace the red carded Abidal.

After the first goal, Italy created several good chances, but the second goal was hard to get. Half time seemed came too fast. The second half started and France were beginning to push forward. They had several chances also. The best one was when Benzema tested Buffon with a curling shot. But there's a solid reason why Buffon was the best goalkeeper in the world. He made a fantastic save, palmed away Benzema's shot. This time, the time seemed to pass very slowly. Then on 62th minute, Italy had a free kick which was taken by De Rossi (since Pirlo was brought off). The shot was deflected by Henry and Coupet was already went to his right, leaving the ball to go into the net smoothly. 2-0 for Italy. Henry seemed very disappointed in himself. France was fighting back after that second goal. They went all out. Me and Jef were a little bit content, plus we heard that the Dutch was leading 1-0 at the moment (though they rested some of the key players). YIPPPPIIEEE!!!

Twenty eight minutes couldn't feel any longer than that nite (or should I say, morning). But the final whistle were finally blown. We were quite sure that Romania also lost against Netherland. So Italy went to the quarter final and France had to leave early. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's amazing....they almost packed early when Romania had a penalty on th1 81st minute. But Buffon saved Mutu's penalty and kept Italy on the tournament. I think that was the turning point for Italy...

Went back home. I remembered that I had a bet and I won! YEAHHHHHHH!!!!! What a bonus. I didn't really expect to win, I only wanted Italy to advance to the quarter final, but fate had other plans. I won and would collect my prize....lolzzz.... Managed to get some sleep, two hours to be exact. Woke up again, went to the office yesterday, feeling so..freshhhh!!!! Though the traffic was very very awful yesterday morning, but I couldn't erase a smile from my face. Hahahahahahahahaha

Later that evening, I had a project celebration dinner at Satoo, Shangri-La Hotel. It's a very nice dining place. Almost as good as Airlangga at Ritz-Carlton. The food were delicious, but Airlangga was better. It's nice to meet some of colleagues I hadn't met in quite some time. We talked about our current project and other unimportant things. We had a good time, lots of laughs and of course took pictures before we went back home.

And that dinner wrapped up a very beautiful day. Ribery's came off, Italy got a penalty (which was converted to a goal) + Abidal was sent off, Henry helped in Italy's second goal. These three resulted in Italy's victory. Italy's victory, winning a bet, and project celebration dinner were the highlight of yesterday, one fine day....so finee.... YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Pirlo celebrated after he scored from the spot

By My Side

post #265

Here's where I want you to be, by my side. Not behind me, not in front of me, not above me, not below me. An equal partner...that's what I want.

If there's a girl who sang this song for me, I'd be.........*like being electrocuted....it'd be hard to describe the feelings I felt....Sade's voice was really really soothing and calm. Perfect for the song...

Shania's song, From This Moment On was also a good song, but it's getting boring since I heard it too many times at wedding receptions.


Sade - By Your Side

you think i'd leave your side baby
you know me better than that
you think i'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
i wouldn't do that
i'll tell you you're right when you want
ha ah ah ah ah ah
and if only you could see into me

oh when you're cold
i'll be there
hold you tight to me

when you're on the outside baby and you can`t get in
i will show you you're so much better than you know
when you're lost and you're alone and you cant get back again
i will find you darling and i will bring you home

and if you want to cry
i am here to dry your eyes
and in no time
you'll be fine

you think i'd leave your side baby
you know me better than that
you think id leave you down when you're down on your knees
i wouldn't do that
i'll tell you you're right when you wrong
ha ah ah ah ah ah
and if only you could see into me

oh when you're cold
i'll be there
hold you tight to me
when you're low
i'll be there
by your side baby

oh when you're cold
i'll be there
hold you tight to me
oh when you're low
i'll be there
by your side baby

To Be With You

post #264

It's what I want at the moment....to be with you

Mr. Big - To Be With You

(Verse1)
Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

(Chorus)
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

(Verse2)
Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

(Chorus)
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

(Verse3)
Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

(Instrumental)

(Verse4)
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
Come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

(Chorus)x2
I'm the one who wants to be with you!
Deep inside I hope you feel it too!
Waited on a line of greens and blues!
Just to be the next to be with you!

Just to be the next to be with you!

Girl = Company?

post #263

Dear Miss X,

I am interested in applying for your boyfriend position. I am pretty certain that I have met the whole qualifications for your requirements. I could assure you that I am the right person that you are looking for.

I believe that I would be able to contribute and dedicate my personal and interpersonal skill to your reputable company as I am a hard worker, fast learner, enthusiastic in learning new things, accurate, exciting, highly motivated and committed person, adaptable to accomplish the company's goal, and able to work under pressure. I also enjoy working in a team environment and give valuable contribution to the group. I deeply believe that I am particularly well qualified for the position and would like to have the opportunity to meet you to explore the possibility how I can be valuable to your company.

In order to complete your consideration to my application, here I enclosed my curriculum vitae, recent photograph, award certificate, certificate for undergraduate program, and academic transcript.

I am looking forward to hear from you and I will be happy to provide any further information you may need. Thank you for considering my request.




Yours sincerely,




Boyfriend applicant




If girl were a company, the above cover letter would be seen a lot. Both had their similarities I suppose. Both demanded the most suitable candidate to fill the position they opened. They set high qualification which candidates needed to fulfill. They both had probation period. They also applied reward and punishment system. If a boyfriend constantly chose to spend time with his buddies, a warning letter might be issued. Or probably not in form of a letter, but in a behavior, verbal/non verbal warning. The boyfriend should only spend time with his buddies using his annual leave quota, which was 12 days a year. Like any other company, if a boyfriend was caught breaking the ground rules (like cheating perhaps), then the employment (aka boyfriend status) could be terminated effective immediately (might involved other dramatic things than just a sentence: “You’re fired.”). And as company, (a good) boyfriend was considered a valuable asset, therefore he had to be protected from tempting offer from other companies (read: girls). An interesting benefit package was in place to keep the boyfriend loyal and committed to the company (read: girlfriend). The performance of the boyfriend was also continuously reviewed, promotion given when the time was right (according to the girl), till the boyfriend reached the CEO (or was it husband?) position. Well, that’s about all I guess, the highest position a boyfriend could reach.

From the boyfriend point of view; we (guys, boyfriend applicant) would apply to as many (potential, big , and famous) companies as we could. If we’re called for an interview, we’d compare the salary, the benefit package that each company had to offer. We'd consider the potential of the company in long term before deciding which company we should be applying for. We would strive to do our job well and expect a periodic review, reward and of course salary + benefit increase. We might got other offers from other companies, which might be bigger than the company we’re currently working for. But it didn’t necessarily mean that we’d jump to another company just because the interesting offer. Me personally (this applies for the real work/company as well), the benefit offered wasn’t the only factor to decide. Working environment, colleagues, type of work, company’s characteristics, how long had I been working for the company, what the company had given me also became weighing factor in making a decision. It’d take time to adapt to the new company policy, environment, characteristics, etc. If I was already comfy with the one I work for, it’d take a lot for me to move. Well, there were some guys who liked to jump from one company to another. But I think that kind of guys would take some time to really settle in a company and build a promising career.

Ermm…I guess the difference was when we’re working for a company (being a boyfriend), it’s not common to apply to another company while we’re still working at the current company. We had to terminate our employment first, being jobless (read: single), then apply for a new job. And we wouldn't get severance pay if the company decided to end our employment though we didn't break any rules.....

What do you think? Did it make sense? This was a result of waiting for finalized design of authorization roles...My mind got creative...lolzzz..

Girl = Car ?

post #262


Inspired to write this entry when I heard ring back tone of a girl who used to be close to me. Quite provocative title, didn’t you think? Well here’s what I thought about girl-car analogy.

Let say there were so many types of girls, so were cars. There were Ferrari, Lamborghini, BMW, Mercedes Benz, Audi, Honda, Jaguar, Ford, Toyota, and so on so forth. Those cars came in various shape, engine power, features, driving instruments, interior, and exterior. Of course different car specs led to different price as well.

Ok, let say I wanted to buy a car. First of all I had to determine, what kind of car that I needed, what kind of car I wanted. Could I afford that car? Could I handle (read: drive and really maximize the car’s engine capability) her? Could I give the necessary maintenance to keep her in excellent shape and condition? I had to stop dreaming to own a Ferrari if I could only afford to have a middle end Honda (Ermm…maybe I could still be dreaming, but gotta face the fact). I had to realize my own capacity, as an owner and a driver; could I handle what’s under the car’s hood? If I couldn’t, I better find another car that I could handle well. Ferrari also needed more money when it came to maintenance. How can I expect my Ferrari (if I owned one…I wishhhhhh) to be in an excellent condition if I didn’t give her the maintenance she needed. Of course Ferrari would cost much more that middle end Honda. I needed to take her to the top notch mechanic shop. She would need premium quality gasoline. Yeah I could bring her to level B (or even C) mechanic shop and give her the standard gasoline, but within time, the Ferrari condition would not be as it was and it’d be getting worse. That’s what happened if I forced myself to own a Ferrari when I could only afford a Honda. Worst case, I had to sell the Ferrari since I couldn’t afford the maintenance + tax.


Same Similar with girls. There were high class girls (so called high maintenance). It’s not their fault to be high class. It’s just they way they were. You couldn’t blame BMW to be a (high class and expensive) BMW. They had their own unique set of features characteristics. If I couldn’t keep up with her, might as well get another one that I could keep up with. It’s a compatibility thing. She might wanted to keep up with me, lower her standard. But it wouldn’t be good for her. Just like giving standard quality gasoline for Ferrari. Beside that, what if she wanted but she couldn’t. It’d be torturing for both of us. Could she be happy with what we have? Could it last on the long run? Or should I return the Ferrari back to the dealer after less than a month since I couldn’t cope with it? I might be more compatible with middle end Honda, which I could handle and maintain better. And even if I could afford a Ferrari but couldn’t handle (drive) it, it’d be too bad. It’d be only a trophy in my garage. I might need someone else to be the driver…wth… lolzzz

Rihanna - Shut Up and Drive

I've been looking for a driver who is qualified
So if you think that you´re the one, step into my ride.
I´m a fine-tuned supersonic speed machine
Got a sunroof top and a gangster lead

So if you feel it let me know, know, know.
Come on now what you´re waiting for, for, for.
My engine's ready to explode, explode, explode.
So start me up and watch me go, go, go

Get you where you wanna go, if you know what I mean.
Got a ride that´s smoother than a limousine.
Can you handle the curves, can you run all the lights?
If you can baby boy, than we can go all night.
Cause it´s zero to sixty in three point five
Baby you got the keys.
Now shut up and drive, drive, drive.
Shut up and drive

I got class like a fifty-seven Cadillac.
Start over drive with a whole lot of boom in the back.
You look like you can handle what´s under my hood.
You keeping saying that you will, boy I wish you would.

So when you're ready let me know, know, know.
Come on and what you´re waiting for, for, for.
My engine's ready to explode, explode, explode.
So start me up and watch me go, go, go

Get you where you wanna go, if you know what I mean.
Got a ride that´s smoother than a limousine.
Can you handle the curves can you run all the lights?
If you can baby boy, than we can go all night.
Cause it´s zero to sixty in three point five.
Baby you got the keys.
Now shut up and drive, drive, drive.
Shut up and drive

You play that game, got what I got
Get it get it, don't stop, It's a sure shot
Ain't a Ferrari, huh boy, I'm sorry
I ain't need to worry, so step inside
And ride, ride, ride, drive, drive, drive ....

So if you feel it let me know, know, know.
Come on and what you´re waiting for, for, for.
My engine's ready to explode, explode, explode.
So start me up and watch me go, go, go

Get you where you wanna go, if you know what I mean.
Got a ride that´s smoother than a limousine.
Can you handle the curves can you run all the lights?
If you can baby boy, than we can go all night.
Cause it´s zero to sixty in three point five.
Baby you got the keys.
Now shut up and drive, drive, drive.
Shut up and drive

When It's Over

post #261

“Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened”

That YM status of my colleague caught my attention. It’s very intriguing and succeeded in giving me the inspiration to write this entry. Ermmm…I had written in my previous entry, about taking chances, about choosing between two choices when we found ourselves in an intersection. Was it better to stop that uncertain thing, hard to be realized while it’s still early, save us from the bitterness and heartache that might come when it had to end or when it didn’t go as hoped? Or why didn’t we take the chance and go on, savor each moment while it last, till the time it had to end?

The first option was more logical, in terms of playing safe. Why bother taking risk with no guarantee of how it might be later on? It also spared the time that might be wasted (if it could be considered wasted). But by choosing this option, wouldn’t you be wondering how good it could be if you just take the chance? Or how it might be working so well in the end. After all, we never know what the future holds, right? You’ll never know how good it felt to have someone to hold, someone to share simple, unforgettable moments with, someone to confide in, someone to lean on, someone that could brighten up your worst day and make you smile.

Ok I’m gonna focus more on the second option here. If it’s time that everything had to be ended, what would it feel? Angry? Resent? Disappointed? Regret? If so… let’s ask this question, why. Why should you be angry, resentful, disappointed, etc? Weren’t you already knew the risk, the potential outcome that might happen? Weren’t you the one who chose that path?

I know talk is easy. If I were in that position, I’d probably feel the same. Sure, it would hurt…a lot. Especially when expectations were getting higher and feelings were getting deeper. Angry and disappointed thinking about all the sacrifices I’d made, they were all for nothing.

But were they all really for nothing? Weren’t all the times we had together, the things we shared, the laughter and smiles we brought to each other worth the sacrifices and efforts? Think about this; How we in the limited amount of time were able to touch someone else’s life, be a beautiful (hopefully) part in it, and (again hopefully) give and learn valuable lessons if life.

Beside, what’s the point of dwelling in those negative emotions and thoughts? Heartache is human, but it’ll heal within time. *sigh… Well, the choice is up to each of us, which one we’d take. I’d always been quite logical and prepared for worst case scenario. Just like what I wrote quoting Robbie Williams’ song, Feel. When it had to end, I’d turn on my emotionless, cold and logical mode again, the things I’d been so good at.

When it’s over, don’t cry because of it. Smile because it happened.

Gloria Estefan - Here We Are

Here we are
Face to face
We forget, time and place
Hold me now
Dont let go
Though it hurts and we both know
The time we spend togethers gonna fly
And everything you do to me
Is gonna feel so right
Baby when youre loving me
I feel like I could cry
cause theres nothing I can do
To keep from loving you

Here we are
All alone
Trembling hearts, beating strong
Reaching out, a breathless kiss
I never thought could feel like this
I want to stop the time from passing by
I wanna close my eyes and feel your lips are touching mine
Baby when youre close to me
I want you more each time
And theres nothing I can do, to keep from loving you

(bridge)
Theres nothing I can do
Im helpless in your arms
Oh baby what you do
Im in love, this is it
Theres no turning back this time
No no no
Here we are
Once again
But this time were only friends
Funny world
Sometimes lies
Become the game, when loves the prize
And though no one knows whats going on inside
And all the love I feel for you
Is something I should hide
When I have you close to me
The feelings so sublime
That theres nothing I can do
To keep from loving you
No, no, no, cant keep from loving you baby no, no, no

Italy Lousy

post #260

ARGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was feeling very sleepy throughout the day. I had to take my usual medication, coffee just to get me through today. Well, that's what you got when you only slept for two hours. Well if only Italy had won the match, I'd feel much better....

But they didn't...Italy lost 0-3 against Netherland last nite...or should I say this early morning....Two counter attacks gave Netherland two goals. Italy defenders were so easy to be disarrayed, not to mention the Dutch players had excellent pace. The first goal by Nistelrooy could be contested since he was wayyyy offside...probably the linesman was still considering Panucci, who's still lying on the pitch after he collided with Buffon earlier. The second n third goals were great though.

Donadoni really had to consider his starting eleven choices against Romania and France if he wanted Italy to make it to the next round. Italy got better on the second half, but with two goals deficit...it's hard to turn the situation to Italy's favor. Not to mention that the Netherland played so well.

ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Come on Italy...you can do it!!!

Objectivity

post #259

You wanna know the truth? You can't handle the truth!

I still remember that line from Smallville. Forgot which episode in which season, but Lex was really cool when he said that line to Lana. Which one is better? Knowing the truth and get hurt by it, or not knowing it and spared from the heartache?

Hmmm....first of all before making a decision, I need to think....how bad do I really want to know the truth? Can I deal with it? Is it really important to know? *sigh...yeah talk is cheap. When we're faced with the situation, common sense and logic were nowhere to be found, plus there're emotions that affect the decision making.

It's not easy to keep that level of objectivity when feelings were getting deeper. And the funny thing, feelings and emotions were relatively inconstant. Unlike common sense and logical thought. But humans cannot really free themselves from emotions, that's why sometimes we got carried away, we got emotional and did illogical things. Some were better at dealing with the feelings and emotions, some were driven by them. Usually after the heat of the moment had passed, the feelings and emotions subsided...we might think it through and realized how silly we acted. And the turnover was quite fast sometimes. Like The Moffatts's song...

One minute you're happy...the other you're sad.

I always thought myself as the first type of person, but I couldn't deny that sometimes my feelings got the best of me, clouding my objectivity, making it cripple temporarily. Bad thoughts invaded and messed up my mind. But again, thankfully after giving a little time, I managed to get the objectivity back. Just give it some times, do not act hastily, and analyze...analyze....

*take a deep breath.......

and if it's still not working well enough...do something to clear your mind, get it distracted for a while....give it time to cool down....

a fine example is soccer game...yeahhhhhhhhh... Italy's gonna face Netherland in their campaign in Euro Cup... FORZA AZZURRI!!!!


one simple reminder....
we may not be able to control our emotions, but we can control our actions

Euro Soccer Fever

post #258

New project has arrived. Yeah…it’s not as big as the previous one, given the shorter time frame. But this time, there were some things I had to live without. The most important one was internet connection. Yeah, I went back to ‘dark ages’. Almost all websites were blocked by this smart software(?) named websense.

Managed to get online using YM, but the delay was soooooo bad. I tested the connection once. I sent a message to my colleague and it arrived 10 minutes later. WTF!!!! It’s beyond tolerance. It seemed like I lost all communication with the outside world *exaggerating mode on. Fortunately I had Esia, so I wasn’t really cut off from civilization. First week of the project was still so so. It usually would get busier in the middle of the project period.

Today was great. Woke up early in Saturday morning, got Elisha her bi-monthly routine checkup. She deserved it. After that went to Eddy’s house. It’d been a while since I paid him a visit. There were so many to catch up, but there’s so much time to do so. Getting a haircut was the next thing in my agenda. It’s about time and I thought it’d be nice for someone who mentioned it couple of times. Then after that, my schedule was already full till midnite. In fact till tomorrow evening…lolzzz….

Then I remembered one thing. Today was futsal Saturday. I invited Eddy to join us sometimes when he had the time. The most important thing was Euro Cup was about to begin. Yeahhhhhh… after two years (since world cup)….the euphoria was about to start again. This time Italy was nominated as one of favorite teams to win it (remembering it’s the winner of 2006 World Cup). Two years passed so fast. Hopefully they could follow France’s footstep, which won Euro Cup 2000 after winning 1998 World Cup (though they won it on Italy’s sorrow, since Italy was beaten 1-2 in the final match).

This time, Italy was also had disadvantage regarding to the group they’re in. They’re in group C along with France (again? Lolzzz), Netherland, and Romania. That’s a quite competition to beat. Beside that, Italy must also had to lose Il Capitano, Fabio Cannavaro, who’s injured because of collision with teammate Chiellini (what a silly injury).

Lack of sleep days was about to begin….get ready guys!!!!


*news flash…. Ada Band is performing at the moment. Gonna see them….They’re singing ‘Karena Wanita Ingin Dimengerti”…I can hear the crowd is getting crazyyyyyyyy….. ADA Band…here I come


This entry was written at Gadink 3 Food Court….on Saturday, June 7th 2008..around 7 PM. *so many Seven...lolzz...

Borrowed Heaven

post #257

Please..let me have and cherish this little borrowed heaven for a while....just for a while...can I have it just for a little longer?

And allow me to return it the moment I take my last breath....

The Corrs - Borrowed Heaven

All beauty all fade away, borrowed
All moonlight return today, borrowed
All sunrise all shooting stars, borrowed
All earth bound bare feet in clay
you know we’re standing on

Borrowed borrowed heaven
Borrowed borrowed heaven

All heartache all rivers cried, borrowed
Don’t stay out too late tonight, borrowed
I love you don’t wanna die, borrowed
You taste like paradise, I know I’m breathing in

Borrowed borrowed heaven
Borrowed borrowed heaven
Borrowed borrowed heaven
Borrowed borrowed heaven

You gave me life and I will give it back
But before I do, I’m gonna hold it tight
This is my prayer

All body, all skin all bone, borrowed
All silky, all smooth and warm, borrowed
All pleasure, all pain are one, borrowed
Almighty I stand alone
I know I’m living in

Borrowed borrowed heaven

So Long, Singapore

post #256

"..Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are..."

Coldplay - The Scientist accompanied my while I was writing this blog. It's been two days I went back from Singapore and the excitement had almost vanished by work. Yeah, another project, another role...another level of stress....

Saturday went by so fast and the weather was not too friendly. It was cloudy. Woke up at around 10 AM and prepared myself a breakfast...Indofood noodles...lolzz....Then as planned, went to Chinatown. Got some interesting souvenirs there, with cheap prices too...Quite a bargain. Then went along the South Bridge road, took some pictures while rain was pouring down lightly. But near Central, it was getting heavier so I canceled Clarke Quay exploration, just look for a while then took the MRT back to Bishan.

There's something caught my attention while I was walking down the Junction. Samuel and Kevin SALE!... Well I looked at it the other night along with Giordano, Esprit and Levi's sale. But nothing interested me. This time it was different. There were some that caught my eyes. So I tried them on and finally bought them S$ 7 from original S$ 16. Not bad, huh?

Chatted then relaxed my feet for a while after I got back to my friend's place. Then in the afternoon I had a gathering with some friends I'd known from a forum. It's very nice to finally meet them in person. It gave me a better understanding about them. We talked a lot at Gloria Jeans Coffee (since Starbucks was very crowded and we didn't get seats there). Four hours went by so fast. I went back to my friends place then started packing since my flight was on Sunday morning.

Sunday was great. Still exhausted from the intensive walking and flight but I wouldn't trade the time I had on Sunday with sleep. Wish it could last longer...


"If you're lost, you can look and you will find me...Time after time....
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting....Time after time..."

Eva's voice echoed and brought me back to Smallville season 1 episode 19: Crush... *sigh...how long had it been? Almost 7 years. Yeah, seven years since the first time I heard the song....at that particular scene...a sad, problematic situation that Clark had to face....go on and follow his ego...or hold back, put aside his ego, hurt himself in the process.....

Reminded me of a friend of mine. He said there're some 'wise words' that were contradicting. "If you really love someone, you gotta let that person free/go". On the other hand there's a saying: "You gotta fight for the one you love". Which one was the correct one?

Why didn't Clark acted selfish and fought for Lana's love? She's in doubt about her relationship with Whitney and Clark had the best chance to squeeze in and won her. But only because he knew that Whitney had some problems with his dad, he chose differently. He was really (quoting Bruce Wayne's words) an all time boyscout...

Why? Wasn't she worth the fight, remembering she'd been Clark's crush since....forever? Why should we sacrifice our own happiness for someone else's (which we don't really care about, in this case, Whitney's)? If it's for the happiness of someone we care so much...it's ok lahh.

Was it because of the timing? Clark waited for another year and they finally became a couple...but not for long. And we all knew that in the end he'd end up with Lois instead of Lana which at the time he didn't know that.

Ermm...so many questions, doubts and scenarios that could be derived...again it's never easy when it came to feelings. And it even got messier when logic got in the way. What the heart wanted was not always in sync with logical thinking. They often contradicting and the standard of right and wrong thing to do became hard to be defined.

Here I am, in the middle of the nite, babbling about Smallville and feelings. How's Kristin Kreuk? The latest news I heard that she'd be the leading role for the upcoming Street Fighter movie....I should really get some sleep now....before I talk about other things that irrelevant at all


That sad look in your eyes...longing for something...but could never really express it....