New Look

post #219


Notice anything different?
Some of my blog loyal reader said that the background was too soft, thus make it harder to read. So I decided to change the background, back to the original minima blue template. It was actually the original design a couple of months ago, but I found the sad eye background and used it instead. I like the sad, sentimental nuance it gave, though it created readability issue.

I wouldn't be satisfied only using the standard template, so I thought to add something to enhance the background. After searching for some times, I finally found what I was looking for. Spiderman emblem. The black spider, when Peter got his symbiotic suit. Spiderman has always been one of my fave superheroes. Peter was just an ordinary geek before he got his superpower. And Uncle Ben gave a very good advice for him, "With great power comes great responsibilities". The spiderman emblem turned out to be a perfect combination with the blue color, I might say.

Beside that, I removed sudoku for indefinite time due to color combination. Rearranged elements placement and added new widgets like Quote and Rating. The latter can be used to rate this blog :D. Still trying to add music player, but it seemed that I had to already have a playlist to be played so I postponed this one.

So here's to the new look of my blog. Thanks to all the readers who've given me many inputs.
New year, new look...no more sad eye....just blue...

Enrique Iglesias - Sad Eyes

Every day here you come walking
I hold my tongue,
I don`t do much talking
You say you`re happy and you`re doin` fine
Well go ahead, baby,
I got plenty of time
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie
Well for a while

I`ve been watching you steady
Ain`t gonna move `til you`re good and ready
You show up and then you shy away
But I know pretty soon you`ll be walkin` this way
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie
Baby don`t you know I don`t care
Don`t you know that i`ve been there
Well if something in the air feels a little unkind
Don`t worry darling, it`ll slip your mind
I know you think you`d never be mine
Well that`s okay, baby, I don`t mind
That shy smile`s sweet, that`s a fact
Go ahead,
I don`t mind the act
Here you come all dressed up for a date
Well one more step and it`ll be too late
Blue blue rib-bon in your hair
Like you`re so sure
I`ll be standing there
Sad eyes never lie
Sad

Blue blue ribbon in your hair
Like you`re so sure
I`ll be standing there
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie

Popular

post #218

How do I win a popular person's heart? No she does not hold 'celeb' title, but she's popular. Hmmmm....I guess that's the thing about liking a popular person. She's in the the spotlight for so long. Every guy in the whole world shower her with attention, adoration, and affection and me along with throng of those guys race, compete to get her attention, to get her notice (*hyperbolically speaking :D). The question is, how do I make myself stand out among the rest? How can I have her attention, to make her notice me? How do I impress her? It's like all that I do is not enough for her. And yet she's so mesmerizing I can't help to fall all over again, like a moth into a burning fire.

And.....once I have her attention, how do I keep it that way? There's a saying, it's easier to achieve something than to maintain it. When we're together and she's mine...what about the other 'loser' out there who'll try to 'steal' her from me. Yeah it may sound paranoid, but it can happen, right? Maybe I wouldn't need to have this insecurity if I win her heart, completely. Maybe if we really have the right chemistry. But how do I know that for sure?

And when we're on some rough path, there'd be lots of guys who willing to give their shoulder to cry on. Ermmm, could cause some distraction, temptation, and she might fall for it. Instead of trying to work it out, she might try to find some comfort elsewhere. Might...might...again it depends on her, her personality. I dunno, dunno how girls brain work.

Maybe far from the spotlight ice princess is better. But you never know till you try, right? Choices have to be made. Don't forget to be ready for the consequences.


*written from first person point of view


Tommy Page - I Break Down


I try to go on, I try to be strong
I try to be the one to stand tall
I try to impress you, try to make you think
nothing can hurt me, I can take it all

When the sky turns gray and the clouds bring thunder
I hold up a shelter for you to hide under
When the rain begins to fall
and my shelter hits the ground
then I'm the one
to break down

I break down

They say in this world to make it you've got to be strong
Day after day, it gets harder to hold on
But sometimes I get sad
and my smiles turn to frowns
then it's my turn
to break down

I break down

When you reach out and cry to me
oh I hold on internally
But sometimes I get sad
and my smiles turn to frowns
then I'm the one
I break down

When the sky turns gray and the clouds bring thunder
I hold up a shelter for you to hide under
(for you to hide under)
I break down
I break down
I break down
I break down
I break down
Now I'm the one
I break down
I break down
I break down

When the sky turns gray and the clouds bring thunder
I hold up a shelter for you to hide under
(for you to hide under)
I break down
I break down
I break down
I break down
I break down
break

(Do) I Want You

post #217

I wanted you. I will want you...I want you...I think I want you...I guess I want you...I'm not so sure I want you...Did I want you? Do I want you? Have I wanted you? Have I been wanting you? Should I want you? Why do I want you? How (bad) do I want you?

But I don't know if I need you.

So can we find out?


Savage Garden - I Want You

Anytime I need to see your face
I just close my eyes
And I am taken to a place where your crystal mind and
Magenta feelings take up shelter in the base of my spine
Sweet like a chicka cherry cola

I don't need to try to explain;
I just hold on tight
And If it happens again, I might move so slightly
To the arms and the lips and the face of the human cannonball
That I need to, I want to

Come Stand a little bit closer
Breathe in and get a bit higher
You'll never know what hit you
When I get to you

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh I'd die to find out

I'm the kind of person who endorses a deep commitment
Getting comfy getting perfect is what I live for
But a look, and then a smell of perfume
It's like I'm down on the floor
And I Don't know what I'm in for

Conversation has a time and place
In the interaction of a lover and a mate,
But the time of talking, using symbols, using words
Can be likened to a deep sea diver who is swimming with a raincoat

Come stand a little bit closer
Breathe in and get a bit higher
You'll never know what hit you
When I get to you

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh I'd die to find out

Oooooh yeah, oooh yeah

Anytime I need to see your face
I just close my eyes
And I am taken to a place where your crystal mind and
Magenta feelings take up shelter in the base of my spine
Sweet like a chicka cherry cola

I don't need to try to explain;
I just hold on tight
And If it happens again, I might move so slightly
To the arms and the lips and the face of the human cannonball
That I need to, I want to

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh I'd die to find out

So can we find out?

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh I'd die to find out

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out (I got to find out)
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you (ooh can we find out)
But, ooh I'd die to find out

Force Majeure

post #216

Just watched The Unit season 2 episode 5 title Force Majeure. Guess what, the mission was about rescuing a general from a hospital in stormy weather. The street was flooded, rain was falling heavily and hurricane was about to come. The same thing happened in real life yesterday (ok, minus the hurricane). The different was, can yesterday condition in Jakarta considered as force majeure?

Let see. The definition of Force Majeure itself is …. In the unit, the rain storm was depicted well that it was out of hand. There’s even evacuation center. Not to mention the hurricane that was coming. What happened in Jakarta yesterday was (imo) lighter than that. It surely cannot be considered force majeure. It only rained from Thursday nite till Friday afternoon. The intensity varied, it didn’t always rain hard, but still flood was everywhere. Bad drainage was accused to be the source of this ‘force majeure’. If that so, why can’t it be improved? Can’t it be fixed? What about the missing swamp and open spaces that used to be water conservation area? They were replaced by concrete jungle named malls, town centers, junctions, etc. *sigh… so many whys…

Anyway, I think this time last year I also stayed at home, trapped by (the annual) flood. And just like last year, I’m listening to Eric – Hanya Bermodal Cinta. It’s been a while since I last heard this song. It’s still enjoyable, the melody, the lyric… “Maafkanlah sayang bila kau tak berkenan, mungkin aku hanya lelaki hina…Bermodalkan cinta tulus, kesetiaan kepadamu” *chuckles

Well, that’s all. Just had this urge to write, thanks to The Unit – Force Majeure. We have to think positive in this matter. Look at the bright side, we can ask for permission not to go to work using this excuse : ‘due to hard rain that had been falling since last nite’ lolzzzz

Black Friday

post #215

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh *screaming with frustration. I thought my struggle to get to the office was hard enough, but I was wrong...so wrong. The journey back home was wayyyy tougher than I'd imagined. The road along Thamrin and Djuanda was clear; wet, but clear. The first sign of the misery that lied ahead was at Angkasa traffic light. Lots of people waiting for public transportation. There were some people who walked. But I thought, what the heck.

The underpass in front of Golden Hotel was dry, ermmm...good sign I thought. Kemayoran still looked okay. The misery started at Danau Sunter Selatan. Before Sun Lake hotel, the water was high...about 15-20 cm...But I still kept on going, cautiously. I made it till the traffic light. As I looked to the left, my usual route...it looked rather unconvincing. No vehicles went through there and it was dark, so I decided to go around from bypass, in front of Artha Gading Mall. It was a decision later on proved a big mistake. Drove Elisha carefully and slowly, I got to the front of Mitra Sunter apartment. There was a little water that reached almost 40cm I think. Ermmm...Elisha's muffler would surely drowned...I took the risk and safely got through that test. Arrived in front of Graha Kirana, lied a view that struck horror into me.

Dark and gloomy...plus high water awaited in front of Artha Gadink. It took a few minutes for me to decide. Since I couldn't think of better alternative, I went on. Elisha was struggling hard too. She really put a fight there. But the more I went on, the higher the water was. I kept on going, the water reached almost to my thighs. I didn't care about the fact that my pants were already soaked wet. But Elisha had her limit. Near Isuzu, she collapsed. Her engine died. I screamed (silently of course) NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did the only thing I could, walk her. There I was, about 4sth km from home, pants soaked up, shirt's wet because of sweating, cold, hungry. And to add it up, I was bringing my laptop. That's additional 3kgs to bear while I walk Elisha. Just swell I thought. The thing that bothered me was how to fix her. So I walked, fast paced, determined to get home asap, after all, it's only 4 km, right? :D

As I walked, I saw lots of motorcycles that experienced the same thing like Elisha. So many people there. Cars didn't move. It's a deadlock. I kept on walking. Why??? Why did I force my way? Why did this happen to Elisha?? (I saw there were few motorcycles that survived the killing field in front of Artha Gadink) Then I remembered, no use to complain. It's my decision, I had to face the consequences, no matter how bad they were. Beside... BJ Thomas' song reminded me too..."Cause I’m never gonna stop the rain by complainin"

I kept walking, ignoring the cold and the hunger that started to creep in me. The road was clear. Wet, but there's no water whatsoever. If only Elisha had survived the killing field. I shrugged this thought and quickly considering some plans to fix Elisha. After walking for about 2-3 km, my eyes were set on a motorcycles workshop. There were three motorcycles being repaired. I was sure they had the same condition like Elisha. So I decided to fix Elisha asap. I walk her there. It was 8sth PM. It'd been two hours since I went back from office. It's surely the longest two hour home journey. Short story, Elisha was revived. It's such a relief. Yeah my baby's back in action. I paid the service free and drove Elisha home.

And that, is a wrap up of this black..black Friday. Hopefully it's the first and the last.

Epilogue:
Writing this blog while managing to chat with some people simultaneously. It feels better to talk to someone, to share the bad experience. Helps to make me feel better...maybe because I dump that emotions to others....Anw...my eyes are getting heavier. I think I'm gonna head to sleep now.

*originally finish at 12.38 AM, but for the sake of post title, some adjustment have been made

(Disco) Lazy Time

post #214

January passed in a blink of an eye. New month introduced itself with heavy rain. Since few weeks ago, I've been listening to Nidji - Disco Lazy Time. It's from their first album, dunno why I just started to listen it lately. The first song from Nidji that I like was Hapus Aku. Yeah I have this thing with mellow n broken heart songs, dunno why. It was back in mid 2006 when I first heard Hapus Aku. I was assigned at PLN at the time and one thing I remember vividly, Italy won the World Cup for the 4th time. Though I had to sacrifice my sleep and worked like zombie that day. Memories...I can remember the headlines, but the details are getting blur. No matter how hard we try, they'll fade away eventually.

Anyway, my lazy days would be over soon. I think I'm gonna be assigned to a project (finally). Well...here's to my laziest time (to work)...lolzzz...


Nidji - Disco Lazy Time

Wake me up tonight
Drive me to the town… (aaa… aaa…)
Sleep with me tonight…
She’s my lonely wine… (aaa… aaa…)


(*)
Nothing is forever
Nothing is for real… (aaa… aaa…)
Do you have to leave me
Why don’t you just kill me… (aaa… aaa…)

If time… is the loneliest people
Then… life is the loneliest time…
If time… is the loneliest people life… a haa…


Reff:
This is disco laziest time
(I want you, I need you)
This is disco laziest time
(I want you, I need you)
Techno baby come around
(I want you, I need you)
This is disco loneliest time
(I want you, I need you now)


Back to: (*), Reff

(I want you, I need you)… (5x)

Weather Report

post #213

Finally arrived at office . It was quite a struggle to get here. That's an amazing thing in Jakarta. If rain fell hard and long, flood was a sure thing. Flood caused heavy traffic jam. The rain that has been falling from last nite (it's still raining in some parts of Jakarta) has caused lots of protocol road in Jakarta flooded.

Went to office today thinking it's just a drizzle. Wore my raincoat and rode Elisha. The first sign of bad traffic jam was in front of Artha Gadink Mall. Traffic was more congested than usual. Then in front of AHM - Cempaka Mas, the left side of the road was flooded, thus vehicles were struggling to get on the right side, causing the jam became worse.

I managed to safely pass that area, but when I reached the fly over, another congestion had awaited me. And.........it was caused by a deeper flood...Ermmmm..I was speechless I had this doubt. Should I force my way, or turn back. I decided to..banzaiiii.....I made my way to the busway (which was slightly higher) safely then continued my journey to office. That busway had it's advantage afterall. Or maybe because of the busway, the flood was worse than last year since some space had been taken?

Continuing to Pramuka road, rain was still falling....hard. At least the road was clear, no flood and no congestion. After an hour and half, I arrived at office. But my struggle was not over yet. The rain was still falling hard. Again since I didn't like to wait. I ran from the motorcycle parking lot to the building. A little drenched, but arrived safely.

I'm watching Metro News at the moment...the condition isn't getting better. Ermmmm... I have to wait and hope it'll get better in the afternoon so I can go home. Now...I'm gonna eat my lunch...over and out.