Rush Crush

post #230


"...Got a little crush I just can't get enough of that stuff It's such a rush 1980 Me
Got a little crush I just can't get enough of that stuff It's such a rush...." (Darren Hayes - Crush 1980 Me)

Such a rush...yeah that's what I felt last nite...finally Prison Break had that kind of effect again, like the one I had back in 2006 when I watched the first season. Yeahhhhhh......

Can't wait to watch the season finale. And today, I've been drooling too...I was excited to see this:

IBM Lenovo Thinkpad X300. What a beauty. It really...truly a direct competitor to Macbook Air.



Want some more pics? Here you go




Macbook Air can be put in manila folder...so what? X300 also fits in manila folder


X300 offers 3 USB ports, Ethernet jack, VGA connector, 'ultrathin' DVD burner, plus removable battery. Don't forget the 64GB SSD. It's the way of the future...lolzz. Other than the mesmerizing tech spec, I like the simple (some say boooorrringggg), elegant pitch black design. Maybe I'm just a lil old fashioned ;D. Yeah Macbook Air is claimed to be more intuitive in design. It's slimmer and eye catchy (for some other). But my personal preference is still X300. Macbook Air is (imo) way too slim and lack of I/O ports.

Okay, let's have a brief comparison of these two dream notebooks.



Which one will you choose? I will definitely go with the 'Black Beauty' X300. *Still drooling heavily, forgetting the Fujitsu S6510 Slim Edge that had successfully made me drool couple of months ago.
Technology....such a rush.....well now you know what would be a perfect birthday present for me...lollzzz....

Another rush (at the moment) beside Prison Break and ThinkPad X300 is Bali! Yeah, I'm gonna have an outing there this Friday....Yeah baby!!!!!

Hmmm....rush, like adrenaline rush....it's important to keep us in balance. To find what we're passionate about and spend some time to explore it. What would life be without that sparks? Plain.....and I bet it'd be damn boring. I know my passion n rush, have you found yours? ;D

I think this would be my last post in February 2008. It's been a productive month for me. Dunno what's got into me...lolzzz....


BALI, HERE I COME!


Note: Here are the links which I got the cool pics from
CNet Asia
Lenovo US
Engadget

Life Equalizer

post #229

I used to think that I can only focus on one thing, that if I go after one thing, I have to sacrifice the others. Coz I realize no matter how hard I try, I just can't have it all. Like in below illustration (yeah I know it's not pretty, a bit hasty in making it).

Imagine you're the black circle in the center. Which colored arrow will you choose? Each arrow points a different direction. If I focus on career, I can't have a personal life. Hmmm....gotta be wise in choosing here. But if it's so, then it would be impossible to excel in more than one aspect of life, wouldn't it?

Then...I got this epiphany (I think I had it when I was listening to a song and saw the graphic equalizer). What if I l look at it the wrong way? In that case, I have to change my perspective. How if we see the above illustration in a different way? Like this:


It turned out that we can go after more than one aspect of life but of course we cannot excel in all of them. I'd like to use the term 'Life Equalizer'. You know, like the graphic equalizer we use to set based on our preference when listening to music. WMP, WinAmp have some preset equalizer namely bass boost, treble boost, rock, pop, etc.

Like this (in the green box):



I think basically it's the same with our life. We can set our Life Equalizer based on our preference, our principles. We all have our own priorities in life. It depends on us how do we want to live our lives. Each decision we make set our life equalizer, which eventually determine the music of our life. How our life will be 'heard' by ourselves and others. Some might like it, some other might not like it. Well, everybody has their own taste of music, right?

So, our Life Equalizer can be like this (a simplified version compared to the above pic):

or this:
or this:
Whichever that is, it's our life. Maybe we'll find another person who'll like the sound of our life, which has been set using our Life Equalizer, vice versa. Then we can share our life together with that person, creating a beautiful melody of life.


How bout you? Have you find the right equalizer setting for your life? Have you set it?



Shiratori Emiko - Melodies of Life

Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain
Melodies of life--love's lost refrain

Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold
In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name

* A voice from the past, joining yours and mine
Adding up the layers of harmony
And so it goes, on and on
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds--forever and beyond

So far and away, see the bird as it flies by
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings

In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind?

* Repeat

If I should leave this lonely world behind
Your voice will still remember our melody
Now I know we'll carry on
Melodies of life
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts
As long as we remember


Note: charts were added at Feb 25, 2008. The charts were different, but the sum of the points are 2.5. It just a matter of points allocation, which similar to how we allocate our time and effort in life.

One Morning in Jakarta

post #228

One thing for sure, you’ll never walk alone know how’s the traffic gonna be. Well, actually you’ll never walk alone too, since the city is wayyyyyyyyyy overpopulated. Yesterday the road was clear, thus I could arrived at office earlier than I had expected. But today the traffic was congested, not heavily, but still yesterday was better.

Rain (plus very heavy weight vehicles such as trailer truck) has successfully damaged the road. Lots of new holes emerged, uneven surface of the road were a common sight. These factors added the congestion since cars had to go slowly, try to avoid the threatening holes and uneven surfaces.

There’s a funny (if I can say so) thing happened this morning. A trailer truck was rolled over near the major office. I happened to take a pic of it (I dunno, just had the impulse to do so :D). It seemed that the truck was rolled over because the awful road condition. Talking about karma, huh? Trailer trucks were the ones that heavily damaged the road, and one of them was rolled over coz of the damaged road. What goes around, comes around ;D.

Here’s the pic. Proudly taken using my E51. The result was quite good I think. I wonder how the traffic would be and how to get the truck back on it's 22 wheels....hmmmm....
I feel like an amateur journalist…a Clark Kent wannabe…lolzzz….



One morning in Jakarta..you’ll never know…Every morning in Jakarta, congestions is inevitable. Reminded me of a friend of mine’s blog. What makes you wake up every morning, deal with all the things you have to do, either work, school, business, or else?


Sugar Ray - Every Morning

Every morning there's a halo hanging from the corner of my girlfriend's four post bed
I know it's not mine but I'll see if I could use it for the weekend or a one night stand
Couldn't understand...how to work it out
Once again, as predicted, left my broken heart open and you ripped it out


Something's got me reelin', it stopped me from believin'
Turn me around again
Said that we can do it, you know I wanna do it again


Ahhhh, she always rights the wrong,
Ahhhh, she always right, she always right


Every morning there's a heartache hanging from the corner of my girlfriend's 4-post bed
I know it's not mine and I know she thinks she loves me, but I never can believe what she said
Something's so deceivin', when you start believin', turn me around again
Said we couldn't do it, you know I wanna do it again


Ahhhh, every morning...ahhh, every morning when I...
Ahhh, every morning, ahhh...every morning when I...
She always rights the wrong, for me, baby
She always rights the wrong, for me


Every morning there's a halo hanging from the corner of my girlfriend's four post bed
I know it's not mine but I'll see if I could use it for the weekend or a one night stand
Every morning...every morning when I wake up...
Every morning...every morning, turn me around again
Every morning
Do it again...Every morning when I wake up...Every morning
Every morning when I wake up

Lucid Dream

post #227

I was walking down a marketplace. It's very familiar. Yeah I recognized it. It's the marketplace of which I spent most of my childhood. I kept on walking. Wait a minute. I knew that girl. She's a member of a forum, just like me. But I never met her in person. She seemed tired after studying so hard. I offered her a massage and she said ok. I massaged her feet and she seemed to enjoy it by the way she closed her eyes and smiled. Her feet were smooth and delicate. But I had to end the massage. I continued walking and saw her boyfriend was sitting a few steps along with someone else that I also recognized. Hey, that's one of my colleagues, the Jay Chou wannabe. I looked to the other direction then I saw her. Still as beautiful as I could remember, but she looked different. She looked...so sad.

I talked to her, asked her what happened. She bursted into tears. I instinctively wrapped my arms around her shoulders. She said, "Why does he do not want to try? I've tried so hard to make it work. I've always been there for him, supporting him. But he never does the same, instead he was so easily say it's over. The marriage is off!" I just listened. I've never been good in this kind of situation, seeing a girl cry leaves me weak to my knees. I tried to sooth her, caressing her shoulder to calm her down. Our position was not too comfy, at least for me coz I must support her weight with my right arm, but I wouldn't trade that moment for anything else.

********

My eyes suddenly opened. Darn!!!! It was a dream, a very vivid one. I looked at the clock and realized it's one hour earlier than the time I was suppose to wake up. I've trained my body too well I think. Even without setting the alarm, I always managed to wake up at a time I intend to. Way to go, biological clock, you just ruined a dream that I've never had (nor remember) for quite some time.

My heart was beating faster, my right arm was trembling, like it had been supporting some weight. What a dream! I tried to focus and regained consciousness. What was that all about? How could I be dreaming of her? Because me and my homies talked about her earlier? What did the dream mean? What the.....???

Slowly I tried to get back to sleep. I knew the dream wouldn't continue. It's abruptly stopped and gone in the midst of unconsciousness. After a few minutes, I was drifted to sleep once again. I woke up an hour later, a bit late but still remember the lucid dream I had before. I wonder....

What does dream tell us? Does it contain encrypted message? Message about what? The future? Hidden and unknown desire? Unspoken feelings? What does it affected by? Can it be engineered? Or is it just merely things that pop up in our mind which are affected by our previous activities? Like RAM that still contains last few applications data though the PC is hibernated or shut down? Hmm......


The Everly Brothers - All I Have To Do Is Dream

Dream, dream, dream, dream
Dream, dream, dream, dream
When I want you in my arms
When I want you and all your charms
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Dream, dream, dream, dream

When I feel blue in the night
And I need you to hold me tight
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Dream

I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I’m dreamin’ my life away

I need you so that I could die
I love you so and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Dream, dream, dream, dream
Dream

I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I’m dreamin’ my life away

I need you so that I could die
I love you so and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Dream, dream, dream, dream
Dream, dream, dream, dream


Dream, dream, dream, dream (till fade)

Father and Son

post #226

Today's been Asian screen. For the first time I watched two movies in theater consecutively, on a same day. Those movies were good (the latter was better, imo).

The first movie we (Bowo has activated his single formation membership..lolzzz) watched was Kungfu Dunk. The story was standard. I could guess the plot, esp the last part of the movie. The special effect was quite good. I think Jay Chou's name played important role here since he's the main cast. Since he's already had this arrogant look, it's not too hard for him to show it. Other than that, his dumb and naive look was quite real. In overall, the movie was entertaining enough (plus Charlene Choi's appearence :D).

Ok after that we attacked Sapo Oriental. We ate so many food. There were Black Pepper Beef, Kungpao Chicken, Fried Noodles, Mayonnaise Sauce Shrimp, Cakwe Sapo, Crab Corn Soup, and two other dishes. And it took only about 45 minutes to eat them all. Note: we also added three bowls of rice. Talking about hungry....lolzz....

The second movie was CJ7. At first we're planning to watch Kungfu Panda, but it hasn't played yet in theaters. I read CJ7 synopsis and it intrigued me. It seemed like a good movie to watch, remembering it's Stephen Chow's movie and it's more a drama than comedy, unlike the usual genre of Chow's movies. It turned out to be as good as I expected..slightly more actually. Although I found that some of the scenes were a bit too extreme to illustrate Chow's poorness, the moral of the story was very good. How they could still be happy though they didn't have much. It's a bit irony I think watching that movie at Gadink, which was considered as one of elite neighborhoods in the city. The movie taught basic principles in life such as integrity, hard work, and value of family. It's touching to see how Stephen Chow had to work so hard just to be able to get his son the best education and hoping his son wouldn't end up like him, a low pay worker. He played the loving (poor) father character well. How he often gave advice to his son, his dangerous line of work, and his expression when his son wanted a toy dog, just like his other friends. I usually watched his comedy movies and CJ7 offered a fresh image of Chow's acting skills.

The alien dog was quite a catch too. I bet the girl would love it. Heck, even me and my friends liked it. I guess the doll would come out soon ;D. Stephen Chow was still able to insert some funny scenes into the movie without conflicting with the main idea. There were some parody of Mission Impossible II and Kungfu Hustle (the latter was another Chow's movie). And to my surprise, there's an eye candy too in the movie. If in Kungfu Dunk the eye candy was Charlene Choi, here it's Kitty Zhang. She played Stephen Chow's son's (Dicky) teacher. She's so sweet and beautiful. I think I found Gillian replacement. Well just hope she won't follow Gillian's fate.

Isn't she lovely?

Ok watching CJ7 made me thinking and it reminded me to be (once again) grateful for all the things I have. We often taking the things we have, the person we spend time with for granted. Instead of being thankful, we complained, we felt that what we had wasn't enough. Yeah I agree that the feeling of unsatisfied with what we have can be a motivator to make us push harder and reach higher. But I think it's necessary to take a step back every now and then, realizing what we have. Thus we can appreciate the things we have, treat other person around us better and eventually it'll make us happier.


Yusuf Islam (formerly Cat Stevens) - Father and Son

Father
It's not time to make a change,
Just relax, take it easy.
You're still young, that's your fault,
There's so much you have to know.
Find a girl, settle down,
If you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but I'm happy.

I was once like you are now, and I know that it's not easy,
To be calm when you've found something going on.
But take your time, think a lot,
Why, think of everything you've got.
For you will still be here tomorrow, but your dreams may not.

Son
How can I try to explain, when I do he turns away again.
It's always been the same, same old story.
From the moment I could talk I was ordered to listen.
Now there's a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.

Father
It's not time to make a change,
Just sit down, take it slowly.
You're still young, that's your fault,
There's so much you have to go through.
Find a girl, settle down,
if you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but I'm happy.
(Son-- Away Away Away, I know I have to
Make this decision alone - no)

Son
All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside,
It's hard, but it's harder to ignore it.
If they were right, I'd agree, but it's them They know not me.
Now there's a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.

(Father-- Stay Stay Stay, Why must you go and
make this decision alone?)

Celebration

post #225

Just got this urge to write a short post, thanks to AAAA....lolzzz. Before that, I'd like to congrats my three friends.

First, congrats to Livia and Hendra. With the newborn baby, Clarissa Aurelia S., you guys are officially parents now. I would never forget your hospitality during my holiday in Perth. You guys are the best tour guide :D. The mother is a good friend of mine. I've known her since high school. Times we had in highschool...lots of good memories we shared. Mie Ibu...lolzzz....You guys have additional new role now. Hope you can be great parents. I'm gonna pay a visit someday to see my newborn niece...hahahaha....

Second, Happy Birthday to David. More success in life and love, bro. May God gives you wisdom, health, and strength for you to live your life better. May His blessings is full and abundant in each and everything you do.

Third, below is a bit of my chat transcript with a friend (AAAA). I'm the BBBB. It's like we're a couple deciding which movie we're gonna watch...darnnn...we really need to get gfs to have this kind of conversation without giving the wrong impression..lollzzz...

AAAA (2/17/2008 12:25:19 AM): ampe jam 11 bos
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:25:25 AM): cuma gw biasanya pulang dulu
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:25:26 AM): :D
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:25:30 AM): bisa aja sih langsung
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:25:32 AM): heheheehehehe
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:26:55 AM): bos jumper kayanya bagus neh
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:27:03 AM): pelem superhero gt deh
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:27:04 AM): :D
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:27:16 AM): anjret banyak pelem bagus yah
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:27:17 AM): :))
BBBB (2/17/2008 12:27:24 AM): icic...ok ok....
BBBB (2/17/2008 12:27:39 AM): jumper kata temen g jelek
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:28:15 AM): owww,,,thriler nya sih kayanya oke
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:28:16 AM): :D
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:28:20 AM): ya udah asian week aja deh
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:28:22 AM): nonton jay
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:28:23 AM): :D
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:28:25 AM): anjret
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:28:29 AM): kita kaya pacaran gini
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:28:31 AM): ngomongin pelem
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:28:32 AM): taik
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:28:35 AM): =))
BBBB (2/17/2008 12:29:31 AM): =))
BBBB (2/17/2008 12:29:35 AM): kacauuuu =))
BBBB (2/17/2008 12:29:45 AM): g masih doyan ama cewe boss...maap
BBBB (2/17/2008 12:29:46 AM): =))
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:30:53 AM): walkakakaka
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:30:55 AM): gw juga kale
AAAA (2/17/2008 12:30:57 AM): :D


Well, I must go to sleep now. Long schedule awaits this Sunday.

Kiss The Rain

post #224

Rain.

Been noticing that for the past three days, at around 4.30 PM, rain started to fall. It's usually getting bigger at around 5 sth PM. Well it happened that my seat was near the window (Yeah after some period of uncertainty, I got assigned to a new project).

It's been raining quite often lately, hence it's called raining season. I think there's something about the rain that makes it very interesting. The sad nuance it creates, the symbol it represents (for some people), etc. Lots of songs use rain as their (part of) title. Some that I can remember are Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head, Rhythm Of The Rain, Kiss The Rain. It even used as a stage name by Jung Ji-hoon 정지훈.

Talking about rain, bikers (bikers = motorcycle riders, not bicycle riders) do not like it very much. There are several reasons why. First of course it makes us drenched. Wet is not a problem....if we don't mind to get wet. But if we're on our way to the office, it can be quite irritating ;p. Second; It's hard too see in the pouring rain, helmet doesn't help. The rain that falling will affect our sight. And with this diminished sight, the chance of accident becomes higher. Not to mention the slippery road as a result of the rain. It reduces control and again, increases the possibility of accident. Three; It often creates heavy traffic jam.

Yesterday it was still raining quite hard when I went home. Luckily I put on my raincoat (it's quite helpful) and I could still enjoy the journey back home. I even singing..'Raindrops keep fallin' on my head...But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red...Cryin's not for me..'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin' really fit the situation, don't you think? How romantic was that? Being soaked wet while riding Elisha on Valentine's day (or should I say nite?)..lolzz....She could really use some bath. The rain had made her body all dirty.

Ermm...I guess that's all. The rain has stopped now I guess. It's too dark outside to see. I'm hungry and really need to go home n get something to eat. Well...have a nice weekend....

Rain...

Billie Myers - Kiss The Rain

Hello...
Can you hear me
Am I getting through to you

Hello...
Is it late there
Is there laughter on the line
Are you sure youre there alone
Cuz im
Trying to explain
Somethings wrong
You just dont sound the same

Why dont you
Why dont you
Go outside
Go outside

Kiss the rain
Whenever you need me
Kiss the rain
Whenever Im gone too long
If your lips feel lonely and thirsty
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn
Keep in mind
Were under the same sky
And the nights
As empty for me as for you
If you feel
You cant wait till morning
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain

Hello...
Do you miss me
I hear you say you do
But not the way Im missing you

Whats new
Hows the weather
Is it stormy where you are
You sound so close but it feels like youre so far
Oh would it mean anything
If you knew
What Im left imagining
In my mind
My mind
Would you go
Would you go

Kiss the rain

As you fall
Over me
Think of me
Think of me
Think of me
Only me
Kiss the rain
Whenever you need me
Kiss the rain
Whenever Im gone too long
If your lips
Feel hungry and tempted
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn
Keep in mind
Were under the same sky
And the nights
As empty for me as for you
If you feel you cant wait till morning
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain

(kiss the rain)
(kiss the rain)
(kiss the rain)

Hello...
Can you hear me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me

Endless

post #223

That's the thing about technology (as well as civilization I suppose), it always evolves. Yesterday I just bought a new cell phone, and just few minutes ago I read a news that shocked me.

Here's the link: Nokia revealed FOUR new phones

*Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... I read it carefully (plus drooled a lil bit). N78 and 6220 Classic instantly got my attention.... hikz...hikzz....Why didn't Nokia announced this earlier? Why didn't I wait a little longer before deciding to buy a new cell phone? I'm not disappointed with E51 performance, instead I'm very satisfied with it. Still learning the curves but this news kinda broke my heart. Just when I pledged myself to E51, came 'this temptation'.

Metaphorically speaking, it's like committing yourself in a relationship then in time comes along a better person (or so we think) and we (may) start to wonder, what would be if I just wait a little longer? Maybe I'd be with him/her now. We (may) start to compare that person with our spouse and this lead to the tendency to find our spouse's flaws, which we do not see (yet) in that new person. In my case above, N78 offered stereo speakers, 3MP camera with Carl Zeiss optics n auto focus, and 3.5mm plug. Ermm.....should I stick with the one I have...or should I walk away and get the other?

It's much easier when it comes to things (ie.cellphone). It doesn't have the ability to choose, to grow, to be better. It has a fixed specification (and yes it'll become obsolete in the future) and it cannot choose who should be it's owner. Anyone who has money can easily own it, maybe buy a dozen. Who cares?

But human has emotions, has conscience, has the ability to feel, to choose, and to grow. Yeah we might be attracted to the new person who comes along the way. But does he/she feels the same about us? Ok let say he/she feels the same...Are we going to let go someone we already have, someone who we shared our life with (vice versa) for a new person whom we have to start over again to get to know, to share, to adapt?

Ok let say we're gonna after the new person...How long does it take to 'get on track', to get through the transition phase? What if in the middle of that phase, we discovered a flaw that we couldn't tolerate (and in that very moment we realized that what we had was actually better)? Going back to the 'old one'? Yeah if he/she willing to accept us back...If he/she doesn't want us back? If he/she has move on and found another person that's better from us?

Ok let say the transition phase went fine. What if right after we're steady with the new person, we met a new person #2 who (we think) better than new person that we just get along? Ermm...We might think, why don't I just wait a lil longer, maybe someone better will come. We end up never really committed to a person in a relationship because we're trapped in that mindset. It'll be an endless (not to mention emotionally exhausting) search.

I wrote once in a forum, rather than trapped in that endless loop, I'd better stick with the one I already have and I'm comfort with. We (me and my spouse) can grow together to perfection (well, not really perfect, what I meant was to be better persons than we were before we met). But that just me. After all life is all about choices and consequences, right?

As for the sample case above, the non-human thing...ermm...we'll see...in time.... *grin

Blue - This Temptation

You wanna get it on right now I see
I just wanna say that's cool with me
But now the moment's come
I've never been good at this temptation

From the first time it felt so right
I knew that right here is where I belonged
With that black dress I have to confess
My intentions may have been wrong

(Hold on) this ain't the right time
(You know) there's doubt in my mind
(Don't want) to rush this baby, one night's not my style

Chorus:
You wanna get it on right now I see
I just wanna say that's cool with me
Won't you take your time
Leave it just a little to imagination
I've been waiting for this night so long
And it's been really hard just holding on
And now the moment's come
I've never been good at this temptation

This temptation
Oh this temptation
This temptation
I've never been good at this temptation

Every night, you've been on my mind
Could you be the one I've been waiting for?
'Cos your sweetest kiss,
Oh I just can't resist
That's the kind of thing you've got me beggin' for more

(Hold on) this ain't the right time
(You know) there's doubt in my mind
(Don't want) to rush this baby
One night's not my style

Chorus...

I know that we've both been here before
That's why I really wanna be sure
But now that the moment's here
I've never been too good at this temptation

Chorus...

So long
Get it on
Never been good at this temptation

Chorus...

Single Formation

post #222

Life....what an adventure. I quoted this from a friend's YM status. Reading it I found it true. I dunno if I had written this before, but it kinda reminded me of Forrest Gump (If you haven't watched this, then you should...:D). "Life is like a box of chocolate. You'll never know what you get"

Hmmm...January was the month of break ups. At least three break ups that I knew of. I guess that's why Glenn Fredly's song, Januari was such a hit...lollzz. The latest break up news took me quite by surprise. Bowo decided to ended his relationship after five years...wow....Didn't mean to say this the wrong way, but I could see that I see this coming. It's only a matter of time. A relationship cannot be based on (how should I say this..) pity...? It won't last. But look at the bright side, we have ourselves the prodigal son. The missing lamb has returned. Now we're F4 once again...lolzz.... Formasi Jomblo (Single Formation) is complete again... *Sorry Bowo... I was just trying to cheer you up...I think :D

Today's been raining almost throughout the day. Finally, after 3 years and 323 days, I got myself a new cellphone. Yeah it's the one I mentioned in my previous post. It took some struggle since on the way there, rain was falling heavily along with wind that's blowing so hard. But quoting Girls Next Door, The juice worthed the squeeze. It's black beauty. My 'old' cellphone looked like brand new after I changed it's cover. Amazing what a cover could change the way cellphone looks. I remember the last time I bought a cellphone, I got a gf not so long after that. Will this tradition continues? I dunno.... I wishh....lolzzz... Life is like a box of chocolate....

And after so long, we (minus Bowo) got together again to sing. How long has it been...almost a month and a half. David had been disappearing too in the last month, but after I found out the reason behind it, I totally understood. All the best for you, bro. I'm praying here. This time we picked a new venue, Happy Puppy Green Garden. It's nice, the sound system was better than Gadink. The interior was good, the songs were terrific. And it offered free wifi! The only back draw I think was the seat. It's too straight, a lil bit reclined would be great. There were lots of new songs there. Apologize, Menjaga Hati, Beautiful Girl, Sorry Blame It On Me, etc. Cool!!! Two hours passed so fast. We would like to watch Kungfu Dunk, but the time was not on our side. We had other things to do, so we parted ways. When will we get together again? Planned on next week... but we'll see.... Life is like a box of chocolate....


Four Non Blondes - What's up

25 years of my life and still
I'm trying to get up that great big hill of hope
for a destination
I realized quickly when I knew I should
that the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
for whatever that means

chorus:
'n so I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed
just to get it all out what's in my head
'n I, I'm feeling a little peculiar
'n so I wake in the morning and I step outside
'n I take a deep breath
'n I get real high
'n I scream from the top of my lungs
what's goin' on
and I say hey-ey-ey... (jodel-di-dodel...)
and I said hey what's going on
and I say hey... etc. (uh! uu-uuhu-huhuuuu...)
I said hey what's going on

and I try, oh my God do I try
I try all the time
in this institution
and I pray, oh my God do I pray
I pray ev'ry single day
for a revolution

(chorus)

25 years of my life and still
I'm trying to get up that great big hill of hope
for a destination



Dear Lord,
Thank You for all the blessings You've given me; The ones I realized and the ones I don't
Especially, thank you for Your blessings today
From the moment I opened my eyes
From the first breath I took in the morning
Till the moment I lay my head to rest
Let this simple prayer be an expression of my sincere and humble gratitude
For all Your blessings in my life
Amen

Chinese New Year 2008

post #221

Wow...it feels good to have a family gathering again after I missed last year's due to my trip to Melb. Ermmm...we had so much laughters (the young generation esp...;p). It's the time of the year when we meet and catch up with each other, since life's too busy for us to do so. It's a good thing I think, spend some time with the big family, eat together and talk about life.

It even got merrier when my nephews n nieces (along with their parents) came. Seeing them running around and (sometimes) screaming made me wonder if I was once like them when I was their age.... *thinking... I don't think so... Hmmm...being parent really must have patience....Well, I have to be ready to give them angpao later once I get married.... lolzzz....

Anyway, got Peterpan karaoke CD (finally), but it need to be tested...so I'm signing out now...again... Gong Xi Fa Cai! Xin Nian Kuai Le, Wan Shi Ruyi.

Ash Wednesday 2008

post #220

Hmmm....Just a little update (n reminder) for today. Today's Ash Wednesday, which marked the beginning of Lent. Didn't go to the office today coz I felt a lil bit unwell plus the rain was pouring down quite heavily in the morning. I guess the latter was the main reason lolzzz.... or maybe I still have this PTSD from the Black Friday experience? After all, Elisha had just been checked on Monday (she's alright, yeahhhh).

Anyway, I decided to clean up my room after extended sleep in the morning. Watched The Unit and then went to the afternoon mass to officially begin lent. The pastor gave a good sermon about what we should do in lent. Met Ladies and Mike there and saw these two cute little girls whom I haven't seen in quite some time. They're so adorable. Someday if I have a daughter, she'll be as cute and adorable as them. I smiled looking at them and I didn't realize it for some time.

There's an urban legend that the night before Chinese New Year, rain will fall. Well, I never really believe in such things but it rained tonight, quite heavily for almost half an hour. And the 'best' part was it rained after I took my bath. There must have been something wrong with the roof tile since waters were dripping from the ceiling. Darn...I had to check it out. A man gotta do what a man gotta do. So I climbed out to see the roof tiles. Yeah, my assumption was right, there were two roof tiles that were slightly out of position. I rearranged them and voilà, problem solved. Now the rain has stopped and I need my sleep, tomorrow is Chinese New Year.

Happy Chinese New Year to you who celebrate it.
Happy fasting and abstaining.

New Look

post #219


Notice anything different?
Some of my blog loyal reader said that the background was too soft, thus make it harder to read. So I decided to change the background, back to the original minima blue template. It was actually the original design a couple of months ago, but I found the sad eye background and used it instead. I like the sad, sentimental nuance it gave, though it created readability issue.

I wouldn't be satisfied only using the standard template, so I thought to add something to enhance the background. After searching for some times, I finally found what I was looking for. Spiderman emblem. The black spider, when Peter got his symbiotic suit. Spiderman has always been one of my fave superheroes. Peter was just an ordinary geek before he got his superpower. And Uncle Ben gave a very good advice for him, "With great power comes great responsibilities". The spiderman emblem turned out to be a perfect combination with the blue color, I might say.

Beside that, I removed sudoku for indefinite time due to color combination. Rearranged elements placement and added new widgets like Quote and Rating. The latter can be used to rate this blog :D. Still trying to add music player, but it seemed that I had to already have a playlist to be played so I postponed this one.

So here's to the new look of my blog. Thanks to all the readers who've given me many inputs.
New year, new look...no more sad eye....just blue...

Enrique Iglesias - Sad Eyes

Every day here you come walking
I hold my tongue,
I don`t do much talking
You say you`re happy and you`re doin` fine
Well go ahead, baby,
I got plenty of time
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie
Well for a while

I`ve been watching you steady
Ain`t gonna move `til you`re good and ready
You show up and then you shy away
But I know pretty soon you`ll be walkin` this way
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie
Baby don`t you know I don`t care
Don`t you know that i`ve been there
Well if something in the air feels a little unkind
Don`t worry darling, it`ll slip your mind
I know you think you`d never be mine
Well that`s okay, baby, I don`t mind
That shy smile`s sweet, that`s a fact
Go ahead,
I don`t mind the act
Here you come all dressed up for a date
Well one more step and it`ll be too late
Blue blue rib-bon in your hair
Like you`re so sure
I`ll be standing there
Sad eyes never lie
Sad

Blue blue ribbon in your hair
Like you`re so sure
I`ll be standing there
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie

Popular

post #218

How do I win a popular person's heart? No she does not hold 'celeb' title, but she's popular. Hmmmm....I guess that's the thing about liking a popular person. She's in the the spotlight for so long. Every guy in the whole world shower her with attention, adoration, and affection and me along with throng of those guys race, compete to get her attention, to get her notice (*hyperbolically speaking :D). The question is, how do I make myself stand out among the rest? How can I have her attention, to make her notice me? How do I impress her? It's like all that I do is not enough for her. And yet she's so mesmerizing I can't help to fall all over again, like a moth into a burning fire.

And.....once I have her attention, how do I keep it that way? There's a saying, it's easier to achieve something than to maintain it. When we're together and she's mine...what about the other 'loser' out there who'll try to 'steal' her from me. Yeah it may sound paranoid, but it can happen, right? Maybe I wouldn't need to have this insecurity if I win her heart, completely. Maybe if we really have the right chemistry. But how do I know that for sure?

And when we're on some rough path, there'd be lots of guys who willing to give their shoulder to cry on. Ermmm, could cause some distraction, temptation, and she might fall for it. Instead of trying to work it out, she might try to find some comfort elsewhere. Might...might...again it depends on her, her personality. I dunno, dunno how girls brain work.

Maybe far from the spotlight ice princess is better. But you never know till you try, right? Choices have to be made. Don't forget to be ready for the consequences.


*written from first person point of view


Tommy Page - I Break Down


I try to go on, I try to be strong
I try to be the one to stand tall
I try to impress you, try to make you think
nothing can hurt me, I can take it all

When the sky turns gray and the clouds bring thunder
I hold up a shelter for you to hide under
When the rain begins to fall
and my shelter hits the ground
then I'm the one
to break down

I break down

They say in this world to make it you've got to be strong
Day after day, it gets harder to hold on
But sometimes I get sad
and my smiles turn to frowns
then it's my turn
to break down

I break down

When you reach out and cry to me
oh I hold on internally
But sometimes I get sad
and my smiles turn to frowns
then I'm the one
I break down

When the sky turns gray and the clouds bring thunder
I hold up a shelter for you to hide under
(for you to hide under)
I break down
I break down
I break down
I break down
I break down
Now I'm the one
I break down
I break down
I break down

When the sky turns gray and the clouds bring thunder
I hold up a shelter for you to hide under
(for you to hide under)
I break down
I break down
I break down
I break down
I break down
break

(Do) I Want You

post #217

I wanted you. I will want you...I want you...I think I want you...I guess I want you...I'm not so sure I want you...Did I want you? Do I want you? Have I wanted you? Have I been wanting you? Should I want you? Why do I want you? How (bad) do I want you?

But I don't know if I need you.

So can we find out?


Savage Garden - I Want You

Anytime I need to see your face
I just close my eyes
And I am taken to a place where your crystal mind and
Magenta feelings take up shelter in the base of my spine
Sweet like a chicka cherry cola

I don't need to try to explain;
I just hold on tight
And If it happens again, I might move so slightly
To the arms and the lips and the face of the human cannonball
That I need to, I want to

Come Stand a little bit closer
Breathe in and get a bit higher
You'll never know what hit you
When I get to you

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh I'd die to find out

I'm the kind of person who endorses a deep commitment
Getting comfy getting perfect is what I live for
But a look, and then a smell of perfume
It's like I'm down on the floor
And I Don't know what I'm in for

Conversation has a time and place
In the interaction of a lover and a mate,
But the time of talking, using symbols, using words
Can be likened to a deep sea diver who is swimming with a raincoat

Come stand a little bit closer
Breathe in and get a bit higher
You'll never know what hit you
When I get to you

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh I'd die to find out

Oooooh yeah, oooh yeah

Anytime I need to see your face
I just close my eyes
And I am taken to a place where your crystal mind and
Magenta feelings take up shelter in the base of my spine
Sweet like a chicka cherry cola

I don't need to try to explain;
I just hold on tight
And If it happens again, I might move so slightly
To the arms and the lips and the face of the human cannonball
That I need to, I want to

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh I'd die to find out

So can we find out?

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh I'd die to find out

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out (I got to find out)
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you (ooh can we find out)
But, ooh I'd die to find out

Force Majeure

post #216

Just watched The Unit season 2 episode 5 title Force Majeure. Guess what, the mission was about rescuing a general from a hospital in stormy weather. The street was flooded, rain was falling heavily and hurricane was about to come. The same thing happened in real life yesterday (ok, minus the hurricane). The different was, can yesterday condition in Jakarta considered as force majeure?

Let see. The definition of Force Majeure itself is …. In the unit, the rain storm was depicted well that it was out of hand. There’s even evacuation center. Not to mention the hurricane that was coming. What happened in Jakarta yesterday was (imo) lighter than that. It surely cannot be considered force majeure. It only rained from Thursday nite till Friday afternoon. The intensity varied, it didn’t always rain hard, but still flood was everywhere. Bad drainage was accused to be the source of this ‘force majeure’. If that so, why can’t it be improved? Can’t it be fixed? What about the missing swamp and open spaces that used to be water conservation area? They were replaced by concrete jungle named malls, town centers, junctions, etc. *sigh… so many whys…

Anyway, I think this time last year I also stayed at home, trapped by (the annual) flood. And just like last year, I’m listening to Eric – Hanya Bermodal Cinta. It’s been a while since I last heard this song. It’s still enjoyable, the melody, the lyric… “Maafkanlah sayang bila kau tak berkenan, mungkin aku hanya lelaki hina…Bermodalkan cinta tulus, kesetiaan kepadamu” *chuckles

Well, that’s all. Just had this urge to write, thanks to The Unit – Force Majeure. We have to think positive in this matter. Look at the bright side, we can ask for permission not to go to work using this excuse : ‘due to hard rain that had been falling since last nite’ lolzzzz

Black Friday

post #215

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh *screaming with frustration. I thought my struggle to get to the office was hard enough, but I was wrong...so wrong. The journey back home was wayyyy tougher than I'd imagined. The road along Thamrin and Djuanda was clear; wet, but clear. The first sign of the misery that lied ahead was at Angkasa traffic light. Lots of people waiting for public transportation. There were some people who walked. But I thought, what the heck.

The underpass in front of Golden Hotel was dry, ermmm...good sign I thought. Kemayoran still looked okay. The misery started at Danau Sunter Selatan. Before Sun Lake hotel, the water was high...about 15-20 cm...But I still kept on going, cautiously. I made it till the traffic light. As I looked to the left, my usual route...it looked rather unconvincing. No vehicles went through there and it was dark, so I decided to go around from bypass, in front of Artha Gading Mall. It was a decision later on proved a big mistake. Drove Elisha carefully and slowly, I got to the front of Mitra Sunter apartment. There was a little water that reached almost 40cm I think. Ermmm...Elisha's muffler would surely drowned...I took the risk and safely got through that test. Arrived in front of Graha Kirana, lied a view that struck horror into me.

Dark and gloomy...plus high water awaited in front of Artha Gadink. It took a few minutes for me to decide. Since I couldn't think of better alternative, I went on. Elisha was struggling hard too. She really put a fight there. But the more I went on, the higher the water was. I kept on going, the water reached almost to my thighs. I didn't care about the fact that my pants were already soaked wet. But Elisha had her limit. Near Isuzu, she collapsed. Her engine died. I screamed (silently of course) NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did the only thing I could, walk her. There I was, about 4sth km from home, pants soaked up, shirt's wet because of sweating, cold, hungry. And to add it up, I was bringing my laptop. That's additional 3kgs to bear while I walk Elisha. Just swell I thought. The thing that bothered me was how to fix her. So I walked, fast paced, determined to get home asap, after all, it's only 4 km, right? :D

As I walked, I saw lots of motorcycles that experienced the same thing like Elisha. So many people there. Cars didn't move. It's a deadlock. I kept on walking. Why??? Why did I force my way? Why did this happen to Elisha?? (I saw there were few motorcycles that survived the killing field in front of Artha Gadink) Then I remembered, no use to complain. It's my decision, I had to face the consequences, no matter how bad they were. Beside... BJ Thomas' song reminded me too..."Cause I’m never gonna stop the rain by complainin"

I kept walking, ignoring the cold and the hunger that started to creep in me. The road was clear. Wet, but there's no water whatsoever. If only Elisha had survived the killing field. I shrugged this thought and quickly considering some plans to fix Elisha. After walking for about 2-3 km, my eyes were set on a motorcycles workshop. There were three motorcycles being repaired. I was sure they had the same condition like Elisha. So I decided to fix Elisha asap. I walk her there. It was 8sth PM. It'd been two hours since I went back from office. It's surely the longest two hour home journey. Short story, Elisha was revived. It's such a relief. Yeah my baby's back in action. I paid the service free and drove Elisha home.

And that, is a wrap up of this black..black Friday. Hopefully it's the first and the last.

Epilogue:
Writing this blog while managing to chat with some people simultaneously. It feels better to talk to someone, to share the bad experience. Helps to make me feel better...maybe because I dump that emotions to others....Anw...my eyes are getting heavier. I think I'm gonna head to sleep now.

*originally finish at 12.38 AM, but for the sake of post title, some adjustment have been made

(Disco) Lazy Time

post #214

January passed in a blink of an eye. New month introduced itself with heavy rain. Since few weeks ago, I've been listening to Nidji - Disco Lazy Time. It's from their first album, dunno why I just started to listen it lately. The first song from Nidji that I like was Hapus Aku. Yeah I have this thing with mellow n broken heart songs, dunno why. It was back in mid 2006 when I first heard Hapus Aku. I was assigned at PLN at the time and one thing I remember vividly, Italy won the World Cup for the 4th time. Though I had to sacrifice my sleep and worked like zombie that day. Memories...I can remember the headlines, but the details are getting blur. No matter how hard we try, they'll fade away eventually.

Anyway, my lazy days would be over soon. I think I'm gonna be assigned to a project (finally). Well...here's to my laziest time (to work)...lolzzz...


Nidji - Disco Lazy Time

Wake me up tonight
Drive me to the town… (aaa… aaa…)
Sleep with me tonight…
She’s my lonely wine… (aaa… aaa…)


(*)
Nothing is forever
Nothing is for real… (aaa… aaa…)
Do you have to leave me
Why don’t you just kill me… (aaa… aaa…)

If time… is the loneliest people
Then… life is the loneliest time…
If time… is the loneliest people life… a haa…


Reff:
This is disco laziest time
(I want you, I need you)
This is disco laziest time
(I want you, I need you)
Techno baby come around
(I want you, I need you)
This is disco loneliest time
(I want you, I need you now)


Back to: (*), Reff

(I want you, I need you)… (5x)

Weather Report

post #213

Finally arrived at office . It was quite a struggle to get here. That's an amazing thing in Jakarta. If rain fell hard and long, flood was a sure thing. Flood caused heavy traffic jam. The rain that has been falling from last nite (it's still raining in some parts of Jakarta) has caused lots of protocol road in Jakarta flooded.

Went to office today thinking it's just a drizzle. Wore my raincoat and rode Elisha. The first sign of bad traffic jam was in front of Artha Gadink Mall. Traffic was more congested than usual. Then in front of AHM - Cempaka Mas, the left side of the road was flooded, thus vehicles were struggling to get on the right side, causing the jam became worse.

I managed to safely pass that area, but when I reached the fly over, another congestion had awaited me. And.........it was caused by a deeper flood...Ermmmm..I was speechless I had this doubt. Should I force my way, or turn back. I decided to..banzaiiii.....I made my way to the busway (which was slightly higher) safely then continued my journey to office. That busway had it's advantage afterall. Or maybe because of the busway, the flood was worse than last year since some space had been taken?

Continuing to Pramuka road, rain was still falling....hard. At least the road was clear, no flood and no congestion. After an hour and half, I arrived at office. But my struggle was not over yet. The rain was still falling hard. Again since I didn't like to wait. I ran from the motorcycle parking lot to the building. A little drenched, but arrived safely.

I'm watching Metro News at the moment...the condition isn't getting better. Ermmmm... I have to wait and hope it'll get better in the afternoon so I can go home. Now...I'm gonna eat my lunch...over and out.